This Endless Toil (that I’m Unable To Perform) Is Getting To Me

Blissful love involves very little running to each others arms in open fields and tearfully confessing your feelings in a dramatic outpouring of emotion. It involves a lot more hitting each other with paper towel tubes and remembering the way that people like their eggs. And that is beautiful. The fact that love is mundane is incredible. That this powerful and inspiring emotion is so damn common is amazing. The fact that you can find people who deeply love each other in carpool lanes and grocery stores is amazing. Every time a person picks up their phone with “hey honey” there is love there. Every time someone drives their friend to the airport at the crack of dawn there is love there. Every time someone says “do you need help bringing in the groceries?” there is love there. There is love in the most mundane tasks when they are done with or for someone we care about. Blissful, compelling, fulfilling love can be found in all sorts of random mundane places because ultimately that sort of overwhelming and beautiful love is itself very common.

I love you so much I hope we get reborn as housecats who sleep together like puzzle pieces

i love you. on purpose.

The analogy between living and not dying

You don’t know what it feels like,

When there’s a thousand voices speaking in your mind and none of them makes sense,

You don’t know what it feels like,

Sitting in front of the mirror trying to smile and watching that smile fade away,

You don’t know what it feels like,

Having a constant heartache, taking blames for mistakes you never even made,

You don’t know what it’s like,

Feeling out of breath, struggling to stop yourself from suffocating,

You don’t know what it’s like,

Not sleeping at night with the fear that maybe you won’t ever wake up,

You don’t know what it’s like,

Pretending to be happy, just for the sake of seeing everyone else smile,

You don’t know what it’s like,

Not knowing when things will get better without getting worse than they are now,

You don’t know what it’s like,

When you have to comfort yourself; even when your head is spinning,

You don’t know what it’s like,

Not being able to speak out; for you fear that no one will take you seriously,

You won’t ever know what it’s like,

Of being so scared to die, but being even more scared living like the worlds coming to an end.

ps. If there’s anyone who relates to these words and thinks the same way, we’re in this together and you’re going to be happy one day, truly happy. 🌈

-afreen

Unusual Asks

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? 

is your room messy or clean?

what color are your eyes?

do you like your name? why?

what is your relationship status? 

describe your personality in 3 words or less

what color hair do you have?

what kind of car do you drive? color?

where do you shop?

how would you describe your style?

favorite social media account

what size bed do you have? 

any siblings?

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?

favorite snapchat filter? 

favorite makeup brand(s)

how many times a week do you shower?

favorite tv show?

shoe size?

how tall are you?

sandals or sneakers? 

do you go to the gym? 

describe your dream date

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?

what color socks are you wearing? 

how many pillows do you sleep with?

do you have a job? what do you do? 

how many friends do you have? 

whats the worst thing you have ever done? 

whats your favorite candle scent? 

3 favorite boy names

3 favorite girl names

favorite actor? 

favorite actress? 

who is your celebrity crush?

favorite movie? 

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? 

money or brains? 

do you have a nickname? what is it? 

how many times have you been to the hospital?

top 10 favorite songs

do you take any medications daily? 

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)

what is your biggest fear? 

how many kids do you want? 

whats your go to hair style?

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) 

who is your role model? 

what was the last compliment you received?

what was the last text you sent?

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real?

what is your dream car? 

opinion on smoking?

do you go to college? 

what is your dream job? 

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? 

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? 

do you have freckles? 

do you smile for pictures?

how many pictures do you have on your phone? 

have you ever peed in the woods? 

do you still watch cartoons? 

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds?

Favorite dipping sauce? 

what do you wear to bed? 

have you ever won a spelling bee?

 what are your hobbies?

can you draw? 

do you play an instrument?

what was the last concert you saw? 

tea or coffee?

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?

do you want to get married?

what is your crush’s first and last initial?

are you going to change your last name when you get married? 

what color looks best on you? 

do you miss anyone right now? 

do you sleep with your door open or closed?

do you believe in ghosts?

what is your biggest pet peeve? 

last person you called`

favorite ice cream flavor? 

regular oreos or golden oreos? 

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? 

what shirt are you wearing? 

what is your phone background?

are you outgoing or shy?

do you like it when people play with your hair?

do you like your neighbors? 

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?

have you ever been high? 

have you ever been drunk? 

last thing you ate? 

favorite lyrics right now

summer or winter? 

day or night? 

dark, milk, or white chocolate? 

favorite month? 

what is your zodiac sign

 who was the last person you cried in front of? 

my girl wronged by the narrative, my girl haunting her own story, my girl dead in the first act, my girl the blank in between the lines, my girl the phantom of the past the apparition of the future

It’s poetic when the love is mutual.

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“I’m surrounded by people and feel alone. I claim to crave a bit of normalcy but now that I have some, it’s like I don’t know what to do with it, I don’t know how to be a normal person anymore.”

— Where She Went, Gayle Forman