Hermestoldmeurgay - Dont Look At Me Like That

finna go capitalize on this brb

I'm pretty sure that any two sufficiently good-looking gen Z kids could make it on TikTok by making videos that are 100% word-for-word re-enactments of Monty Python skits, and the whole audience who has never heard of the flying circus in their lives would lose it over such fresh and original material.

realized i never did an intro post on myself here hi

first things first here's my linktree

ok so uh my name is riku, some people call me ricky or roo for short. im 21 years old born on the summer solstice, Brazilian Japanese Romany, transmasc enby, demipan and partnered to a cis dude (emotionally intelligent black excellence tyvm), mentally disabled (ADHD, high functioning autism, cptsd, BPD, fragmented identity symptoms, etc etc), and physically disabled; my mother's family was a performing arts troupe in São Paulo and Registro and i had an accident that my leg didn't heal from correctly - that and spinal/hip injuries from my childhood have left me with a limp since i was seven years old. i walk with a cane now, as i may have mentioned in other posts.

im a full sail graduate, i majored in rhetoric composition/literary studies and minored in abnormal psychology, i'm planning to going back to get my journalism degree - right now i'm a TA for my old prof.'s rhet. comp. course and i also help grade papers for an elementary class, i have a CSR day job but i get it all done.

this next bit is gonna sound a little batshit bananas but roll with me here

there is a sort of alter ego or other consciousness in my brain named Onryoko who is a separate individual from me, as well as a spiritual entity that was said to be demonic in origin that takes up space in my psyche - It doesn't want me sharing It's name yet. my pronouns are i/he/they, Onryoko's pronouns are ele/elu/one/oneself, and It's pronouns are It/Itself - sometimes if one is more alert one will use we/us as pronouns as well. let me be clear - i do not have a dissociative identity disorder diagnosis, nor do i feel the need to get one as i interpret the two of them as manifestations of my higher consciousness and links to the spiritual world - i'm in control and i choose when i allow one or the other to be conscious with me, i don't black out or have amnesia or anything like that. if i am crossing any boundaries or anything or if u know of any communities on here i might relate to please let me know, this is simply how i was raised to deal with this.

Onryoko is whats called o receptáculo for the demonic entity that my grandmother (obatian) on my father's side clocked and neutralized when i was a baby cuz she serves cunt like that, and with that comes being a 3rd gen shaman - Onryoko essentially is our higher self? is how my obatian explained it. i found Chaos magick when i was 15 and the rest is kinda history. Onryoko has another blog dedicated to all that and we're working on content creation for spirituality and occultism; one does free tarot readings right now until i get our shops figured out, if ur interested in that kinda thing come meet us up here ----> @onryoko 🔮

other than that uhhhhhhh i main magik on marvel rivals (ps5 handle is onryoko963, rivals handle is ONRYOKO) im a Cancer sun Leo moon Cancer rising, andddddd i rlly like swimming cuz its the only exercise i can do where i dont die immediately. im very sarcastic and ive been told i have a very "fuck u" energy irl so idk if that will translate here. i dont mean to be mean and if u tell me im being mean i'll make sure im not asap :) ok thats it thanks byeee

quite a while ago my stepmother texted me once to tell me i should be ashamed of myself and that the family absolutely would be because i reposted something along the lines of Luigi Mangione being innocent and the shooter being generally morally correct on my instagram story that was linked to my facebook account from 3 years ago that i forgot about. she told me that she didn't want to see something like that on my instagram story anymore because murder is wrong no matter what context it's in. i told her that she has absolutely no interest in understanding my view on the situation so i wouldn't be apologizing nor taking the post down, and i de-linked my instagram page from my facebook before deleting that account and that app.

now, i will share my thoughts about that conversation to all of you because she cant find me here i need to get it out of my head and off my chest.

if she were a normal human being who respected the opinions of her family, these are the statements and questions i would pose to her:

1. she has told me that she would kill a man to protect me, my father and our dogs, so her logic would put her in the exact same scenario the shooter/Mangione is in at this very moment - on trial for a life sentence or in hiding from the law for premeditated first degree.

2. UnitedHealthcare is notoriously known for denying claims for terminally ill patients for years, to the point where they had the highest claim denial in 2023 - 1/3rd of their claims were denied that year. UHC is arguably the biggest fucking health insurance provider in the world, u do the math of 1/3rd of 49 million people. the life of one wealthy white man, who yes had a family and a board of directors that he had to listen to, in comparison to 16,331,700 other lives, other people with families and jobs just like him - acting as though this is to be seen as anything else but a message about the system is simply defending the system.

3. sure Brian Thompson could've just been trying to do his job, or he could've been unaware of just how many people he was screwing over regularly - anything is possible so i'll give the naysayers that. misinformation and ignorance are common in wealthy white people, a fact with which im sure we're all familiar. however, the Orange Cheeto and his gang of greasy fat potato chips have already proven within four months of his second presidency that in this world, money can get you absolutely anything if you offer it to the right people.

does it not stand to reason, then, that as a white man in charge of one of the biggest moneymakers on the planet, Brian Thompson could have used his position to ensure that his company wasn't using artificial intelligence to deny claims automatically? does it not stand to reason that, just as the military under the UCMJ can deny and refuse an unlawful order, this man could have refused to listen to whichever "higher-up" who "ordered" him to deny all these claims?

finally, she's an intelligent woman - if Luigi Mangione was really the shooter, you mean to tell me that he decided to 3D print his gun, do the shooting and leave the monopoly money and bullet casings there, but NOT leave the manifesto "found" in his backpack (which the police literally took away from the scene of the crime and brought back before finding any of the above mentioned items in it)? you're telling me after murdering one of the most important (pfft) men in the world, the dude went n chilled at mickey d's like i do on my godsbedamned lunch hour?

PLEASE be fuckin fr, anyone can see from a mile away how the government is basically trying and failing to make this innocent man's trial into a Broadway-level production to distract society from the actual world-destroying laws and bills they're trying to put into place, and if u cant see that congrats the pigs have u fooled and they're going to eat YOU, not the other way around.

anyway thanks ma for opening this tangent to tumblr dot com bye

i hope whoever actually shot that CEO is having a good day.

I can't remember which one of her stories it was even from, but my favourite Minna Canth moment was the one where a poor, long-suffering woman, absolutely ground to mince meat by brutal poverty, asks a priest why does God allow there to be so much suffering in the world. And the priest is like perhaps it is to help guide others into the light, to make them also understand the frailty of life.

And the woman is so stunned by this answer that she snaps out of her utter, shattered despair, and goes "with all due respect, Father, but if somebody needs to witness the suffering of others in order to understand that they should live their life right, then they have earned their place in Hell. With all due respect but that is how I believe."

Y'all

Civil disobedience is alive and well. Marcy Rheintgen decided to go into a women's bathroom last month in Florida.

This action is momentous, honestly. She entered the bathroom with a rosary and washed her hands, was given a warning before being arrested for trespassing.

Here's what she had to say about it:

I know I'm preaching to the choir here, but she's right. This is absolutely bonkers and it's incredible of her to point this out publicly like this.

She's making good trouble, even before being prompted.

Edit: haha jokes on me. I knew I forgot something. Here's a link to the article

AP News

Transgender student's arrest for violating Florida bathroom law is thought to be a first

A transgender college student declared “I am here to break the law” before entering a women’s restroom at the Florida State Capitol in Talla

Internet vernacular has completely altered what some words and expressions mean to me. Forevermore, I will hear the words "hear me out" will only and exclusively as "before you cast your judgements prematurely, please pause and allow me to explain how and why I should be allowed to fuck this thing".

Some tips and tricks I use to be productive through my ADHD:

The “eh might as well” method. If I’m going to the kitchen to eat might as well bring all the cups from my room too

Make it inconvenient to ignore. If I have clean laundry that needs to be put away, I will put the basket in my doorway. Now it’s inconvenient for me to sidestep it. I also do this with my homework.

Hiding or making it hard to access distractions. I can slip into doom scrolling on TikTok so what I did is add the fingerprint requirement to open and removed it from my homepage. Now I have to go through 3< steps to get into it.

Make things convenient. I can get overwhelmed by my clothes so in my closet I have a shelf dedicated to comfort clothes. Pj pants and hoodies mostly, that I can quickly grab and throw on when I need them.

Use the “don’t see, don’t exist” to your advantage. Most of my crafting supplies sit in the same drawer under my bed. They are (kinda) hidden so I don’t get distracted.

Some other random tips

I sort my shirts by graphic, plain or under shirt and sweaters/blouses.

I have my quick grab n go pants next to my most used jackets

I hope these help

So based on what I've read so far for primers on chaos magic, I recommend starting with Condensed Chaos: An Introduction To Chaos Magic by Phil Hine, THEN getting the updated and revised and expanded editions of Liber Null and Psychonaut and also Liber Kaos by Peter J Carroll.

Caveats for Condensed Chaos:

misuse of "shaman" and similar terms (none of what is brought up relates to Tungusic peoples)

written by a neurotypical white English bisexual cisgender man, and boy howdy is the neurotypical part obvious in several areas

inconsistent capitalization for concepts, and also inconsistent comma usage

definitely a product of its time and not decolonized, which is a larger problem in chaos magic as a whole

Recommended Audience for Condensed Chaos:

pop culture mages/pagans

those interested in servitors, sigils, or chaos magic more broadly

technology mages

those who want to explore Jungian psychology in magic

As for Peter J Carroll's works... Basically the same as the above, yet also way more difficult to read if you're not used to old grimoire-esque language and writing styles.

I'd still genuinely recommend all three of these, just with the reminder to raise an eyebrow at some of the claims made.

The books I still have to read on chaos magic that I currently own are Hands-On Chaos Magic: Reality Manipulation Through The Ovayki Current by Andrieh Vitimus; Creating Magickal Entities: A Complete Guide to Entity Creation by David Michael Cunningham, Taylor Ellwood, and T Amanda R Wagener; and Magickal Servitors: Create Your Own Spirits To Attract Pleasure, Power and Prosperity by Damon Brand.

Plenty of reading left for me to do on this subject.

as u do

Yes, I am a straight man. Yes, getting the shit beat out of me in an all-male mosh pit is an erotic experience for me. We exist