Khobnoom

“I’ve never forgotten him. Dare I say I miss him? I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love. Such is the strangeness of the human heart. I still cannot understand how he could abandon me so unceremoniously, without any sort of goodbye, without looking back even once. That pain is like an axe that chops at my heart.”

— Yann Martel, Life of Pi

it doesn’t get easier. there is no off switch you can use to shut off your emotions, no kill switch to wipe out his existence, and no delete button to remove all the memories. you’ll still feel his arm going down your waist and you’ll still catch yourself thinking about the way his eyes shine when he laughs. you’ll remember the day he told you he loved you and you’ll remember the night he wished he didn’t. and you’ll hold onto every memory, good and bad, because no matter what, you will always love him.

“I think I might always be in some kind of love with you.”

— F. Cabanes

“I could not escape from you. My soul favors you endlessly.””

— Margaret Atwood

Focus on yourself.

I lied to you. But I never needed to.

-Romy Reverie

“You can hate a place with all your heart and soul and still be homesick for it.”

— Joseph Mitchell

“I wait every year for summer, and it is usually good, but it is never as good as that summer I am always waiting for.”

— Martha Gellhorn, Selected Letters of Martha Gellhorn; in a letter to Hortense Flexner and Wyncie King