Blythe Baird, From If My Body Could Speak; “Concerns From A Hot-boxed Jeep”

it doesn’t get easier. there is no off switch you can use to shut off your emotions, no kill switch to wipe out his existence, and no delete button to remove all the memories. you’ll still feel his arm going down your waist and you’ll still catch yourself thinking about the way his eyes shine when he laughs. you’ll remember the day he told you he loved you and you’ll remember the night he wished he didn’t. and you’ll hold onto every memory, good and bad, because no matter what, you will always love him.

“one day
she’ll burry
the memories
she made
with you”

R.H. Sin

𝖻𝖾𝖺𝗎𝗍𝗂𝖿𝗎𝗅 𝖺𝗎𝗍𝗎𝗆𝗇 𝖻𝗒 𝖢𝗁𝗋𝗂𝗌𝗍𝗈𝗉𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝖯𝗋𝗂𝖼𝖾

“I’ve never forgotten him. Dare I say I miss him? I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love. Such is the strangeness of the human heart. I still cannot understand how he could abandon me so unceremoniously, without any sort of goodbye, without looking back even once. That pain is like an axe that chops at my heart.”

— Yann Martel, Life of Pi

so, what now?

“i could never do the things you did to me. i could never lower myself to that level. my only revenge was replacing you with someone who could love me the right way.”

— R.H. Sin

Focus on yourself.