ok no I'm still annoyed about what they've done to anne elliot. why must every heroine be beautiful, smart, confident, witty, flirtatious, funny, independent, firm-minded etc.?
what about shy women? humble women? lonely women? women who are just sad and a little bit pathetic? not firm enough to speak their mind? not strong enough to know their mind? who are riddled with anxiety and embarrassment? who have genuine faults and mistakes they regret but are too mortified to acknowledge? who know they are being taken advantage of but who keep sacrificing their own happiness to maintain the peace and reputation of their family? who are smart in their own way and happy with that even if it doesn't amount to anything that can be paraded around as a talent? do they not deserve to have their stories told?
I've had enough of snark!!!!! enough of smugness!!!! i wanna see a heroine who is so miserable and lonely and who feels everything so deeply and who yearns so bloody hard for years that she collapses when he finally gives her that letter!!! i want pathetic pining!! i want miserable social interactions!!! i want stolen glances and subtle questions and agonising despair until a confession so cathartic that i faint with her!!!! i want to feel something real!!!!!!!!! god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
List five things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box of the last ten people who reblogged something from you. Spread the positivity!🍄🌵
Thanks for the ask, Kim! 💜
Books. I’ve always loved to escape into a good story.
My pets.
My mom. We’ve been through so much together.
My reader’s/mutuals here on Tumblr.
My best friend. 19 years I’ve known her! 💜
—the monsters make me hide, perhaps I’ll eat myself alive.
My lovely friend Katherine,
For the soft ask game…
1. What song makes you feel better?
19. Most important thing in your life?
29. Morning, afternoon, or night?
Please and thank you,
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Thank you for the ask, Ericca! 💜😄
1. What song makes you feel better?
Anything by Fleetwood Mac, but Rhiannon specifically.
19. Most important thing in your life?
My mom. We’ve been through so much together. I love her.
29. Morning, afternoon, or night?
Night, definitely. My mood is always better at night. It’s peaceful and quiet. No distractions. Just me, and my thoughts. :)
Love you, Ericca!! 💜❤️💕
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Diet Mountain Dew.
I’m posting a few pieces I’ve posted before that are safe to post. I’ve also got new stuff in the works, but I am writing new content. It’s just taking time. I write slow these days. :) But I do have a bodyguard mini series planned.
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It started where you’d come by, and help give him tools, “Here, Mister Russo.” You’d say, sweetly.
And if he said he didn’t imagine you calling him Mister Russo in different circumstances, he’d be lying.
You smiled, pushing up your large glasses, as though you knew, twirling the tools in your hand, and blowing bubbles with your gum, and changing his radio station to country music of all things.
He turned it back to rock, and you popped another bubble. “I was listening to that.”
“I don’t care. My garage, my music.” He said, lifting the hood of the car.
“You’re kind of an asshole, aren’t you?”
“Took you long enough to figure it out.” He smirked over his shoulder.
You rolled your eyes.
One day he was getting ready to leave when you popped your gum, blowing another bubble, waiting for him to take you home in the cold weather. You often popped into your neighbor's work to chat with him, while you waited for him to get off work. His business was near the bookstore where you worked, and he’d drive you home every day so you didn’t have to walk home with your bad knee, especially with winter right around the corner.
He wiped his hand off of the grease on an old cloth, “Need a ride home?”
You smiled softly, “Yes, Mister Russo.” And then popped your gum again.
He grabbed a fistful of your hair, yanking your head back. “You pop that gum one more time, we’re gonna have a problem.” He said, baring his teeth.
You blew a bubble, popping it.
The audacity.
He growled, kissing you hard, pushing into your mouth, knocking your glasses askew, and making you gasp. He pulled back, with your gum in his mouth, and spit it out in the trash.
“I wasn’t done chewing.” You said indignant.
“You are now, sweetheart.” He smirked, closing the garage down.
You followed him with your cane, “Asshole.”
Billy watched you apply your chapstick that was root beer flavored while he took a wheel off a car. “That actually work, or does it just taste good?”
You huffed, “It works.” You blotted your lips. “Wanna taste, Mister Russo?” You teased, puckering up.
He held up his can of soda, “I’m good.”
You sighed, “Too bad. I would have given you a kiss for a few dollars.” You teased lightly.
“Jesus, in my day it was fifty cents.” He teased back.
“I’m expensive.” You laughed.
Billy huffed, “Clearly.”
You stood in the hall outside your neighbor’s apartment with your cane, knocking on his door. Your leg ached.
He opened it, “Yeah?” He asked admiring you in your sweater dress, the way your hair was done up nice. He wanted to brush it, and play with it.
“My stove won’t work.” You said softly. “Can you come look at it?” You asked, pushing your glasses up, your sweater sleeves too long for your arms, and hung over your hands a little.
“For a few dollars.” He grinned, laughing, when you hit arm.
You ate chocolates, while he bent over your stove, looking at it and mumbling to himself.
You admired him in his tight dark jeans and green sweater. You may or may not have found things around your apartment wrong, just so he’d come over. So you wouldn’t have to be alone. Always alone, friends were hard to come by being disabled. You slowed them down.
You were too shy to ask him to have a movie night or something. And sometimes you just wanted to sit and read a book with your feet in his lap, while he read his own book, enjoying each other's company.
And he caught you at it, too. “You want me to come over, sweetheart, I will. Don’t need an excuse to see a pretty girl.”
Your cheeks heated, and he smiled, his eyes crinkling at the corners.
You sat there in his work garage watching him work on some old Chevy or something, you were terrible with cars, admiring how his sweater slid up exposing his naval and the little patch of hair there, you twirled a wrench or whatever it was, in your hand itching to touch him.
You pressed your thighs together, as he slid out from underneath the car, hands looking greasy, his sweater pulled up around his elbows. You imagined him staining your thighs with his handprints as he kissed you.
You imagined running your fingers through his soft hair, always slicked back and faded on the sides, before pulling on it while he kissed you, probably tasting like the soda he drank. And then you imagined pulling on his hair for an entirely different reason.
He looked over at you, smirking as he sipped his soda, fingers stained from working on the car. Uh oh. He must have noticed you gawking. He rolled over to you, sitting at your level on the thing he’d rolled under the car with (you were at a loss for the terminology), in his maroon sweater and black jeans.
“Want somethin’, pretty girl?” Billy asked, looking cocky.
“No.” You said, shyly.
“No?” Billy asked, smiling growing. He leaned closer, and you instinctively leaned in too. “Gotta be a good girl and ask for what you want.” He teased you.
“Mister Russo, you’re being an asshole.” You whined, seriously considering whacking him on the head with the wrench-thingy.
He laughed; “I think we both already know I’m an asshole.” He said, booping you on the nose with his dirty fingers.
“Can I have a kiss?” You asked, sweetly. “I helped give you tools all day. Froze my leg off here.” You said, patting your leg.
“For a few dollars.” He smirked.
You glared, “Fine, I’ll just kiss Paul down the hall.”
Billy huffed, “You think mama’s boy can kiss you right?” Billy asked, rolling closer.
God, he was being an asshole, but Paul was a mama’s boy. He did nothing without his mother’s help.
“Mister Russo.” You whined, “Don’t you wanna taste the root beer on my lips?”
“C’mere.” Billy hummed, and you leaned into him eagerly. He kissed you this time, making your insides melt, his fingers touching your thighs making you sigh. He gripped them, and yanked you closer, careful of your bad leg.
You gasped into his mouth, tasting Diet Mountain Dew on him. The feel of his tongue sliding against yours had desire licking at your insides.
You pulled on his hair roughly, making him groan into your mouth, and an ache built between your thighs.
He pulled back kissing you once, twice, three times before nudging you with his nose. “You taste real sweet, sweetheart. Better than root beer.” He husked.
And then you looked down to see your legs stained with grease, and oil. You grinned inwardly, that had been your intention all along.
“Sorry.” He said, not sounding sorry at all.
You giggled, “Next time I bake, I’m getting flour all over you.” You threatened.
Billy grinned.
God, you made work go by easily.
Later after he drove you home, you shyly invited him into your apartment, and you both ended up on your couch, you laying back, with him laying between your thighs, chin resting on your stomach while you played with his hair, listening to an audiobook.
He looked like a lazy cat, enjoying petting from his favorite human. His eyes were hooded as he watched you, feeling wanted after a childhood unwanted in the group home.
For the first time, you didn’t feel like a burden, alone with only the characters in your books to keep you company.
You didn’t know what you and Billy were, but you were content to let it unfold.
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it wild to me that there are people out there who aren't interested in history
like wdym you don't think about the fact that women would tell stories as they made butter in the same way we listen to podcasts today? wdym you don't think about that one Chinese poet who wrote about how much he loved his cats hundreds of years ago? wdym you don't think about the fact that we found a gravesite of a young child surrounded by flowers from THOUSANDS of years ago? wdym you don't think about how people wrote "i was here" into the walls in Pompeii? wdym you don't think about the little egyptian boy who drew little doodles at the top of his school works more then a thousand years ago?
wdym you don't think about the fact that people, no matter the place, time, or social status, are fundamentally no different from you. that they loved the same as you, enjoyed the same things you did, dreamed about a better life the same way you did. that despite how seemingly detached you are from these people, in time, place, and culture, the things you do and what u are is so undeniably human that it transcends time and space
36. | because we are living in a material world, and I am a material kitty. | my cat, probably. Masterlist I
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