I Said Goodbye But I Never Left

“FUCK YOU!!” I scream and throw your teddy bear across the room, something falls, something breaks. I don’t care, I love you. I can’t even say I loved you, I probably always will. I just left someone because I’m still too broken over you. My love life is ruined because nobody is going to be you. And I hate it, I hate you for it.

My Hearts Thoughts

Don’t love me because I love you. Love me because you love me. That’s what I deserve.

tg-phantom  (via wnq-writers)

When I asked you if you loved me for me or for loving you, you said you loved me for me,. When I stopped letting you walk on me, you stopped loving me. Does that mean you lied?

“My friends had always warned me about boys with that mad glint in their eyes, but this was exactly what drew me in. Your passion. The fire that sparked underneath your skin when you talked about something you loved. Your desire to explore, to see as much of this world as you could. To be free, in a way. To escape. It was contagious and intoxicating. I got high on your view of the world and drunk on your stories. But I’d known what you were all along. You were a liar, just like me. It takes one to know one. But what has knowing a punch was about to be thrown ever done to soften the blow? It doesn’t make goodbye any easier to bear. I saw it coming from miles away and it still hurt. It’s funny, isn’t it? How we’re told things aren’t good for us and we still give them a go, because sometimes our hope and our wish to prove everyone wrong outweigh caution. And sometimes going the wrong way is the right thing to do, because we learn to open our eyes to what we could not see before.”

— right mistakes / n.j.

“Oh darling, do u remember when it was just us, stranded in the middle of our love in an "empty” hallway? I got so stuck on asking why that my heart stopped for a second when I realised you were looking me deep in the eyes repeating, “I love you more”, I’ll never forget. Do u remember under the stairs, our lips collided into a bliss I never thought existed. You held me securely, your kisses have always been soft, honest yet never shy. I looked up at you with wondering eyes, “your everything to me” I said, I’ll never go back on those words. You put your forhead to mine and said, “your mine” I’ll never forget. Now I’m laying here in bed, in between our memories, missing you. Our story will always be my favorite, no matter how troubled it gets. I’ll always love you with a burning passion, a calming completeness, I promise, I’ll never forget.“

Stardizzydreamer on tumblr aka. Star.sebstan on IG

"I don't want to love you anymore. I left because I was tired, loving you hurts and stresses me out, please let me forget you. Please, it hurts."

-my hearts thoughts

I believe in everything until it’s disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it’s in your mind. Who’s to say that dreams and nightmares aren’t as real as the here and now?

John Lennon (via lifeofquotations)

listen

I'm so scared, I think too much, or not enough. (There's no in between)

-my hearts thoughts

"Oh you,

It's 2 am and all I can think about is how much I want you to kiss me with so much correspondence that my lungs forget to breathe.

I want to fall apart and let you understand. You could, I can see it in the compassion and life in your eyes.

At times, theres nothing in my mind but your eyes and your voice. I cannot think around you, I don't even want to, I just want to feel the way I do when you look at me, always.

It hurts, because she has you, and the way she loves you is not enough somehow. I wish she loved you more so I could let go in peace. I wish she loved you less so this story had a villain.

Yet there she stands, with you tethered to her on the crown of your love upon her head. I've never wanted to hold onto pain like this before.

Oh you, I like your nature."

My Heart's Thoughts

I'd prefer to be your Persephone, always returning and yours to love with a love caused by who I am rather than to be your Aphrodite, to be loved for my body, for something as shallow, empty, and temporary as a physical state.

I’d rather have a Hades in my life than a Zeus. There’s something far more appealing in a man who is as dark as the night sky but loyal, as opposed to a man who is brighter than the sun but has a dishonest heart.

- Nievana Judisthir

"If I could have anything, I'd choose to give, give myself to you. Now. Then. Always."

- My Heart's Thoughts