Happy Spooky Month!

Trying out some new ClipStudio pens and techniques I found online, so here's a little doodle redraw of my favourite cursed wizard and his dragon boyfriend

I’m not a classicist, but I suspect one of the reasons so many of the Greek gods are portrayed so unflatteringly was less because they were seen as villains than because they represented their domains.  Of course Zeus sometimes misuses his power, that’s what a king does.  Of course Artemis’s wrath is wild and painful, that’s what nature can be.  Of course Hades snatched away a young girl from her mother’s arms, that’s what death does.  This is one of the reasons callout posts for some gods comparing them negatively to ‘nicer’ gods are kind of missing the point.

I'm gonna talk about episode 18 once again because holy fuck that episode sure does make me want to eat glass/pos

Ok so the argument in episode 18. It's Bad. It is a genuinely horrific argument that ended in physical violence, which sure is an accomplishment when you literally share a body with the person you are fighting with.

Now, most arguments that John and Arthur have, are eventually just swept under the rug, after all there's no point bickering when there is a creature trying to kill you to death right? But this one is not.

John broke Arthur's trust and Arthur does not let go of that. It takes him a while before he even gets on civil terms with John. He says that he'll only agree to work with John if John agrees to never mention Faroe's name ever again, which John agrees to.

A lot of their arguing and petty squabbling in episode 19 comes from Arthur still being upset from what John said in episode 18.

Episode 20 rolls around, and John and Arthur are back to being on good terms for the majority of the episode. The King however, brings up this argument to Arthur, and Arthur states that whilst he hates Join for betraying his trust, he doesn't hate John for calling him an unfit father.

Whilst that may be true, it doesn't mean it didn't hurt for his best friend to tell him that he sees Arthur as the absolute worst part of himself.

Anyway, we come to episodes 24 and 25 which is where things really get interesting in my opinion. Throughout episodes 21-23, Arthur has told Yellow about how he reminds him of the worst parts of John, the parts that betrayed his trust.

But now John is back. John is back and Arthur is overjoyed to have his friend back but things have happened whilst John has been gone, and now Arthur is dead set on killing a man that John knows nothing about. A man that Arthur simply describes as a bad person, meaning he deserves to die.

John is naturally shocked at this. Arthur is a man who has generally shown sympathy and kindness to all sorts of people and creatures when he's sure they're not a direct threat to his life.

What John doesn't know is that Larson cheerfully bragged to Arthur about willingly sacrificing his own daughter as she begged for him to save her. John does not know this because Arthur does not tell him this.

Of course he doesn't. Arthur has never been one to talk willingly about his own trauma, this on top of the way John betrayed his trust in episode 18? Of course he's not going to tell him.

The last thing Arthur wants at a time when he is already incredibly emotionally vulnerable is for John to turn around and say something along the lines of "is he really that much worse than you?"

John is changing and doing his best, but Arthur is human and emotional and John hurt him, and that's something that he does not simply forget.

Well damn!! This is new!

Nickname: Jay, J, Jason, Jayce and if you were in my high school drama show, you get to call me Matt

Height: about 5’6 last I measured

Last thing I googled: Japanese Edo Period time keeping systems or refs for old scottish castles, I can’t remember which.

Song stuck in my head: rn it’s Broken People by the Narcissist Cookbook, which is ironic bc it doesn’t even rhyme

Number of Followers: 93, which is insane, but I’m like at least 70% sure most of them are porn bots

Dream Job; head writer, story-boarder or creator of my own animated show :3

Wearing: an ACDC t-shirt, a pair of thongs (or I guess other countries call them flip-flops) and some thick grey shorts, along with my aro-ace rings

A Book/Movie that really summarises you: there’s nothing that really fits cleanly, but I have consistently identified with, binged and cried every time rewatch treasure Planet. At this point it’s like my comfort movie on so many levels. I don’t know what that says about me, but it’s as close to an answer as I can get for this question :/

Favourite Song: this shit changes constantly, but The Narcissist Cookbook is currently continuing to provide my comfort song “Stopping a Garden Hose with Your Thumb”, which also doesn’t really rhyme.

Aesthetic: in person it’s either a light grunge or 1920’s nonbinary mob boss, but it’s mostly just lazy with a side of ‘band t-shirts are just so damn comfortable man!’. 100% in personality it’s swirling galaxies and dragons.

Favourite Author: I don’t read nearly as much “published works of fiction” as I used to, so I’m going with favourite fiction creators, and that’s hands down Jonny Sims, Red (OSP) and Alex Hirsch. yea that’s three, I’m sorry, but for fanfiction it’s IcyPanther bc I’m still addicted to Langst.

Random Fact: I have a small scar on my left hand from back when I was making my-self rich with counterfeit classroom currency just to mess with my high school English teacher lol

@trensu @donnovien @butter-and-too-much-bread @two-children-in-a-trenchcoat @autisticaboutstufflol @nauti-ca @redhhound

15 questions 15 tags

ty @drowninglnstars for the tag !!

-nickname: red

-height: that's good question

-last thing i googled: ''malevolent transcripts''

-song stuck in head: antibiotics we're wonderful pills but dont ever think we'll cure all your ills and willow by tswift

-# of followers: at least 10

-amount of sleep: usually 4-6 hours (begrudgingly)

-dream job: librarian/historian

-wearing: shirt, grey sweater, black coat

-movie/book that summarizes you: all of them

-fav song: too many, right now probably constellations by the oh hellos! and faroe's theme from malevolent

-aesthetic: changes everyday, but personality wise eldritchcore/oddcore

-fav authors: alice oseman and any romantic author ever

-random fact: i can bend almost all of my joints backwards

not tagging 15 people because that is too many but -> @aroaceupmysleeve @galxgal @gothicwolf125 @arakhnee @lesbian-hannibal @transgenre-music and whoever want to join in :P

Been thinking about starting a comic lately…

Forget favourite colours and aesthetics, tell me what personal thematic motifs and symbols you love using in your life?

The beautiful thing about art, is you can find meaning in anything. What I want to know, is what you find meaning in the most.

This is unironically the best thing I’ve seen all pride month

happy pride and happy birthday, red @comicaurora! erin had some extra capes in his backpack…

Went ham recently and decided to try and make myself in the TMA picrew I found here on tumblr just to experiment with what I thought I might look like.

Try it out here, 10/10 recommended for any tma fan

Picrew

Magnus Archives Fear Avatar

Face your fears, or embody them. Live your best spooky life. Based on the UK horror podcast The Magnus Archives, produced by Rusty Quill.

I made something

For me it’s all about how you make the initially awful situation a comfort compared to other stuff, and I don’t mean this in terms of just torture vs worse torture. It’s about the way a cramped closet in the dark feels like hell at first but has since become comforting now that it’s the only place they feel safe because at least here they’re left alone. Or how a whumper can’t help but keep thinking that they’d rather be actively hurt than try to recon with the mind games and forced intimacy because at least when they’re being hurt they feel like they know how to feel about whumper. Or even little things they took for granted like a rag they used as a blanket, or disgusting food that was they’re only option, being taken away.

It’s escalation sure, but in a way that makes recovery for whumper so much harder, because of those constants, and those sources of comfort that make you feel as soon as your snapped back to the reality that it isn’t normal. in constantly choosing between the bad and the worse in their head, wishing things would go back to just being not as awful, they later realise they completely forgot about anything else. And with those few scraps of comfort being the only thing that makes them feel safe anymore, even after being rescued, can lead to some interesting and possibly harmful coping mechanisms as they try to feel normal again.

What feels comforting is often what us familiar, but sometimes what is familiar to whumper can be the furthest thing from comforting to caretaker.

But then again it really comes down to just balancing reader experiences. Too much of the same isn’t fun, you gotta dangle that hope that things can be better even if whumpee doesn’t believe it in the moment. To me they’re stories about how people survive, regardless of how different they come out the other side of it all, and that struggle will always be more interesting to me than everything constantly getting worse with no promise of resolution. Surprises are fun, but the same set up with different unique ways of whumping the whumpee can get tedious.

Idk just my thoughts.

I feel like total discomfort/ constant complete suffering can become sort of numbing for a character, taking away the impact of escalation at a certain point. It's the scraps of comfort the character gets or finds that hit harder then some of the most brutal scenes I've read/seen. That's just me though, what are yalls thoughts on this?