B-but My Life Is In Here... I Like It Here... These Are My People

does caro ever miss or mourn the person they could have been if they been happy with who they were as carrie? i'm an older trans person and have been post op and passing for over a decade now, but every now and then i can't help but feel sad for the version of myself i would have been if i'd been cis. i don't see a lot of stories with gnc characters touch on these feelings even though i think they're a normal part of the trans experience

WOAGH ok. I'm not going to clean up this sketch cuz i think its better you get the sloppy 'couldnt see through my tears replying to this ask' version. In many ways, yes. Its hard to put into words because its not a regret, but its a grief of who they tried to be for so long. It doesn't take away from the joy they have being the person they are now, but for them its like losing a loved one too young, if that makes sense.

i think many people have 'what ifs' and sadness for our baby selves. I write Caro loving Carrie very much, which is a super personal choice for me. I also show Carries story because I feel its really important to understand Caros. And because its really important to mine. I mourn baby me all the time, I was so incredibly lost. And I mourn the man I never became. He lives in John, because in many ways he still exists in me, even if my life took me in a different direction from him. I still love him. Hes still part of me even if my path didn't include him once i learned more about myself. But I'm also incredibly joyful and happy to be the person I am now, and I think teenage girl me, and phantom FtM me would be really proud of 40-something nonbinary living-my life-the-best-way-i-can me.

I think if Caro could meet Carrie in some kinda way, they'd say they were so sorry they couldn't be her, and that they really tried but they just didnt know how. But I think Carrie would tell them she's really happy she gets to be them, and how proud she is of how far theyve come together.

i may be interested in this promp but i alredy late by one day ups lets see what tomorrow awaits

Yes I already made a list for myself mfs.

CRINGETOBER 2024! This'll include all my Bois and gals, new and old, and I'll include references from old blog events and prompts! I'll be having fun with this. *Evil devious cackle*

LETS GET CRINGY SPOOKY SPOOPY!

(I'm excited cuz I absolutely love Halloween and stuf)

New OC-tober I did for this year~! Some prompts I carried over, some are new! 'w'9 I made it for myself, but if anyone wants to use it, feel free to! [and feel free to tag me in it and ill rb on my main <333]

*doom music starts to play* I actually kindof like scheduling these kinds of appointments now...

but seriously Fellas, don't forget to schedule a pap smear every couple of years just in case. If you still have a cervix you can still get cervical cancer. ilu

this has been a psa

OLDEST AND NEWEST OC'S

Día: so. . . who are you? París: apparently i'm a dating sim protagonist but like, i'm aro i'm not into that stuff i just wanted friends París: and you? Día: oh! i'm just a girl that works at a cafe

[Día she/her París they/them]

omg they look sooooooooooooo cool

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

me-core

My brain thought this was funny but im not sure it is. but oh well

huh... maybe I shouldn't keep me up to such high standards and actually start writing my stories

Two rules for creating anything.

1) Make it weird.

2) Make it with love.

yeah....

liking someone platonically is so embarrassing like. yeah i admire you. yeah i think about you all the time. yeah i look forward to every time i see you even if it's only for a minute. yeah it's all platonic and yeah i couldn't explain this because it'd sound romantic. fucking hell