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understanding consciousness & non dualism series: part 1 : how to know you are only consciousness part 2 : why everything is consciousness; non dualism part 3 : everything is imagination & an illusion part 4 : what exactly is consciousness (you)? part 5 : ego + when "you" dont understand non dualism part 6 : time, thoughts & meditation part 7 : proof that everything is imaginary part 8 : stop and just observe part 9 : non dualism vs law of assumption part 10 : the world within the mind + the 5 senses part 11 : the unreal vs the real part 12: finally, play a new game

Yesterday I was bored so I drew most of the eleanor designs I've made so far

Shifters that shift to be w/ their s/o will always amaze me. You mean to tell me that you TRANSFERED your AWARENESS to another UNIVERSE??? just to experience love? That's like the premium level of loving and dedication

YALL new chapter dropped about ferid and safe to say: i loved the twist of it not being what I expected it to be. At first i truly thought that rigr manipulated Ferid into seeing him as a father. But this chapter showed us he was not all too affectionate whatsoever. He didn't even remember Ferid's voice so it may be they didn't talk a lot. So meaning, Ferid grew attached and it shows that something so little was enough for him to make a bond with Rigr. It also shows that new role of "father" truly was because of Rigr being a sire. (This is such definitive proof that depending on the vampire, they can in fact view their sites and sired as family).

Imo Kagami really did went with the : son who admires his neglecting father. A few examples:

That disappointment of Rigr definitely set off ferid's perfectionistic tendencies. Either it is so he lives up to a subconscious thought that he is not good enough, kind of proving to himself but also Rigr he's capable of more.

Perhaps ferid wanting to crush Rigr's plans is to show him he is so much more worthy that he can even sabotage his father's plan.

So not only that but also a one sided relationship between son and father can lead to the son developing some serious issues with forming healthy relationships, desensitised to emotional neglect and continuing this neglect.

And we all see these traits in how he treats Crowley: ferid is literally repeating the cycle of his own father. We also see ferid be so cruel perhaps due to the mixing of emotional unawareness but also the normalisation of killing. So when he slaughtered Crowleys friends and family, it was truly just because of the same reason Rigr did: for the victim to be part of their own interest. Crowley being a kimchi for Ferid's power and Ferid being kimchi for Rigr's knowledge about the Micheala Gene.

ot only that but I also noticed: ferid learnt Rigr's more eccentric features. He observed Rigr and has taken on what he saw as his personal cover up. Because before ferid was turned he wasn't so theatrical (?) similar to what we saw Rigr be.

For me ferid came over as a much more determined, cold-blooded yet very deep and philosophical character. So him using what he learnt from Rigr to cover up what he had planned? EIDKWLC STOP 😭

You can do so many analysis points just alone on that: ferid watching Rigr despite being nothing to him, copied him like a son was guided by a father into a new world. But that also leaves Ferid's morality open: why and where did he learn to basically have no standard for moral choices? Apart from letting let down so often, I can also imagine Ferid partly looked as to how ruthless Rigr used Ferid. I can highly imagine ferid understanding that not only is it important to stick to yourself but also be ruthless as to how you achieve this. Ik this is kind of obvious but it is so interesting to see that connection to where ferid may have learned that or even realised that ruthlessness.

And apart from the torture aspect, it sounds so familiar to crowleys torture, having to hunt down a man for 50 years just to realise you are loosing that wrath of revenge.

Ferid literally repeated the cycle. Crowley once said "he doesn't know (father) rigr." LIKE NO YOU DO FERID CARRIES OUT WHAT RIGR MADE TO HIM. In a sense Crowley was raised into vampire hood the same way ferid was.

But this also draws the Conclusion to Ferid/ Crowley and Rigr and what family constellation they had (considering every type of group dynamic is based on a family dynamic or most): Theirs being what happens when you are raised by a neglected father and how that can go on for generations.

This post is already long enough and a word blob so if you did follow somehow, I am so proud of you. AODJEPE anyways I love ferid so much thank you kagami for explaining Ferid but please don't kill him like you did with Krul 🌚

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and what if i say that i don’t believe in death anymore

i HAVE to ask about your thoughts on the stonehearts dropping. your opinion on this is outrageously important

it's very delusional but i want to see them in a comedy setting where they're just one big atrocious found family

sugilite and obsidian interests me i hope they match aventurine's freak (perhaps even surpass)

All that you experience is appearances (i.e., phenomena)

by Being_is_IT / twitter

Q：SELF nature is bright...

A: SELF does not necessarily have to appear as "light" or "bright" or "glorious". "Darkness" or "ordinary" or "mundane" is SELF-same, and it is equally sacred. In other words, "consciousness" is an energetic pattern of SELF, and "unconsciousness" is also an energetic pattern of SELF.

Although the appearances may look differently, there is no actual difference at all. The key is not to be confused by various forms of appearance, thinking that one appearance is better or worse than another.

SELF can seemingly present infinite forms of appearances while remaining SELF intact without conditions.

"time" is appearance.

"moment" is appearance.

"space" is appearance.

"birth" is appearence.

"living" is appearance.

"dying" is appearance.

"sleeping" is appearance.

"waking" is appearance.

"dreaming" is appearance.

"light" is appearance.

"dark" is appearance.

"beautiful" is appearance.

"ugly" is appearance.

"I" is appearance.

"other" is appearance.

"location" is appearance.

"continuity" is appearance.

"progress" is appearance.

"consciousness" is appearance.

"thinking" is appearance.

Appearances may look very differently, they are SELF-same! They are all the same holiness. Whatever you can think or or imagine or express is all appearances.

All appearances (i.e., phenomena) are simply incessantly morphing energetic patterns or textures of SELF.

SELF is beyond experiencing and SELF is not an subject or object to be experienced.

SELF can know SELF directly!

Know that you are SELF! SELF is SELF!

Don't be confused by infinite variations of seeming appearance! Although all appearences are SELF's energetic patterns nonetheless, know that you cannot be defined or pinned down as any appearances.