“We Cannot Live In A World That Is Interpreted For Us By Others. An Interpreted World Is Not A Home.

“It was an act of self-preservation — however misguided it was”.

Nha Fala (2002)

I honestly have no aspirations anymore other than i want to be able to do my silly little hobbies, treat myself every now and then and love my friends and my cats

sorry but I am not subscribing to our society's disgusting obsession with youth. when I turn 30 I'm going to be really happy and throw a party and be elated at how much I will have grown by then, the same way I did when I turned 10 and celebrated finally being 'double digits'. When I turn 40 I will be ecstatic. There are good and bad things about every age but there is no way my 20s are going to be the best years of my life because I am still barely getting to know myself. By 30 I hope to be very well-acquainted

The Book of Forbidden Knowledge, No. 1643

obsessed with her vibe

it’s easier to hold onto bad habits if you are ashamed of them constantly repeating the same pattern over and over again. I’m not exactly sure why, my guess is it’s because that poor self image convinces you that you deserve to live that way. But once you forgive yourself for it and hold genuine compassion for your choices your grip can finally loosen.

You know when you’re on self destruction day 8 and it gets so fucking boring it’s almost unreal how boring it becomes honestly…. It used to feel so naughty and clandestine and now it’s like….. 👍🏽 Cool tomorrow let’s go on a nice two hour walk get our mind right deep clean house grocery shop listen to sweet affirmations read exfoliate play instrumentals in the kitchen while we cook. And it’s not like a desperate plan it’s just like it’s actually more exciting to live the Other Way. Even if it doesn’t answer every existential qualm I have at once it makes it all nicer. I want to swim and suntan. I want to restock my mango kefir