Isthatmorbidica - Morbidica?

Well life has lost its meaning again. What has been a relatively good patch for me has been ruined, and now returns the dread of what seems to be a constantly triggered life. Good things seem to just slip through my fingers, and I feel guilty about everything. What I was looking forward to now seems awful. I need to just kill myself at this point good god why me?

God every so often I just get that absolute primal urge to just be mlm. I don't know why. I don't know if I find even men attractive, or just can't in my state of presentation. All I know is I want boyfriends sometimes, but only if I can also be boyfriend.

A part of me is ready to just end it all. My father has decided to just worm his way back into my life, now suddenly wanting to be a father suddenly now that his marriage has fallen apart. He's just like my mom. They act like I'm an idiot, incapable, just to be talked over and have people do things for me, then get mad when I don't know it. They talk about me living with them forever, not want me to go anywhere, make comments about me not being able to stay away from home. They only call me when they want somebody to mother them. I'm too stupid to be on my own or make decisions for myself, but yeah, go ahead and call me to baby you and do what you need me to do, or when you're lonely. Don't respect my boundaries or what I tell you. I guess I'm still 13. 10 years means nothing. Nothing I did meant anything.

Even with friendships, I'm only liked because they're lonely and miss somebody else, I'm a backup. Everything, nobody cares how they've treated me, and still expect me to bend over backwards or drop everything for them. I want to pack up and leave, yet I don't know where to go. There's nowhere to go. I feel like I'm disposable, there to be picked up when needed but on my own the rest. I wish I knew where to go, but I feel out of place everywhere and I'm so emotionally drained. Everybody acts like when I'm anything but fine it's a hassle and I'm dramatic. Idk what I've done but it's just my curse I guess. I should've ended it and stayed in 2014 forever.

God I just want to look like Tank from Goofy Movie 2 ToT

Cumture

FUCK THE QUEUE IS EMPTY AGAIN

I’m so sorry finals have kept me so fucking busy I can’t even. Like I didn’t even notice

once summer break starts I’ll try to not let this happen as much

I’ve loved them since I’ve seen them

various JT doodles, with pacific rim AU in the second image

Hello! 💚

My name is Morbidica, and welcome to my blog :)

I made this blog to stem away from all my past blogs and to grow and explore myself, which isn’t something I let myself do, due to embarrassment. But I’m too old for embarrassment now. So here’s to a new era, where I have my own little bubble to grow and see what I’m supposed to be.

Other funfacts:

I am an adult

I am genderfluid (pronouns change without much rhythm, and unless specified on my posts, please use they/them, thank you)

I’m AuDHD

The things I’m always into is clowns, ninja turtles, horror, retrofuturism, muppets, strawberry shortcake, hello kitty. The list will change presumably as I go forward.

I have a special interest in memes. They’re encapsulated in my mind, and there’ll be a meme for about anything said to me. Sorry in advance.

:o ive made it into a dub video lets gooo

@unpeeled-human Captain I made the thing

https://www.tumblr.com/unpeeled-human/774053743931080704/can-i-have-a-headpat-its-been-a-rough-week?source=share

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god I wish I could drive or carpool there. Also me: three states above Florida :(

"they stopped talking about luigi mangione to silence us" his next court appearance is 9:00 AM at the New York Supreme Criminal Court, 100 Centre Street, February 21.

the reference number is IND-75657-24/001. it is within your constitutional rights to protest outside of the courthouse, make signs, and voice your opinions as loudly as you can. YOU don't have to stop talking about him. show up.