I Think I Have DID Or A OSDD, And I Think It's Becoming More Prominent. I Forgot That I Have Looked At
I think I have DID or a OSDD, and I think it's becoming more prominent. I forgot that I have looked at it a handful of times, and forget until the symptoms become bad again and I go to look for therapists (which I cannot find any given my location/insurance. Hate living in the south istg.) It also hurts to not have anybody to talk to about it just to have somebody who understands or just to discuss things with for an idea. I've tried talking to a friend who is far mentally typical, but he's also judgemental of me it feels like so, oh well I guess. I just wish I didn't feel so different, or didn't feel like I should talk to anybody about it.
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dudegirl in the way a doe grows antlers. god i love being intersex. testosterone monster but i got fat tits and a feminine shape. a droplet of my blood would feed transmascs for eons, and id be glad to provide. transfems give me their testosterone. i am all of me
Hello! 💚
My name is Morbidica, and welcome to my blog :)
I made this blog to stem away from all my past blogs and to grow and explore myself, which isn’t something I let myself do, due to embarrassment. But I’m too old for embarrassment now. So here’s to a new era, where I have my own little bubble to grow and see what I’m supposed to be.
Other funfacts:
I am an adult
I am genderfluid (pronouns change without much rhythm, and unless specified on my posts, please use they/them, thank you)
I’m AuDHD
The things I’m always into is clowns, ninja turtles, horror, retrofuturism, muppets, strawberry shortcake, hello kitty. The list will change presumably as I go forward.
I have a special interest in memes. They’re encapsulated in my mind, and there’ll be a meme for about anything said to me. Sorry in advance.
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I don't know how to describe it, but genderfluidity gives me probably the weirdest type of gender envy and dysphoria. I have been feeling my AGAB for a while now, but watching Juno Birch and hearing her voice, kinda just flipped the switch and brought on gender dysphoria. I don't know how to explain my thoughts, but something about transfeminine presentations and being just give me gender envy when I feel dysphoric femininely. I don't know why, they don't do anything different, they're just women being women, but the way they present themselves, their style and mannerisms just feels....different to me. It just feels right, and it feels unattainable to me, but I don't see why. I don't know why.
wish is was easier to distinguish between what is my gender identity vs gender presentation. Like I can wear whatever clothes I want, but how do I want them read on me? >:( I'm hoping and praying I get approved for a chest reduction. I want it flat and I want to be free, I can take it from there. With my chest being so big, it's hard to really see myself as who I am....whoever that may be. It improperly fits my body and so clothes are always too fucked up. God I want to be able to see myself aside from this fucked up body.
I know vampirism is often used as a metaphor for the drain of the aristocracy but I think it would be fun to have more vampire characters who were just some guy before they got turned. You seek out the most ancient vampire in existence and find out he was a 40 year old wheat farmer in ancient Mesopotamia when he was turned 7,000 years ago and he hasn’t been doing much since then.
