Warnings/Mentions: History of abuse, neglect, strong language, mentions of character death, alcohol and drug abuse, ptsd, shared trauma, reader is cold, angst, fluff, eventual smut, slowburn, angst
Summary: You and Daryl grow closer due to feeling out of place in Alexandria. Just when you think you have the old Daryl back, he leaves.
Notes: I think the chapter after this one will be the last chapter, and finally have some cheesy old fashion love making :D Sorry Daryl vanishes at the end tho ):
It never seemed to end for him. In front of everyone else he was silent, emotionless, an empty body on autopilot. But when you'd walk off into the trees to search for water, it always hit him, no matter how many times he'd thought he'd cried out all out and was done with it.
He clung to you after her death like never before, constantly walking in your shadow and wordlessly begging for some sort of comfort, reassurance, anything. You did the best you could, which ended up being more than either of you expected. You seamlessly morphed into the familiar elder sister role, mirroring the ways you would comfort your bruised baby brother.
He put a cigarette out on his hand the one time he went off by himself, and not following him was something you came to regret.
“Daryl,” the whisper of your voice had him cringing, the sound too empathetic and full of concern, he had to fight to keep himself from cracking when your comfort washed over him.
“I know… I'm not good with words, or shit like this.” You sighed, maintaining a quiet tone, low enough for the sound of rain and the crackle of fire to cover.
Daryl remained silent as you spoke. He picked at the skin around his fingers, looking down at his hands in his lap, and the sight of your smaller hand lightly touching his wrist makes him jerk.
“I can't take away your pain, God knows I'd kill every goddamn piece of shit alive to make you feel better.” Your voice turned shaky, and the urge to cry was becoming overwhelming for the both of you. “But... I can promise you, you'll never have to worry about losing me. I just want you to know, I'm that one thing you don't need to worry about. I always will be.”
Daryl slowly inhaled through his stuffy nose and nodded, the noise dry and shaky, his eyes burning and unblinking from their gaze on your hand.
“I know.” He finally spoke and nodded again, as if that would magically set it in stone. “Me too.”
Slipping back into your place in the group dynamic was unpleasant after being alone with Gabriel for that long. It wasn't just one person you had to make an effort for anymore, and deep down you despised it. It was almost comparable to going back to school after summer break. You had to play by the rules again, fit into their perfect perception or risk repercussions.
The discovery of Eugenes lies was all but a surprise to you. You didn't have some wild sense of intuition, you were just a pessimistic person. Although you kept your opinions to yourself, you didn't predict the extent of how deep his lies had been. The cure was a given, obviously, but the fact he lied about being a scientist as well? Lied about the safe place in Washington too? It took everything you had in you not to cave his face in when you saw the look of disappointment on Daryl's face. That's another reason why you hated being in a group. People didn't deserve to be able to let you down, and sure as hell not the one person you gave a shit about.
People love to parrot that same ‘it has to get worse before it can get better’ bullshit you'd been told by concerned and empathetic authority figures all throughout your childhood. Safe to say it had lost its meaning to you, even when Daryl tried to lift your spirits.
Well, it sure got better for everyone else.
You weren't alone in your suspicions about Aaron. For once Rick and you agreed on something, it was a bad idea to go to Alexandria. But the group convinced him to take a chance, that the rewards greatly outweigh the risks, and you watched with a disapproving glare as Aaron led you all past the gates.
“I'm just going to ask you a few simple questions, get to know you. You don't mind if I record this, do you?”
You had a feeling your answer wouldn't make any difference, no matter what you said. You shook your head as you watched Deanna turn her video camera on, the big black lens feeling like an intimidating pit waiting to swallow you up if you gave an answer she didn't like. She rounded the couch and sat down, a tight and professional smile on her lips.
“Let's start with your name.”
You told her your name, trying to behave despite your stomach growling and the sudden awareness that you smelled and looked awful.
“Where are you from,” She repeated your name.
“Georgia. Up North.”
“Did you work?”
“No.”
“What were you before the outbreak?” When you didn't answer, she elaborated. “Were you a student in school, staying at home, traveling…?”
“After high school I stayed home for a couple years. Took care of my mom.”
“I understand you're close with Daryl, is that right?”
You must've visibly reacted to that question, because even after you answered, she pressed for more information.
“Did you grow up together?”
“Kind of, we weren't really friends or anything. He lived nearby and I'd see him around.”
Deanna nodded as if she was your therapist listening to some deep-seated trauma.
“Did you ask anyone else these questions?” You scratched the back of your arm, beginning to feel uncomfortable.
“I ask everyone all kinds of questions. I want to get to know you all, it's not an interrogation. You don't need to answer any that you don't want to.”
She finally changed the subject to your relationship with Rick's group. Not that you were eager to talk about it, but at least she wasn't grilling you on Daryl anymore.
“I've been here since before Rick came and took over. Back in Atlanta. Daryl and his brother Merle came to get me when it happened. I thought maybe they were having some bad trip or somethin'. Ran into my house yelling about dead folks coming back to life and eating people. If it wasn't for them, I'd probably be dead too, but, I think they mainly came to get me because they knew my mom had a stash of cigarettes and drugs.” You were chuckling as you spoke, not realizing you had given up so much information without her even asking. You instantly shut up, the amused smile leaving your face.
“How do you get along with other members of your group?”
You cringed at the phrasing. They weren't your group, they were Daryl's people, you were just a temporary guest without a set time to leave.
“Fine. Haven't heard any complaints. Have you?”
“No. But I have heard you don't work well with others.”
You shrugged.
“Do you want to be here?” The way she would use your name at the end of every few sentences was starting to get under your skin.
“I'm kinda stuck with wherever Daryl wants to be.”
Deanna ended the interview after a handful of other unimportant questions and you were allowed to leave, led to your new house by one of her son's.
You took the longest and hottest shower of your life, only getting out when Abraham started pounding on the door. It brought back that same feeling of anxiety you'd get when your mother would bang on your locked door in a fit of anger. You nearly ran him over when you burst out of the bathroom, making him drop his change of clothes and call out a disgruntled complaint.
“Who the hell is this?”
Daryl looked up from his bag to see you looking down at him, a teasing grin on your fresh face. The image of you being all cleaned up had him momentarily stunned. It had been a while since either of you had seen each other clean like that.
“Daryl? No way, where's your grease?” You toyed with his damp hair before sitting next to him on the floor near the fireplace, where he'd decided to sleep for the night.
“Nah, I don't know you. Ya don't smell like bloody rabbits.” He retorted, leaning in to dramatically sniff at you. “The hell is that? Shampoo?”
“Uh, it's shampoo, conditioner, body wash, lotion, and toothpaste.” You replied, giving an exaggerated smile to show your clean teeth.
You shared a few chuckles and jokes as the rest of the group cleaned up and prepared for bed. Even though you couldn't stand the place or the new people in it, the prospect of having your own room with an actual bed had you buzzing with excitement.
Sleeping next to Daryl wasn't anything out of the ordinary for you. It was an arrangement that happened more nights than not. But sleeping next to Daryl in a safe house, wrapped in clean clothes, soft blankets, and not even the slightest whiff of the outdoors? It was overwhelming.
You turned on your side to face him, watching as he stared up at the ceiling, the dark room filled with the familiar ambiance of gentle snoring and breathing. Daryl always slept after everyone else, and that night was no exception.
Despite your instincts telling you not to, you wiggled on the blanket to move closer to him, nuzzling your face in his nearly dry hair, closing your eyes as you inhaled his clean scent.
He stiffened at first, an automatic reaction which soon faded and he relaxed, tilting his head until his cheek rested against your forehead. He could barely feel the warm tickle of your breath under his jaw, the feeling soliciting a subliminal relaxation. His eyes closed then, and he listened to the barely audible whistle of your nose. He listened as the whistle got softer, slower, and nearly disappeared altogether as you fell asleep.
Daryl made sure to untangle himself from you the next morning, before anyone else had the chance to wake up and witness your private bond. No one deserved to see that part of him or you, it was intended for the two of you alone, something deeper and more personal than anyone would understand.
Adjusting to being around people was a challenge that went all the way back to school. Even in Atlanta you struggled with it, going from being a hermit with your sick mother to an adult in a large group of people, it felt like your first day of school all over again.
That was all nothing compared to being in Alexandria. Not only were you surrounded by people that annoyed you, but another larger group of people you knew absolutely nothing about.
They bestowed heavy responsibilities on you as well. It wasn't just scraping by washing clothes and hunting, it was work. Hard work. Wall building, gardening, work inside Alexandria, work outside their walls, near constant supply runs, and cooking.
Parties. Pasta for dinner. A seemingly limitless flow of sparkling amber champagne. Some kid was walking their fucking pet dog on the sidewalk.
It felt insulting. Their first impression on you firmly implemented your personal views towards them. Spoiled, weak, wearing faces of false persona, wives chittering like hens with warm knowing smirks. Husbands and men who always smiled like the sun, going out of their way to do things they considered nice for you, then putting on a somber and humble face if anyone had praised their hard work, dedication, and sacrifices. Sacrifices that basically ensued going to the grocery store.
You hated it. You hated them, you hated their kids, you hated their houses that looked like mansions to you, and you hated the way Rick's group treated it like they'd walked through the bright pearly gates and not the glorified pretentious prison that it was.
To your relief Daryl didn't quite like it either.
“They invited us to what?” You didn't believe him when he said it to you as he stared around your new room.
“Said it was a welcoming party.” He grunted, fingers picking at the edges of a tacky poster of a puppy on the wall.
“A party? What do you mean a party?”
“Dunno.” He sighed, throwing his hands up in muted exasperation. “S’jus what she said.” She being Deanna, the same woman who took away your guns, which yours had grown to be quite the impressive collection. But you being your hardened and sneaky self, you'd managed to smuggle two of your handguns into your room. Daryl got to keep his crossbow, of course, and you your own recurve bow, it was the bare minimum aside from your knives, which the others were allowed to keep as well. Sadly, you'd end up breaking that bow a few days later by slinging it at Pete's head.
“And everyone's going?” You pressed on from your seat on the bedroom dresser.
“Dunno. Goddamn, told you what she told me, you know s’much as I do.”
You went to the party. Of fucking course you would, they had full on meals with all the food groups, they had alcohol, they had little appetizers and finger foods you'd only ever seen on tv and in magazines, you'd be an idiot not to. The only con was the house was stuffed with people. You could barely make it two steps without bumping into a new face.
You didn't stay long at all, leaving the second your stomach felt full, and you had a decent buzz going on. You snuck out the back door and snagged the half empty bottle of champagne on your way out.
“Ya went?” Daryl was surprised to see you walking down the sidewalk in new clothes. The black button up hung a little loose on you, the sleeves bunched up around your elbows, the hem falling all the way past your ass.
“I may not like those people, but they make some damn good casserole.” You snickered, popping out the metal reusable cork and taking a deep drink.
Daryl grabbed the bottle from your outstretched hand and downed nearly the whole damn thing in three gulps.
“Yeah yeah. Go on, help yourself.”
He gave a weak grin at your playful scoff before handing the bottle back to you.
“You remember what I said back in Atlanta.”
You looked to your side at Daryl as the two of you walked down the dimly lit path back to your new residence. “Gotta be more specific.”
“Bout takin’ their shit an’ hauling ass outta there.”
“Yeah. One of my biggest regrets is talking you out of it.” You sighed, your tone no longer playful and lighthearted. “We could be all the way across the country by now. Would still have Merle bitching out ears off and ranting about some racist conspiracy theory.”
Daryl suddenly chuckled. “You ‘member that time he was tryin’ to come up with slurs for walkers?” His amused grin spread further when you erupted into laughter at the memory. “What was it he called ‘em? Rotters? Pus-suckers?”
“Yeah, those were some of the tamer ones.” At the time you'd been annoyed by Merle's constant need to remind you that the three of you were better and more superior than anything and anyone around you, but all this time without him and his humorous outlook on life, you missed it. You even missed when he'd belittle you, at the end of the day he still was sexist, despite the obvious care he held for you.
“Why'd you ask though?”
“Dunno.”
“Daryl.”
“Everyone's safe now, ain't gotta worry about ‘em anymore.”
You kept quiet as he fought for the words to convey his thoughts. It was obvious he felt like the odd man out again, it was impossible not to, in a place as nice as Alexandria. The rest of the group had effortlessly slipped into their places in the new environment, if you were an onlooker, it would look as if time had frozen in place for the small neighborhood and its citizens.
But Daryl, and you, it wasn't easy like that. You never had a normal life like this, so you had no default state to regress to. Daryl had only changed a little since the start, and you hadn't changed much at all. Your skin felt like it was burning with electricity at the insinuation in his words.
“I'll go wherever you go, you know that.” You nodded firmly. “Just say the word.”
He ended up going to Carol with his vague plan, and then Rick. You don't know what they said to him, but the next morning he told you he wanted to give it a few days before he made his decision.
You should've just made the decision for him. You should have grabbed your stuff, packed your bags, and stole one of their cars and left. Because a few days turned into a hell of a lot longer.
It wasn't all bad, the two of you grew even closer due to his feelings of being an outcast once again surfacing. It was the same for you, which caused you to cling onto him tighter than before. You slept on the same ratty mattress in your room, sometimes cuddling, but most of the time on separate ends.
You watched more people die around you, which was something you'd become bitterly accustomed to. Aiden, one of Deanna’s sons, and Noah, who you'd never spoken to before. Rick made some trouble for himself getting wrapped up in the wife of the town surgeon, and all hell broke loose after that. Pete lost his shit and accidentally killed Deanna's husband, and Rick killed Pete. As if there hadn't been enough blood shed, a hoard of walkers became an issue just as things started to calm down.
You didn't like the role that'd been assigned to you. You were being seen and tasked as a protector, sent out by Rick with Abraham and a handful of others to build strategic walls for his master plan of relocating the hoard.
Another thing you didn't like was the way people's views towards you changed. People who once never even spared you a second thought were speaking to you, making an effort to get to know you, and it was just as unsettling as that time Rick invited you over for dinner.
“Too pretty to be so sad all the time.” Abraham had said once as you dug a hole for the wooden pillar.
“I'm not sad.” You muttered, stepping back as three men lifted the wood into the hole. You poured in the instant concrete and took your gloves off to get a drink of water.
“So you just always have that sour look on your face then, huh?”
“Only when I'm around people I don't know.” Or like, you thought to yourself.
“I've known you for how long now? Course you know me. And Sasha, and Rosita, and-”
“You're people I'm stuck with. Doesn't mean I know you.”
“Tsh.” He snorted, folding his massive arms across his equally massive chest. “So you're just a bitch then?”
“Yeah.”
One would think that conversation would've been enough to get the point across. No, sadly, it only made things worse. Rick ended up giving you jobs with more people, and you quickly caught onto the convenient way Daryl was almost never in those assigned groups.
Rick was in charge, that was undebatable, but he wasn't in charge of your free will. You did your work as he asked, most of the time faster than expected, and spent every second of your free time with Daryl, even if it meant pulling four different jobs a day.
It worked like that for a while, and eventually you did begin to change. Not you exactly, moreso your attitude had changed. You became less closed off, no longer baring teeth and claws as a constant warning. You actually enjoyed spending time with Abraham, as he was one of the only people that called you out for being shitty, he wasn't scared of your mean mug or the harsh bite of your words. It wasn't just Abraham you started to like. Maggie, Carol, Rosita, Michonne, and sometimes Tara, the small group shifted from strangers to acquaintances, some would call you their friend. They'd eventually worn down your hard exterior and you experimented a little with conversation and generosity. Carol was the exception, it was you who had to pursue her. Trying to become genuine friends with her was hard, it made you realize how hard everyone else had been trying with you.
You even started decorating your room a bit. Nothing fancy, just a few homemade shelves and displays for your numerous weapons. You made a special one above your futon, the only object it held was the small gold tinted shell of a used bullet.
All good things must come to an end.
You sat alone in your shared room for the third night in a row, silent on your lumpy mattress, your eyes burning in effort to hold back tears.
He hadn't even told you he was leaving.
@ophelialaufey @carlgrimesgfofficial @theskinniestjackson-denny @dilfish-daydreams @my1fx @jinx-nanami
(Pic from fitjackets)
Warnings/Mentions: Unprotected sex, extreme aphrodisiac, rushed sex, creampies, uncomfortable wetness at end
Summary: Daryl is accidentally exposed to an experimental extreme aphrodisiac while on a run. He tries to hold himself back, but eventually gives in and begs the reader to help him.
Notes: Chat what I gotta do to get this 🙏 God I hope I fixed all the typos
It happened fast. You almost didn't see it. A quick glimmer of clear liquid splashing on the archer after he backed right into a shelf, sending broken shards of glass clattering across the tile floor. Multiple other bottles fell alongside him. He barely managed to avoid any of those busting on his head.
“Jesus, you okay?” Andrea was looking him over despite his aggressive insistence that he was fine.
“We need to split up.” Rick decided after pacing around the room with his hands on his hips.
“This place is huge man. There's no way-”
Rick cut Shane off. “Exactly why we need to split up. Daryl, how's your leg?”
You straightened your back out after finally catching your breath. Daryl’s leg wasn't in the best shape, he'd twisted his ankle after missing a step on the staircase.
Going to another government facility after the CDC incident wasn't the best idea Rick had come up with. The area of the building you were in appeared to be some sort of pharmaceutical manufacturer, judging by the rooms you'd gone through holding lab coats and shelves of all sorts of different pills. The room you were currently using as a safe room had several shelves of glass bottles, and Daryl had just gotten god knows what spilled all over his skin.
“S'fine. Nothin' I ain't never dealt with.” Daryl tried to prove his point by pushing himself off the wall he leaned on, but the stumble and grimace on his face proved otherwise.
Shane rolled his eyes and groaned, hands reaching up to hold the back of his head. “Alright. Alright. Rick. C'mere.”
The two of them had a quiet discussion near the exit of the room, Shane glancing over at Daryl several times. You tried not to stare at them as they spoke, forcing yourself to look at Daryl instead.
He didn't look too hot. He was leaning against the counter now, palms on the surface behind him and his twisted ankle resting limply on the floor. His face looked red, and the longer you watched him, the more you swore you could see about a million different expressions on his face.
His eyes flashed up and caught you staring. Your heart dropped ten stories and you quickly looked away with burning cheeks. You could feel him staring you down for a few long seconds before he finally looked away.
“Here's the plan.” Rick waved everyone over. “You four are gonna clear a way back to the ground floor. You two, take the top floor and do a quick sweep, just in case there's something useful. Daryl, you're gonna stay here until we come back to get you.”
You chewed on the inside of your cheek as you watched Daryl immediately argue. It lasted a while, to your surprise, until eventually Rick shut him up with a good ole “you'll just slow us down, we need to get back to the folks on the highway”, and they left.
You'd chosen to stay behind with Daryl, for obvious reasons. One, you really liked the guy and wanted to make sure he wouldn't die to some lab made poison, and two, you wanted to be able to help if walkers got in the room and there were too many for him to take care of with his crossbow.
“Your skin isn't melting yet, so that's good.” You chuckled as you squatted next to the shards of broken glass that he busted. You picked at the pieces carefully, eventually finding a chunk with the label still on.
“Wha’s it say?” He grunted from his spot. He was sitting on a counter near the door you'd come in, fiddling with his crossbow, loading and unloading the same bolt.
He was clearly very uncomfortable, frequently shifting around and making faces.
“Uhhh…” you squinted at the label. Whatever liquid inside the bottle had caused the ink to smudge, but you wouldn't have been able to understand it either way. “I don't know. I think it's in French.”
“Look over there.” You glanced at Daryl as he spoke, seeing him tip his head towards the back door of the room where the others had left. “Saw a few journals on that table. Might be somethin’ in there.”
“Okay. Cross your fingers there's an antidote or something.” You crossed your own fingers and stood up.
Deciding to start with the journal on top, you flipped through the pages. They were all in English, thankfully. Most of the information was on things you knew nothing about, and it felt like you might as well have been reading French. You got through ten papers when you heard Daryl let out a groan.
Thinking he was in pain, you dropped the journal back on the table and rushed to his side. He was propped up against the counter now, no longer sitting on it, biting his bottom lip.
“Are you okay?” You reached out for his shoulder and he slunk away from you. It was like touching a dog that had been beaten its whole life. “What's going on, talk to me.”
Daryl shook his head and swallowed another groan. “Nothin'. M'fine.” He said after a moment, and straightened himself out. “S'fine. Keep lookin'.”
“Are you sure?” You didn't want to push it, but if he was beginning to feel side effects from whatever it was that spilled on him, you needed to know.
“Yeah. Go on.” He tipped his head towards the table again and you nodded, watching him for a few seconds before going back to searching.
After a while, maybe four minutes, Daryl sat down on the floor in front of his counter. He'd let out occasional whimpers, clearing his throat after every one as if he was embarrassed.
Worry was eating away at you at this point, and your eyes scanned across the pages as fast as possible. Finally, your eyes landed upon the familiar French words. Your heart rate quickened and you forced yourself to read even faster, your eyes catching the words “pheromones”, “aphrodisiac”, and “primitive and primal behavior”.
Glancing over at Daryl on the floor, you nearly gasped when you saw him.
He had a thin sheen of sweat on his face, his bottom lip swollen from him biting and chewing on it. His eyes looked foggy, and he was struggling to keep them open. There was also a very noticable bulge in his pants, one that he was trying his damnedest to keep his hands off of.
You found yourself asking why the fuck someone would make something like this as you flipped the page. It seemed like some sort of experimental drug, something to boost sex drive in men and women, but according to the notes you read, the effects were much more intense than planned.
There'd only been three tests done before the outbreak happened, and they were only done on women.
‘When exposed to the mixture, females initially had no response. Amount of exposure seems to have no significance. No response until ten minutes, first reactions include sensitivity to genitals and sweating.’
You swallowed hard and looked back to Daryl. His eyes were closed now, and his breathing had become much more noticeable, his chests rising and falling with heavy breaths.
‘After five minutes, subjects begin to make noises of discomfort, having to sit or lie down. Ten minutes after the initial complaints, subjects are unable to keep their hands off themselves, having to stroke and rub their arms, legs, and stomach. Shortly after this touching begins, it deviates to self pleasure. The drug wears off after three orgasms for females.’
At the end of the notes, there was a final bullet. ‘Will test on males next week and record results.’
You pursed your lips and looked over at Daryl again. He looked miserable. How long had it been since he started whining? He was clenching his fists and letting out quiet grunts, shifting uncomfortably on the ground.
You picked up the journal and walked over to him, taking long but quiet steps, not wanting to startle him. His eyes were still closed when you were only a few feet in front of him.
“I have good news.” You started.
At the sound of your voice Daryl forced his eyes open and looked up at you, his pupils blown and his cheeks red. His eyes were half lidded, eyebrows raised in the middle like he was in great pain.
“Can you tell me what you're feeling first? So I know this is the same thing?”
Daryl's head rolled to the side against the counter behind him, and he sighed. His right hand slid up his arm, and he began stroking his bicep. Your eyes followed the movement of his fingers and you found it impossible to look away. “So goddamn sensitive. Everythin’ is.”
His eyes flicked up to you and you could tell he was debating on saying something. After a few seconds of silence he looked away. “Feels like I took a whole damn bottle of Viagra.”
You kneeled down next to him and reached out to touch his knee in an attempt at comfort, forgetting for a moment what he'd been exposed to. He choked on a moan and yanked his knee away from you, his hand quickly replacing yours and squeezing his knee.
“Don't touch me.” He grumbled and moved his hand up to squeeze his thigh. “Jus' tell me what it is.”
“See for yourself.” You handed him the open journal, and he weakly took it from your hands.
His eyes widened and his nostrils flared as he read, glancing up at you over the page multiple times.
It was so quiet. You could cut the tension in the air with a knife.
“If a subject is not allowed to relieve themselves…” Daryl trailed off as he read and groaned.
“What?”
“Intense cramping, nausea, vomiting, and migraines will occur for the following three to five hours.” After reading the words aloud he thumped his head against the counter again. If the situation wasn't so serious, you would've been amused at the sound of his thick southern accent speaking in full and technical words.
“So, what, you just need to jerk off?” You shrugged your mouth and looked back at Daryl from the paper. “That's easy.”
You were trying your best to sound as nonchalant as possible considering how embarrassed he was.
“I'll be fine.” He scoffed and tossed the journal back at you. You barely caught it and set it down on the floor beside him before rising to your feet. “I'll wait it out. Barely got any of the shit on me anyway.”
You knew he'd eventually give in, but you didn't want to make this any worse for him. So you started walking around the room, pretending to take interest in the numerous bottles and files.
Maybe Daryl was right, maybe he could push through it. You'd seen him do things you couldn't imagine trying to do yourself. He had the stamina and the iron will to get through it. If anyone could, Daryl could.
You snuck a peek at him through a shelf, your eyes landing on him between a bottle of suspicious green liquid and a disgusting jar full of a brown substance.
“Oh god.” You breathed.
Daryl was palming himself through his jeans, his head leaning against the counter, eyes closed, and sweat trickling down his neck.
He looked absolutely irresistible. You couldn't tear your eyes away from him, no matter how bad you felt watching.
He whimpered out your name and you almost busted your head on the shelf from standing upright so quickly.
“Yeah?” Your voice cracked and you ran a hand through your hair to sweep it back out of your face.
“C'mere.”
You walked out from behind the shelf and approached him slowly, trying to hide your surprise when he hadn't stopped what he was doing. He barely looked up at you, his face red with embarrassment and shame.
“Read more.” He kicked his leg out, sending the journal he'd thrown at you sliding across the floor to your feet. “Find somethin’. S’gotta be a way to reverse it. Or some shit. Dunno, jus’ stop starin’ at me and do somethin’.”
You sighed and sat down on the floor in front of him after grabbing the journal. You knew already that there was no antidote, there was no cure, only a solution, and he was already halfway there.
You humored him though, and opened it up back to the page you'd marked. Any information on that specific drug ended right at the last note, the next page was on another experimental drug, this one for a more efficient stimulant for soldiers.
“Find anythin’?” He huffed and you looked back up to him from the page. He looked no better than the last time you'd looked at him, maybe even a little worse. He had stopped touching himself through his jeans though, apparently strong enough to deny his body what it so desperately craved.
“No. I'm sorry.” You whispered and his face twisted at your words. “Seriously Daryl, just jerk off or something. I'll go stand in the hall.”
“Y’ain't goin’ out there alone.” He shook his head as another bead of sweat trickled down his forehead.
“Okay, then I'll stand in the corner and plug my ears. But you really need to just get it over with. It's bad enough you twisted your ankle, we'll all be fucked if you've got all those other side effects. Do you know how bad a migraine really is, Daryl? You won't be able to do anything.”
Daryl finally looked at you with a grimace. He only managed a few seconds of eye contact before his eyes traveled lower, down to your chest. His pupils dilated further when he saw down your shirt from the angle you were in, cross legged and slightly leaned over towards him.
The sight had him groaning again and he tossed his head back to thump against the wooden counters.
“Get.” He hissed through clenched teeth and flicked his head to the corner. “Go on. Get.”
You got up and walked to the corner, putting your fingers in your ears and humming. You played it cool, like this was a normal day for you, but you were dying inside.
Dying knowing Daryl fucking Dixon was behind you, touching himself, his dick, probably moaning, his head tilted back, mouth hanging open…
The mental image had wetness pooling between your legs.
At that exact moment you realized you could see him in the reflection of the window you were looking out of.
He looked incredible. His dick in his hand, his free hand squeezing his thigh. His head was tilted back, and his mouth was hanging open. Just like you'd imagined.
It was hard to see his dick in the reflection, though with what little you could see, it looked perfect. In every way. It would fit you perfectly.
You were starting to wonder if you'd been exposed to the drug as well, because it was getting harder and harder to keep your hands off yourself. You had picked up the shards a few minutes ago and they were still wet. You'd wiped your fingers off immediately afterwards, but maybe that wasn't enough.
You quickly reached down between your legs and roughly pressed your fingers against your jeans, right over your clit, sighing softly at the desperately needed friction. You brought your hand back up to plug your ear again, not before hearing him moan.
Oh god. He sounded so fucking good. Your finger froze right outside your ear hole, and it took a lot to actually start plugging your ear again.
Then you heard him call your name.
You whirled around so fast you nearly fell over. “Uh-huh? Yes?”
Seeing it for yourself and not through a reflection sent a pleasurable flip through your lower stomach and you bit back a moan.
“C'mere…” he croaked.
You were in front of him in seconds, kneeling on the floor before his feet with your sweaty palms pressed against your knees.
“It ain't workin’.” He panted. You looked down to see his dick, red from his furious strokes and covered in a shocking amount of precum. “Can't- I can't. Dunno, jus’, I can't-”
“I'm so sorry.” You wanted to reach out and comfort him, he really did look like he was in agony. It broke your heart.
“Can ya’...”
Your eyes widened as he trailed off. His strokes were growing slower, although he hadn't stopped completely, and his breathing had grown more ragged. His eyes were on your face and you felt violent chills run down your spine at the intensity in his gaze.
“Can I what?” You whispered.
“Help.” His upper lip curled in what looked like disgust. He forced himself to look away and sucked in a shaky breath. “It hurts like hell an’-”
“Oh, Daryl, I don't know.” Your voice trembled and you looked towards the door they'd all left from. “They might be back soon.”
“Then quit your cryin’ an’ help.” He snapped. The hardness of his tone had your eyes flashing back to his face. Your immediate reaction was to snap back at him like you always did when he got smart with you. The pitiful expression he held made your heart soften, so you held back your words.
“But isn't this like…” you chose your words carefully. “Like… not very ethical?”
Daryl groaned and thumped his head against the wood again in annoyance. “Ain't the first time I jerked off to ya. S'that what ya’ wanna hear?”
The heat you felt moments ago flooded back to your core at full force and you nodded.
You took one last glance at the exit door and crawled forward. You waited for him to stop touching himself, and after a few seconds of that not happening you reached out and wrapped your hand around the tip.
Daryl immediately threw his head back again and let out a string of moans. The sound was almost enough to make you tear your clothes off and fuck him right then and there.
He thrusted up into your fist, desperate and needy.
“Hey, I need you to say least try to control yourself.” You placed a firm hand on his lower stomach, holding his body against the surface behind him.
“Fuck. M'sorry. Sorry.” Apologies bubbled out from his mouth and he closed his eyes, his eyebrows furrowing tightly together. “Jus' get it over with,” he added much softer, “please.”
There was a part of you that enjoyed seeing him like this. Squirming, sweating, begging, it was something that would've been adorably pathetic if not for the extreme aphrodisiac.
“God. You poor thing.” You hummed and continued what you were doing. You pulled your hand back long enough to spit into your open palm. He groaned at the loss of contact, the same groan turning to a desperate moan when your wet hand returned to his swollen cock.
When you tightened your fist and started twisting your hand at the tip he gasped, bending a leg at the knee like he was trying to stand.
“Uh-uh.” You grabbed him by his collar and dragged him down hard, forcing him to fall back flat against the cool tile floor. “Stay still.”
“Sorry.” He sounded like he was close to crying. He couldn't take much more of this, that was obvious. With your free hand you massaged his balls, trying not to drool when you felt how tight they already were.
“Ain't workin'. Need ya’.”
You looked back up to his face and swallowed a whimper. He was looking right at you, panting heavily with his lips parted.
“Daryl, I'm not gonna fuck you.” You hissed and glanced towards the door again. “What if they walk in, huh? What if those walkers back there bust right through that front door?”
Daryl opened his mouth to argue right as your walkie made a sharp noise of static.
It was Rick, calling your name. You pulled one hand away from him to answer, your other hand still stroking his cock.
“What?”
“Y'all okay?”
You looked over Daryl again and sighed. “Yeah. What's up?”
“It's pretty rough up here. We got most back in the cars, but there's a big group of walkers by the staircase. Gonna be another ten minutes, at least.”
“Okay. Thank you for checking in.”
“Of course. Hang in there Daryl.”
The second you took your finger off the button he was on you.
It all happened so fast you couldn't really process it. All you knew is you were the one with your back on the floor.
Daryl loomed over you for a moment, taking in the way you looked under him. He dipped down and kissed you roughly, moaning into your mouth and kicking your knees apart with his knee. His bare cock ground against your pants like an animal in heat, and the friction made him grunt.
He broke away from your mouth and licked your spit off his bottom lip. “Got ‘nough time. C'mon.” He lowered his head again and nipped at your neck, humping pathetically against you between your thighs.
“Fuck, just wait a second, let me think.” Your eyes were wide in shock as you struggled to process what was happening.
His fingers dug past the waistband of your jeans, tugging on them so hard your body scooted a few inches down the floor. He grunted with irritation and went for your button, fighting to get it undone before unzipping your pants and yanking them down your thighs before you could protest.
“Jesus Christ Daryl.” You sputtered, but didn't object. You lifted your hips off the floor to aid his mission, and soon enough he made quick work in shimmying your pants off your legs.
Your panties came off with your pants, thankfully, you didn't want him to see you in your apocalypse underwear. Gray and covered in holes.
He was back between your thighs the moment your legs were free, grinding his dick against your cunt as if he was too impatient to take the few seconds to insert himself, needing the friction again that badly.
His dick was absolutely soaked, with his own precum and your spit. You were slick as well, so all he needed was to rub himself between your folds a few times to coat the both of you in enough lubricant.
Daryl let out a deep groan and bit his bottom lip, leaning down to bury his face in the crook of your neck. He inhaled your scent, the smell of sweat, stale shampoo, and campfire smoke better than any perfume he'd ever smelled on a woman.
You were busy enjoying the feeling of his dick slipping between your folds and grinding against your clit, not noticing that he'd wrapped his hand around the base of himself.
Without any sort of warning he pushed himself past your tight ring of muscles, sending a jolt of stabbing pain through your core and down your legs. The action took your breath away and you were momentarily stunned, eyes wide and mouth hanging open as you sucked in a deep gasp.
“Fuck!” You squealed. You grabbed his shoulders and tried to push yourself up along the floor and away from him.
“No, no no-” Daryl groaned and grabbed your hips, pulling you back down on his pelvis, “M'sorry, please.” He peppered the side of your face with messy kisses, much like a pet that knows they did something worthy of punishment. “Fuck, m’so sorry. Don't. Don't.” His upper body laid on top of you, trapping you between the hard floor and his chest. “S'okay. Yer okay.”
You nodded quickly and swallowed the painful lump in your throat. Despite his demanding actions he hadn't moved once fully inside you, allowing you a few seconds to adjust before he was back to his impatient behavior.
Being filled by Daryl Dixon was indescribable. You weren't sure if he was always that thick, or if it was just the effects of the drug, much like the way it had made him produce copious amounts of precum. He stretched you so much it could very easily be uncomfortable if there hadn't been so much lubricant from the two of you.
He pulled out and thrusted back in, slow but deep, and all that original pain melted into equally deep pleasure.
You let your head rest against the tile and tried to ignore the pain of your body being pressed so tightly against the floor.
As hot as floor sex was, your bones were screaming beneath you. As Daryl continued his deep and steady pace you glanced around the room for anything that could help alleviate the uncomfortableness.
“Daryl-” your word broke into a long moan when he suddenly began fucking you much, much faster, his hips slamming forward so quick and rough that your body began sliding up the floor again.
That annoyed Daryl, and he let out a deep growl of annoyance.
“Look.” You nodded your head towards a mat, one that was similar to the ones they'd have in gymnasiums. It was placed on top of one of the back tables, an item that was suspiciously out of place for the type of room you were in.
Daryl lifted your head from your neck. He looked at you for a second before his eyes rose from your face to follow your gaze. He nodded and reluctantly pulled himself out of you. The moment his dick was out he wrapped his fingers around it, pumping himself so fast you were sure he'd give himself a friction burn.
You crossed the room as fast as you could without running, grabbing the suspicious mat and bringing it back over to him.
It wasn't very thick or comfortable, but your bones cried out in relief when you laid down on it. If Daryl wasn't so focused on cramming his dick back inside you he would've appreciated the feeling on his knees as well.
You tossed your head back against the mat as he buried himself inside you with one powerful thrust. Daryl groaned beside your ear as he picked up a slow, but very deep pace. The way he held your hips a few inches above the ground made sure he'd damn near hit your cervix with every thrust.
After a few seconds of trying to adjust yourself so his thrusts wouldn't be too uncomfortable, you were finally able to relax. That only lasted a second, and then you felt something cold and wet on your bottom lip.
Your tongue darted out and licked the liquid, something you surmised to be instinct. You opened your eyes to see Daryl rubbing his forefinger across your lip, the skin of his fingers slightly glistening with wetness.
“What?” You breathed out with furrowed brows.
“Sh-sh-sh.” His shushing only fueled your confusion and you tried to prop yourself up on your elbows.
Daryl simply pushed you back down on your back with an arm across your chest. “S'okay. It'll make it better, promise.”
Your eyes widened with realization. “Why'd you do that?” Your words ended with a groan when he began kissing the base of your jaw, right under your ear. “You didn't need-”
“Feels so good. Trust me.” He nipped your skin with harsh teeth and you squealed behind pursed lips, your eyes squeezing shut.
“Gonna feel so good. Never gonna wanna stop.” He pulled you down harder on his cock and started rolling his hips up into you faster. Your moans increased in volume, hopefully going unheard by anyone else in the building.
Something about the noises you made had Daryl groaning into your skin. They were so primal, your noises of ecstasy completely unfiltered, and he found himself pounding harder into your slick cunt in response.
“Oh god Daryl!” You gasped and clenched around him.
He was certainly right. The drug smeared across your lips had heightened all your senses. You could feel the shape of his tip diving deep inside you, you could feel the enlarged veins on his length, his unruly pubes brushing against your clit.
You could smell all of him, his sweat, his pheromones, his manly musk that had your walls tightening around him.
Daryl's jaw dropped and he snapped his hips forward. “J-jesus!” He gasped. He raised his head from your neck just enough to smash his lips against yours, not giving warning before shoving his thick wet tongue between your lips.
“Gonna cum.” You whimpered into his greedy mouth. He just nodded, not breaking the kiss, and continued fucking you into the gym mat.
“Oh I'm gonna fuckin’ fill this pussy.” He suddenly groaned. The words, something you knew he'd never say without being all sex drugged, had your orgasm bulldozing a moan from your throat. You didn't give a shit that the dirty talk was drug induced, your body wanted him to do exactly that and it was going to ensure he did so.
“Mmm-oh god yes please.” You cried out as your orgasm shook through your body. It was like nothing you'd ever experienced before. Not a single vibrator or toy you'd ever used in your life had made you climax that hard.
Your toes curled until not only your feet cramped but your calves as well. You balled your hands up in the plaid button up over his shoulders, pulling him as tight as possible against your chest.
The noise that left Daryl's mouth had your orgasmic tremors continuing a few more seconds. He pressed his lips against yours again, making you swallow the long and gravelly groan he let out.
His hands squeezed the flesh around your hips and yanked you down on his cock, at the same time thrusting forward as hard as his body would allow. He held your hips tightly in place as he emptied himself within you, letting out occasional groans and growls as he came.
Your head spun as your violent orgasm finally began to subside. You didn't realize you'd been holding your breath, and when you did, you had to break away from his wet mouth to blow out a lungful of hot air.
“Fuck.” He growled. He was still weakly humping between your legs. The room was filled with obscene wet sound, and when you came to your senses, you gasped.
Daryl had come a lot.
So much so that it had spilled out around his cock to pool under your ass on the sweaty mat. You could feel it everywhere, between your folds, coating the raw walls inside you, and all in the crack of your ass.
The wet sticky feeling suddenly became extremely uncomfortable. You let out a weak whimper and tried to wiggle out from under him, but his body was heavy and his grip on your hips was tight.
“Hold on, I gotcha.” He whispered in response to your whimpers. He gave a few more quick kisses of comfort on your sweaty neck, his tongue darting out to lick at the beads dripping down your skin.
The feeling of his hot tongue only made your overstimulation much worse and you groaned, scrunching up your nose and eyebrows and wiggling some more.
“Daryl, they're gonna be back any second now.” You whined.
His movements had stopped by now, thankfully, but your sensitive walls could feel his cock throbbing inside you and you whimpered.
“Jus' a few more seconds.”
You took the time to catch your breath. Before you knew it, Daryl was slowly pulling out.
There was still a lot of cum inside you. When he pulled back most of it gushed out, joining the impressive puddle beneath your ass.
Daryl's jaw dropped when he saw the scene before him. Such a large amount of his cum coating you and still trickling out of your hole, it was enough to make him stop and stare.
“Get me a rag or something.” You reached up to wipe the sweat from your forehead.
The sound of heavy boots coming down the hall let you know there wouldn't be time for any of that.
While you scrambled to get your panties and jeans back on, Daryl stuffed his dick back in his pants and flipped the mat over to hide the massive puddle of semen.
You barely jumped into your shoes when the door was flung open, revealing a panting Rick Grimes and a sweaty Shane.
“Come on. It's clear.” Rick called out and you grabbed your bag from the counter behind you. Daryl snatched up his crossbow and half-jogged half-limped after you.
“You okay?” Andrea asked as you all made your way down the stairs. “You look like you were the one out here fighting the dead.”
“Yeah.” You quickly nodded. “Just, you know, trying not to kill that asshole.”
She groaned and rolled her eyes, clearly buying your poor excuse. “Oh, tell me about it.” She snorted.
You ended up having to wrap a jacket around your waist. When you'd jumped up to put your pants back on, cum practically soaked your thighs and ass and you had no time to even attempt to clean it off. It left you with a massive dark spot on your jeans, and a very uncomfortable feeling the entire drive back to the highway.
@ophelialaufey @carlgrimesgfofficial @theskinniestjackson-denny @dilfish-daydreams @daryldove
PLEASEEE consider doing more dark daryl and rick (heavy on daryl) im obsessed with your writing, its SOOO GOOD
I have one in the works right now 😈 where Daryl gets fed up with readers teasing :D
Going to be posting the first chapter of this soon! Grateful she allowed me permission to try my hand at it. Hopefully will be very angsty and frustrating
I NEED TO VENT SO HERE WE GOOOO 😘
I was thinking of a fanfic in which you grow up with Daryl, maybe as childhood friends, although you both consider each other more an acquaintances, not really friends.
You both come from a similar troubled house, and you live in the same street. Maybe the only thing you have in common is an abusive parent and a lot of trauma. Ocasionally, you might have shared a cigarette in silence after a beating, or you might have offered him a place to stay the night his father threatened to kill him if he returned home. Despite these moments, you have always been like two parallel lines, never truly intersecting.
Then the world ends, and circumstances force you to spend more time together. It's impossible not to feel a growing connection, as you realize you are the only constants in each other's lives. But then Daryl begins to change. He no longer shares your way of seeing the world, which you find frustrating. How could he move forward while you remain stuck in the past? He finds new reasons to be better, surrounded by friends and a new family—good people who support him, good people unlike you.
As Daryl became a better person, your paths diverge once again, like parallel lines. You feel abandoned and betrayed, believing he has left you behind despite his promises. He seems to be distancing himself from the past you both shared, trying to escape the fate of being his father's son, while you feel you are still trapped as your father's daughter. In your anger— because you are angry, right? You are not hurting because you are not the kind who cares— you decide to leave.
What you don't realize is that the reason Daryl is trying so hard to change is because he wants to give you both the home you've always dreamed of, He wants to be the man he thinks you deserve.
this is so good it’s not even funny i love him i want to scream
Rick Grimes x f!Reader - Shadows and Starlight 18+
AN: Got this idea while watching the first episode today and it was amazing, I'm a bit rusty writing smut but I hope y'all still enjoy this. Btw, GIF is mine give credits when using.
Warnings: smut, age gap, unprotected sex
Summary: An evening of playing poker with Rick becomes intense quickly.
!Minors do not interact!
In the quiet hours of the evening, beneath the clear sky of the night the stars were shimmering and watching over Rick and you.
The night had settled over the CRM and Rick and your apartment complex, you found yourselves seated across from each other at a simple table in dim light in Rick's apartment, a deck of cards scattered between you.
Rick’s eyes were reflecting the soft light of the lamp as he watched you shuffle the deck of cards; he shared a smile with you. It was a rare moment of peace, a brief reprieve from the constant struggle against the undead.
The cards danced between your fingers, each shuffle a silent affirmation of your shared defiance against the forces that sought to control you. In the dim light, the lines etched upon Rick's weathered face softened, revealing glimpses of the man he once was before the world had fallen apart. How you wished you could’ve known this Rick, you didn’t like Rick when you first met him and neither did he like you. But over the years the two of you had spent here you started to build a friendship with each other; and eventually you began to see more in him than a friend.
Across the table you met his gaze with a sense of camaraderie born from your shared experiences in the CRM. You had both felt the weight of the CRM's iron fist, its shadow looming over every step you took. But here, in this fleeting moment of freedom, you found solace in each other's company.
“You know, I never thought I'd find myself playing cards with you in my apartment.” he sighed and laid his cards down, and you laughed as you won this round.
“If you would’ve told me this three years ago, I would’ve punched you even harder in the face.” you laughed, and Rick laughed too raising his brow and sighing “Well…”
“You wanna go for another round?” he asked, and you looked at your watch “It has gotten late. I think I’m out for the night.” you said to him and slowly raised from your seat.
Rick followed you and nodded “Of course.” he followed you to the door and as you were about to reach for the handle Rick began to speak “I had fun tonight; I haven’t felt this easy and light in a long time.”
Rick spoke and looked at you as you turned around “Me too, Rick.” your gaze softened “I hope we can repeat this soon.” you smiled gently at him and before you could turn around to leave Rick reached for your wrist with his hand.
“Please… Stay a bit longer.” he said in a raspy tone, and you could feel how the whole mood in his apartment began to change. Suddenly the apartment felt moodier with the soft light of the single lamp lit in the living room and it wasn’t so cold anymore.
Was this finally happening? Was this the moment in which Rick would finally do all these things you had been thinking of for months?
“Well, what do you have in mind?” you asked him, knowing exactly what Rick was hinting at. He smiled with a warm smile at you, and you could feel his hand travelling up your arm “I… I’ve been lonely for a while, and I enjoy your company. I understand if you don’t want to though.” he raised his brows and gave you an apologetic look, but you smiled softly at him.
You stepped a little closer to him and wrapped your hands around his neck, pushing yourself flush against him causing him to gasp “I’d love to, but there is something you should know. I have only ever done this once…” you said with a slight blush spreading on your cheeks.
“This isn’t a problem for me.” Rick said, placing his hand around your waist “Only if you want to do this, I don’t want to –“ you cut him off and kissed him gently, pressing your lips against his.
How you have longed for this moment, to kiss him, to feel his lips against your, they were so soft, so warm and slightly chapped against yours and you could taste the whisky on them.
He moaned into the kiss as your lips parted, you looked into his blue orbs for a few moments and admired him, playing with his hair as Rick slowly pulled you to his bed.
The frame of his bed met the back of his legs and fell onto his bed, he huffed with you as he fell onto the bed. You were standing before him and slowly climbed into his lap, swinging your legs around his waist and as you lowered yourself you could already feel him hardening.
“Oh…” you moaned while you were getting a more comfortable position on his lap and accidentally began grinding into him “Fuck.” Rick sighed “You really are this inexperienced? Hm…” he said and caressed your cheek with his thumb.
You nodded and gave him a sweet smile, his hand slowly wandered from your cheek over your neck and sternum to your abdomen where it found the hem of your shirt and tugged at it. His hand felt so warm and so large beneath you as you breathed shakily as Rick touched you.
“A shame I won’t be the first inside you.” he whispered and you slowly helped him take your shirt off, you threw it on the floor and sighed as you sat in his lap in your bra.
He noticed how insecure you were and looked at you “You sure you wanna do this?” Rick asked and you nodded “I want you so badly Rick… I never wanted a man more in my life.” you whimpered as Rick pushed himself against you.
“Oh sweetheart. Tell me how do you want me?” Rick asked and you leaned closer to him so you could whisper into his ear “I want you to take me how you want to, to use me for your pleasure, to fuck me from behind and show me how a real man takes care of a woman.” Rick hummed as he listened to your words and you could feel his cock getting harder as you could feel yourself growing wetter.
“I bet none of these boys your age know how to properly fuck a sweet girl like you.” Rick groaned as he slowly undid your bra with his hand, you sighed and took it off, letting it fall to the floor near your shirt.
“Fuck…” Rick breathed while he looked at your face and down your breasts “You’re so beautiful you know that?” he whispered and leaned close to you, his lips placing kisses over your neck.
His beard was scratching against the soft skin of your neck and you whimpered, pressing yourself against his hardening cock. Rick hummed in return and placed his hand on your breast groaning as he felt the soft flesh in his hand.
You moaned under Rick’s touch feeling yourself getting wet so quickly for him, you knew you’d cum quickly with him “I wanna see you too.” you said breathlessly and Rick looked up at you.
He nodded before he slowly began to take his shirt off, you helped him making it easier and faster for him. Your eyes widened when you took in the view of his torso, he was lean and his muscles were visible, his shoulders and chest were so broad.
Slowly you let your hands travel over Rick’s skin and he leaned his face against your neck, he closed his eyes and felt the soft touch of your hands, it’s been too long since Rick had been touched. Your hands wandered over his strong back and slowly wandered over his chest, the hairs slowly rising to attention under your touch.
“I can’t wait much longer for you.” he breathed and looked with desperation in his eyes at you “Only if you can though.” Rick added and you nodded “I want to, come.” you said and climbed off his lap to take your shoes and pants off.
You helped Rick out of his shoes and pants, he didn’t mind since you didn’t make him feel sorry about himself for losing his hand and merely did this to feel him faster. He was left in his boxers and you were standing before him in only your panties, Rick pulled you closer to him by your hand and looked at you with a smile and began to place soft kisses on your abdomen and wandered to your inner thighs, placing hot kisses against your soft skin.
Rick slowly pulled down your panties and waited for your to continue “Can I ride you?” you asked and Rick nodded with a smile “What happened to, I want you to take me how you want to?” he asked playfully and you blushed “It’s okay.” he reassured you. He took off his boxers and climbed on the bed properly where you joined him. Slowly you climbed on his lap and sighed as you could feel his cock being only a few inches away from where you needed him the most.
“Are you sure you can take me like that?” Rick said with a smile on his face and you nodded “Just let me, okay?” you asked and Rick leaned back watching you as you slowly reached for his cock and gave him a few pumps.
He was feeling heavy, hard and so large in your hand, you slowly began pumping him in your hand and with a groan Rick stopped you “Don’t. If I cum, I want to cum inside you, fill that tight and sweet pussy of yours, but if you keep doing that I’ll cum all over your hand.” you could feel yourself blushing at that, you culdn’t believe a man like Rick would cum this quickly, but here he was warning you.
Carefully you lined Rick’s fat cock up with your tight and dripping entrance and whimpered as you sunk down on him. You fell over and pushed your hand against Rick’s chest causing him to grunt “Easy girl… Just… fuck, easy nice and slow.” he sighed and guided you with his hand on your hip onto his cock.
You had him inside you, all of him and he was huge, splitting you in half as he was the second man in your life to be inside you.
“Fuck, you feel so fucking good, so wet and so tight, all for me.” Rick rasped and kissed you hungrily. Moaning you began to move on top of him, not wanting to wait any longer, but his cock was so overwhelming, you could barely move.
“Rick! I- “ you whimpeed, feeling too full as your legs began to shake “Oh sweetheart, you were so eager to ride me and now?” he mocked you and slowly turned the two of you over so he was on top of you.
Rick pressed himself flush against your body and pushed his hips tightly against yours, so he could pound you while cuddling you, getting the warmth and closeness he had yearned for earlier.
“I- Rick!” you screamed as Rick began pounding into you, your legs shaking while Rick moved his hips and followed his instincts, you felt so amazing around him he was just fucking you, not caring about anything as he felt your soft and wet walls around you and caressed your warm skin.
He got lost in the feeling of your hands roaming his body, of your nails digging into the muscles of his back as he could feel you tighten around him as you couldn’t even get a moan out of you anymore. Rick was literally taking your breath away as your body got tense and your walls began to tighten even more around him.
“Oh fuck baby, you gonna cum? You gonna cum around my cock? I bet no man your age can fuck you as I do huh?” Rick panted through his eager and powerful thrusts as he made his bed bang against the wall.
You looked deep into his blue eyes nodding and whimpering while your mouth was hanging open and you began cumming around his cock, clinging onto him for dear life as he fucked you through your orgasm.
With a grunt Rick chuckled and whispered against your ear “You still wanna get fucked from behind?” he asked and you nodded in your state of bliss.
Rick chuckled when he pulled out of you and helped you turn around, you were such a mess, your cunt wet and sore from the pounding he had given you. Your legs were shaking as Rick positioned you how he liked you, he spread your legs as your head fell into his pillow, it smelled like him and you inhaled deeply.
His warm hand wandered over your back, caressing your soft skin and he aligned himself with your dripping cunt, pushing his cock inside you again. You moaned as Rick pushed himself into you again and began to pound into you.
The sounds of your moans, his panting and words of praise filled the air of his apartment with the noise of skin meeting skin desperately.
“Oh good girl… Good girl… Fuck you take my cock so well.” Rick groaned and you could feel his thrusts start to become more erratic.
Rick’s thrusts got more desperate and with a grunt, he fell over and held still, cumming deep inside you with loud pants. His legs were shaking and with every pump of his cock he filled you up with his hot cum.
“Fuck…” Rick sighed and pulled out of you, falling to your side and breathing heavily as you laid in his bed, shaking and breathless.
He looked at you breathlessly and asked “You alright?” and you nodded “Just the best fucking of my life.” you chuckled and Rick reached out for you to caress the skin of your back.
“You didn’t even get me to fuck you while I was in my prime.” Rick laughed and you huffed “Doesn’t matter, I’ve never had such a good cock inside me, let alone a man who knows how to use it.” you spoke and Rick nodded, feeling even better at your words of praise.
You stayed with Rick the night and fucked with him a few more times, you’d never forget this night.
When I first started writing I had to push myself to write longer one shots
Now I've rewritten the same angsty Daryl request three fuckin times because I keep making it OVERLY LONG and I know people are gonna be like "holy SHIT wrap it up bub"
Warnings/Mentions: Merle being Merle, History of abuse, neglect, strong language, mentions of character death, alcohol and drug abuse, ptsd, shared trauma, reader is cold, angst, fluff, eventual smut, slowburn, angst
Summary: You reminisce on the old days spent with Merle and Daryl.
Notes: This is mostly flashbacks to life growing up with Daryl and Merle, the good ole days :D Merle says some homophobic and probably racist stuff, cause he's Merle
“Dude, just go apologize, holy shit. You're worse than the teenage girls I went to school with.”
“Mind your own goddamn business. S’between me and Merle.”
“He's got a point. You're acting shifty as hell. What happened to leaving? Huh? We've got Merle back, nothing's changed, these people still see us as redneck trash, can we just go already?”
“Said mind your business.”
Hindsight is a bitch.
You were five years old when you met Daryl and Merle for the first time. Unless your memory served you wrong, it was the fourth of July, and the trailer park was getting together to set off a bunch of illegal fireworks. You were sitting with your family as your neighbors got everything ready, a few of them grilling hotdogs and hamburgers. Your father had brought your mother a burger, which she split with you.
Your father was the only black sheep in your lives at that point in time. Anyone could tell just by looking at him that he didn't belong there, in a dingy trailer covered in blotches of mildew and rust. He was always clean shaven, no tattoos, perfect white teeth. He never smoked, never did drugs, never even drank. Even his name stood out among the Tammys, the Justins, Tuckers, Mandys, the Brandons and the Krystals. He was a Sebastian. He always wore clean clothes, and it was a stark contrast to your mother, who was the whole reason he was there in the first place.
She was nothing like him. She had a beautiful face, sure, but that was about the only thing beautiful about her. Most of her teeth were yellow from cigarettes and drugs, some of them missing, and the molars in the back had eventually all turned black. She was never seen without a cigarette in her fingers, her nails a different bright color everyday. Her clothes always stank of cigarettes and BO, but despite all of that, she wasn’t all that much of a terrible human. Not until later on.
Your mother loved your father, and he loved her. She loved you too, even if she was mean most of the time, she never hit or screamed at you until he left. After that she took a dark turn, becoming a woman you grew to despise. She blamed you for him leaving, but you knew the truth, she was the reason. She’d relapsed one too many times and he had enough, he left and he took you with him, but CPS ultimately dragged you kicking and screaming from your grandmother's house back to the prison that was your trailer.
That fourth of July was one of the last good memories you had with your parents. Your mother had been clean for seven months, and she looked stunning that night in her pink sundress and purple nail polish. She brought you a freeze pop and you ate it like it was a gourmet dessert, sitting beside her on the grass as you watched your neighbors set up the fireworks.
When you finished eating you went to play with the group of kids, they would end up becoming your last resemblance of a friend group, a pair of girls your age and a handful of boys. One of the older boys made a rude comment about the DIxon brothers, and you decided to introduce yourself.
Merle was about sixteen then, maybe seventeen, but he treated you and Daryl like you were the same age, something you deeply admired about him. You threw rocks at beer bottles behind their trailer, and you smoked your first cigarette there, hacking your lungs out, much to their amusement. Merle bragged and showed off his father's gun and crossbow collection, and soon after that their mother shooed you all out of the house like stray cats.
You wished you could say the three of you became thick as thieves after that, but truthfully you didn't have many memories with them. To echo the point, you weren’t really friends. Just people with similar situations that lived near each other.
You took a deep drag of Daryl's cigarette and pulled away from him, holding it in your lungs.
He didn’t say anything, and neither did you. You sat in silence, your legs hanging off the bridge you sat upon, sharing one of your last cigarettes.
You turned a spent shell casing over in your fingers as Daryl flicked the butt into the river below. It was Merle's bullet casing, you knew that, the three of you had been on that bridge a few days prior when he let off a few shots into a small group of walkers. It was small, from the little .22 pistol that he’d borrowed from you. He’d never given it back, and it pained you to assume it was most likely still in his waistband, stuck to his rotting corpse until some other survivor came along and took it.
“C’mon. Let's get back.” Daryl grunted as he hopped off the ledge and slung his crossbow over his shoulder. This was the only thing he said to you for the rest of the day, and for a while after that.
Once you had said that your odds of survival were higher when there were more people around. World views change fast, apparently, because when the prison group took in the Woodbury citizens, you felt more at risk than when it had been a group of ten.
Though you always despised the word ‘outcast’, it was the only word good enough to describe your place in the prison.
It was easier when Merle had been there. It was only a few days but it was nice, you found yourself making an effort to hang out with him more, something he secretly appreciated. There wasn't anyone in his life anymore that enjoyed spending time with him, aside from Daryl. But some days it felt like not even his baby brother wanted to be around him.
“You know how to fish?” You had asked him one evening as the two of you walked back from a supply run mostly empty handed.
“Do you know who you're talkin' to sweetheart? Course I know how to fish.”
You sat on the riverbank as he dumped his fourth trout into your bucket of water. You had caught one small catfish, and that seemed to do wonders for his pride, it gave him another thing to brag about doing better than anyone else in camp.
“Little asskickers gonna have her first taste of good ole American fish tonight.” Merle laughed proudly, wiping his hands on his pants.
“I don't think babies can eat fish. I don't think they can eat anything but formula.” You commented and stood from your spot, pulling in your makeshift fishing line.
“A lil’ fish can't hurt.”
“No, seriously. I don't think she can have any.”
“Psh.” He muttered and picked up the bucket. “Useless fuckers. Can't eat, can't speak, can't walk, hell.”
Before the outbreak, you'd spent the most time with the eldest Dixon brother. Only to buy or trade drugs, occasionally getting high together, but it was still time spent in each other's presence. He very much enjoyed doing speed and teaching you things, normally how to shoot different types of guns, or just sitting in some random person's house listening to his rants about racism, homophobia, whatever he felt passionate about that day.
“It just ain't natural, and I said, you couldn't pay me a cold million to touch one of you shitlickers. Yessir.” He was laughing then, amused in his retelling of some high school escapade that you weren't really paying attention to. Merle could be tasteless at times, and it was of no interest to you, you were enjoying your expensive high and there was no way in hell you were going to ruin it by getting into an argument with someone like him.
You must've dozed off, because the long, drawn-out yell of your name had your heavy head lolling back up to see Merle a foot away from you. A grin split onto his face and he slapped your shoulder. “C'mon. Got a hot date, wouldn't look too good bringin’ your ass around. Get up. C'mon now!”
Maybe you should've stuck around, cause he ended up getting a nasty case of gonorrhea from her. About a week later you found out from the man himself, standing in front of the coolers in your local gas station. They didn't sell gas anymore, too expensive, but they didn't lose any customers.
“Should'a known a bitch that ugly would be crawlin’ with it.” He cursed, hiking up a six pack of beer on his shoulder as he followed you to checkout, his little shadow following behind.
“Told ya. Just didn't listen.” Daryl muttered, swiping a pack of cigarettes to slip into his back pocket.
“Yeah, well, that's cause you don't know jack shit about women. The hell would I listen to you for?”
“Even I could've told you that.” You spoke around the SlimJims between your lips as you handed the cashier a crumpled up ten dollar bill. She said nothing about you obviously being underaged and buying a cheap bottle of wine, everyone in town knew about your mother. “That's what you get for being a dick to that poor kid.”
“You talkin' about that-” The noisy chime of the bells above the front door covered his derogatory choice of words.
“Those men, yeah. Don't know why it's so hard for you to leave people alone.”
“Cause it's America sweetheart, ain't no place for that kind of degeneracy here.”
You bit back your quip concerning the women he surrounded himself with and looked to Daryl, who was too busy flipping through an obscene magazine to notice.
You weren't the model student after your father left. Most days were spent by yourself in the surrounding woods, fucking around until the buses prepared to leave. On the rare occasion that you had company, it was usually the senior you bought drugs from. He was weird, overly gentle with a very soft voice, something about him extremely off putting.
Maybe things would've been different if you had been friends with Daryl back in school. He had only gone for a little while, using any and every excuse to get out of that house, even if it did include going from one prison to another. You weren't sure when he dropped out (technically he didn't drop out, he just stopped showing up), but it was right around the time Merle was out of prison.
They left their father then, moving from couch to couch, and eventually ended up staying with another dealer you were vaguely familiar with.
“Holy shit, look at you!” Merle whistled playfully after realizing it was you that had just come through the door.
“The fuck? Merle?” You could barely recognize him. He looked so different from the last time you saw him, hardened by the months in prison. Daryl looked different too, he'd started growing some facial hair and looked a bit larger as well. It had been about a year or two since your last encounter, so it was to be expected. They stood up from the couch they sat on to greet you, Merle offering you a hit from his glass pipe, which you declined.
“Nah, you know I never liked that shit.”
Merle snickered and held his lighter flame under the glass orb. “Right, right. Forgot you were too classy for crystal. Only the,” he tapped the side of his nostril, “for you.”
You caught up in the dealer's living room, some guy named Jesse, and enjoyed your purchases. You were happy then, for a few reasons. Jesse's shit was a lot better than what you were used to, so you found yourself a new reliable source, but also because you got to see Daryl again. You got to see him laughing, joking, no black eyes or busted lips. You got time with them as they were, before the world changed.
You found yourself missing that time, watching as Daryl flung dirt over his shoulder into the grass behind him. It was the present, and you were sitting beside the hole he dug, too hungry to help. You'd forgotten to eat breakfast that morning and it was too early for lunch to be ready, whatever it was Carol or Beth had fixed up for the prison members.
“What do you think Jesse's up to?”
Daryl squinted against the sun to focus on you, momentarily pausing his digging. “Who?”
“That dealer you guys used to stay with. Beanie guy.”
“Oh, yeah. Shit.” He grunted and stretched his back, happy for a break from grave digging. “Hell, I don't know. Probably dead.”
“You think? He seemed pretty tough to me.”
Daryl laughed abruptly at that. “Guy was a prick, but he wasn't no ‘tough guy’. Would go straight to usin’ guns instead of fightin’ like a real man.”
You would never discover the fate of Jesse, but the decision to bring Daryl's mind back to wander in the past did wonders for bringing the two of you closer once again.
To everyone's surprise, including you, Daryl dealt with his brother's death far better than you had. You'd expected he'd want to leave after that, go live alone and shut out everyone else. He didn't though, he cried a few times, sure, he got distant and chose to only keep you as company, but while you were still angry and grieving, he was laughing and forming bonds with the new group members.
You weren't too sure why Merle's death had devastated you that much, the two of you weren't exactly best friends. Maybe it was due to the fact that he was one of the only two things keeping you connected to your past life, even though it was awful, it was better than the constant looming threat of being eaten by dead people. As shitty as your mundane life was, it would have gotten better, one day you would've been stronger than your mother and you would've stood up for yourself, put an end to the physical abuse, and if you were lucky you could've been able to leave and find your father and brother.
Now Daryl truly was the only bit that remained, not counting material possessions.
The same went for Daryl as well. The difference between you and him though was that the loss of his brother turned into a good thing. He was no longer a shadow of another human, no longer basing his ideals and opinions on said human. While you dealt with the pain by using Daryl as a crutch, he used it to find out who the unbiased Daryl was, abandoning the ‘Merle Dixon’s kid brother' persona.
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