Limerence

being God’s favorite is sleep through the entirety of archive of our own’s downtime and wake up to the site up and running normally again

bobby’s died says tim ‘liar’ minear. however i know the way of love and light. led by kenny choi himself. he’s holding my hand and saying. don’t even worry about it. i am fujoing out with peter krause on set right now. know this and find solace in it

Manifesting the funeral to be like this

Estate Executor: Thank you all for coming here today. We shall now read the last will and testament of Robert Wade Grant-Nash. He leaves all of his earthly property to his wife, Athena Grant, with the following exceptions:

I, Robert Grant-Nash, leave my father’s baseball glove to Harry Grant;

I, Robert Grant-Nash, leave my ice skating equipment, gear, and outfit & sequin repair gun to May Grant;

I, Robert Grant-Nash, leave my son Evan ‘Buck’ Buckley in the care of Edmundo Diaz, to have and to hold in sickness and in health, as long as you both shall live. Don’t make me come back down to knock some sense into the two of you.

Everyone: (Gasps)

Buck: what does that mean?

Maddie & Tommy (in unison): I knew it!

Eddie: How does he get to one-up my own will reveal???!

Bobby: (staggering through the door cover in Mud and Fresh Dirt): Don’t read the will! There’s some Gay stuff in there…

Everyone: Bobby????! You’re alive?

not to sound like a whore, but can we go to an aquarium date?

ok i think what it comes down to is that. buck and tommy is not a particularly good or interesting relationship. it's pretty on par with bucks previous relationships. it's below buck and abby, who buck was in love with and who broke his heart. it's below buck and taylor, who were actually close and who exchanged I love yous and were looking pretty endgame for a while. buck and tommy dated for a few months, had an ok relationship, broke up, then had a drunken hookup that ended in buck saying some pretty out of pocket stuff. there's no big compelling love story there. and I understand taking a ship that's one thing on paper and enjoying the version of it that you and a fanbase have created in your minds (WHO among us has not partaken in that pasttime). but where we get this big fanatic fanbase insisting that this is a lovestory for the ages comes from is the fact that it is two men in a canonic relationship on tv. which like.... listen it is not 2012 anymore where we were scrounging in the bottom of the bin for scraps from like german soap operas for canon gay rep (i know, i was there). you can actually hold gay relationships on shows to a higher standard. you don't have to imagine this epic lovestory is hiding behind this milquetoast failed relationship. and of course the argument to this is well you're imagining an epic lovestory behind buddie that's not there. but man, there's 7 years of love and dedication and partnership there. like there is MEAT on them bones. and if it ever went canon, it would be a slowburn will-they-wont-they on a big procedural show with a queer relationship, which as far as I know has never been done. there's something to be invested in there. the arguments im seeing that people have to like buck tommy because it's a canon gay ship and therefore must be a good love story or else youre homophobic is so... absurd. sometimes gay relationships are just mediocre. sometimes they're bad. not every gay relationship on your tv screen should be treated like a precious rare commodity that we need to shut up and be grateful for.

the reason i know bobby is not dead is because buck is pictured outside the casket. if bobby was dead we would not see buck either he would be in the casket with bobby. that’s it

It fucking pisses me off that people keep trying to paint Eddie as abusive, even though he’s proven over and over again that, no matter how angry he gets, he would never actually hurt anyone. Even at the peak of his grief — completely furious — he still held back his emotions. And still, people label him as abusive, while other characters have acted out and didn’t get nearly the same backlash.

No one called Bobby abusive when he shoved Buck.

No one called Buck abusive when he sprained Eddie's ankle.

So why is it different when Eddie puts a hand on his shoulder and points at him? Why are those considered less intense than a hand on the shoulder and a finger?

And no — even though he was grieving, I don’t think Eddie was right to take it out on Buck like that. He doesn’t think so either. That’s why later he says, “I heard some dick (he) was pissing you off.” He knows he crossed a line with Buck.

In my opinion, the problem at that moment was that Eddie needed Buck — he needed them to share their grief, to support each other. But Buck was so focused on trying to “fix things” that he didn’t realize grief isn’t something you fix — it’s something you feel. And that frustrated Eddie because all he really wanted was to be with his partner. (It honestly reminded me of when the same thing happened with Hen and Karen.)

Every single fight they had has come down to a lack of communication, a lack of expressing their feelings — and the explosion that follows.

Were Eddie actions okay? In my opinion, no. But it doesn't mean he's abusive. He’s grieving. Just like Buck. Just like everyone else. People grieve in different ways.

Honestly, if you consider him abusive while thinking other characters’ actions were justifiable, then I have news for you — it’s kinda clear why you think that.

And I can’t deal with people using such a serious issue just because of a ship war.

if they do not show us eddie finding out about bobby. like. i actually cannot fathom that. bobby was eddie's lifeline. he was eddie's living proof that you could get a second chance and be happy. he was his biggest advocate and he was bobby's. he was a good man. he was family.