Heyooo

Me ranting to my roommates about all the meanings imbedded in the new update when they have never heard of 19 days

This is true the inspiration I need in life

Hey my name is Troy and I got a *19 days fans burst through the ceiling* UPDATE TOMORROW!!!

(If you know you know)

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More rants~

Ok so I had this thought and maybe I’m on to something, maybe I’m not.

So remember this panel:

Mo calls out for his dad during what seems to be the destruction of their restaurant and maybe the attemptted kidnapping of baby Mo? (Or just someone trying to hurt him I dunno) either way. Mo calls out for is dad and immediately his dad comes and Randy Ortons this guy through a table to save Mo. Little Mo had that sense of physical security with his father.

With his mother he still had that sense of security but it was mostly like emotional:

Especially in that one panel with baby She Li (I would find it but I’m too lazy) where she’s trying to calm Mo down and telling him it will stop hurting soon. I think as a kid Mo felt physically protected by his mother but eventually when he started to grow he realized that he had to protect his mom. So he was never really able to have that sense of security (thus he got so callous and distant from everyone). I think Mo just thought that he was on his own but deep down he was probably still scared out of his mind.

So when he met She Li he was like “hey you’re a good source of protection because you have so many people who look out for each other.” Naively, Mo probably would have joined the gang for that purpose, to be safe. And maybe somewhere along the line She Li did actually save him from someone trying to hurt/take him again (not because he actually cared but because he wanted something from Mo). And maybe that’s why he joined, I’m not sure. But this would explain why She Li is always has that “I’m the one who gripped you tight and raised you from perdition” vibe going on:

BBBBUUUUTTTTT then Mo met He Tian. And at first he tian was a jerk and just another person trying to take advantage of Mo (like with the whole kiss thing with the water bottle). But then the relationship started to evolve. I think when He Tian actually did physically protect Mo is when the scales in Mo’s mind started tipping.

Now Mo actually has friends and He Tian to protect him. He finally found what he wanted all along. That group of people who are looking out for each other.

ANNYYWWAAAYYYYYYY if you’ve read this far thanks for listening to my horribly long rant!

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More late night aesthetic! Just black and good this time not lavender. I guess this is me wanting a tattoo?

Ah yes I’m just now getting courage to be here. I really like 19 days XD I’m a closet 19 days stalker oh boy

Found this in a walk... sometimes the beauty of the world really knocks me off my feet...

Being torn between wanting a new update but also wanting Old Xian to take their time and stay mentally and physically healthy

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Bike rides and late nights

Went on a bike ride and got some flowers off the side of the road. Just goes to show beauty can be found anywhere just as long as you look for it.