Sometimes I Like To Think That I Could Get That With Friends, Like I Could Dance With Friends, Or Talk

sometimes i like to think that i could get that with friends, like i could dance with friends, or talk with them or them being my comfort...

but sometimes i feel as if i know that not only that wouldn't be even close, but alright simply imposible. People would not give me their comfort or their love as for they have someone else... and i would never

even if the only thing that i could get out of it is the pain of being unloved... sometimes it feels as if even that would be a gift, instead of being unable to love.

99% of the time I'm fine with being aro/ace. If the struggles of my friends tell me anything it's that relationships/dating tends to cause them more problems than anything else. 99% of the time I'm fine with simply entertaining myself with imaginary romance. A moment where I'll imagine myself dancing and goofing off with whichever fictional character currently has my attention, the moment intimate but not sexual. I imagine what it might be like to love romantically in that moment, the music that spurred the daydream playing on the radio, a ghost smiling lovingly back at me through the mundane work of my job; a ghost that will never have a physical hand to hold, the love in their eyes nothing but a reflection of what I've seen in movies. And then the moment ends, and I feel an indescribable loneliness knowing that I can't feel that way with a real person. As much as I want to, my brain and heart have decided that's not for me. I can love my friends, I can love my family. But the love of a partner that makes your heart flutter and draws your eyes to their lips, your hands to theirs, the world seeming to slow around you... That's reserved for everyone else. All I have is the imaginary, and the ghosts in my head.

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kinda vent post aroace aromantic i feel like i could get overly dramatic but not the mood i should be going for aro people desserve love

MS PAINT

now im on track and ready for tomorrow's challenge, today's one was fun tho, i basicaly invert the whole process in which i draw so it was nice

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my art my ocs ms paint cringetober cringetober 2023 just like in my childhood but with more experience now actually im impressed that it doesn't look that bad

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kari-isntreal

1 year ago

do you think you could make an alternate image for the cringetober prompt list without the high saturation/patterns? i’d like to participate but i’m photosensitive, i’ve seen the alt text version but it’s easier to have it all in one image <3

oh my god of course! once again I'm SO sorry for not thinking of this earlier, I totally blanked that people might have a hard time reading it. I'll do better in the future <3

hoping this works!

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sounds fun Might do this

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kari-isntreal

4 months ago

WHO AM I ?

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kari-isntreal

8 months ago

that comment about how you should not borrow grief from the future has saved me multiple times from spiraling into an inescapable state of anxiety. like every time i find myself thinking about how something in the future could go wrong i remember that comment and i think to myself: well i never know, it might get better. it might not even happen the way i think it will and if it does happen and it is sad and bad ill be sad about it then, when it happens. and it’s somehow soo freeing

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i probably should listen to this

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kari-isntreal

1 year ago

OLDEST AND NEWEST OC'S

Día: so. . . who are you? París: apparently i'm a dating sim protagonist but like, i'm aro i'm not into that stuff i just wanted friends París: and you? Día: oh! i'm just a girl that works at a cafe

[Día she/her París they/them]

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my art my ocs oc tober París is so new that i just gave them a name also its unlikely that these two will ever meet in canon unless the multiverse brokes or some shit

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