Just finished the raven king......I need to call my therapist now ✨
Wait I’m a writer
just finished empire of the damned
i am not okay
dear mister kristoff, why must you hurt me like this
11/10 i need the next book NOW
Every day I start kinning this man more
Thinking about how badly Andrew must’ve wanted to be known. For someone to actually notice things about him and be curious and piece all these observations together. Like. The truth game was just as much about wanting to know things about Neil as him wanting Neil to know him. And even without the truth game being evoked, when he knows what answers Neil must be digging for, he gives in more often than not. I think about how when Neil started noticing Andrew’s odd memory, especially when Neil believed him not to be paying attention and when Neil started finally asking questions, and how quickly Andrew answered them, how he must’ve been thinking, finally.
How much he wanted to be known and by someone he knew by now he could trust. Someone he knew could understand him and the implications of things he’s told. Someone he could tell his own secrets and things he’s been keeping to himself. Everything he let other people assume or misunderstand about him. This little nobody runaway is paying attention, piecing it together, understanding in a way that no one has ever been willing to do, not even his own twin. And when Aaron and Nicky asks him when this happened or other variations of the questions Neil’s already solved himself, and Andrew tells them they should’ve figured them out himself.
The way Neil was the first person to take him at his word, especially about something that wasn’t violence. To look further into him and the things he says and does and actually try to understand him. Not just write him off as a violent psychopath who does things for his own pleasure. The way Andrew wanted him to see more of him and understand him. And I just. My mind is tangles. But I want to go on about this forever.
Imagine being poor Wymack for a moment.
You get Neil Josten in a total of eight fits. He refuses to get more clothes. Your team has to trick, drag or torment him into purchasing clothing. Your saving grace is Andrew Minyard who you’re pretty sure is just buying clothes for the boy to stare at him. You will not complain because at least he’s getting clothes.
Jean Moreau is dropped on your girlfriend’s doorstep by one of your many children that come from mob backgrounds. He too has a closet that you could fit in a child’s backpack. You refuse to deal with this one. This is a Trojan problem.
And a year prior you got Kevin Day. Who came with who knows how many outfits. Probably like two or less. He at least seems to enjoy shopping.
You are worried for these mob children and their lack of extra pants.
The funniest thing we learned about Jean is that his taste in love interests is sunshine and rainbows and Kevin "insufferable bitch" Day
saw someone say that Jean’s number 29 for the Trojans is Kevin’s number and Renee’s number put together and I have not been the same since
pouring one out for agent browning tonight. if i had to be neil jostens assigned FBI agent I would invent new forms of alcoholism
a question that hasn't let me go since finishing AFTG:
in a timeline where the perfect court worked out, would neil be a striker or a backliner?
while he was at the nest, riko made him play as a backliner but he performed rather poorly, and yet riko marked him #4 for his perfect court.
even though his special potential only showed when he played as a striker for the foxes.
but the perfect court was supposed to be riko (1) and kevin (2) for strikers, and jean called neil his partner that got away or something so we can assume that the planned backliners were jean (3) and neil (4)
did riko really gamble on neil's ability to adjust to being defense, or would he have been a striker sub??
350 pages worth of soul destroying jean content and the fandom is instead choosing to focus on andrew's cheese drawer. love it
Thinking about Jean makes me want to cry but his dialogue never fails to make me laugh
terms that jean uses for neil in the sunshine court:
tiny bastard
tedious malcontent
abominable cockroach
wayward child
rabid little Fox
wretched little runaway
ignorant child
miserable wretch
usernames i am actively using on platforms:
Lovely Lunatic
Majestic Mess
others of the sort i love but don't use:
Starless Sinner
Dreamless Deity
alliterations are fun
not even halfway into The Raven King but Andrew has completely stolen my heart
why do i keep falling for broken fictional men
did everyone on the writing team for S3 of Young Royals just completely forget about Russeau?? August buying him for Sara was such a huge deal in S2 and she loved him but like he didn't have a single appearance and none of the characters mentioned him. He was like my favorite character before. I miss him.
#JusticeForRusseau #PetitionToMakeARusseauSpinoff
my love for you is stronger than my hatred for myself.
nothing of my fire remains but a tiny little flame. I cradle it as I sit alone, yearning for the moon. I don't cry, my heart bleeds on paper.
Dear Book Industry: please start including QR codes to the audio version in the physical copies of your books. I paid $$ for this, I want to be able to enjoy the story in every way.
Sincerely, me who is currently sick with too much of a headache to read, there's no free audiobook of Assassin's Apprentice to be found online, I'm not paying 15 bucks AGAIN to listen on audible after I already paid that much for the physical copy of this book.
Please make it easier for story-hungry people like me to get ahead in their books even if they're unable to physically read sometimes.
I'm desperate and have looked EVERYWHERE for a free Assassin's Apprentice audiobook.
getting straight a's in any writing based subject but not being able to subtract functions for the love of god is so infuriating
desperately in love with dior lachance. but also gabriel. and aaron.
dear mr. kristoff, why are all your characters so hot?
from my dnd session tonight:
"did we put too much pressure on the prodigy is it broken now?"
schools be like
it's my birthday and my dad surprised me with a GORGEOUS book nook that he spent 20 hours building in secret.. so touched and I wish I was tiny so that I could abandon society and go live in the book nook (it's an antique cozy library)
it appears i've lost access to my old account @lonelychickennugget or something like that so uh this is my new account i guess
rip 2020 me
when i was in primary school, i'd play "library" with the books i had at home
now i'm a senior in high school helping out in the school library during my lunch periods
the destiny has been fulfilled and i'm having a blast