ppl who don't get cats will try to argue that cats don't love you meanwhile cats will cry and cry and cry and cry like the world is ending until you hold them like a baby and give them a kissy on their perfect lil forehead
I'm a simple girl. I just want a man with nice eyes, a sharp jawline, questionable morals, and a fondness for knives.
Monsters in the Dark #8
Dark themes, mentions of Billy’s abandonment by his mother, dark fluff, fem!reader.
@idaofinfinity @e-dubbc11 @rosaleenablack
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It was quiet that evening. You both laid on his living room floor, Billy lost in his thoughts, watching you read Shakespeare while he played with your hair.
He shook himself from those thoughts, knowing they were growing dark, thinking of all the ways he was sure you’d eventually leave him.
The ways he’d drag you back. But stopped himself, knowing if you truly wanted to leave, he’d let you go.
Even if it made his chest fucking ache.
“Read to me,” Billy murmured, lips brushing your head.
You shuddered, enjoying Billy’s touch, and began to read;
“These violent delights have violent ends, and in their triumph die like fire and powder, which as they kiss, consume.” You recited, softly. Your fingers played with the edge of the paper.
Billy watched you, admiring you, and kissed the corner of your lips. He was the Devil, but for you? He was Godly vengeance on your enemies.
You loved Billy at his darkest. But you didn’t seek to save him. You knew you could not, instead you stayed in the darkness with him.
Like Persephone had chosen to stay with Hades by eating the pomegranate.
He stroked your cheek, “I’m damning you.” He spoke, startling you.
You shrugged, a smile played on your lips. “It’s my choice, Billy. It’s not on you. A God who is supposedly for free will but punishes you for not choosing Him is maybe a God I don’t wanna choose.” You told him, leaning into his touch.
“You’d choose me over heaven?” Billy asked, thumb brushing your bottom lip.
“I don’t wanna go to a place I can’t follow you.” You said earnestly. “You cut off someone’s fingers for me just because they threatened me. What has God done but watch my father abuse me? My mother had to step in, and He didn’t defend her, either.”
Billy was a selfish bastard. He rarely cared about anyone but Frank and himself, but he fucking ached at the thought of you suffering eternal misery for him.
He grunted as you pushed him back, discarding the play, and climbing on top of him. You laid your head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat, thighs on either side of his hips.
Silence reigned, but it was comfortable, the clock ticked over the TV, and New York bustled below the penthouse.
He remembered Curtis bringing you over, a fragile woman, scared of so much, shaking the first night at the door to his bedroom, begging to let you sleep with him.
How he’d been hooked the minute you’d crawled in, fingers clutching his shirt. You reminded him of the boy he’d been. How he’d cried at the fire station, wondering why his mom had left him there, and when she was coming back.
He’d marked you as his since then, and swore to protect you, swore that no one would ever hurt you again, after hearing from Curtis the tales of your father’s abuse.
Billy gripped your hips, angry thinking about it. He wanted to drag your father from his grave, and burn the bones. No. No one would ever hurt you again.
If only he knew, you felt the same way about him.
walking up to random doors and tugging on them and saying "i can't. it's locked" out loud to no one to fulfill my dreams of being an adventure game protagonist
Thank you, Terry! I’ve missed writing. I don’t know often I’ll write, but I miss being creative. And I’ve missed you, too. 💜
—The Wolf.
—slightly canon!Billy, alluding to oral (f receiving), implied poly, alcohol, drunk reader.
—526 words.
—I haven’t written in a long time. I felt a little inspired, so I wrote. :) I’ll tag a few who might be interested. If you don’t see yourself tagged, it’s because I can’t remember my taglist, lol.
— @e-dubbc11 @kayhi808 @fireeyes-on-teller-dixon-grimes @snowkestrel @aoi-targaryen @terry2227 @firexfate @danzer8705
You drowsily watched him work at his desk, leaning your chin down on your arms, feeling jittery. You probably shouldn’t have drank that wine with your antidepressants. “Sometimes I think Anvil is what you love the most. More’n me and Frankie.” You slurred, drunk from the wine he’d given you, and feeling like you’d stepped into a hot bath. The fire cracked in the background, light flickering in the dark room.
Billy leaned back in his chair, clicking his pen, dark eyes watching you. He reached across the desk, a finger curling around your hair. “It’s proof of how far I’ve come.” He said, voice low, making a fire burn deep in your belly. God, you wanted him. In every way, you wanted to devour him like the wolf in the woods.
“But Billy, we love you. Is it really worth everything?” You asked, taking another sip, sinking deeper into the chair, his answer wrapping around you;
“I loved my ma. Where did it get me?” His voice was sharp, as bared his teeth. A pin drop could be heard, and the wind blew outside, making you cold somehow despite the warmth of the fire.
“I could love you.” It was quiet, but he heard you as he pulled back, dark eyes like chips of onyx.
“It doesn’t matter if you love me. You’re mine.” The clock chimed midnight.
“And you’re mine and Frankie’s.” You said, shifting, the chair creaking underneath you. You remembered recently sharing a bed with Frank and Billy, nestled between them while they smoked. You felt an ache between your thighs even now, the smell of Billy’s cologne and nicotine.
Billy fidgeted with the pen, a frown between his eyes, and his lashes fanning over his cheekbones.
The room was dim, casting harsh shadows across his face. He dropped the pen and it rolled across the desk. He grabbed his glass of whiskey, Tennessee Honey, and finished it off. He looked at you over the glass. “There’s no such thing as fairytales. That shit is for the storybooks.”
“But maybe in the fairytale Red Riding Hood gets eaten, and she’s happy for it.” You said, wide eyed, and eager.
“And I’m the wolf, right?” He set the glass down, admiring how you pressed your thighs together under his hot gaze.
“Billy, who says you’re the wolf?” You said giggling, and he couldn’t tell if it was the wine. “I can eat you when you visit your mother in that home you keep her in. When you keep her—“
Billy clicked his tongue. “Careful. You’re clever and I like you, but my ma is off limits.” He said through his teeth.
“Oh, Mister Russo, won’t you keep me and Frankie locked up, too?” You continued, unruffled.
He closed his laptop, and stood up moving around the desk. He fisted your hair, “Alright, little bird. Let’s go to bed. Maybe if you’re good, I’ll eat that pussy.”
You laughed, standing up, running for the stairs, looking over your shoulder, beckoning him. Your hips swayed, taking the first step, and then laughed again racing up the stairs, Billy hot on your heels.
And hell on his.
Diet Mountain Dew.
I’m posting a few pieces I’ve posted before that are safe to post. I’ve also got new stuff in the works, but I am writing new content. It’s just taking time. I write slow these days. :) But I do have a bodyguard mini series planned.
1.2k words.
Tagging; @terry2227 @e-dubbc11 @aoi-targaryen @snowkestrel @fireeyes-on-teller-dixon-grimes @danzer8705 @firexfate
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It started where you’d come by, and help give him tools, “Here, Mister Russo.” You’d say, sweetly.
And if he said he didn’t imagine you calling him Mister Russo in different circumstances, he’d be lying.
You smiled, pushing up your large glasses, as though you knew, twirling the tools in your hand, and blowing bubbles with your gum, and changing his radio station to country music of all things.
He turned it back to rock, and you popped another bubble. “I was listening to that.”
“I don’t care. My garage, my music.” He said, lifting the hood of the car.
“You’re kind of an asshole, aren’t you?”
“Took you long enough to figure it out.” He smirked over his shoulder.
You rolled your eyes.
One day he was getting ready to leave when you popped your gum, blowing another bubble, waiting for him to take you home in the cold weather. You often popped into your neighbor's work to chat with him, while you waited for him to get off work. His business was near the bookstore where you worked, and he’d drive you home every day so you didn’t have to walk home with your bad knee, especially with winter right around the corner.
He wiped his hand off of the grease on an old cloth, “Need a ride home?”
You smiled softly, “Yes, Mister Russo.” And then popped your gum again.
He grabbed a fistful of your hair, yanking your head back. “You pop that gum one more time, we’re gonna have a problem.” He said, baring his teeth.
You blew a bubble, popping it.
The audacity.
He growled, kissing you hard, pushing into your mouth, knocking your glasses askew, and making you gasp. He pulled back, with your gum in his mouth, and spit it out in the trash.
“I wasn’t done chewing.” You said indignant.
“You are now, sweetheart.” He smirked, closing the garage down.
You followed him with your cane, “Asshole.”
Billy watched you apply your chapstick that was root beer flavored while he took a wheel off a car. “That actually work, or does it just taste good?”
You huffed, “It works.” You blotted your lips. “Wanna taste, Mister Russo?” You teased, puckering up.
He held up his can of soda, “I’m good.”
You sighed, “Too bad. I would have given you a kiss for a few dollars.” You teased lightly.
“Jesus, in my day it was fifty cents.” He teased back.
“I’m expensive.” You laughed.
Billy huffed, “Clearly.”
You stood in the hall outside your neighbor’s apartment with your cane, knocking on his door. Your leg ached.
He opened it, “Yeah?” He asked admiring you in your sweater dress, the way your hair was done up nice. He wanted to brush it, and play with it.
“My stove won’t work.” You said softly. “Can you come look at it?” You asked, pushing your glasses up, your sweater sleeves too long for your arms, and hung over your hands a little.
“For a few dollars.” He grinned, laughing, when you hit arm.
You ate chocolates, while he bent over your stove, looking at it and mumbling to himself.
You admired him in his tight dark jeans and green sweater. You may or may not have found things around your apartment wrong, just so he’d come over. So you wouldn’t have to be alone. Always alone, friends were hard to come by being disabled. You slowed them down.
You were too shy to ask him to have a movie night or something. And sometimes you just wanted to sit and read a book with your feet in his lap, while he read his own book, enjoying each other's company.
And he caught you at it, too. “You want me to come over, sweetheart, I will. Don’t need an excuse to see a pretty girl.”
Your cheeks heated, and he smiled, his eyes crinkling at the corners.
You sat there in his work garage watching him work on some old Chevy or something, you were terrible with cars, admiring how his sweater slid up exposing his naval and the little patch of hair there, you twirled a wrench or whatever it was, in your hand itching to touch him.
You pressed your thighs together, as he slid out from underneath the car, hands looking greasy, his sweater pulled up around his elbows. You imagined him staining your thighs with his handprints as he kissed you.
You imagined running your fingers through his soft hair, always slicked back and faded on the sides, before pulling on it while he kissed you, probably tasting like the soda he drank. And then you imagined pulling on his hair for an entirely different reason.
He looked over at you, smirking as he sipped his soda, fingers stained from working on the car. Uh oh. He must have noticed you gawking. He rolled over to you, sitting at your level on the thing he’d rolled under the car with (you were at a loss for the terminology), in his maroon sweater and black jeans.
“Want somethin’, pretty girl?” Billy asked, looking cocky.
“No.” You said, shyly.
“No?” Billy asked, smiling growing. He leaned closer, and you instinctively leaned in too. “Gotta be a good girl and ask for what you want.” He teased you.
“Mister Russo, you’re being an asshole.” You whined, seriously considering whacking him on the head with the wrench-thingy.
He laughed; “I think we both already know I’m an asshole.” He said, booping you on the nose with his dirty fingers.
“Can I have a kiss?” You asked, sweetly. “I helped give you tools all day. Froze my leg off here.” You said, patting your leg.
“For a few dollars.” He smirked.
You glared, “Fine, I’ll just kiss Paul down the hall.”
Billy huffed, “You think mama’s boy can kiss you right?” Billy asked, rolling closer.
God, he was being an asshole, but Paul was a mama’s boy. He did nothing without his mother’s help.
“Mister Russo.” You whined, “Don’t you wanna taste the root beer on my lips?”
“C’mere.” Billy hummed, and you leaned into him eagerly. He kissed you this time, making your insides melt, his fingers touching your thighs making you sigh. He gripped them, and yanked you closer, careful of your bad leg.
You gasped into his mouth, tasting Diet Mountain Dew on him. The feel of his tongue sliding against yours had desire licking at your insides.
You pulled on his hair roughly, making him groan into your mouth, and an ache built between your thighs.
He pulled back kissing you once, twice, three times before nudging you with his nose. “You taste real sweet, sweetheart. Better than root beer.” He husked.
And then you looked down to see your legs stained with grease, and oil. You grinned inwardly, that had been your intention all along.
“Sorry.” He said, not sounding sorry at all.
You giggled, “Next time I bake, I’m getting flour all over you.” You threatened.
Billy grinned.
God, you made work go by easily.
Later after he drove you home, you shyly invited him into your apartment, and you both ended up on your couch, you laying back, with him laying between your thighs, chin resting on your stomach while you played with his hair, listening to an audiobook.
He looked like a lazy cat, enjoying petting from his favorite human. His eyes were hooded as he watched you, feeling wanted after a childhood unwanted in the group home.
For the first time, you didn’t feel like a burden, alone with only the characters in your books to keep you company.
You didn’t know what you and Billy were, but you were content to let it unfold.
I just scrolled through and saw your update. I'm so sorry for you loss, kat. I'm sending you all the love and hugs from here 💛
Thank you so much, it’s painful and strange. I’ve always lived with my mom. Never alone, and now I am fiercely the first time in 35 years. But my kitty Aspen helps, and all my of you on here. It makes me feel less alone. Like a warm hug. You don’t know how much I appreciate that. I only have one family member left and two godparents. They are all very distant. I haven’t talked to them all year, so it’s just me, Aspen, and my Tumblrinas. Which is wonderful I’ve met so many great people on here. 🩷♥️
Hi. Long time reader. I really love all your fics. You made me love Billy even more.
As someone with chronic pain due to scoliosis, I also want a Billy of my own to give me massages 😅
Thank you so much for reading! 💜 I really appreciate it. I’ve heard scoliosis can be disabling. How severe is yours? I don’t have scoliosis, but I have fibromyalgia. It effects most of my body, and is pretty disabling. Though, it varies from person to person.
I think we all need a Billy to give us massages. 💜
“he’s killed people” ok but have you considered that he did it in a hot pathetic way.
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