I See No Difference 🤍

Caleb looks deceptively innocent with the little baby fat hanging beneath his eyes, and he’s all boy next door handsome. He looks like he would stop traffic to help an old lady cross the street or carry you on his back after a long day out. But I feel like he’s utterly insane beneath that boyish exterior. Murderously insane.

Meanwhile, Sylus has the characteristics of a stereotypical villain. Sharp eyes, a beak-like nose, and this constant smug aura about him. He’s still terrifying—can take over the world if he really puts his mind to it, but he’s a fucking cream puff for the person he loves. I also feel that, aside from having a soft spot for animals, children, and MC, he’s a sucker for the elderly, especially older women.

I said all that to say that Infold knew wtf they were doing when they crafted these two.

noiz for a good friend at the start and end of the year hahaa

Star Touched 🌟

Actually obsessed with the way his eyes do the widen when he's shocked or unsure what to do.

Astarion wants to enjoy sex. He wants to have loving intimacy with the player. The first time they had sex was indeed different for him despite his disassociation. He reflected on it and enjoyed it enough to want to do it again (he still disassociated, it wasn't exactly wonderful but I digress) . He didn't have to. As far as he was concerned the player was already seduced.

He wants to have sex without the feelings of disgust. He isn't repulsed by sex, he's repulsed by not having the choice. The reason all of the scenes have to be approved or agreed upon by the player is because this is a roleplay game and if a sex cutscene just started playing without any options I think people wouldn't like that. Please stop babyfying Astarion and acting as if he never actually wants to and is people pleasing. That he is incapable of consent due to his trauma. If you feel that way why would you romance him at all? He makes it very clear when he doesn't want to. He asserts that boundary. And if you push it he breaks up with you. The "I could be persuaded" line in the graveyard is him being playful. If he actually has to be persuaded there would be a skill check like that other time.

In conclusion, Astarion wants intimacy with the player. And he wants it on his own terms. This is especially evident in his scenes because he's usually taking the lead in one way or another. If you don't choose to have sex with him after that one time that's perfectly fine, but that's because YOU are making the choice for your Tav, not Astarion.

*Edit, if the things I said don't apply to what you think or how you play the game, then this post wasn't for you. Please refrain from filling my comments with conjecture about unrelated things I never brought up*

𝐋𝐎𝐘𝐀𝐋 𝐓𝐎 𝐅𝐄𝐖, 𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘 𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐄 [ street racer!sylus for @dissociativewriter ]

“How words came out like canaries, summer fruit in the dead of winter. They were all in love with him.”

I finished the first part of my Lestat page, enjoy!

Thinking about Goodcat code again. Thinking about how Sylus has said more than once 'would you still like me if I wasn't wild' because he was your dragon, and you fell in love while chasing revenge with a 'wild beast' at your side.

Thinking about how Sylus uses other people (primarily Mephisto) as a cover for his feelings. 'Mephisto gets separation anxiety, can I visit too' 'Mephisto misses you, so I called you'.

'Snowy Owl prefers men who are obedient', the nod to himself, the act he puts on despite wanting nothing to do with Snowy Owl. The question in his eyes, is this what you want? Do you want me at your feet?

Who do you want me to be?

Is this really all about another person, or do you want me to be someone else?

dreamstat + appearing whenever louis gets the ick

" I knelt and put my hands on his shoulders. I kissed his cheek. No human scent. No human warmth. Sculpture of my Nicolas. 'Play it,' I whispered. 'Play it here just for us.'"