Perhaps It's Just Because I'm A Short Woman Who Happens To Enjoy Both Frilly Dresses And Sex, But I Get

Dan Stevens in the 3rd act -

tbh alicent being a shit mother is such an important thing to me. all of her relationship with motherhood.

since i could talk i always said i didn't want children. the adults laughed at me everytime, this stupid little girl, saying i just have to wait. it'll change when i get older. i'll see the appeal, apparently. of course i don't see the appeal still, no matter how old i am. but i noticed how assumed it was of me, expected even, that i didn't know shit and there's some secret parental gene that would manifest.

that's young alicent holding little crying helaena and wondering why she doesn't feel anything. if she's deficient in some way. if maybe she can make herself do it long enough, or hard enough, she'll settle in. and guess what? she fails. she doesn't settle in. she grows to love her children in time, they came out of her, of course she loves them, but she never gets better at handling them. with no help from either her husband or her father, she fails even harder.

my mom, who always dreamed of children, told me how scared and disoriented she was when i was born (her first). all the books she read didn't mean shit in that moment. and she's a happy mother, one of the best parents i know, but she worked SO HARD for it. saying that's just her maternal nature is directly spitting on all the blood and guts she poored into this. it's a hard-won satisfying job when you want it, it's hell on earth when you don't.

VI + PROTECTING AND FIGHTING FOR HER FAMILY

“Vi was strong because she was afraid. Her fear of losing us is what made her fight so hard.”

The cycle is inescapable

HOUSE OF THE DRAGON 2.02 — Rhaenyra The Cruel 2.05 — Regent

I'M ALIVE ;0; Happy Monday! Work's been crazy, but hopefully this big post makes up for my absence 🙇 Someday i'll learn to post fewer images, but for now i feel the need to hide my batcat brainrot at the bottom... (if i wasn't already going to hell, i definitely secured my ticket with this one :'D)

FUCK THIS COUNTRY

You're serving cunt? There's a war going on and you're serving cunt?

How we feeling, Bi Rhaenyra Nation??????

Hilda by Duane Bryers