THE PROBLEM WITH WANTING

Rainer Maria Rilke, Rilke’s Book of Hours

on being her friend

“funeral”, phoebe bridgers / “pink skies”, lany / “jean and susan”, john bratby / “a summer’s tale”, dir. éric rohmer / “cupid’s chokehold / breakfast in america”, gym class heroes / untitled, @doriantomybasil / “piglet’s big movie”, dir. francis glebas / “by means which have never yet been tried” (orphan black: season two, episode ten), dir. john fawcett.

source article

“After Language” by Chaia Heller, from My Lover Is a Woman: Contemporary Lesbian Love Poems edited by Lesléa Newman (1996).

“Do not be afraid to suffer, give the heaviness back to the weight of the earth; mountains are heavy, seas are heavy. Even those trees you planted as children became too heavy long ago - you couldn’t carry them now. But you can carry the winds… and the open spaces…”

— Rainer Maria Rilke, tr. by Robert Bly

Celebrating Childhood, Adonis

Don’t succumb to chaos, chase dreams not people. Get out of controversies, you have no guilt that’s been implanted in you from the moment you were born.

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No sucumbas al caos, persigue sueños no a personas. Salte de las controversias, no tienes ninguna culpa que te han implantado, desde el momento que naciste.

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"You stand red-handed. You want to wash yourself in earth, in rocks and grass

What are you supposed to do with all this loss?"

— trying to wash the guilt away

1. franz kafka, letters to milena 2. album art for el pintor by interpol 3. margaret atwood, morning in the burned house 4. somto ihezue, all the stones that built me 5. jihoon yang, "blue rain", 2020 6. matthew nienow, lupa 7. succession 2x01 8. mitski, "humpty" 9. william shakespeare, macbeth, 2.2.78-81 10. alfred stevens, "lady macbeth".

obsessed with the opposite of the childhood friends trope. what if we were just some guys meeting for the first time with like. no significance

I like art that depicts women not posing seductively or gracefully but simply existing as human beings.