I'm Heartbroken...

In case anyone was wondering (I doubt) I was just in a mental hospital for a week, gonna go to jail soon too 8D for a slap, for an involuntary movement I've done, it is the same as going to jail for kicking someone while having a seizure....I hope I'm allowed to complain because I personally think my life is shit right now and keeps getting worse. 

Last bit of Inktober stuff :D (as to the “surprise” one, it is literally an inside “joke”,er surprise to drawing someone I hadn’t planned on drawing er but, yeah “surprise” for me.)

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Join the lnc-69min challenge!! ;DDD this week’s theme is rpg and you have till the late night stream to complete ;DD I think it’s something causal and fun

It does seem fun for sure ;v; I just have never actually drawn anyone else besides cry from the lnc, I will see if I can come up with something though.

Social status: Claptrap~

Sorry for all the text filled bad stuff lately, this is just another one of those.

So, I have a huge phobia of being around males in general. (past traumatic events, etc.) My husband has a thing for mocking me continuously in the future with past things I said to him in a serious manner...(like him saying “she was asking for it” when he was trying to do something bad to a friend of mine without either of our permission vocally, and while we were both drunk, no matter how much we’d try to argue his logic, he sticks to what he thinks...this is a different matter so it isn’t important in the context of what I am posting about, but it’s just to give where he was coming at from this.) I tell him that I don’t want people just walking into my private space without MY permission, that he should go out if someone wants him. He tells me I’m being rude and should stop being so...(well I forgot what he actually said but around the same lines of when he calls me mean, evil, etc.) I say “I don’t like being around guys..” husband says “that’s sexist” in a very condescending tone. I vocalize to him SO MUCH that I get a panic attack when there are other guys around, the more...the more panicky, or also depending on the personality could escalate it, sadly this person is a roommate who I though we would be gone from since we are out of a home but nope...but this guy is just like the person who helped put this fear upon me... So I don’t get why he says this when I tell him constantly whenever he would have friends around too that I can’t go in there, I can’t even say “hey i need you for a minute” or anything, that’s how bad it is, but nope....he just tells me to get over it or it’s irrational, etc. it’s worse that this guy talks badly about me (though husband denies it even though I know some of the acronyms the guys used in front of me and heard some of the things passing by his room) he keeps my husband from me, enables his drinking and everything, this guy buys tall cans of beer everyday (like 10 or so of them a day) I preferred our last roomate, he couldn’t pay for a second month but at least I knew the person decently and even if I was still uncomfortable when alone with the guy(like husband at work, so if he had to ask me for something I’d freak out knowing I’d have to communicate by myself) I could still talk and feel okay with their presence. just all this...just is too much.

Here are wips of a few things I’m working on, forgot to post.

You know...I'm trying my best to make money, I just don't find weeks working on something (every second compressed would mean days of work, at least 40 hours straight.) Is really worth only getting 20$...heck even 50$ isn't worth it. The only real "worth" is possible "publicity" I have no other way ME myself can make money...and I am almost positive no one would want to pay what I would find fare for my time taken, my skills, etc.

Help your invisible artists!

Liking and Rebloging stuff helps tons, but how can you do that if you aren’t seeing it in your searches? I don’t think a lot of people do this, so I thought I’d spread it around a little. Please signal boost! A lot of artists need your help to be seen, especially on the huge community of tumblr.

I have so much I have yet to upload, too depressed, see no point in uploading my art honestly. But yeah, Sans from Undertale, it started as just a doodle but ended up doing far more.