Human!Reader being traded to Fae!Price to keep the peace. Like I heard once in ancient China, actual royal daughters wouldn't be married off, other girls would be married in their place, so maybe reader's parents volunteered her to be married instead of the king's beloved daughter?
see you perfectly get me ๐ฉ๐ฉ i hope you donโt mind me using this as a chance to yap <3
The fae had no love for you.
You had known this from the moment you stepped into the obsidian palace, its towering spires slicing through the mist-laden sky like blades. You had been dressed in human silks then- pale, delicate, and utterly wrong in a court where darkness was beauty, where even the air shimmered with otherworldly grace. The moment you crossed the threshold, every gaze in the room had cut into you, assessing and dismissing in the same breath because not a single one of them wanted a human amongst them- least of all as their queen.
The words had not been spoken aloud, but you had felt them all the same, woven into the murmurs that rippled through the court. They had expected the human kingโs beloved daughter (even if they would have hated her all the same), a princess groomed for diplomacy, raised in luxury. Instead, they had been given you- the daughter of an unimportant noble, a substitute barely trained in courtly graces but more than capable with ink and parchment, a woman who had spent years buried under the work the princess refused to do.
They had not wanted you.
And neither, it seemed, had your husbands.
King John Price, your husband, had barely acknowledged you beyond what duty required. He had spoken the vows in the old tongue, words and sounds you could never hope to replicate with a human tongue, and sealed the marriage with a kiss so fleeting it barely brushed your lips, then turned away to his own husbands- also yours, but they werenโt kings, so no kiss was required between you and them.
(The concept was still so strange to you. Humans practiced monogamy at the very least, in public- yet you had learned fae cared very little for such things.)
They were his advisors; Johnny, Simon, Kyle, and they were no different. They were powerful men, sharp as the wind over the mountains, and just as untouchable.
You were an outsider, a human intruder in a world where every glance from you was considered an insult, every word a nuisance.
They did not mistreat you, no. They simply ignored you, and you told yourself that it was worlds better than being hurt anywaysโฆ even if the loneliness hurt.
And so you threw yourself into the work. The human princess had forced all her duties on you for years, and it was no different here- except now it was fae treaties, fae disputes, fae taxes, all of which they happily let you drown in. You handled it all without complaint. The paperwork was easier to deal with than the loneliness. And if they noticed the way you handled the endless the endless paperwork that the court so conveniently let pile up on your desk, they gave no indication.
You were a human among fae. And in their eyes, that made you insignificant.
Your days blurred together in a haze of ink-stained fingers and stiff-backed chairs, the weight of the crown heavier than you had ever imagined. It might have continued that way- silent, distant, suffocating- if not for the day the Queen Mother descended upon you.
She despised humans. You could see it in the way she sneered at you, the way she spoke as if addressing something beneath her. But she was old, cunning, and- unlike her son- unwilling to let a political marriage go to waste. She had entered your chambers one evening without announcement, her presence crackling in the air like a brewing storm.
For a long moment, she had said nothing. And then:
"You look human."
You had stiffened at her tone. It was not a compliment.
"That is your first mistake."
She had circled you then, her gaze stripping you bare. "The court despises you. My son ignores you, as do his husbands- they do not even see you. Why?"
You had swallowed, resisting the urge to drop your gaze. "โฆ Because I am human."
A flicker of a smile, cold and knowing. "No, child. Because you make no effort to be anything else. You are no longer within humans.โ
That night, your wardrobe was stripped away- every pale gown, every soft fabric, every piece of jewelry that marked you as human. In their place, the Queen Mother had garments brought in that dripped with fae elegance.
Your dresses were no longer delicate, but sharpโcut to flatter the lines of your body, corseted to perfection, woven with fabrics darker than midnight and embroidered with silver-threaded fae flowers that shimmered when they caught the light. Your silks no longer billowed, but clung, whispering around you like shadows given form.
Your jewelry transformed you further. Earrings that mimicked the elongated points of fae ears, tapering into elegant curves. Rings shaped into sharp, clawed talons that gleamed when your fingers moved. Tiaras twisted into the illusion of horns, their dark metal twining like the antlers of the fae lords. Even your hair was adorned with woven fae flora, petals shifting as though alive.
When you stepped before the mirror, you barely recognized yourself.
You were still human. But you no longer looked like prey.
The court noticed first. The whispered mockery did not cease, but it changed- less scornful, more wary. Some sneered that you were playing dress-up, but others looked twice, their gazes lingering in ways they never had before.
Your husbands were slower to react, but when they did, it was irreversible. It was the point of no return- even if you did not know it at the time. Did not once suspect this had been the Queen Motherโs plan from the start.
Johnny cracked first.
One evening during another dinner where you were supposed to be ignored once more, as you reached for a goblet, he caught your hand- his calloused fingers brushing the rings now shaped like talons. His thumb grazed over the curved metal, blue eyes flicking up to yours with something thoughtful, something curious.
โโฆThis suits you, lass."
A simple statement. But his touch lingered a moment longer than necessary. You did not allow yourself to think more of it, as he eventually turned away from you and returned to ignoring you.
Kyle was next. It was not the rings he noticed, but the way the darker fabrics shaped you, the way the fae silks whispered around your form when you moved. His sharp gaze assessed you, and when you met his eyes, he hummed- low and appreciative.
"Fascinating."
Simon was the hardest to read, but you caught the way his head tilted slightly when you walked past him, the way his gaze lingered on the flowers adorning you, unreadable but lingering. He did not speak on it. He never did speak to you, not eveb now. But he watched.
And for the first time since your marriage to John, he truly looked at you; not past you. Not through you. But at you.
The next time you stood before him, spine straight, chin lifted, cloaked in the elegance of the fae, John leaned back in his seat, exhaling slowly. His eyes raked over you in quiet thoughts, but there was something different this time- something sharper, darker.
You had changed.
And the court had noticed.
He had seen the way the nobles looked at you now- the way their gazes lingered too long on the curve of your throat, the bare skin exposed by the daring cut of your gown. The way their admiration had shifted, no longer dismissive but hungry. Once, they had sneered at your presence, insulted by the mere thought of a human in their midst. Now, they sought your attention, vying for your favor with soft smiles and murmured compliments.
It soured something in him.
His fingers curled against the armrest of his throne, a slow, thoughtful movement. He knew he had no right to feel this way. He had ignored you first. Had dismissed you, had treated you as a necessity rather than a wife. And yet-
He did not like the way they looked at you.
From the corner of his eye, he could see the way the others reacted as well. Kyleโs jaw was tight, his gaze sharp whenever a noble leaned too close. Johnny had grown restless, the usual brightness in his eyes dimming whenever he caught another fae whispering to you, their voices dipped too low. And Simon was a shadow at the edge of the room, silent, unmoving, but his cold stare was a warning, his claws tapping idly against the hilt of the dagger at his belt.
They saw it, too.
You were theirs.
And now, far too many in this court seemed to be forgetting that.
Johnโs grip on the chair tightened before he forced himself to relax, schooling his expression back into something unreadable.
Well, he may have been a neglectful husband to you in the beginningโฆ but no time better than the present to fix his mistake.
Fake messages au
A small insight into the lives of the reader and their relationship with the rookies.
How Max Verstappen is introduced to the rookie maddness
When did meeting your idol make him your boyfriend? Also Lando's possessive abt his teammates but we been knew that.
McDonald's and annoying the shit out of a particular Monganesque, could the day get any better?
You meet THE Charles Leclerc, so yes, the day could get better!
Reader is a menace, the boys deal with it... every.single.day.
Logan rocked, everyone shocked.
Parties and After parties, the rookies are all right! Well, maybe not but they make for great cautionary tales.
The rookies are like gremlins, don't give them alcohol after midnight and maybe invest in a few leashes.
We finally know everything the rookies got up to in their drunken crusade.
Reader goes to Australia and is reminded of all the times Logan, Oscar and her spent in the Aussies' house as teens.
Reader finally meets the Leclercs but maybe they don't want to meet her.
Arthur and Reader cause chaos and chaos only
Oh Micky you're so fine.... oh and also y/n throws a killer Halloween party
we're beefing with the paparazzi once again and damn Y/n's got hands
we're so back
The planning
incorrect quotes 1!
Hey, I hope youโre having a good day! I had an idea, Marvel cast flirting with y/n for x minutes?
. . MARVEL CAST FLIRTING WITH Y/N Y/L/N FOR 10 MINUTES STRAIGHT!
Coming home from an extremely long and stressful day/week was unfortunately something very familiar to youโso familiar that you and your best friend (your not famous best friend who was your pilar through all the chaos fame brought) had created a little routine; sheโd send you various videos and links to movies and online books she knew would relax and amuse you.
So, cuddled up in your bed with your pyjamas and your star lights on (a true child at heart, always) you opened up your chats with them and eagerly swiped to see that theyโd sent.
โMarvel Cast Flirting with Y/N Y/L/N For 10 Minutes Straight!โ was the video for tonight.
Immediately you cackled to yourself, hurriedly sending your best friend thanks in the form of ironic emojis and frantic proclamations of undying love, before loading up the (true to prior word) ten minute long video.
Surely this was an exaggeration.
The video began, large letters in a cute font appearing on the dark screen โthe marvel cast all being in love flirting with y/n for ten minutesโ. The quick โAS THEY SHOULDโ before the clips started playing made you giggle to yourself.
The first clip was from some years back, you were pretty sure this was a premiere for The Avengers, given how you looked and the qualityโyou were standing opposite on interview, smile on your face and dressed in a pretty outfit the same colour of your characterโs aesthetic.
โHow do you feel about your costume?โ
Before you could even answer the interviews question, Scarlett intercepted your interviewโhair in a short red bob and a smirking grin at her lips as she wrapped an arm around your waist.
โWell I know how we all feel about this ladies costume, itโs a beautiful piece that just makes the women wearing all the more beautiful. If thatโs even possible.โ
The edit quickly gave Scarlett beating heart eyes for you as she didnโt tear her eyes away from you for a secondโmaking present time you laugh.
With that she kissed your cheek, leaving a red mark of her lipstick and walked away, dramatically winking in your direction.
The second clip was a blooper, from .. Captain America: Civil War, you thought. You were on Sebastianโs shoulders, thighs locked over his headโin character, as your character and his were mid fight.
He stumbled back over a table accidentally and you let out a startled yelp, hands flying to steady yourself in his long hair and one of his landing on your arse cheek to steady you as he steadied himself with the other.
โIs it bad that Iโm loving this?โ
โSEBAโโ
โCut!โ
The third clip was you and Lizzie (Elizabeth Olsen) reacting fan tweets; Lizzie unrolled the piece of paper, her eyes lighting up as she giggled with a little smirk.
โElizabeth. .โ You wearily trailed off, looking at your friend.
โSorry, sorry. Okay! This tweet says if i could just pretty BEEP please with the juiciest most mouthwatering cherry on top get a not kid friendly scene of Wanda and (Your Character) I could die peacefully, my wish fulfilled. I implore you marvel, listen to your dying fan.โ
โThat tweet had over fifty thousand likes as well.โ A feminine voice added in from behind the camera, laughter in her tone.
You and Lizzie turned to each other at the same time, grinning.
โI mean the fan is dying babe. .โ
โRight? We should totally make this happen, like, totally.โ She gave you a cheeky once over, eyes appreciating all of you. โBecause it was the fans wish, not mine, duh.โ Lizzie added.
โMhm.โ You hummed with a smirk.
The fourth clip was a evidently some sort of โguess the body partโ game: a photo of what you were pretty sure was your bottom half was the picture currently used for guessing, in the picture you were leaned over in a pair of yoga pants and in your personal opinion, you looked good. Well, your arse looked good (amazing, otherworldlyโyou humbly added)
Lizzie was the first person to answer, the video showing each persons turn one by one and immediately she said, โthatโs my girl. Y/N.โ Then giggling she added, โnow get my girls booty off the screen, I donโt need you all ogling her. We get enough of that, sometimes causes a strain on us. But weโve remained strong together.โ
Paul Rudd was next and he stared at the picture of you for a few solid seconds, โitโs Y/N.โ He sheepishly admitted. He pointed an accusing finger dramatically towards the cameraโโI only know this because of all the edits you guys make!โ
โYou donโt have to watch them.โ The interviewer pointed out innocently; Paul pouted, grumbling.
Next was Anthony who instantly answered, โThatโs Y/N right here!โ He hyped you up, grinning. โDonโt even try and make it creepy, we do glutes together man, itโs why weโre the best asses in the cast. Up top!โ Anthony exclaimed, holding his hand up towards the picture as if pretending to high five you or somethingโthe interviewer timidly gave him a high five.
Sebastian was next as you (and everyone) watch his eyes flicker and grin that was more of a smirk spread across his cheeks, โthatโs definitely y/n.โ He assumed instantly. โWouldโve been able to tell you that blindfolded.โ
โButโโ
โIโd have just sensed her.โ Sebastian giggled.
Chris Evans was nextโa grin picked up on his face immediately, eyes trained on the photo of you and he ran a hand over his beard, lightly biting his lip (HEELLLOOO????)
โThatโs Y/n.โ Chris stated confidently, smirking lightly and the camera caught some of the team in line of sight exchange raised eyebrows.
The fifth clip was of Brie Larson who was being interviewed on some sort of premiere event againโpresumably or her (marvellous) movie, Captain Marvel, smiling at the interviewer.
โOut of all of the people on the Marvel Cast, those who youโve met, do you have a favourite out of them?โ The interview questioned.
โIโm not really one for favourites but I would definitely say Iโm closest to Y/n! Sheโsโsheโs just so lovely and funny and sheโs like a ray of sunshine, honestly. Sheโs been a great help in the filming process as well, she coached me through everything with so patienceโI wouldโve strangled me if I was her, but no, she just had that adorable smile on her face. Sheโs truly an amazing person and a better friend than I thought possible.โ Brie answered enthusiastically with a soft smile.
โAwwww! We love to hear thatโare any of the rumours about her true?โ
Brie blinked, seeming taken aback for a brief momentโ โYes she does smell amazing, sheโs always effortlessly beautiful, sheโs unfailingly hilarious and yes no one in this world deserves her. But like. . if sheโs open to it,โ Brie paused, winking at the camera and making a call me sign with her hands and mouthing the words with a flirty grin.
The sixth clip was of you, Tom Holland, RDJ, Paul Bettany, Zoe Saldana and Pom Klementieff on Jimmy Kimmel, tasked with drawing your characters. The clip started just as you turned around the drawing of your character and well, it was actually surprisingly good in your own opinionโthe audience immediately erupted into loud and obnoxious cheers.
โAs great as that is, love, it still doenst capture the extent of your beauty.โ Tom Holland, who was sat to your left, grinned cheekily at you and the audience practically shouted and hooted.
โWould anything ever?โ Zoe shot back from your right side, twirling a lock of your hair affectionately and smiling as she leaned against you.
โI sincerely doubt that anything could.โ RDJ piped up, giving you an unapologetic grin when you looked over at him with fond exasperation as the crowd was practically inconsolable in their glee and enthusiasm, shouting out your praises. โGive it up for sunshine, people. Our gorgeous ray of sunshine!โ
โIโโ
โThey are quite right, Y/n.โ Paul Bettany spoke over Jimmy who was obviously going to try and calm down his crowd.
The seventh clip started playing: it was a clip taken from Jacob Batalonโs story, clearly in a party settingโthe video showed you and Zendaya in the centre of the dance floor, everyone around you clearly watching you both as you danced up against each other to the sounds of Yeah! by Usher.
โMate I think your girls about to be stole.โ The voice of Tomโs friend, Harrison, sounded from beside Jacob and presumably Tom himself and to empathise Harrisonโs words, Jacob zoomed in on your faces, wide grins of ecstasy, and the way Zendaya was admiring you.
โRight in public as well, the scandal.โ Jacob cackled.
The eighth clip was an interview of Chris Evans and McKenna Grace (you adored that little girl to pieces). The two of them were answering the โWebs Most Searched Questionโsโ together.
โWho was.. Chris Evans, date at the Oscars?โ
McKenna immediately ooed, smiling teasingly and Chris laughed from beside her.
โThis is getting juicy!โ
โWell, it was my mom one year and then my sister last yearโโ
โHe wishes it was Y/n though.โ The little girl laughed with a beaming smile on her lips and you, present time, arched a brow.
Chris bashfully chuckled with a smile and you swore you could see a genuine red hue on his cheeks, โI meanโitโs Y/n. Anyone would be happy to go with her.โ
โI would be!โ McKenna excitedly exclaimed as she grinned so sweetly you were now going to make sure you took this sweet child with you to the Oscarโs, Chris seemed to melt as well, recovering from his brief flustered moment.
The ninth clip was Sebastian and Anthony reading out their thirst tweets in a Buzzfeed interview, the clip started as Sebastian was pulling out a tweet from the large bucket.
He read it to himself and blushed faintly, Anthonyโs eyebrows practically reaching his forehead as he tried to lean over and read it but Sebastian jokingly shoved him back.
โOh forโThat scene where (Your Character) chokes baby Bucky out with her thighs, hisโhis head all up in there; the shit I would give to be her, I would give my soul, my fridge, my moms purse, my dads golf clubs. Please, sir. Put your face between my legs like you did Y/n.โ
By the end of the tweet, Sebastian had a deeply awkward and slightly perturbed look on his face and Anthony cackled at his side.
โNah, Iโm pretty sure he was more than happy with it being Y/n, wouldnโt change it even for your dads golf clubs.โ Anthony laughed.
โThatโs. . Iโm gonna have to decline that, um, respectfully.โ Sebastian spoke in regards to the tweet, ignoring Anthony.
In turn, Anthony ignored Sebastian as well and just dramatically kept winking at the camera.
The tenth clip was Cobie Smulders, who was being interviewed on some sort of carpet event, smile on her face as she spoke to the interviewer before her.
โHow does it feel knowing that the lesbian community, myself included, are firmly rooting for your character, Maria and Y/Nโs character (Your Character) to end up together?โ
Cobieโs smile turned genuinely delighted, โI love itโwe love it. Y/n and I actually have made so many PowerPoints and presented them to the Russo brothers, but alas. I do really want to end up with herโoops, sorry, wait. I really want my character to end with hers. . would be the appropriate wording. But Iโm all for inappropriate if Y/n wants.โ
Cobie jokingly bit her lip at the camera and you, watching the video, could not contain your laughter as the interviewer practically burst out with excitement.
The eleventh clip was a blooper from your filming of the avengersโyou were standing next to Chris Hemsworth who had an arm around your waist, holding you to him as in the scene his character, Thor, flies the both of you away. But Chris quickly tugged you in front of him and began tickling you mercilessly, hysterical giggles falling from your lips as the people around you laughed as well.
โChris, HAVE MERCY!โ
โAw, but I enjoy hearing your laughter. Itโs a very pretty sound.โ Chris laughed to himself, finally stopping his attack and letting you slump against his, back to his front. โI particularly like this as well.โ He smirked down at you.
โCHRIโโ
In the twelfth clip, you and Tessa Thompson were reading out thirst tweets together: โThe feminine urge to fall asleep cuddled into Y/nโs boobs is too real, pls come here mommy.โ You read out, giggling all the while.
โThe urge is so strong.โ Tess commented, nodding her add as she sneakily glanced at your chest with a innocent smile.
โCome here, baby.โ You joked, laughing as you opened your arms for her and she practically leaped into them, resting her head on your chest.
โIโm living the dreams of millions right now and it feels amazing.โ Tessa gloated jokingly, pulling away from you with only final squeeze and a little wink the camera caught.
โI concur.โ You grinned back.
The thirteenth clip was you and Tom Hiddleston, talking with an interviewer on a carpet event. His arm was around your waist and both of you were wearing smiles greeting the interviewer.
โSo, obviously, you both act in marvel movies, but not really close together! If you could, would you want to work more closely and have you characters be more involved?โ
โI absolutely would.โ Tom immediately replied with an honest, heartwarming smile. โAnd personally, itโs not even a fact of our characters being intertwined itโs more that working this fantastic woman beside me is a gift I have come to deeply cherish, truly itโs an honour. And I suppose, if our characters were to get involved, so to speak, that I would enjoy that because this is the y/n y/l/n, Iโd be a mad man not to want that.โ He finished charmingly.
You grinned, taking a bow, and both Tom and the interviewer laughed before that clip cut as well.
The fourteenth clip was at Comic-Con, mostly everyone on the cast had already been called out and taken their seats and then your name was called, the audience erupting into loud cheers.
Sebastian, who was sat next to your assigned seat, hopped and and jogged over to offer you his arm as you grinned and waved at everyoneโthe crowd screaming louder at his actions.
The screams only increased as Chris Evans and Don Cheadle got up to pull out your chair for you to sit down inโyou pretended to swoon into Sebastian before kissing all of their cheeks and taking your seat.
โWhere was the treatment for me?โ RDJ joked.
โMan, theyโre just whipped. But, like, who isnโt for Y/n?โ Anthony stage whispered back to him and the crowd literally roared in excitement.
The fifteenth clip was Aaron Taylor-Johnson being interviewed with Lizzie for the Age of Ultron press, most probably.
โSo, Aaron, obviously your characterโspoilers, sorryโisnโt with us anymore but if you had the chance to explore Pietro more, who would you have wanted to explore a romance with?โ
โ(Your Character) definitely, Y/N.โ Aaron answered with a little sheepish grin at the speed and Lizzie giggled into her palm.
โIโm not making fun, I agree, for myself.โ Lizzie commented unprompted.
โWhy is that?โ The interviewer questioned.
โWhyโmate, I think itโs pretty obvious. Y/n is such a stunning person, inside and out, I would have loved toโand obviously her character is extremely sick and Iโm certain the relationship between her and Pietro wouldโve been the stuff of legends but. . come on, Y/n Y/l/n is my real reason.โ Aaron joked.
โGet your own girl, sheโs mine.โ Lizzie glared.
There were still many minutes left of the video left and that alone astounded you; overcome with cackles, you forwarded the video the your Marvel groupchatโso yall bitches like obsessed with me or sum ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
currently thinkin' about how once you become part of the vandals you turn into everyone's girl :( like, yeah, you're dating benny but you're always sittin' on johnny's lap n'playin with his collar while he talks. then you've got cockroach who is constantly tryin' out different dad jokes on ya because you will giggle at everything :( cal is always layin' his head in your lap while you're sat at the picnic table durin' a run. he doesn't protest when you start threading his blonde locks through your fingers, braiding the greasy strands :( wahoo nuzzles his nose against the top of your goddamn head like a puppy each time he sees ya bc "always smell so nice." then there's corky who follows you around like a duckling n'zipco and sonny who appreciate that you listen to their stories. you're danny's muse; he's filled up countless rolls of film of just you and he's always takin' more. the wives n'girlfriends love you n'the guys can't live without you because my oh my you're just so special :'(
summary: you & sevika work in an office, and developing a silly schoolgirl crush is the last thing you expected to happen at this point in your career...
word count: i stopped counting 3/4 of the way through once I reached 16k so this is pretty hefty!
content: pinning (of course), fluff, gay disaster, the tiniest sliver of smut
thanks for reading!
Kinda in my feelings about what it would be like to work in the same office as Sevika...
โฐโค I feel like you see her in passing a lot, since her office is only a few doors down from yours.
โฐโค The both of you often strike up casual conversations in the break room, filling the silence while awkwardly waiting for your food to heat up in the microwave.
โฐโค You always notice when she walks into the same room as you because she's constantly dressed to the ninesโslacks hugging her thick thighs just right; form fitting and sleek. They shape the curved muscles of her calves as if the manufacturers make the material just for her.
โฐโค You also notice that she has a knack for neutral colors, especially with her dress shirts. She likes the top buttons to be undone, sleeves rolled up to her elbows and collar perfectly crisp. The air that swarms her is usually woodsy with a hint of spice.
โฐโค She's magical.
โฐโค And because of that, you aren't surprised at the buzz about her in the workplace. She's one of the new hires so it's natural for her to stir up curiosity. But beyond that, there's no doubt that she's quite the enigma. You've even heard a few colleagues gossip about how much they want her.
โฐโค The first time you interact with her is when you're waiting for the microwave to finish warming up your lasagna.
โฐโค Her dress shoes click softly against the tile floor as she enters the break room, causing you to glance over your shoulder. Your eyes widen when her gaze flickers from the microwave to you.
โฐโค "Hi," You mumble pathetically. Your stomach churns and your toes curl and all of a sudden, it's like you're a shy prepubescent person all over again.
โฐโค She smells good.
โฐโค "Hey," Her voice is deep and warm. It rings straight through you before settling at the pit of your stomach.
โฐโค "Uh," You swallow, shifting your weight. "I'm almost done. Then you can use it."
โฐโค She doesn't say anything else.
โฐโค Her lack of silence sparks a wave of nerves. Next thing you know, you're gesturing towards the microwave wordlessly.
โฐโค She follows the motion, eyebrows quirking up with interest.
โฐโค "I'm having lasagna for lunch," You announce. "This is my third time having to warm it up. I forgot how stubborn pasta can be in a microwave." Then you're patting the top of the rectangular miniature oven.
โฐโค You almost allow yourself to think that her expression has morphed into amusement. But before you get carried away with your thoughts, a loud ding! sounds.
โฐโค Quickly, you open the microwave door, carefully reaching for your steaming tupperware container so that you don't burn yourself.
โฐโค "Well, it's all yours!" You don't have the courage to meet her gaze anymore, finding more interest in the carpet as you leave the room and make a beeline straight to your office.
โฐโค Interactions after that are somewhat similar. Sometimes, she asks, "How've you been?" If the wait to use the microwave is longer than usual.
โฐโค The conversations are more surface level than anythingโa routine song and dance to fill up silence for the sake of politeness.
โฐโค They're strings of, "The weathers been nice lately" and, "What are you eating today?" and, "How's the workload been for you?"
โฐโค Then you both are scurrying off to your own little sanctuaries, not planning to see each other until the next business day.
โฐโค There's another time when you're late to going on break. You usually like to be one of the first ones to clock out and heat up your food. There's only one working microwave because your boss is too cheap to replace the second one (that has been broken for several months now), which causes a long line to form for those wanting to warm up their home lunches.
โฐโค Unfortunately, today is the day where you have to join the majority and step in line. Due to a phone call that lasted longer than you expected, you don't end up going to lunch until 15 minutes later than you usually do.
โฐโค You're softly rocking on your heels when Sevika comes into view. She rounds the corner of the office, stalking towards the line with taut muscles and a grinding jaw. An air of annoyance lingers around her, eyes unfocused and seemingly far away, handsโ
โฐโค "Are you gonna step forward?" Shane, a co-coworker, asks. He appears disgruntled, pointing at the gap of space in front of you.
โฐโค That seems to gain Sevika's attention. She peers at Shane shortly before dragging her piercing stare towards you.
โฐโค Shane huffs at your silence.
โฐโค "Oh, right!" You breathe, breaking away from Sevika's regard. "Uh, sorry."
โฐโค Taking a few steps forward, you close the distance, doing your best to ignore Shane's rant about "dillydallying workers."
โฐโค A few moments pass before that familiar image of Sevika's grey eyes resurface in your brain. Glancing back towards her, you find her scuffing the heel of her dress boots against the carpet, attention set on no particular thing. She jumps between the carpet, to the gossiping co-workers nearby, to the flickering ceiling lights.
โฐโค Just when you're about to turn back around, she glances towards you. Your gut pulls, ears rushing with adrenaline and veins buzzing.
โฐโค Then, she mouths, "Hi," and you almost combust right then. Gone is the frustrated expression that was adorning her features moments before. Instead, a ghost of a smile plays on her lips.
โฐโค You blink a few times; stunned.
โฐโค You think you wave back at her, but you can't seem to be entirely in touch with whatever your body is doing.
โฐโค "Um, hey." You reply, clearing your throat.
โฐโค It's loud enough for her to hear. But it also may have been too loud. A few other people surrounding you look over in confusion.
โฐโค "Were you talking to me?" Brian, a colleague who's standing right in front of Sevika, asks.
โฐโค You bite the inside of your cheek. "Ohโuh, no. Sorry."
โฐโค Brian looks around, not so subtly, probably trying to find out who the hell your greeting was directed to.
โฐโค Sevika laughs at the interaction. It's the kind of laugh where she presses her lips together, shoulders shaking and eyes dancing with humor. She's trying to be politeโtrying to contain her laughterโbut she's not doing a very good job.
โฐโค The sight causes you to shuffle your feet in embarrassment, blowing a raspberry.
โฐโค "Look, I've only got twenty minutes of my lunch break left so if you aren't gonna pay attention..." Shane admonishes, voice thin. He's gesturing to the growing gap in front of you again, clearly fed up with your lack of wherewithal.
โฐโค You bite the inside of your cheek, choosing to ignore the way that Sevika seems to be laughing harder now. Fighting off a giggle of your own becomes difficult.
โฐโค "Okay." You reply. Then you face forward, catching up with the rest of the line. "Sorry."
โฐโค The next time you see Sevika, it's when you run into her before a staff meeting.
โฐโค Literally.
โฐโค You aren't paying attention, too busy with shuffling through your purse for a granola bar, eyes downcast and head hung low, when you walk straight into her.
โฐโค Her body is firm, your forehead knocking against the rounded muscle of her shoulder. Your breath catches, eyes widening as you try to glance up, struggling to regain your bearings.
โฐโค Strong hands grab onto your upper arms. The feeling of thumbs pressing into your skin jolts you awake from the daze you've been experiencing all day. And like a moth drawn to a flame, you feel yourself hovering closerโdrunk off of the delicious air that surrounds you.
โฐโค Sevika's air.
โฐโค "Oh," You huff, blinking up at her with wide eyes. In the back of your brain, you register the feeling of her large hands encircling your biceps. It's a feeling you welcome. But it becomes faint when you realize the reality of the situation. "I'm so sorry," You spit out, remorse crashing into you. "FuckโI mean...frick." A startled laugh escapes you. "Frick because fuck is totally not work appropriate...obviously."
โฐโค You swallow thickly. Your legs tremble, an undeniable pressure sprouting in your gut under the feeling of Sevika's pressing gaze. Her stormy grey eyes examine you with interest. It leaves your mind clouded over with impure thoughtsโunprofessional thoughts.
โฐโค "I wasn't looking." You add.
โฐโค "Clearly." Sevika's sporting a shit eating grin. Her hands squeeze your biceps. "You good?"
โฐโค "I'm good. Justโ" You clear your throat. "Well, I was actually looking for a granola bar. I forgot to take a lunch break because I'm drowning in paperwork. And then Cam announced the meeting at the last minute so I thought I could get a quick bite on the way. Except I'm pretty sure I've somehow lost my granola bar which is just my luck. And-"
โฐโค Sevika's eyebrows are raised so high that they almost meet her hairline. "I see," She mutters, sounding impassive.
โฐโค Fuck.
โฐโค Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
โฐโค Maybe you're talking a bit too muchโa habit you've been trying to break latelyโbut it's only because Sevika makes you nervous.
โฐโค It goes beyond her demeanor that screams, "I don't like people so respectfully, leave me the fuck alone."
โฐโค Sevika is your work crush. She's gorgeous and good at meeting the weekly stats, and smells good.
โฐโค Despite the office rumors of her unapproachability and death glares, she's not entirely awful in your presence. She's pretty cordial with you in fact. Which means, she doesn't dislike you as much as she probably does the others.
โฐโค After all, she always lets you use the microwave before her. And she doesn't make you feel completely useless when you tell her a cringey joke, or make an embarrassing attempt to strike up conversation.
โฐโค But now, you've opened your mouth.
โฐโค You've opened your fucking mouth and have probably turned her off before she could even get a chance to truly know you.
โฐโค You've fumbled.
โฐโค The realization embarrasses you.
โฐโค "Yeah," You respond. The both of you fall silent and you imagine a static screen being displayed on a person's TV somewhere in the world. That's the perfect personification of this moment, you think.
โฐโค Sevika hums, letting her hands fall back to her sides. Then she's stepping back, slightly faltering and looking down at the space between you both. You follow her gaze, eyes widening at the sight of fingers gripping the hem of her shirt. Your fingers.
โฐโค "Oh! Sorry," You repeat. You tug your hands away, breath catching in your throat. "This isโ" Your lips pinch together.
โฐโค God, this is embarrassing.
โฐโค Clearly scandalized, you tread a few paces backward.
โฐโค "Um, actually, I should go pee! I haven't had a chance yet, w-with the workflow and all. Especially now that the staff meeting starts soon," Your thumb juts in a general direction of the restroom behind you. "Gotta hate those bladder infections, am I right?" Pathetically, you force out a laugh.
โฐโค Humor trickles onto Sevika's features. Her lip twitches. "Right..."
โฐโค "Not that I have a bladder infection right now! I'm preventing one by going to the bathroom. My bladder is perfectly fine." One of the straps of your purse falls off your shoulder. You readjust it. "...Not that you care, or like, anything."
โฐโค A pause bleeds into the atmosphere. Slight chatter travels from a few offices down. People emerge from their desk, hastily making their way to the conference room behind Sevika. You struggle to ignore the sound of tapping keyboards and squeaking chairs. The lull is excruciating.
โฐโค "Okay, wellโ" You force a cough. "I'll go now. Catch you later, Sevika." You almost allow yourself to believe that her eyes widen when you say her name.
โฐโค But then you're turning on your heels and scurrying away, discarding the ridiculous notion.
โฐโค It's the next day when you run into her again. There you are, standing in front of the microwave, when you hear chuckling. It's easy for you to know it's hers. You find yourself savoring the sound every time it leaves her lips.
โฐโค A smile stretches across your face, and you peer over your shoulder, eyes landing on her for the first time that day. Sevika's wearing a white long-sleeve undershirt, partially covered with a black sweater vest and beige slacks. She has her hair styled in a half-up, half down. She's fiddling with a gold plated watch on her wrist, expression smug and eyes regarding the person beside her.
โฐโค The microwave beeps; a sign that it's time for you to retrieve your lunch and head back to your office. But your eyes can't help but linger on the stranger beside Sevika.
โฐโค Well, they're not really a stranger. Their name is Kai. You don't know Kai personally. You just know of them. They work in the warehouse, so you only see them during the times that all departments are required to attend the staff meetings.
โฐโค Occasionally, you may see Kai if they visit one of their friends that work on the same floor as you. They have chestnut brown eyes and a badass sleeve that covers their entire right arm. But besides that, theyโre a complete stranger.
โฐโค "Smells good," Kai announces, turning to you. There's a glint in their eyes as they gaze at you, and that makes you feel exposed for some reason. You can't understand why or even how.
โฐโค Then, your attention diverts to the way that Kaiโs fingers dance along the cuff of Sevika's sleeve. They trail up the material, alongside Sevika's forearm, before pulling away. It's the smallest gestureโsomething a general onlooker wouldn't notice without staring incredibly hardโbut you noticed. You wish you hadn't.
โฐโค "Thanks," You mumble.
โฐโค You turn around, swallow, blink, and open the microwave door. You ignore the burning of the tupperware container against your skin, trying to shut out the pounding of your heart.
โฐโค "Hey," Sevika greets, the quietest she ever has.
โฐโค It's harder for you to meet her eyes in that moment. You're distracted by Kaiโs swaying, and how it's perfectly on beat with the music that echoes through the office speakers; how theyโre majestically relaxed in a way that you never can be.
โฐโค You don't understand why such strong feelings surge through you; feelings of envy and doom and a hint of jealousy. It doesn't make sense. It isn't logical. But it's there. It's annoyingly there.
โฐโค "You're the one who just got promoted to be Cam's assistant, right?" Kai asks. You stop in your tracks, halfway between the microwave and them. A wave of shock washes over you. You never thought they ever noticed you.
โฐโค "Um, yeah. It's not really a promotion, though..."
โฐโค "No?" Kai glances at Sevika out of the corner of their eye. "Vika said so. She's mentioned it a few times, actually."
โฐโค That's when you find the courage to glance over to Sevika. Her cloudy grey eyes observe the floor, jaw grinding and hands shoved into her pockets. Sevika knows your job title?
โฐโค It feels ridiculous to be excited over such a revelation. After all, you and Sevika work in the same fucking building. How can she not know what you do?
โฐโค But there are countless coworkers in surrounding cubicles who never catch your attention; people you've never talked to. People who would never know that your office resided within walking distance from them. And the notion is the same for you when you find yourself surrounded by unfamiliar faces on days you stray too far from your office.
โฐโค But Sevika knows. She pays attention. Whether that's a good or bad thing, you allow your heart to savor the thought.
โฐโค "Oh," You mumble, swallowing thickly. Suddenly, the thought of Kaiโs close proximity to Sevika doesn't seem so bad.
โฐโค "Well, anyways, there's a clerk position opening up and I may have interest in it. Kinda wanna be a corporate person now, you know?" Kai grins, laughing lightly. You smile in return. "If I land the job, maybe you can help me get adjusted to office life? Show me the ropes a little. Vika says you're the best one on the sales team."
โฐโค Vika says you're the best one on the sales team.
โฐโค Vika says you're the best.
โฐโค Sevika's head lifts, rolling her eyes as she nudges Kai with her elbow. Kai yelps then coughs seconds after.ย
โฐโค "I just do what's in my job description." You bashfully admit.
โฐโค Kaiโs grin widens. โRightโฆโ Their words are slow and heavy with an unspoken implication.
โฐโค Their gaze shifts to Sevika, then you, then Sevika, and back to you again. The hairs on the back of your neck stand and you find yourself feeling self conscious; it feels like they know something about you that you don't want them to.
โฐโค โIโm just gonna squeeze by really quick,โ Kai announces.
โฐโค You side step, allowing them to head towards the vending machines. You make the mistake of not being spatially aware, moving over a bit too far and knocking into the table positioned to your right.ย
โฐโค "You okay?"
โฐโค Your eyebrows furrow at Sevika's questionโat her concern. The way her gaze flickers between you and the table has your stomach tugging. Your fingers tighten around your tupperware container.
โฐโค "Just clumsy," You explain, nodding at her. "Which you probably already, uh, know."
โฐโค Your memory travels back to the day before, and how you ran right into her.
โฐโค You're not sure you'll ever be able to forget something so embarrassing.
โฐโค Sevika smiles and you realize that it's the most genuine thing you've seen all day. "Oh," She says knowingly. "I do."
โฐโค She's teasing you but you don't mind it. You couldn't even if you tried because you're too caught up in how breathtakingly handsome she is. The intricate details of Sevika's smile always has a powerful effect on you.
โฐโค She has the tiniest dimples in her chin, puffy dark lips gorgeously contrasting to the whites of her teeth. And her gapโgoodness, that gap has you wanting to curl up into a ball and melt away. It's placed right between her two front teeth.
โฐโค You hold your tupperware container tighter against the lower pouch of your belly, feet rocking forwards and backwards, head swimming from Sevika's presence. She has you completely gone for her. A proper crushโand surely, due to the current circumstances of being coworkersโa rather inappropriate crush too.
โฐโค "You know," You find yourself saying. "I just realized...I've never actually introduced myself to you."
โฐโค Sevika straightens, eyes flashing with that familiar light of humor. "You're right. You haven't," She clicks her tongue. "How rude."
โฐโค Your skin prickles, "I'm the rude one?"
โฐโค "Are you insinuating otherwise?"
โฐโค "Yes." You nod, trying to erase your smile. Your cheeks are starting to ache. "Did it not take you two months to say more than just Hi to me?"
โฐโค "Not true." She clears her throat. "Sometimes, I would say hey instead."
โฐโค Your jaw drops and silence fills the room.
โฐโค And then you're laughing. It's the type of giggle that bubbles over with an emotion similar to returning home. Your cheeks ache and so does your stomach; your vision momentarily blurs from the action of squinting. Sevika joins you with her own laughter but hers is more beautiful. It's like the soft breeze of the wind on a spring morning. You'd try to make her laugh forever if you really could.
โฐโค Soon you're exhaling softly, features relaxing as you glance towards her. "I'm sure you already know who I am, and what I do here. But, for formality reasons..." You begin. It feels weird to introduce yourself to her, especially after seeing her nearly everyday for the last four months. After all, it seems like she knows enough to have already talked about you to Kai. But it makes you feel better to do it this way. You give her your name personally and shake her hand.
โฐโค A proper introduction.
โฐโค Sevika repeats your name under her breath, trying it out for herself. The sound of it causes your toes to curl inside of your shoes. When she shakes your hand, you take note of how large her fingers are compared to yours. One of her hands could engulf the both of yours without any effort. And her skin is warm and calloused. Despite the rough exterior, she touches you with such fragility that you have to glance down for a second. It's almost as if she's afraid of breaking you.
โฐโค But then the moment is over. Kai returns, this time with two bags of Doritos in their hands. They throw one at Sevika, and thanks to Sevikaโs fast reflexes, itโs caught without a single flinch.ย
โฐโค โThis should hold us over until Leah clocks out.โ Kai sighs. โShe wants to go to Famous Daveโs again and Iโm kinda in the mood for like, anything other than that. Like I can only eat a certain amount of that stuff before I start suffering from a serious case of heartburn.โ
โฐโค Sevika scrunches her nose, popping a chip into her mouth. โThen tell her that.โ
โฐโค โI can't,โ The whine of Kaiโs voice becomes oddly endearing. โYou know how she gets.โ
โฐโค โThen donโt tell her.โ
โฐโค โOr maybe you can tell her. She listens to you.โ
โฐโค Sevika rolls her eyes. โNo.โ
โฐโค โWhy notโฆโ
โฐโคโKai, just talk to her. Itโs literally not that hard.โ
โฐโค โ...Thatโs what she said.โ
โฐโค You marvel at the way that Sevika stops mid-chew, gaze still downturned at the red bag in her hand before muttering, โHilarious.โ
โฐโค You try to wipe the growing grin off of your face as you bite the inside of your cheek. Kai glances at you once more, eyes sparkling a gorgeous brown. โDo you want to join us? Weโre catching dinner at Famous Daveโs.โ
โฐโค Your jaw falls slack, shock hitting you like a ton of bricks. โOh.โ You respond. A breathless laugh leaves you. โUmโฆโ
โฐโค โItโll just be me, Leah and Vika. Do you know Leah? Sheโs in accounting. Kinda tall, lankyโฆsocially awkward with bright purple hair?โ
ย โฐโค The description doesn't ring any bells for you. โUh, no. I don't think Iโve seen her around yet.โ
โฐโค โUnderstandable. She works all the way up on the 8th floor.โ Kai tilts their head, regarding you with a warmth you aren't used to receiving from anyone in this building besides Sevika and your boss. โAnyways, the offer still stands?โ
โฐโค Thatโs when Sevika glances up at you through her lashes. She doesnโt necessarily crack a smile, but a corner of her lip has curved into something subtle.ย
โฐโค โI wish. But Iโm working overtime to help Cam with our pitch tomorrow.โ You attempt to ignore the way your heart deflates as you say this.ย
โฐโคโAw, man.โ Kai tosses their empty Dorito bag into a nearby trash can.ย
โฐโค "But we should definitely plan something soon.โ Before you do anything stupid, like flaking on Cam last minute just to meet up with coworkers for dinner, you urge yourself to bid them goodbye. โI'll catch you guys another time, alright?"ย
โฐโค "Nice meeting you!โ Kai calls. A short hiss escapes the bottle in their hand as they twist off the cap and tilt their head back. It's a diet coke.
โฐโค "You too!โ
โฐโค It's awkward when you slip past them both, proximity dangerously close to Sevika. You find the courage to whisper, โLater Vika,โ to her at the last second.
โฐโค Her body stiffens and it almost sounds like she chokes while swallowing another mouthful of her chips. Itโs probably the least collected display of behavior youโve ever witnessed from her.ย
โฐโค You stifle a laugh, brushing past her and towards the direction of your office.ย
โฐโค You feel really fucking sad today.
โฐโค Days like today are days that you dread. It isn't a result of anything particular. Of course, you want to be able to blame an event or cause. But the truth of the matter is that you're just having a really bad mental health day.
โฐโค It first starts off with you waking up late. You never wake up late. Your mornings are pretty routine. Some may call them mundane, but routine helps you get through the day easier. So when your alarm doesn't sound and you wake after a bad dream, realizing that it's 30 minutes past the time that your alarm usually rings, your heart sinks.
โฐโค You don't have time for a full breakfast. You have to settle for toast and orange juice instead, slipping on the cleanest pair of jeans and shirt that you can find. When you make it to work, you're just on time. But everything is off.
โฐโค Because instead of your usual business casual attire, you're sporting faded jeans, a blank t shirt and beat up sneakers. Your muscles are still sluggish and your eyelids are heavy. So far, the morning isn't great.
โฐโค As time passes, you realize that you're quite ahead in your work. Cam is off for the day, which means you don't have any extra errands or tasks to do for him. There is truly not much left to accomplish.
โฐโค You settle on the mission of clearing out your voicemail box. But that's soon completed. Your latest emails are nothing of importance and you don't have any upcoming meetings to attend. A cloud of doom hovers over you. By 11 AM, it doubles in size. Once noon hits, it's time for your lunch break and a sorrowful cloud clings onto you like a leech.
โฐโค It's hard to gain a semblance of what to do next. Your heart's true desire calls for your bed and a long restful sleep. Your chest seizes with dull aches and your mind swarms with everything yet nothing at all. This is a familiar feeling that you always hate. It's hard to prevent days like this. It always creeps up on you before you can find the strength to prevent it.
โฐโค You're nearly 30 minutes late to taking your lunch today. You've packed a deli sandwich with grapes, pretzels and a bag of potato chips. But none of it is appealing. And for the first time in months, it's a cold lunchโwhich you don't usually prefer.
โฐโค Your legs take you to the break room. It's almost empty, with only the buzz of a few coworkers trailing in and out. You sit at one of the tables in the corner, sighing softly and staring down at your lunch.
โฐโค You aren't hungry. Whenever the rare days like today hit youโdays when your appetite for life fadesโa dwindling appetite for food soon follows. But if you don't eat, then you'll later find yourself crouched in your bed with aching temples, fighting off the pains of a skipped meal. So you open the tupperware container that has a handful of green grapes and take a few bites.
โฐโค There's something about working in an office environment that you enjoy. It's mostly independent-driven, which you prefer. You don't mind the quiet solace that comes along with being in your own office, surrounded by towers of paperwork and due dates. The system of doing the same tasks throughout the dayโof working through the same checklistsโalways leaves you feeling at ease.
โฐโค Even the soft rings of telephones and fingers typing against keys provides you the same comfort that brown noise does for other individuals. Everything about your job is monotonous and ordinary, and therefore absolutely perfect.
โฐโค Your shoulders soon relax as you eavesdrop on a conversation between two coworkers huddled together on the other side of the break room. It's silly workplace gossip about other folks that you don't know, but for the sake of people watching, you allow yourself to become preoccupied with the way they interact with one another.
โฐโค Both of the girls are dressed in fashionable attire, with sleek knee high boots and pencils skirts. Their faces are painted with spotless makeup, nails freshly manicured and eyebrows perfectly arched. Your gaze travels back to your faded old jeans and dirty white New Balance sneakers.
โฐโค Sighing, you tug on the soft hem of your crew neck sweater, which you've thrown on due to the chilly air of the building. That's when a chair beside you squeaks. The legs are dragging against the tile floor due to someone pulling it out and sitting on it.
โฐโค You're met with the familiar features of Sevika. Her hair is pulled back into a perfectly sleek low-bun. There's a slight hint of mascara and eyeliner, barely noticeable if you hadn't already seen her on the days where she's bare faced. She smells of everything good; the walking embodiment of heaven.
โฐโค And she looks just as nice as she smells, with her beige button up and black slacks and matching black dress boots. She looks expensive. She always does.
โฐโค You blink, not only taken aback by her beauty, but also by her sudden presence. Isn't her lunch break supposed to be over by now?
โฐโค "Hi." She greets, which is nothing more than a murmur.
โฐโค Sevika has a very distinct way of communicating. Her lips move so fast that sometimes, you aren't sure if she's truly speaking or if it's all just your overactive imagination. She doesn't talk much, but when she does, it's intentional. You know that every word she does say is meant to be said. And you appreciate that trait about her.
โฐโค She's not the type to raise her voice. Out of all the encounters you've had with her, there's never been a time when she's even gotten remotely close to losing her composure. But a part of you is not sure if composure is the right word. Sevika just seems to be naturally indifferent; mellow. Constantly unbothered. That's what draws you to her. And that's why you feel a dose of comfort shoot through you at that moment. Her presence will probably always be welcomed, no matter what mood you're in.
โฐโค You give her a small smile in return before popping another grape into your mouth.
โฐโค She hovers for a bit. You're not sure what to say, or even if you should say something.ย
โฐโค "Not using the microwave today?" She adds.
โฐโค You force out a small chuckle. "No."
โฐโค Silence resumes.
โฐโค Her lashes are quite long.
โฐโค She really is beautiful.
โฐโค You glance away from her, absentmindedly playing with the tattered ends of your sleeves. Your left leg is crossed over your right, rocking back and forth out of habit. There's a moment when it lifts a bit too high, knocking into Sevika's shin.
โฐโค You grimace, "I'm sorry."
โฐโค Out of the corner of your eyes, you pick up on the movement of her broad shoulders shrugging. "It's all good."
โฐโค Your rocking resumes. You make sure to angle your body away from her after that; ensuring that you won't accidentally kick her again.
โฐโค Slowly, you nudge your container of grapes towards her, "Would you like some?"
โฐโค She hesitates, "No." Another pause, then, "It doesn't seem like you've eaten much of your lunch today."
โฐโค "I'm not as hungry as I usually am. It's been a rough day."
โฐโค She positions herself to where her elbows lean against the tabletop. It appears that she's inches closer and the smell of her practically overpowers you because of it. "Is it worth talking about?"
โฐโค You peer up at her, eyes widening when you see the dilation of her pupils. Her hands are clasped together, chin resting on her knuckles and grey eyes regarding you with interest. The squaring of her shoulders causes her muscular biceps to bulge through her beige dress-shirt. It's a gorgeous sight.
โฐโค Your heart stutters.
โฐโค "Um," You blink, trying to concentrate despite the ongoing brain fog. "I'm just sad today, Sevika." You swallow thickly, finding yourself inching a little closer with your chin resting on your own hand. "But there's not a particular reason why. It's ridiculous, to be honest. Simply one of those days, you know?"
โฐโค She shifts towards you.
โฐโค Your foot brushes against her calf.
โฐโค A solemn ease envelopes around the both of you as an expression of understanding trickles onto her features. She nods quietly.
โฐโค There's not much to say, or rather, not much that you want her to say. You're grateful that she doesn't make a huge deal of your admission. Sadness lives in every human throughout their life. Just sitting with her is enough to ease the tide waves of grief that has been rolling through you. At that moment, sitting in the break room with Sevika, your sadness somehow finds a way to transform into still water; a sea of tranquility solely from Sevika's presence.
โฐโค She hooks her foot around the leg of your chair, dragging you closer towards her. Your stomach does somersaults and if you weren't so flustered, you'd probably be brave enough to ask her why she's doing this. But instead, you're left trying to stabilize your heart and trembling fingers. You allow yourself to bask in her closeness.
โฐโค "Your sadness isn't ridiculous," Sevika begins, wetting her dark full lips. Her breath smells of peppermint. Your foot grazes against her calf again, this time for a few seconds longer. "I don't know who or what's made you believe that, but it never will be."
โฐโค The shift in her is abrupt; something powerful enough to cause you to gawk at her. With each passing second, all of your worries slowly begin to unspool and relax, because her words ring with unrelenting truth. You know that she 100% believes everything that she's just said. That's enough for you.
โฐโค "And I don't blame you." Sevika adds. "I mean, this job alone is enough to send anyone into a fucking spiral."
โฐโค You laugh for the first time today. Your palms rest against your cheek and your eyes crinkle shut momentarily. Somehow, she makes laughter on even the most difficult days easy. "Oh, I don't know." You respond, after finally calming down. "This place isn't so bad."
โฐโค "Are you sure?" Her eyebrows raise. "I find that very hard to believe."
โฐโค "Well, there are perks. Like the wattage for the microwave here...It'sโwhatโ1500? That's way better than the one in my apartment."
โฐโค She rolls her eyes, but you don't miss the way that they flash with amusement. "Sweetheart, no wonder you're depressed. You've turned to microwave usage as a source of entertainment."
โฐโค A giggle escapes you and you squirm in your seat from her teasing.
โฐโค Sweetheart.
โฐโค The pet name echoes in your ears.
โฐโค "There's not much else to be entertained by. The wallpapers here are quite dreadful."
โฐโค She grins, glancing at the wall behind you. "Oddly obsessed with microwaves and picky about interior design. Noted."
โฐโค Your nose scrunches as you fight off another smile, sighing melodramatically.
โฐโค Sevika looks as if she's going to speak again. But then her phone vibrates against the tabletop quietly. She grabs it, peering at the screen before exhaling. "That's my cue." She says with a reticent expression. "My lunch break is up."
โฐโค You feel yourself deflating but you do your best to cover it up, nodding instead. "I should be getting back too."
โฐโค You both stand up, the lingering tension in the atmosphere snapping like an elastic band. Sevika spares you one more look, pocketing her phone and stretching her arms. Her smile is small but the effects of it leaves you feeling disembodied.
โฐโค "See you around, sweetheart."ย
โฐโค Then she leaves.
โฐโค You stare at the door in front of you, trying to gain the courage to knock on it.
โฐโค This is ridiculous, really.
โฐโค You're ridiculous.
โฐโค Your palms are sweaty and your heart is beating entirely too fast. You want to turn around and walk back to your own office. You want to forget about ever doing this, or being delusional enough to think that this was a good idea.
โฐโค But you've already gone through the trouble and effort of preparing everything...
โฐโค Plus, numerous coworkers have witnessed you standing in front of this door for quite some time now. Turning around and walking away without even knocking would not only be embarrassing, but also probably attract some negative attention.
โฐโค Sucking in a breath, you raise your free hand, knock three times, then exhale.
โฐโค One second passes and you instantly regret it.
โฐโค You shouldn't have done this.
โฐโค You're sure numerous minutes pass before the door finally swings openโat least it feels that way. Round brown eyes greet you and your heart skips a few beats.
โฐโค You definitely should have thought this through a little more.
โฐโค "Oh, Kai." You breathe. "Hi."
โฐโค โHey!โ Surprise filters onto their features. "What are you doing here? Have you been standing out here for long? Sevโuh, you haveโฆโ They disappear behind the door, whispering something indiscreetly.ย
โฐโค "I was just stopping by." You shift your weight, growing uneasy. You try to glance past them but it's hard to see considering you're several inches shorter than them. "F-For um, well... I was hoping to speak to Sevika."
โฐโค Kai appears in front of you again, smirking impishly. โ...Any minute now, Vika. Itโs not like you have someone waiting out here for you or anything.โ
โฐโค You swallow. Inconspicuously, you glance around you, hoping that no one is eavesdropping from their cubicles. "I was wanting to give her something. I'm sorry that I interrupted." You rub your palm against your forehead, not knowing where to go from here. "Honestly, it can wait. It's not urgent or anything. It's just a gift. I know we don't usually stop by each other's offices like this so I'm sorry for showing up unexpectedly. I just thought...I don't know. I can come back? Yeah, I'll just come back another time-"
โฐโค "That's not necessary." Sevika appears over the shoulder of Kai. Your chin tilts up in order to meet her gaze, and you take a few steps backwards, clasping your hands behind you. "You weren't interrupting anything." The handsome woman muses, brows raised. You marvel at the way that her eyes glaze over you, up and down, before settling on your face again.
โฐโค Nodding, you allow your attention to flicker to Kai, who is now standing in between the both of you with raised eyebrows. The awkwardness of it all makes you clear your throat, shuffling your feet and wishing you had thought of a better way to do this. Maybe you should haves waited until you saw Sevika again in the break room.
โฐโค "Iโll catch you guys later, okay?โ Kai chirps, barely glancing at Sevika as they pocket their phone. Theyโre practically beaming at the both of you when they step past the door threshold. Then, they disappear behind the rows of cubicles.
โฐโค Your mind reels at everything that's just happened. You struggle to fully understand why the temperature of the central AC suddenly feels like a searing heat wave.ย
โฐโค When you peek over at Sevika, you find that she's already observing you. Her two front teeth sink into the plump flesh of her lower lip, eyes a darker shade of grey and swarming with undeniable heed. You can't help but admire her lips and how they appear to be perfectly crafted. They look softer than a billow of feathers, and you desperately want to touch themโwant to feel themโand want to allow them to sweep you up into another world.
โฐโค That hunger inside of you grows, a specific feeling that she's only been able to bring out lately, and you know that no one can ever satiate such a desire but her.
โฐโค God.
โฐโค You've got it bad.
โฐโค She releases her lip and you become enamored with the way her throat jostles as she swallows. Painfully aware of your obvious staring, you force your attention back to her eyes.
โฐโค "I've got something for you," You say. Your voice is unfamiliar to your earsโhuskier.
โฐโค Silently, she gestures for you to come in. You step forward and close the door behind you.
โฐโค Sevika's office is similar to yours. The desk and chair are quite the same, along with the filing cabinets and additional chairs for guests. But she also has a dark purple rug, with numerous framed pictures and a mini fridge shoved in the corner.
โฐโค A pair of dark purple curtains are drawn, allowing the sunlight to creep in, and more picture frames line the windowsill.
โฐโค Before you allow yourself to get too swept up with your surroundings, you turn to her and pull your left hand out from behind you, which holds a card. It's a simple blank one that you bought at the store and it has the words thank you written with one of your favorite sparkly ink pens, along with your signed name and lip print stained by your favorite lipstick shade. Above the personalized message are a few pairs of pressed tulips.
โฐโค "I just wanted to express my gratitude." You explain. She takes the card, staring down at it silently. "I was feeling a bit down the other day and you helped me by keeping me company. It may sound silly because it was just a simple conversation but," You shrug. "Conversation goes a long way sometimes. Especially for those that need it."
โฐโค Her thumb traces over one of the petals, lips parting and eyes widening. It's hard to know exactly what she's thinking and a part of you believes that maybe you've oversteppedโthat you've crossed an unspoken boundary. Her ongoing silence causes an unexpected panic to stir within you.
โฐโค Desperate to clean up a situation that you fear will go haywire, you open your mouth to say, "These are from a small garden that Iโve been trying to grow." Your forefinger hovers above her thumb, gesturing towards the flowers. "I pressed them myself, so that they won't die on you." You lick your lips, mouth feeling dry all of a sudden. Oh god. Why does she look like that? Why isn't she saying anything? This can't be good. "And I...well, now that I'm thinking about this, I'm realizing that this may be coming off as weird. I'm sorry. If I've made you like...uncomfy or anything, I totally understand and I'm sorry. My intention wasn't to make things weird."
โฐโค Her head raises at that, expression completely unguarded. It's rare when you're able to see unfiltered emotions flitting across her features. Sevika isn't the type to walk around with her heart on her sleeve. But with the way that she's looking at you, you realize that there's something unbelievably tender about her gaze.
โฐโค "And you'll probably tease me for this," You continue. You curse yourself for sounding breathless. Tearing your eyes away from her, you point at the card again. "But I used my microwave to press the flowers. Only because the other methods would have taken too long."
โฐโค That's when she laughs.
โฐโค You exhale softly from her hearty chuckles, relief immediately enveloping you.
โฐโค Laughter is a good sign.
โฐโค "I should have maybe waited to give you the card. I just didn't want to anticipate your reaction until noon, if I'm being honest." You wring out your hands, not able to shake the nervous jitters running through you. "I hope you like it."
โฐโค She runs her thumb over the material once more, lips rolling inwards before she rubs them together, deep in thought. You impatiently wait for a sign, any sign, that indicates her feelings towards your gesture.
โฐโค Her eyes, set deep above the plane of her cheekbones, slant as they peer downward towards the cardboard in her hand. She inhales through her nose, relaxes her lips, then exhales.
โฐโค "You didn't have to do this," She finally replies. "But of course I like it." She doesn't smile. However, you do notice a new light in her expression when she refocuses her attention on you. "Also, you apologize a lot." She pauses before adding, "...More than you need to. You haven't done anything weird at all."
โฐโค You want to bury your face in a pillow and squeal. But you settle for a smile instead. "Oh."
โฐโค Her lips crack into a knowing grin before she turns on her heel and walks over to her desk. She delicately positions the card so that it's standing upright next to a picture of her and a skinny brunette man. "The card is beautiful." She observes. Despite the natural raspiness of her voice, it has a warmer lilt to it now. "Thank you."
โฐโค You determine that Sevika thanking you is a new favorite. You want to shower her with endless gestures if it means that she'll continue to show fondness towards you.
โฐโค She leans against her desk, halfway sitting on the top surface, before shoving her hands in her pockets. Through the material of her slacks, you notice that they seem to be balled into fists.
โฐโคYou shift your weight as a strong sense of pride swells in your chest, opting to rest your shoulder against the door frame.
โฐโคOnlyโyou remember too late that nothing is actually beside you, and that the door frame is several paces behind you. Instead, you stumble when you realize that there's nothing close enough to catch your weight.
โฐโค Your arms sprout out in an attempt to catch your balance.
โฐโค "Um," You mumble dumbly, flustered by the mess that you've become. "...Thought there was a wall beside me." You clear your throat, attempting to right yourself again.ย
โฐโค Sevika stares at you, eyes dancing with merriment, as she struggles to swallow her chuckles. She forces out a few coughs, trying to cover up her mirth, but it's clear that she finds your lack of coordination entertaining.
โฐโค You rest your hands on your hips in an attempt to find a comfortable standing position. You want to cringe. You want to crawl under a rock and never be perceived again.
โฐโค You puff out your cheeks before blowing out a heavy exhale. The room feels really hot and your heart is doing backflips in your chest. You can't tell if it's because of your stupid schoolgirl crush or the embarrassment of nearly eating shit in front of Sevika.
โฐโค Probably a combination of both...
โฐโค "Gravity really hates me." You jest.
โฐโค Her grin widens. "I can tell."
โฐโค You let out an exasperated chuckle, palm reaching up to rub against your forehead. She has to be aware of her effect on you.
โฐโค Like it's just painfully obvious at this point.
โฐโค Right?
โฐโค Your lips part and your hands pool with more sweat and you feel like the biggest lovesick loser to ever exist. There she is, with her perfect face and perfect laugh and perfect everything. You've barely talked to this woman outside of lunch breaks yet here you are, giving her pressed fucking flowers and worshiping the ground she walks on just because she sat with you for a few minutes. There can't be any other way that you can become more obvious.
โฐโค Your hands are flailing ridiculously around you, towards her plush purple carpet and curtains and picture frames before you're saying, "Nice office by the way."
โฐโค And she's looking at you with that knowing expression that's borderline condescending, which you really love despite how much you want to hate it, when she replies, "Thanks, darling."
โฐโค You blink rapidly and try not to combust right then.
โฐโค Your feet carry you to a nearby bookshelf before you can think otherwise. A shitload of CDโs are neatly stacked on them with names of artists you didn't know anyone still listened to. You preoccupy yourself with shifting through them, trying your best to ignore the zoo erupting in your stomach. Thereโs collections of Nina Simone and Freddie Hubbard and Bill Withers. Your eyebrows raise at the eclectic catalogue, not bothering to swallow the surprise that sprouts within you. It should be known at this point that Sevika will never fail to surprise you.
โฐโค Your hands tremble as they hold an ABBA CD. They cling tighter to the plastic case, attempting to make the shaking less noticeable. Something warm brushes against your shoulder, before taking the CD from you. You peer at Sevika, observing the way that she wordlessly takes out the disc and moves to a CD player that is situated farther to your left.ย
โฐโค Despite her being concentrated on getting the speaker system to work, youโre totally enraptured by her. Her smell surrounds you like a cloud of ecstasy. Her hair is down today, a feathery cut that stops just below her jaw. Loose ends are tucked behind her ear, highlighting the rarest features of her face that you probably have overlooked before. Her lips purse together while she deeply concentrates, puffing out in a way that makes them look unbelievably inviting. Your breath catches, a prominent ache building between your thighs as the room fills with the beginning chords of The Winner Takes It All.
โฐโค She hums underneath her breath as the first verse begins, neatly placing the CD on top of the player. Slowly, her eyes drag back to you, unfocused and clearly lost in the music that fills the room. But then she freezes, seemingly not expecting you to already be observing her. The harmonies of the song contrast to the moment of stillness then; a corded tension falling between the two of you.ย
โฐโค The feelings you have in that moment are visceral. Your head is spinning and your heart is racing. No matter how hard you swallow, your throat remains dry and your skin yearns for herโfor her touch and her warmth and her firmness.ย
โฐโค Your eyes burn and you have to blink rapidly in order to clear your vision. You can't understand why these feelings have hit you so suddenly, and why they're so intense for a woman that's only your coworker. But you try not to scold yourself too much, rubbing your palms against the material of your skirt instead.
โฐโค โWhatโs wrong?โ She whispers, scanning your face.
โฐโค And that's when you realize how close you're standing to her. Maybe you were the one to step forwardโor was it her?โand shorten the distance, but you can't know for sure. You should pull away. You should bid her a good day and return to your office (you'll have to be on the clock soon anyways) but you can't.
โฐโค You can't because it's too late. Sheโs already roped you in with her aloofness and cheshire grin and warm sultry voice. The window to escape has already passed. You're simply in too deep now.
โฐโค โYou're just really fucking beautiful.โ You blurt out.ย
โฐโค When Sevika registers what you've said, it seems like she stiffens in shock. Her lips part, a sharp breath being sucked in while her stare intensifies.ย
โฐโค You don't have enough wits to properly downplay your words or try to retract what you've said. The most you try to do is blink away the tears in your welling eyes and say, โIโm sorry.โ
โฐโค You take a step back, then two. The reality of the situation hits you like a brick wall. You let out a heavy exhale, trying to calm the storm beginning to brew in your mind.
โฐโค Holy fuck.
โฐโค What if youโve made her uncomfortable? You've clearly crossed a line. You're at work. In fifteen minutes, youโll both be on the clock and trying to get your day started. This is inappropriate.ย
โฐโค You feel like employees from the Human Resources department will barge right in at any moment, confronting you about your intentions and hauling you off to be questioned. Guilt rumbles in you like an unrelenting river breaking through a dam.ย ย
โฐโค Sevika is shaking her head, eyes searching yours with growing alarm. โSorry? Sweetheart, you have nothing to be sorry fo-โ
โฐโค โ...with the flowers and the card and calling you beautiful. I shouldn't be doing those things and saying stuff like that. I mean, not because I don't think you're beautiful. You're so beautiful. It's just... Oh lordโIโm doing it again. Fuck. Frick. Uh,โ You gulp, taking a few more steps backwards. โI just don't want to make you uncomfortable. I'm totally aware that weโre coworkers. And I don't wanna be that one creep in the office who-โ
โฐโค โNo, it's okay.โ She shakes her head again, a small smile appearing on her face. โYou haven't weirded me out at all.โ
โฐโค You stop mid rant, mouth hanging open and eyes trailing back to her. โAre you sure?โ
โฐโค โCompletely sure.โย
โฐโค Your attention hooks onto the details of her laugh lines. They become more prevalent as her smile widens. You want to brush your lips against hers and feel the curve of her laugh lines against your skin.ย
โฐโค You fight the urge, responding with, โOkay,โ instead.ย
โฐโค She hums quietly underneath her breath, arms folding against her chest.ย
โฐโค โOkay,โ She echoes. Her weight rocks backwards, a slight sway that causes her hair to brush lightly against her jawline. You're captivated by the sharp edge of her jawโand how it seems to become even sharper with each passing secondโas she momentarily clenches it.ย
โฐโค Sheโs opening her mouth to say something else when there's a knock on the door. โSevika?โ The silhouette of a woman, probably a coworker, shines through the frosted-glass door. Reality slams into you like a semi truck.
โฐโค Your heart jumps at the interruption. For some reason, you take a few more steps away from Sevika and your muscles tense.
โฐโค There's a hesitation that looms in the air.ย
โฐโค Sevika's eyes hold something undefinable. Her gaze is level and full of intent. And you can't understand why everything feels so convoluted right now.
โฐโค After a few agonizing seconds of silence, she sighs, shoulders falling as she shifts her attention to the ground. โCome in.โย
โฐโค The door opens and a pretty brunette with glossy lips and mascara-coated eyes walks in. You've seen her numerous times throughout the day. She's one of the receptionists.ย
โฐโค She smiles at you and you're surprised when she greets you. Youโve never realized she knows your name.ย
โฐโค โTara,โ Sevika addresses. โWhat's up?โ
โฐโค The receptionist turns to her, โI was trying to call you but it was going to voicemail. I wasn't sure if youโve turned on your phone for the day? Iโm really sorry for interrupting. But you have a gentleman waiting for you in the lobby, he says he has an 8 oโclock with you? I just wanted to confirm.โ She clears her throat, shifting her weight awkwardly. Then sheโs eying you again with a small smile. โIโm sorryโโ
โฐโค โNo, no. You're totally fine.โ Sevikaโs features morph into an expression that's more genial. โDid you catch his name? I do think I have an 8 oโclock, I just lost track of time.โ Sheโs making her way over to the CD player, swiftly cutting it off. The music stops and the air stills.
โฐโค Hair stands on your skin as she walks to her desk, fiddling with a few buttons on her landline.ย
โฐโค โYes,โ Tara replies, glancing down at a yellow sticky note. โHeโs from the branch in Chicago. He goes byโฆโ
โฐโค โIโll catch you later, Sevika.โYour voice is rushed and barely above a whisper. The feeling of overstaying your welcome floods you.
โฐโค Sevika glances up under her lashes, hands faltering from the paperwork she's rummaging through. You don't give her a chance to reply, simply shooting her a smile and wave before slipping out of her office.ย
โฐโคย You sigh at the sign in front of you, bold words reading, BROKEN! PLEASE USE ANOTHER ONE on a piece of paper attached to the microwave. A low groan burns in the back of your throat. Youโre starving. In fact, itโs been forever since youโve let yourself grow this hungry.
โฐโค You didn't eat breakfast this morning. You were too preoccupied with thinking about Sevikaโs gift, and how the hell were you going to give her a card with pressed flowers in a non-creepy way. But the task has been done, and for the most part, Sevika didnโt appear turned off by your gesture. So now, you are hungry.ย
โฐโคย Your stomach growls and your mouth pools with saliva. Spinning on your heels, you march out of the break room, trying to think of any other parts of the building that has microwaves. Your floor definitely doesnโt, which means you would have to take the elevator. And you donโt want to do that, especially if it means having to walk through another department.ย
โฐโคย Your mind is swarming with what ifs and maybeโs as you travel through rows of cubicles. The possibility of finding an unoccupied microwave is slim to none. If the one on your floor has been broken all morning, then thereโs surely a growing line at the other ones. Dread gnaws at you and you huff with distaste.ย
โฐโคย Thereโs a part of you that considers eating your food cold. But your nose wrinkles at the idea and itโs quickly disregarded.ย
โฐโคย When you reach the elevator, you're met with the sight of Sevika leaning against the adjacent wall. She is lazily scrolling on her phone, her other hand occupying her pocket, and her cross body bag hanging off of one of her shoulders. Similar to the sudden dip of a rollercoaster rideโvisceral and unexpectedโa warmth spreads within you. Your head feels lightโweightless evenโand you can feel the rush of adrenaline coursing through your veins.ย
โฐโค Your arm lifts and presses the button that summons the elevator. Itโs a silly action, since youโre sure Sevika has already pressed it if sheโs waiting for it to arrive. But you need something to do with your body; something that can expel some of the excess energy and calm your belly acrobatics.ย
โฐโค Your movement seems to catch Sevikaโs attention, causing her scrolling to momentarily freeze as she glances up.
โฐโคย Your gazes lock and your breath hitches and youโre pretty sure you begin to hear fireworks sounding in the distance. She smiles and you return the gesture. Or was it you that smiled first?ย
โฐโคย โHi,โ You say.
โฐโคย Her attention trails to the lower half of your face, lingering there for a few moments before climbing back up to your eyes. In a millisecond, sheโs pushing off of the wall, body upright and phone slipping into her pocket. โHey, you.โ Her grin curves even more.ย ย
โฐโค You donโt know whatโs making you feel so lovesick: the inviting cadence of her voice or the fact that sheโs practically glowing. You donโt think youโve ever seen any blemish on her face besides a few faded scars. Seriouslyโwhat kind of skin care routine did the robust woman have? You made a mental note to ask her.ย
โฐโค โThe weatherโs been nice today.โ She adds.
โฐโค You fight off a chuckle, nodding in response. The conversation is elementary and completely like all the other ones that youโve had with her countless times before. But you enjoy how mundane your chats are with Sevika. It isnโt really the topics that interest you rather than the calming consistency of her presence. The both of you could be counting the wall tiles to pass time for all you care.ย
โฐโค Sevika cards her fingers through her hair as she rolls her eyes at a corny dad joke youโve just told. โClever.โ She quietly muses, husky voice thick with sarcasm. Her lips are fighting off a smirk though, so you know she isnโt as annoyed as sheโs trying to seem.ย
โฐโค โThanks.โย
โฐโค When Sevika centers her weight, she peers at the carpet, causing a singular strand of hair to fall in front of her forehead. A small part of you wants to reach out and run your fingers through it, but you softly shake your head to refocus. You listen to the faint rings of telephones in the distance instead.
โฐโคโWell,โ You drag out, growing uncomfortable by the silence. โDid you have a good weekend?โ
โฐโคShe lifts her head, nodding softly. โYeah.โ A slight pause. โI went to dinner with some friends on Saturday, and then we watched the superbowl on SundayโฆMade a day out of it, reallyโฆโ She clears her throat. โYeah. It was niceโฆ What about you?โ
โฐโค You donโt register the swaying of your body until your shoulder brushes against her bicep. โIt was okay, I guess. I finished a novel. Went grocery shoppingโฆdid some gardening.โ You wrinkle your nose, embarrassment washing over you. โProbably not as fun or eventful as yours, I suppose.โ
โฐโค โAh,โ She chuckles. Her bicep brushes against your shoulder again. You canโt decipher if it was her fault or yours this time. โI doubt that.โ
โฐโค You offer a thoughtful hum, but keep quiet otherwise.
โฐโค The elevator sounds with a soft ding! All too soon, Sevika is encouraging you to step on board before her.ย
โฐโค โHi Shane,โ You say, smiling at the coworker that is already inside of the service lift. He barely regards you, lips frowning and worry lines prevalent on his forehead. He takes off his baseball cap momentarily, revealing a receding hairline glistening with sweat, before wiping it off with the back of his hand and repositioning the cap.
โฐโค โHi.โ The middle aged man grumbles. He nearly throws a fit when Sevika takes her time walking through the elevator doors. His face is firetruck red, left foot tapping impatiently as his finger presses the button for the 8th floor.ย
โฐโค Your eyebrows shoot up and you look at Sevika. She observes the entire situation with passive amusement.ย
โฐโค โStupid elevators.โ Shane grumbles.ย
โฐโค You press your lips together, trying your best to refrain from laughing while reaching around him to press the button for the 6th floor. Usually, thereโs a few microwaves on that one. โWhere to?โ You angle your head towards Sevika.
โฐโค โ6th floor as well.โ
โฐโค The atmosphere fills with the trademark grinding of the elevator and Shaneโs disgruntled mumbling. The minutes tick by agonizingly slow and you even feel bad for giggling quietly when Shane huffs again, looking up at the ceiling with a grinding jaw.ย
โฐโค Your fingers press against your lips in an attempt to remain calm, and your eyes flit over to Sevika knowingly.ย
โฐโค Shaneโs always been pegged as overly anxious and impatient in the office. He seems to be perpetually unhappy with everyone and everything. He seems to just be unhappy in general.
โฐโค A few levels down, the doors open and relief fills you. Riding the elevator with a fretful Shane definitely wasnโt on the top of todayโs To-Do list. But then you falter at the sight of a plain concrete wall in front of you. Your eyebrows furrow and you glance back at the row of buttons. The number 6 is no longer illuminated, but you certainly arenโt facing the cubicles on the 6th floor right now.ย
โฐโค "Shitโฆ" Sevika mumbles. โThis isnโt good.โย
โฐโค โOh, come on!โ The elevator shakes slightly in response to Shane obnoxiously stomping his foot.ย
โฐโค Your breath hitches and you feel your arms searching frantically, trying to grab onto something to ground you, but only finding empty air.ย
โฐโคย Sevikaโs already scanning the surroundings, probably for an emergency call box. You donโt say anything. Youโre not sure if you can.ย
โฐโค Donโt freak out. Donโt freak out. Donโt freak out.
โฐโค โI canโt believe this!โ Shaneโs voice is several pitches higher now. โIโm going to miss my appointment. Dammit!โ He stomps his foot again, snatching his cap off. It falls to the ground and his hands tightly grip his hairโor, whatโs left of it.
โฐโคSevikaโs head snaps in the general direction of his. โLetโs not do that.โ Her voice is icy. It comes off as a command instead of a suggestion and even you find yourself trying to gain your bearings.ย
โฐโค Shane sends her a glare but he makes sure to keep his foot planted and his mouth shut.ย
โฐโค Your eyes are burning and you're beginning to find it hard to breathe.ย
โฐโค Youโre stuck.
โฐโค The elevator is fucking stuck.ย
โฐโค Noโyou canโt freak out. That wonโt help.ย
โฐโค Your hands are bunching against the material of your clothing, feet working into nervous tapping. Oh God.
โฐโค Oh God.
โฐโค Sevika finally finds a button next to an icon with the emergency bell symbol, which doesnโt seem to be immediately obvious at first glance. The noise is loud and jarring when she presses it, before an automated voice begins to speak words that you canโt fully register.ย
โฐโค And then sheโs talking with an operator, that much you can process, but itโs all blurring together too much for your liking.
โฐโค Shane is breathing loud. Annoyingly loud in fact.ย
โฐโค You want to tell him to shut the hell up, especially when he starts crying, but you can barely see through your blurred vision and it doesnโt seem like your body will listen to your brain even if you will it to.
โฐโค Then thereโs warm hands pressing into your shoulders, squeezing them, before lowering to your elbows.ย
โฐโค โItโs okay,โ Sevika reassures. โI just talked to the operator. Theyโre going to try to reset the system.โย
โฐโค You shake your head and grip onto her shirt. โWe're going to die.โ
โฐโค โHey,โ Her breath fans against your cheeks as she ducks down to look at you levelly. Her touch retracks before you feel warmness on your face. Her thumbs are swiping your skin. โSweetheart, itโs gonna be okay.โย
โฐโคย Thatโs when you realize that youโre the one whoโs breathing heavy, because youโre also the one whoโs crying. Her thumbs are wiping away your tears.
โฐโค โSevโฆโ You respond, breath ragged. โIโm sorry. Iโm just scared, I-โ
โฐโค โItโs an honest human reaction.โ Her lips brush against your left earlobe as she pulls you in for a hug. โ...Better than stomping your foot and shaking the entire cabin, thatโs for sure.โย
โฐโค You let out an ugly combination of a sob and laugh.
โฐโค โNot funny, you asshole.โ Shane isnโt too happy with the jest.
โฐโค โHey!โ You find yourself objecting. You lift your head but know itโs no use. Sevikaโs too tall for you to be able to see over her. โBe nice, you two.โย
โฐโค Shane grumbles a few other curse words, this time much quieter. Sevika tightens her hold around your waist, nose rubbing into your shoulder with an odd tenderness, but she doesnโt say anything else.
โฐโค Youโre sniffling as you try to relax in her hold. Youโve given up the task of restarting your heart because you know that youโll never be able to truly calm down until youโre safely out of this elevator. But for the meantime, you try to distract yourself with the smell of Sevika, and the feeling of her pressed against you. You cling onto her like a raft in the middle of a storm, praying that she can continue to keep your worries at bay.
โฐโค โSev,โ You say again, voice shaking. โIโm really scared.โ
โฐโค โI know.โย
โฐโค The elevator slips down a considerable amount, causing the both of you to lose your footing and nearly fall. Your scream melts into a gurgle of cries as Sevika curses lowly.
โฐโค She lowers the both of you to the floor, hands attempting to steady you. The panic you feel is definitely taking over now.ย
โฐโค โWeโre going to die.โ You hiccup, eyes widening.ย
โฐโค โDarling,โ Sevika pauses. You almost believe that sheโs trying to gather more patience, and you canโt blame her if she is. But the pause is too brief for you to know for sure. โWe arenโt going to die. Heyโโ
โฐโค Her fingers are gingerly pinching your chin, urging you to meet her gaze. An air of passivity rolls off of her. โCan you breathe with me? Youโre hyperventilating.โ Her brows begin to furrow. โI canโt have you passing out on me, you know.โ
โฐโค โWe won't make it out of here.โ
โฐโค Her lips fix into a thin line, โDo you trust me?โ
โฐโค Your reply is immediate, โYes.โ
โฐโค โCan you trust that I will make sure you get out of here safely?โ Her palms begin to press against the sides of your face, holding you close to her. She strokes the apples of your cheek with her thumbs, expression pensive. โI've got you. Iโฆโ She wets her lips, eyes flickering with an odd light. โI promise.โ
โฐโค A few stray tears escape your eyes, rolling down your face and onto her palms. You inhale a long shuddering breath as you nod, mouth souring everytime you think of your current predicament.
โฐโค โOkay.โ You rasp.ย
โฐโค The both of you are a breath apart, huddled in one of the corners. That's when you realize that you're actually sitting in her lap.ย
โฐโค โI just can't believe Iโm stuck here simply because I was wanting to use the 6th floor microwave.โ Your eyes flicker shut, another wave of doom hitting you. โI just wanted some lasagna!โ
โฐโค Sevika laughs. โIf only you took the stairs.โ
โฐโค โI know, right? I don't usually because I'm lazy, but maybe-โ
โฐโค โI get that this is an emotional moment right now,โ Shane grunts. โBut does anyone have a bottle or something? I really need to piss.โ
โฐโค Your nose crinkles. Ew.
โฐโค Sevika grinds her jaw. โYou will keep your pants on, or so help me Godโฆโ
โฐโค โOkay, okay. I got it.โ
โฐโค You clear your throat, shifting in her lap and glancing at Shane. He has his left leg crossed over his right, legs tense and face seemingly straining with concentrated effort. A vein is bulging out of his neck and sweat is gathering around his forehead again.
โฐโค โTell me another one of your lame jokes.โ Sevika whispers, completely disregarding him and squeezing you closer to her.
โฐโค The shift in conversation feels like emotional whiplash.ย
โฐโค Everything about today has been weird. You never thought a day would come where you're actually sitting in her lap, and being comforted in the most gentle way.
โฐโค But then again, you never anticipated getting stuck in an elevator with her soโฆ
โฐโค โThey are not lame.โ You refute, feigning offense. โThey're dad jokes.โ
โฐโค โOkay, well...โ Her attention zeroes in on your nose. One of her hands raises, brushing at it before inspecting a small fuzzy and flicking it away. โTell me one of them.โ
โฐโค Your blink in thought, scanning your brain for one that you haven't told her yet. It's starting to become hard to decipher which jokes you have and haven't shared with Sevika, especially as the months continue to carry on. You fear that you'll run out of them sooner than youโd like to (at least the funny ones) and then you won't know how else to entertain her.ย
โฐโค โWhat do you call a fake noodle?โ
โฐโค Her forehead scrunches as she ponders on a possible answer.ย
โฐโค A slow smile curves at your lips while you mutter, โAn impasta.โ
โฐโค You can practically see the gears in her brain shifting before she registers the pun. Her lips are puffy from constantly being chewed on when they pull into a playful scowl. The tiniest wrinkles appear along the slope of her nose as she scrunches it, eyes peering at you through narrowed slits.
โฐโค โYou're ridiculous.โ
โฐโค That causes you to laugh, heart warming at the slight annoyance in her voice.ย โRidiculously funny and charming? Sure.โ
โฐโค โ...Oh my god.โ
โฐโค โYou love my jokes, just admit it.โ
โฐโค โSweetheartโฆThey're not actually yours. I know you google them.โ
โฐโค โ It's my delivery though. No one delivers jokes better than I do. It takes actual skill.โ
โฐโค โSomehow, I find that hard to believe.โ
โฐโค โ...There's the timing you have to consider and the vocal inflection.โ Your hands fall down her arms, resting in your lap as they tug on one another. โIt involves real artistry.โ
โฐโค โHow dumb of me to think otherwi-โ
โฐโค โOh, thank you! God! Thank you!โ
โฐโค You jump at Shaneโs outburst, examining the way he stands to his feet, a grin breaking across his face. Heโs pointing at the elevator doors, which are now closing. A low hum fills the air. Soon after, the sound of cogs becomes louder and the elevator begins moving.
โฐโค You and Sevika startle at the sudden shift, moment now broken. When you peer at her, she's smiling softly, grey irises drinking in every one of your features.ย
โฐโคโI told you weโd be okay.โ She says.
โฐโคYou're too relieved to properly respond, allowing her to help you stand up instead.ย
โฐโค The intercom beeps and a voice says, "Rescue team here. Please remind us how many people are there with you?"
โฐโค โIf you feel any sort of stress from today, please don't hesitate to use this number.โ Cam says as he shoves a business card into your hand.
โฐโค You roll your eyes. โIโll be fine. I swear.โ
โฐโค โThere's no shame in using the services, I promise. Just input your employee number and the company code on the website and itโllโโ
โฐโค โCam,โ Your left hand reaches up to squeeze his shoulder. You make sure to hold his gaze. โIโm totally fine now, I promise. Iโll admit that it shook me up a little, because it felt like we were going to be stuck in there forever. But everything's okay.โ
โฐโค He scans your face, searching for any sign that you're being untruthful. When he doesn't find any, he nods smally. โGo home.โ His stare becomes stern. โTake it easy for the next few days.โ
โฐโค โCamโโ
โฐโค โIโm serious! If you go back to your office for the rest of the day, Iโll take a deduction from your wages.โ
โฐโค You roll your eyes, โThat doesnโt sound legal.โ
โฐโค โIโm sorry, I can't hear you anymore.โ He shrugs his shoulders, pacing a few steps backwards. โI have meetings to attend now.โ He doesn't allow you to object, adding, โHave a good weekend, kid,โ before turning around and leaving the room.
โฐโค It hasn't been long since youโve been rescued from the elevatorโmaybe 30 minutes, at most. Cam made his way over to the three of you once he received notice of everything. You feel relatively fine. The medics accessed you first, since you seemed to be the most shaken up when they arrived. And ever since they finished, Cam has somehow convinced himself that you, Shane and Sevika should take the rest of the day off.
โฐโค He also seemed adamant about offering you the free therapy services that your company provides, hence the business card in your hand. But you feel like it might be a desperate gesture to cover his ass. Surely, this isn't the first time that someone's been stuck in the elevator while on the clock.
โฐโค The medic team seems to just be finishing their assessment with Sevika and Shane now. You stand off to the side, watching helplessly, as Sevika sits in a chair and chats casually with a buff paramedic woman.ย
โฐโค The three of you were momentarily moved to a nearby conference room when rescued from the elevator. One of the office supervisors said it was to give you all a space to โwind down and decompress.โ But you're pretty sure it's because the company is trying to gloss over the elevator incident.ย
โฐโค The door to the conference room opens and you're met with the familiar face of Kai. Their eyes are wideโfranticโas they scan the area.ย
โฐโค โDude,โย They gasp, attention on Sevika. โYou won't believe the stuff that's circulating the office right nowโฆit's some crazy shit!โ
โฐโค Then theyโre grabbing one of the chairs closest to Sevika, plopping down in it. โAre you guys okay? Seriously, what the fuck happened?โ
โฐโค โWe were stuck in that stupid contraption.โ Shane butts in. โWe could have died and they only care about giving us PTO and a stupid link to telehealth.โ
โฐโค It's the first time you've heard him talk since stepping off of the elevator.ย
โฐโค โI missed my damn appointment and the fee Iโll get charged is ridiculous,โ He slams his hand on the table, fingers spreading out against the surface and jaw grinding. โIโm gonna sue these motherfuckers.โ
โฐโค Surrounding medics have been slowly packing up their equipment, but they momentarily freeze at the sound of Shane's threat. The one closest to Sevika lifts an eyebrow, expression bemused as she pockets her phone.ย
โฐโค โIโm not sure if you can do that, Shane.โ Kai quirks. Their eyes dance with humor as they swallow a chuckle.
โฐโค โIโm 62. I can do whatever the hell I want!โ
โฐโค Kai nods, slightly taken aback. โTouchรฉ.โ
โฐโค Shane grumbles under his breath, standing to his feet with the help of a nearby medic. Heโs slightly hunched over, gripping the lower part of his back while he hobbles to the entrance door.
โฐโค โBye Shane!โ You call.
โฐโค He waves you off irritably, not bothering to turn around and give you a proper farewell.
โฐโค โAnd they said you fainted when the rescue team came,โ Kai turns to you, expression morphing into something kinder. You think you see their eyes travel to Sevika for a split second, but you conclude that itโs just your overactive imagination. โHow are you feeling now?โ
โฐโค You laugh incredulously, โDo people just live to gossip here? That was barely an hour ago.โ
ย โฐโค โIt's not like there's much else to do around these parts,โ Kai grins wickedly. โBesides the scandalous office romances that people chat about. But that's old news. This is the most exciting thing weโve had since Christmas!โ
โฐโค You laugh harder, hands coming up to rest against your cheeks as you work through your shock. โThat's one way to put it.โ
โฐโค The three of you are alone now since the last two medics managed to slip out of the room inconspicuously. And now it's harder to escape the overwhelming fatigue that looms in the air. Secretly, you thank Cam for giving you the rest of the day off.
โฐโค โI have to get back soon. Iโm supposed to be meeting the Amazon delivery driver in t minus one minute.โย
โฐโค โOh my god,โ Sevika rumbles, shoving her friend out of their seat. โGo do your job.โ
โฐโค โYes maโam.โ Kai wipes their hands on their jeans, leaning down and kissing Sevika on the cheek before ruffling her hair. โIโm glad you didn't like, die or anything, loser.โ
โฐโค Sevika merely grunts.
โฐโค Kai winks at you, โBye lovebirds!โ
โฐโค And then there were two.ย
โฐโค You carefully pivot to face the herculean woman a few feet away from you. The crease between her brows, even though heavily prevalent when Kai was here many seconds ago, are now gone. She stares at you for a beat, lower lip caught between her teeth and hands drumming against the muscles of her thighs.ย
โฐโค โSorry about Kai. They're a bit childish sometimes.โ Sevika mutters. But despite her words, you can tell she thinks fondly of Kai.ย
โฐโค โI like them.โ You find yourself admitting. โTheyโre funny.โ
โฐโค โTheyโre annoying.โ
โฐโค Her lips twitch into the smallest hint of a grin. Your own smile grows and subsequently, her eyelids flutter. In the midst of today's chaos and fading professionalism, the heart of something tender passes between the both of you. The air cracks and sparks fly. It's fleetingโbut it's there.
โฐโค Her throat jostles as she swallows, โHow are you feeling?โย
โฐโค There's an unmistakable burn within you that her question creates. โIโm better than before.โย
โฐโค Her eyes trail down your body, then back up to your face. You assume that it's a mistake. But then her gaze wanders again, and this time it's for longer. This time, it has more intent.ย Your stomach flips.
โฐโค Her lips barely move when she responds, โGood.โ
โฐโค You sense the moment slipping away, and a tiny part of your brain nudges you to leave the room and go home. God-forbid Cam stumbles back in and sees that you're still here. But for some reason, you hover.
โฐโค โThanks for earlier, by the way,โ Your tongue feels heavy in your mouth and your hands are growing clammy. โFor helping me and stuff.โ
โฐโค And stuff.
โฐโค You're not sure if thanking her for the other stuff is appropriate, considering you were practically straddling her and holding onto her in ways that's crossed many, many lines. But that seems to be the ongoing trend between you and Sevika; you cross too many lines with her.
โฐโค โNo need to be thanking me.โย
โฐโค You shrug, โ...Was still kind of you.โ
โฐโค Her lips rub together and that's when you realize how soft they look. A small hum escapes her and you watch inquisitively as she opens her mouth.ย
โฐโค But then nothing comes out, leaving her with a slack jaw and gaping mouth. Your brows start to furrow, chest tightening while several more beats pass and Sevika remains dazed.ย
โฐโค A whooshing sound fills the air due to the AC turning on. Dust particles begin to circulate around you, and your ankles are tickled by the new draft blowing from the vents.
โฐโค โIs everything okay?โ You try to keep the worry out of your voice, but the shift in her is abrupt.
โฐโค Her eyes cloud over with something indescribable, a sense of apprehension rolling off of her in thick waves.ย
โฐโค โUm,โ Her words drag and her eyes dart away from you. They settle on an empty space between you and the nearby wall. Her body is completely rigid, as if the floor will give out at any moment. โWould you ever want to hang out?โ
โฐโค Your heart crawls up the walls of your esophagus, beating with all of itโs might.
โฐโค You shift your feet, then tug at your fingers.
โฐโค โLike, outside of work?โ She clarifies. She dodges your eyes, settling on the other details of you instead; like your restless feet and your fidgeting hands.
โฐโค โYouโd want to do that?โ
โฐโค โWell,โ She gives you a sidelong glance. โI wouldn't be asking you if I didn't.โ
โฐโค Your internal debate resolves and your smile stretches wideโso wide that you think your cheeks are becoming sore.
ย โฐโค โOh,โ Your voice is barely above a whisper, so you have to clear your throat. โOkay. Well, I want to also.โ
โฐโค She mirrors you and breaks into a silly grin, gap visible and nose wrinkling.ย
โฐโค โJust let me know when,โ You add. โAnd Iโll be down.โย
โฐโค โHow about Saturday?โ
โฐโค โUmโwow. I didn't know you meant so soon. Will Kai be okay with you choosing the day on their behalf?โ
โฐโค Her eyebrows shoot up. โKai?โย
โฐโค โYeah, have you even asked ifโฆโ Oh.
โฐโค Oh.
โฐโค Your gut ignites at the revelation.
โฐโค The greys in her irises darken an alluring shade.ย
โฐโค โOkay,โ You nod, understanding completely now. She doesn't need to say anything more for you to realize the full weight of her offer.
โฐโค God.
โฐโค Oh God.
โฐโค You've dreamt about this moment for months but you never thought itโd actually come true.
โฐโค โOkay,โ She parrots. โIt's a date, then?โ
โฐโค Your toes curl inside your shoes. Nodding enthusiastically, you confirm, โDefinitely.โ
โฐโคย You never are the type to enjoy the action of driving cars.
โฐโค Itโs mostly to do with the fact that your life could very well be in someone elseโs hands. The likelihood of surviving another day without being in a car accident feels like sheer luck sometimes.ย
โฐโค But your road anxiety is heightened even more as you brave the heavy city traffic, trying not to pee your pants at the idea of being near Sevika in less than an hour.
โฐโค You exhale, drumming your fingers against the steering wheel restlessly. Why is this taking so long?
โฐโค After ages of waiting, youโre finally able to get to the other side of town. Itโs quieter here and far less busy. Sevika texted you the suggestion this morning and you immediately agreedโthe quieter, the better.
โฐโค But your heart stops when you find yourself parked in front of a towering brownstone building, with multi-story terraces and sleek black protective gates. The streets are nearly empty and the distant chirp of birds fill the air.
โฐโค Your lips are pulling into a frown when you look at your phone screen, reading, You have arrived at your destination for the nth time.
โฐโค Swiping away from the GPS app, you allow your thumbs to click on Sevikaโs contact number.ย
โฐโค Two rings sound before she answers, โHello?โ
โฐโค โHiโโ You crane your neck to look out of your window. โI think Iโm here? Iโm not sure where your place exactly is though...โ
โฐโค You hear shuffling on the other line along with the soft hum of music. Then you see movement from a window on the second floor. Curtains are pushed aside and a familiar figure comes into view. The sliding glass of the terrace door is pushed open, and sheโs sticking her head out, scanning the row of cars lined up along the street.ย
โฐโค โOh,โ You breathe, heart stuttering. โNevermind. I see you.โ
โฐโค You remain seated in your car, like an idiot, while her eyes lock with yours.
โฐโค Then she grins, which is a heartbreakingly beautiful thing to witness.ย
โฐโค โSorry for being late,โ You rasp into the receiver, eyes never leaving hers. โI got stuck in traffic.โ
โฐโค โYouโre two minutes late, sweetheart.โ Her voice is thick with amusement. โThatโs hardly anything to fuss about.โ
โฐโค The following stretch of nothing is almost too painful to bear. Something is holding you back from stepping out of the car. Whether it be fear or nerves, you canโt really tell. All you know is that this feels like uncharted territory.ย
โฐโค โIโll come down and get you,โ She says. You nod. She disappears into her apartment and the line goes dead.
โฐโค The air of Sevikaโs apartment smells overwhelmingly like her: woodsy with a hint of apple cinnamon. Your shoes click against the floorboard when she guides you through the doorway, knuckles brushing against your forearm and leaving a fire in its wake.ย
โฐโค โThis is me.โ Her voice is soft around the lock of the deadbolt and chain guard. Thereโs a lowly dimmed lamp hanging from the ceiling, a coat rack placed in the corner and a sitting bench to your left.ย She looks over slowlyโhesitantly; as if sheโs trying to gauge your reaction.
โฐโค You find yourself swallowing thickly as youโre smacked with another smell of her.ย
โฐโค When you donโt respond, she toes out of her shoes, movements quiet and swift. Silently, you follow her lead. She gathers your boots with hers and positions them underneath the sitting bench.ย
โฐโค โThis way,โ She mumbles. You allow her to side-step, walking down the hall and toward a connecting room, where you faintly see a burgundy living room set. The walk down the corridor almost feels too quick, since you keep getting distracted by the countless art and picture frames lined up on her wall. You realize that the walls appear to be so decorated that you donโt see much of the paint.ย
โฐโค Her living room appears to be similar, littered with different pieces of art and photographs that you could stare at for hours if given the chance. The atmosphere is tranquil but the furniture and color scheme is deliberate and poised. The ceiling is much higher than yours and the windows are fairly large. Much of the interior is splashed with dark velvety hues of red and purple.ย
โฐโค Two brimming bookshelves stretch to the ceiling, lined with countless collections of CDs and novels. The brick fireplace is already lit and emmenates a warm glow around the room. Sevikaโs gaze is clear and level when you peer at her. And her eyebrows lift inquisitively.ย
โฐโค โItโsโฆโ Your voice cracks, causing you to clear your throat. โThis is really nice.โย
โฐโค Her head is tilted, eyes squinting ever-so-slightly with a nature that is purely meditative; as if sheโs trying to pick out any signs of dishonesty. The burning sensation of her dissection is potent. Your mouth pools with saliva as the seconds tick by.
โฐโค A low whistle escapes you as you try to compensate for the tension. โWhy so quiet?โ Your legs shuffle.
โฐโค She licks her lips and hums. โJust trying to make sure this is okay.โ
โฐโค โWhat?โ Your eyebrows are furrowing.
โฐโค She gestures at your surroundings, โThis. My homeโat least, that youโre comfortable being here. If you prefer to spend time in a more public place, thenโฆโ
โฐโค โOh.โ Your features relax. Sheโs trying to be polite. โNo. This is fine, Sev. Iโm always comfortable around you.โ You wipe your sweaty palms against the material of your pants.ย
โฐโค Her eyes follow the movement of your hands, before they linger on the lower half of your body for the tenth of a second while her jaw flexes. You gaze at her with growing anticipation due to the dead silence. She takes a long inhale through her nose, refocusing her attention back to your eyes with what seems like a great deal of concentration.ย
โฐโค A shaky smile spreads across your lips. You travel over to one of the nearby bookshelves, which holds a CD player thatโs currently playing a smooth jazz solo. You have to find something to doโanythingโother than stand there and grow lustful under her pressing gaze.ย
โฐโค โYou have quite a collection,โ You begin.
โฐโค Your back is turned to her as you look through the cases that are neatly stacked together. Despite being covered with clothing, the skin of your back grows hot, as if her gaze is seeping straight through the material of your shirt.
โฐโค โA lot of them were my parents. They loved collecting music.โ
โฐโค You don't have the heart or gall to mention the past-tense reference of her parents. Instead, you nod.ย
โฐโค You feel like you're hypervigilant to everything about her in that moment. The sound of her weight traveling across the carpet becomes heightened, and the hairs on the back of your neck stand when you see her shadow appearing out of the corner of your eye. When you look towards your left, you struggle to containย the zoo that rips through your stomach. She's close. Very close.
โฐโค Her shoulders brush against yours while she reaches across you to turn down the stereo. "You can pick something else if you want," Her voice dips into something low and syrupy. "I don't know what type of music you like." Then she's walking away. Your eyes follow her as she disappears into another room. "Are you thirsty?"
โฐโค "I'll listen to practically anything as long as it's not country." You shuffle through the CD's, stopping when a particular one catches your eye. A classic. "What do you have?"
โฐโค Once you've replaced the CD with one of your choice, you mosey into the other room to join her. It's a kitchen, fairly minimalist compared to the living room, and painted with nearly all black decor. The sight of Sevika standing there is unfamiliar. Her hair is tied up in a half up half down, small tendrils escaping and brushing against the sides of her face. Her nose is wrinkled, eyes squinted and lip rolled inwards.
โฐโค She leans most of her weight onto her hands, which are resting on the surface of the kitchen island. Her sleeves are rolled up to her elbows, and attention is focused acutely on a book that's sitting on the counter. Something savory wafts in the air and you spy a stove behind her that seems to be emanating an exceptional amount of warmth.
โฐโค "Um," you mumble. "Is everything okay?"
โฐโค Her eyes flicker up to meet yours, at first holding something distant, before they cloud over with an undeniable light. Her hands tighten into fists, pressing against the marble countertop before she relaxes them. Then she's standing upright, one arm falling to her side while the other rubs against her forehead. "I'm..." Her words trail off as she glances at the watch on her wrist. "Fuck."
โฐโค Then she's whipping around, opening the oven door. A small cloud of smoke appears.
โฐโค "What are you cooking?" You close the distance between the two of you, swiping through the smoke before peering into the oven.
โฐโค "Nothing anymore." She sighs. "It was supposed to beโ"
โฐโค "Lasagna."
โฐโค You reach for the oven mitts sitting on the nearby countertop, slipping them on before grabbing the deep-dish pan.
โฐโค "I noticed you have it a lot." She continues. "I just thoughtโsince you seem to like it..."
โฐโค You set it on the hot pads, inspecting the top layer of the pasta dish.
โฐโค "Actually, it doesn't look too bad." You say. "It'll have to go back in, and we'll need to turn the heat down to 375, so that it cooks all the way through the layers without scorchiโ"
โฐโค That's when it hits you.
โฐโค "Wait," You abruptly right yourself, snapping your head towards her. She's already watching you, drinking in everything you were saying. Her eyebrows raise at your outburst. Hands still covered in mittens, you're stepping around her, doing a double take at the book that's still open on the kitchen island. "Is that a cookbook?"
โฐโค She doesn't immediately respond.
โฐโค When you crane you neck to get a better look, you're barely registering the words Classic Homemade Lasagna Recipe before her large hand abruptly lands on the book with a loud smack! Her fingers are outstretched, keeping you from being able to see majority of what's written. But it's too late, your assumption has already been proven right.
โฐโค The book is shut before you can say anything else. She opens an overhead cupboard, sliding it in there with one quick motion.
โฐโค "Oh my god," You fight off a wave of giggles, lips stretching into a wide grin. "That was definitely a cookbook."
โฐโค She brushes a few loose hairs out of her face and chooses to avoid your gaze.
โฐโค The stillness that follows is nearly unbearable. In the distance, you hear the current song from the CD player fading out. A car is honking from the street outside and the buzz of the AC comes on. You're still turned towards her, hands covered by her oven mitts and cheeks aching from the smile on your face. She continues to dodge you; resolute.
โฐโค You can't contain your laughter anymore. It's bellows out of you like a songbird breaking free from its cage. That seems to finally draw her attention, and wills her to glance at you. Upon locking eyes, slowly, she smiles an equally warm grin.
โฐโค And just like that, the elastic band of tension that existed all evening snaps.
โฐโค Her laughter quickly follows yours, deeper and soothing and just as beautiful as the last time you heard it. Her rigid stance melts away and her fingers relax.
โฐโค "Sev, whyโ" You wet your lips. "You didn't have to go out of your way to a get recipe and make this. I would have been fine with take-out."
โฐโค "Kai sent me the link to the cookbook yesterday and I figured why not. It was only $20," She rolls her eyes. "Plus it has better reviews than the lasagna recipes I was looking at online."
โฐโค The cookbook was only $20.
โฐโค Adrenaline courses through your veins from such an implication. Sevika bought a cookbook just to make one of your favorite foods. No one's ever done something like that for you before.
โฐโค No one's ever paid close enough attention to even notice your love for lasagna.
โฐโค The way Sevika always manages to nonchalantly flatter you will forever be something you struggle to fathom.
โฐโค You're biting the inside of your cheek, trying your best to contain your buzzing excitement as you place the pan back into the oven. Your back remains turned to her, stomach flipping and fingers nimble.
โฐโค "This is very kind of you to do," You find yourself muttering.
โฐโค "I mean," The sound of her body weight shifting is subtle. "It's our first date. It's the least I could do."
โฐโค "Still kind."
โฐโค You don't allow yourself to brush over one of her many kind gestures. You don't allow yourself to take any of this for granted. Sevika has been very good to you, especially in a world where people haven't been in the past. Often times, she's been more than just your friendly coworker.
โฐโค Whether she wants to admit it or not, she's the one who's actually a sweetheart.
โฐโค "Why don't you like to accept my compliments?" You inquire. You take off her oven mitts, setting them on a nearby counter-space before turning around. Droplets of perspiration trickle down your forehead and the back of your neck. You wipe them away with the palm of your hand, stepping away from the searing hot oven and towards her.
โฐโค Sevika is resting against the kitchen island, arms crossed over her chest and eyes solely fixed on you. You don't miss the way her jaw flexes as you come closer. But you choose to ignore it, positioning yourself to where your right hip is pressed against the island cupboards, just off of Sevika's left shoulder.
โฐโค "Because most of the time, I'm not doing anything extraordinary." She wrinkles her nose. "It's the bare minimum, actually."
โฐโค "Well," You almost come to a standstill as you rack your brain for an appropriate response. "I still appreciate it."
โฐโค That's when you send her a smile. Similar to an innate feeling, you expect her to return the gesture, since there's never really been a time that Sevika hasn't.
โฐโค But the seconds continue to stretch and her smile never appears.
โฐโค Her lips part and her throat bobs as she swallows thickly. You don't think you've seen her eyes look so lucid before.
โฐโค A part of you wants to be consumed by her. You want her to have you; in whatever way that would mean for her. You'd be happy with any scenario. But another part also wants you to remain present in this moment; to fully cling onto every moment that passes with you in her presence. It's a heartbreakingly beautiful conundrum to be in.
โฐโค "The bare minimum barely checks off the list. You know that, right?" Her voice is firm during this wake of silence. Assertive. Strong. But her words manage to undue something within you; something you didn't even know was tightly wound to begin with. "You deserve to receive so much more than the bare minimum from someone. And you deserve to not have to thank them for that."
โฐโค She says it with such conviction that you almost believe that she's been thinking about this for a while.
โฐโคHearing those words nearly break you.
โฐโค They're arguably obvious. But despite how much the general public likes to make instagram captions and TedTalks about it, you've never really been told this before. Not directly. Not with such certainty.
โฐโค "And," She wets her lips, eyes darting away from you for the first time. "Of course I don't want to be too full on this soon. I'd like to think cooking you one of your favorite foods would give me a good start. But there'sโ" She's shaking her head with creases forming in between her brows. "...a lot more that I want to offer to you other than shitty lasagna."
โฐโค You don't respond for a beat as you feel a new unspoken surge of energy igniting between you two. It's takes form as an invisible current, growing with each ticking second.
โฐโค Her attention doesn't waver, remaining clear and steady and safe. You find it hard to breathe with the careful way that she's studying you. Air pacts into your lungs at an alarming rate and your heart beats a mile a minute while your throat locks.
โฐโค Your lips part. Then, "What else are you wanting to offer?"
โฐโค You watch as she cards her fingers through her hair. There's a bounce to her silky locks that leads you to believe it's been very recently washed. If you step forward more, all you have to do is reach up to touch it. She's so close.
โฐโค Incredibly close.
โฐโค You don't know how it's happened but somewhere deep inside of you, where the abandoned and empty house of your life resided, a bright light has been ignited. Somehow, that house is no longer empty. It's no longer cold. Sevika has managed to cast an exceptional amount of life into you.
โฐโค Everything becomes watery at the revelation; her black marble countertops, her crรจme colored button-up, the swirling grey of her irises. It's all blurry. You struggle to blink away your welling tears.
โฐโค How typical of you to get emotional during a time like this...
โฐโค Sevika doesn't reply. She just peers at you with an expression that makes her look as if she's short circuiting. The air is warm, with the oven being heated to a scorching 375 degrees just a few feet away. It's warm and Sevika doesn't falter in managing to unravel you from her regard. It's warm, and your hands are reaching out. It's warm because it's her. She's the warmth.
โฐโค Your hands stop mid-reach, hovering in the air as she fleetingly glances at them. Your pulse thumps against the side of your neck; eyelids fluttering. "What else?" You press. A gentle nudge. A plead.
โฐโค You need to hear her say it; for the sake of confirming that everything is requited.
โฐโค She closes the rest of the distance by grabbing your hands with hers. They're larger and wrap around yours without any extra effort. The gesture is small. But it somehow still causes your legs to nearly give out. She tugs you, urging you closer. You stumble as you give into her magnetic pull. But you're too caught up in all that she is to truly feel embarrassed by it.
โฐโค "I want to offer you everything good." Sevika states it firmly; earnestly. "I don't feel that with people very often. But you," She squeezes your hands, puffing out a heavy exhale. Her breath brushes over your face, minty and enticing. "...I'd do anything to bring goodness into your life."
โฐโค "You already have." The lump in your throat explodes, almost blowing it out completely. Your voice is hoarseโthick with emotion.
โฐโค Her breathing becomes shaky and her mouth falls open. You watch as shock transforms itself onto her features.
โฐโค "Seeing you everyday in that stuffy break room...getting to know you and being able to talk to you," You continue, head bowing as you try to gather your thoughts in a way that won't overwhelm her. "Those days rest with me right here." You bring both your hands and hers to rest against your chest. "I already hold a deep tenderness for you. And it's something that's only for you. Do you know that?"
โฐโค She keenly follows your lips as you speak, leaning so closely now that her forehead grazes against yours. The movement is painstakingly subtle but it still makes your surroundings blacken. The feeling that takes over is close to a rebirth; like being pushed into the ocean by yourself and somehow resurfacing with Sevika fundamentally built into you.
โฐโค And when she kisses you, you know, down to the marrow of your bones, that this is something holy. Teeth clatter and hunger intensifies. Her hands have found solace by clinging onto the rolls of your hips, digging into you, hooking you to her. Ink becomes imprinted onto your heart, screamingโscrawlingโSevikasevikasevikasevika endlessly.
โฐโค She trembles slightly when you press against her; your hands resting against the firmness of her biceps. You reach for her further, never fully satiated, while your toes pull you upwards. Your neck cranes and your chest constricts from the way you desperately lean against her. You're chasing herโher mouth, her smell, her lips, her tasteโand she welcomes you with just as much desperation.
โฐโค She's whispering, "...okay, okay," her voice a gentle echo. Her fingers curl into you, positively leaving marks. "I definitely know now."
โฐโค Sevika transforms from warmth to burning heat at that moment. You cherish the feeling.
โฐโค Somewhere, not too far away, a celestial body explodes.
โฐโค When she's lifting your shirt off of you, the burgundy color of her duvet being lit by a bright moon shining through her window, that same feeling of your world revitalizing returns.
โฐโค A mix of soft sighs and oh sweetheart and countless cresting follows. Your legs quiver and symphonies sound in your ears while she devours you as if you're her last meal.
โฐโค "Don't stop," you continuously plead, drunk off of the beautiful disaster that such a person could cause.
โฐโค She whispers into your skin, mouthingโkissingโand nipping, with a broken voice, "I won't. I promise."
โฐโค I promise.
โฐโค I promise.
โฐโค I promise.
โฐโค The headboard cracks. There's laughter, and snack breaks and savory kisses.
โฐโค And when you're lapping into her with unadulterated vehemence, giving her everything that she wants to take, you promise too.
โฐโค You'll promise everyday if she asks you to.
โฐโค You'll promise until your life expiresโuntil the world ends. Until she decides that she doesn't want you anymore.
โฐโค Long gone are the moments of uncertainty; of hesitancy.
โฐโค After the both of you have recovered from chasing such a high, her arm remains draped over your waist, tugging you into her. She mumbles, "Stay," with a vulnerability that has you shaking your head before a beat of silence can pass.
โฐโค "Always."
โฐโค Another explosion emerges; this time larger. A supernova.
โฐโค Your lips press against her throat. She shivers. Her grip tightens. The moon shines brighter.
โฐโค Always.
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For @nightunite. I actually came back with some Seal!Soap and some hurt/comfort of poly!141 x fruit bat!Reader. Hope this is satisfactory
Harbour seal!Soap whoโs off the base whenever he can โ getting back home as soon as possible, the favourite baby of his mama, the oldest son and pride of his family.
Harbour seal!Soap who has difficulty slotting into most teams, heโs not a pack hybrid, heโs not attuned to the thin threads of connection that wolves or bats or even cows can feel, heโs him and maybe thatโs the problem?
Harbour seal!Soap who tries hard to blend in, because he is friendly, of course he is friendly, heโs the friendliest guy on base but whispers are that he smiles too wide, that his laugh is too strained, that his teeth are always out โ sharp, menacing things.
Price takes one look at his file and thrusts the pup in Simonโs hands, hums to take care of the seal and Wolf!Simon isnโt even sure what the fuck is he supposed to do.
The lad is jumpy despite obvious brilliance, the lad is trying to smile so hard Simonโs wolf grumbles with the urge to paw at him, press cheeky pup in the ground, teach him some bloody manners. You donโt show your teeth off to the likes of Simon unless you want to have them knocked out.
But Soap wiggles his way in every conversation, eyes shiny and smiles wide up until Ghost corners him, looming like death himself โ snarls that if he doesnโt want a big bad wolf to bite him, heโll fucking stop.
Simon doesnโt know whether to act on his promise or laugh in disbelief when Johnny raises his head and grins wider, now showing off his own canineโs deliberately. Look at that, the pup can bite, canโt he?
Komodo dragon!Price just hums when he finds them tangled in each other and places a bite under Soapโs collar, teeth sinking in warm salty flesh, tongue licking off the blood.
Komodo dragons thrive on hierarchy, Price thrives on power โ thatโs the only thing he wonโt compromise on.
Johnny grins and finds way in his arms as well. Too damn bad, captain, too damn bad. Harbour seals thrive on attention.
Their unit is all live wires and sparks and heavy heady tension โ air so thick with perpetual hunger that they could carve their initials inside of a little heart.
It gets easier when Kyle arrives โ he takes away some of the tension, he gets each of them, catching up on everything twice as fast as Soap did.
It scratches Johnny the wrong way, makes a sensitive small part of him whine that this is it, that Kyle will take his place because how can anyone not like Kyle? Kyle is handsome, Kyle is bright and so effortlessly charming Soap wants to whip out little notebook where sergeant speaks.
But at some point Gaz pecks a kiss to his temple and pulls him on the couch of the rec room. Warm, inviting, draping hand over his shoulders โ draping wing over both of them.
Soap watches him โ teeth sharp, jaws itching to try the pretty wings on the pretty Gaz, head plopping in his lap.
Kyle slots into their team like he always was there โ fingers careful in Johnnyโs hair, hands warm around Ghostโs shoulders, talons sharp on Priceโs skin.
And then you arrive. Little bat with big eyes and big wings and some of the fluffiest hair Soap has ever seen.
You donโt slot in like Gaz, you are a little rougher around the edges, a little awkward with your approaches.
Bats are social creatures but not all of us take the best parts from our hybrid sides.
You are bloody amazing at what you do, your efficiency is not a concern but you donโt wiggle your way right in the team.
You hover on the outside, you eat your fruits alone (he isnโt even sure why you even eat them? Arenโt bats carnivores? Maybe you just like them) and in the dark, you watch them โ always in the periphery of the vision. But never too close.
You remind Soap himself.
Small childish part of him wants to keep things that way, small childish part of him doesnโt like new people on the team, doesnโt like sharing attention.
But you donโt ask for any. You are just there.
It takes him month and a half and a stupid joke Ghost makes about vampires for you to reply that you are a) vegetarian b) a fruit bat and not a spectral bat for Soap to feel like someone kicked him in the face. Simon pauses, tilting head to the side, his tail stopping its friendly wag.
Your smile is too wide, your teeth are so sharp and you donโt try to fit in.
You try to stay away.
They donโt know you and you just let them know that they donโt. You just let them know that they havenโt tried to know you.
Soap spends the whole evening googling information about your species with Ghost hovering above his shoulder, dark eyes reading faster than Soap scrolls.
The next morning is the first time none of them comments on the amount of fruit you consume for breakfast.
Kyle slots in next to you, murmurs โgorgeous wings, loveโ, asks if you could help him with preening, offers you company for the morning drills.
Offer makes something in you flutter, sending spark of hope down your chest, your big eyes zeroing on warm friendly Kyle.
(Kyle will never admit how embarrassed he was to realise that you slipped through the cracks. Kyle will never admit that social โbirdโ part of him croaked with distress when he noticed that you are always a little behind. Never with them.)
Soap feels something in him clench when you glance in his direction and then shake your head at Kyle. Soap knows why you looked at him very very well.
He notices Price with your file in the afternoon, reading glasses on the tip of his nose, tail swaying in with something very similar to agitation. Price doesnโt know how to crack on you, you never fight for his right at the top of the food chain, you never contest his power. He has nothing to bite down on.
Soap isnโt sure you will give captain anything to hook on. Soap isnโt sure you feel like you can.
Johnny finds you late at night, ridiculously big bowl of fruit in your lap, his cheeks burning when your head snaps up at him and you put it away.
He and Ghost used to tease you about the amount of fruits and berries you consumed โ you started eating less at dinners with them.
Soapโs throat bobs when he gulps and he shakes his head, plopping himself down on the carpet next to you.
He should have thought youโd find a way to catch up on your meals when no one looks.
When no one can make you feel wrong for eating what you like to eat.
Johnny extends his palm to you. You wonโt eat while heโs here but heโd like you to. Maybe you will continue if he asks you to share.
Wikipedia page smacks his brain immediately, reminding that fruit bats eat alone and are very protective of their food.
Bloody awesome, Johnny, you mightโve as well tried to wrestle fruits out of your grip.
But before his panic forces him to hide his palm away you carefully place a date in his palm, your darker claws cool and pointy. Soap doesnโt know why but he stares, eyes gluing to him.
โCan do damage with these, eh?โ, he attempts at having conversation, trying not to smile too wide. Not to show off too much teeth.
You hum out โdependsโ and in demonstration poke a piece of orange, skewing it on a thin claw.
Soap feels his brows arch, leaning closer, unbidden โhow many can you stack on โem?โ leaving his mouth before he thinks.
To his absolute delight you snicker and pass him the bowl.
He spends the rest of the hour stacking pieces of fruit and skewing berries on your claws and watching as you practically inhale them once heโs done.
When you two finish up the bowl, you both are covered in juice and are grinning like mad idiots but Soap never felt lighter.
He watches you grin back at him โ wide and toothy โ and feels something shifting.
Maybe heโs not the pack hybrid like Ghost or doesnโt have Kyleโs easy charm or even Johnโs acute understanding of dynamics within the team. But he is him and it seems like thatโs exactly what you need.
Few months later Soap finds himself with you nuzzled in his neck, Kyle plastered over you two like heโs a big blanket, Simon reading something in the quiet low voice of his and John already crawling into den you call bed.
Itโs warm and heโs squished by people who like him from every side and he finally belongs.
Soap presses a kiss to the top of your head and smiles wide when you raise it, giving him a slow sleepy blink. His smiles are wide and toothy.
His smiles are always welcomed with his team.
And so is he.
House of the Dragon characters x Sick!Reader
Alicent makes sure you have everything that you need & that you're comfortable.
She'll tuck you into bed when it's time for you to sleep, fluff out your pillows, and feeds you herself.
She prays every night & makes her children pray before every meal to wish you a quick recovery.
Alicent would rather no one visits you while your sick - especially Rhaenyra - because she doesn't want anyone to disturb you or for the sickness to spread.
Helaena likes to sit next to your bed and embroider, comfortable listening to your breathing while you rest.
She'll embroider a bug that reminds her of you in hopes to make you feel better.
When she can't visit you, she'll leave one of her bug friends to keep you company :)
Aegon can't stay away from you even when your sick.
He doesn't care if he also catches your fever.
He'll sleep on the same bed as you & try to cuddle with you, even when you tell him not to, worried that he'll also get sick.
Alicent has kicked him out of your chambers multiple times, scolding him not to bother you.
Aemond likes to read to you. Preferably stories about the Targaryen Ancestors.
He'd sit next to your bed while you sleep, so he can make sure nothing will happen to you during the night. One of the candles will be left lit so he can read one of his history books.
If you refuse to take your medicine the maester had given you, Aemond bribes you with rides on Vhagar.
Rhaenyra & Daemon usually visit you together.
Daemon will sit in a chair close to your bed, while Rhaenyra sits on the bed.
Rhaenyra will tell tell you about the gossip she's heard in court while Daemon brushes your hair off of your sweaty forehead - he keeps it there almost the whole visit.
They'd both get really stressed if you weren't getting better - but worse.
Especially Daemon after what's happened with his brother.
Daemon will threaten the maester. If the maester can't help you get better, he'll find someone who will.
Rhaenyra is more patient and will try calm Daemon down.
pairing: lando norris x fem actress!reader
face claim: rachel zegler
everyone is a hunger games fan, even if you say you're not a hunger games fan you are. this includes lando norris.
based on this request: could you please do a lando norris smau with rachel zegler as the fc!! where the ballad of songbirds and snakes recently came out, twitter could be freaking out over it, and then someone spots her with lando or something!! take it from there queen thatโs just my like base plotโผ๏ธโผ๏ธ - @inejghafawifesblog
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f1gossipandtea: lando norris was spotted multiple times out in monaco with y/n y/ln !! this comes after his appearance at the premiere of her new film the ballad of songbirds and snakes. do you think they're a cute couple?
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user15: try not to say parents challenge (impossible)
user16: has someone looked into my brain and pulled out my dream threesome and made them a couple
user17: i need them to give me a chance for real
user18: i am defo anti-paparazzi but thank you for these absolute gems xx
user19: those motherfuckers must've been camped out cause literally got the whole itinerary
user20: this feels like such a random couple but after watching the BTS of tbosas they defo have very similar personalities
user21: i did a lil bit of sleuthing and tom has posts of him at races? so do we think he suggested lando? or showed him to y/n?
user22: i also had a wee look and y/n follows basically all of the grid and a couple of the retired drivers so that tells me she likes the sport? like if she just liked lando surely she'd only follow him and maybe some of his friends?
user23: so like my vision is y/n y/ln either performing or singing the national anthem at one of the american races
user24: someone get this gal in the fia stat
user25: who is this girl? she's too irrelevant for lando ...
user26: and who are YOU? he's not going to pick you girly
user27: she's in the top film in the world for weeks now ... let's not be silly
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landonorris: what the paps didn't get ...
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user28: screaming, crying, throwing up i did not know i needed this so much
user29: i am so unwell this is so cute
user30: i was so on the y/n and tom train but i am happy to say it has been hijacked by lando
yourusername: paps didn't get our good angles :(
landonorris: i'd like to keep the best angles to ourselves
yourusername: no for real, for MY eyes only
maxfewtrell: god you people are obnoxious...
landonorris: you literally told me to stop complaining about being lonely and now i'm being attacked ๐คจ
maxfewtrell: NOT LIKE THIS THERE ARE CHILDREN HERE
yourusername: fuck them kids
landonorris: what y/n said
danielricciardo: free enchante promotion, y/n you're invited to my wedding
yourusername: the girlfriend effect x enchante goes crazy tbf
landonorris: are you saying i didn't dress well?
yourusername: you either didn't dress well or can't pack for shit you came to GEORGIA IN THE SUMMER WITH A SUITCASE FULL OF HOODIES
landonorris: but that's my brand :(
georgerussell63: the twitch quartet formally announce our disappointment about finding out about this relationship via @f1gossipandtea, we expect a big apology and perhaps and visit from tom
tomblyth: i am THERE
yourusername: eh i think that's on lando .... but real question is who follows @f1gossipandtea
georgerussell63: me duh, i need to check for potential GDPA incidents
alexalbon: i also follow it ๐ no real reason i just like the drama thanks @charles_leclerc and @carlossainz55
yourusername: LMAO
charles_leclerc: i am disappointed in you lando. ALEX WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN
carlossainz55: ???
landonorris: lol would you have even believed me ?
georgerussell63: no
alexalbon: no
charles_leclerc: no
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yourusername: some cheeky behind the scenes pics, including lando demanding to be pampered while i was in hair and make up
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user31: i hope lando can fight (i have brass knuckles on, sorry not sorry)
landonorris: UMMMM ???
yourusername: soz babe they're just passionate
user32: HE WAS ON SET? HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING?
landonorris: how dare you !! the makeup girlies LOVE ME
yourusername: sure, if that's what you wanna believe
landonorris: they liked me better than you they said so :p
yourusername: they were just being nice i told them you're fragile
landonorris: i am NOT FRAGILE I AM SOFT THERE IS A DIFFERENCE
user33: okay now i get them 100%
maxverstappen1: so this is why you didn't play fifa with me ๐คจ
oscarpiastri: so this is why you abandoned me at the airport ๐คจ
danielricciardo: so this is why you blocked me after i called you seven times in a row it was an emergency you ASSHOLE ๐คจ
carlossainz55: so this is why you've ditched golf dates the last couple months ๐คจ
alexalbon: so this is why you didn't come to watch tbosas with me and lily ๐คจ
georgerussell63: so this is why the GDPA chat was muted on your phone ๐คจ
yourusername: i ain't reading alla that, i'm happy for you or i'm sorry that happened, i'll see you all in the parking lot at the vegas gp
landonorris: ...sorry?
user34: Y/N IS GOING TO THE VEGAS GP?
maxfewtrell: actually could you have him more often?
landonorris: AHAHAHAA :(
yourusername: gladly :)
landonorris: :)
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f1: lando's new helmet for vegas... we wonder where this inspiration came from?
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user38: IS THAT A BALLAD OF SONGBIRDS AND SNAKES HELMET
user39: maybe men do deserve rights
landonorris: the ballad of songbirds and snakes is out in cinemas everywhere now !!
yourusername: i knew they should've given you a cameo
landonorris: THERE WAS A CHANCE OF THAT?
yourusername: no, but it would've been funny tho
landonorris: don't get me excited like that :(
danielricciardo: maybe you could have a cameo in snow white, you are what the kids call a short king... sorry
yourusername: LMAO
landonorris: can we stop bullying me on my special post :(
yourusername: sorry babe, i love you and i love your helmet, thank you xxx
landonorris: THANK YOU :)))))
maxverstappen1: so you're telling me i sat through whatever the fuck that opening ceremony was when you could've had y/n perform the whole time?
yourusername: new agent incoming?
landonorris: I KNEW YOU WATCHED THE FILM
maxverstappen1: i am a supportive friend?
landonorris: you didn't even know her?
maxverstappen1: i saw you at the premiere, went through your instagram, saw you only followed her, put two and two together, went to see the film because we're friends by proxy now ๐
yourusername: i am scared and impressed
landonorris: fine... that's kinda cute
user40: okay soz i love this relationship and all the friendships starting
user41: okay but @yourusername who is winning the games
yourusername: fernando or valterri they scare me
fernandoalo_oficial: compliment!
valterribottas: i'll take it
landonorris
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landonorris: i wanted to impress her :( she's a lot better at her day job
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user46: (i'm glad he's okay) lando really was the 'this one is for you babe' and misses meme this weekend
landonorris: not wrong
yourusername: GET OFF YOUR PHONE AND STOP TALKING DOWN TO YOURSELF
user47: currently picturing y/n whisper yelling positive affirmations at lando
yourusername: yes !! baby boy is way too hard on himself and NOT on my watch
landonorris: :)))
yourusername: you did so well this weekend, i loved watching you do what you love - don't be too hard on yourself !!
landonorris: i just wanted to do your helmet proud :(
yourusername: i am more than proud
landonorris: can you sing to me in your country accent again?
yourusername: of course
maxverstappen1: is this a kink?
landonorris: 1. no it's not a kink 2. ASK ME IF I'M OKAY BEFORE YOU TRY TO KINK SHAME ME
maxverstappen1: you're actually spelling even better maybe a concussion was what you needed
yourusername: TOO SOON MAX
maxverstappen1: did you just send me a picture of lando pouting
yourusername: yes ! say sorry now !!!!!
maxverstappen1: fine. i'm sorry lando. i'm glad you aren't hurt and that you don't have a country accent fetish
user48: are these the new terror trio?
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yourusername: don't listen to this bozo, he's the most talented boy in the world
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user49: THEY HAVE A CHILD?
user50: that's a dog...
yourusername: just because i didn't birth him, doesn't mean mr. fluffy isn't my biological child
landonorris: i'm not a step dad i'm the dad who stepped up ๐
tomblyth: tom blyth erasure
yourusername: boo you whore
tomblyth: ermmm EXCUSE ME?
yourusername: lando appreciation post must be mean to all other men, sorry !!
tomblyth: understandable, continue.
landonorris: the most talented??? coming from you??? this is high praise
yourusername: and you BETTER take it
landonorris: yes ma'am
maxverstappen1: is this another kink?
landonorris: MAX?
maxverstappen1: it's winter break i'm bored and you have a GIRLFRIEND so i can't terrorise you in person :(
yourusername: attempt to kink shame us one more time and i'm sending mr fluffy at your ankles
yourusername: fuck it i'll send ankle biter yuki in as well
yukitsunoda0511: i'll do it
yourusername: @landonorris i see why he's your favourite now
landonorris: yuki-san!! can we give mr. fluffy a brother?
yukitsunoda0511: i love you guys but i see you way too much as it is
yourusername: harsh crowd
landonorris: at least you have me?
yourusername: TRUE
user51: my life pre and post y/nxlando was so vastly different - i love them
note: thank you for the request !! i have been swamped with work... and recovering from my birthday weekend. i hope you enjoyed it!! i love the hunger games and i can't wait to see tbosas !!
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