Dear Tumblr,

~(ovo)~ First thing drawn on a new tablet my person got for me for x-mas ;v;  I think this is considered a speed drawing, done in a lil over a day.

Feel so discouraged, I hate this feeling, the type of feeling that makes me want to scrap what I'm working on. I put so much time into things for nothing it feels.

I wish I had an art style(s) that people were more interested in.

Tbh everytime i see a post here or on your personal blog, i breath a little sigh of relief. Please take care, and good luck.

Thank you, sorry for not replying sooner. I both haven’t been able to find out how to reply messages/been able to get online/spend the time I do manage to get online replying messages, I feel bad because I feel a lot of these are so old and I had no clue they existed until a lil while back.

sumaipon replied to your post: Finished making Amethyst~I personally ...

Did you make everything on the base too?

Yes I did :D that part was enjoyable to paint.

Hey , hi, if anyone is here, I plan to try to be "active" again.

(-sorry for the accidental venting type thing, just vaguely updating about my life since I haven't really been on in a year besides like...lurking?-) I haven't been active on here in ages, I'm sorry. I don't even know if anyone really follows me on here anymore since I haven't posted anything, I'm not consistent even though I try my hardest to be, which is bad for an artist who has been trying to make a living off of their art, it isn't a hobby. My life has been horrible, I am very restricted on when I am allowed to draw, make art in general, be online, be awake. (If I could find a wifi signal it would be more often though..) I also recently had confirmed that I have a tumor in my breast, they say it is benign but..idk another one appeared after the mammogram on the opposite breast as well as I have had a swollen lymph node above my collarbone for about a month since the same time. (told me it is just inflammation from the thing.) In all honestly, I'm miserable, I have no friends, not a single one it scares me, I'm so lonely. I have no one I can talk to about my problems, my day, anything I like or not. My whole life is being controlled because I "don't have a job" every aspect of it, worse than when I lived with my parents. I can't work, I get panic attacks, tightening of the chest and heart palpitations just from the thought of stepping outside, I can't even talk to doctors without constant stuttering with tears in my eyes. I hope to start posting whatever I can... It just sucks that it takes me months to draw or sculpt one thing (that is even without time constraints usually) I hope no one gets mad at me posting this. I have no way to get online by my laptop, only someone elses phone usually, that or rarely my phone. (I don't have a phone service either)

:I

Honestly, I don't feel that inspired? I have the motivation to draw things, but not the inspiration or confidence to do so I just feel kinda like, what's the point? I never seem to do what others like, in any situation. 

Design sketch thing of virus!cry ._.  this is a reference thingy for another thing being worked on~

I forgot to mention, this is the Peridot I have, bigger than I remembered so a figure would be too big to make for this. I might make a plaque instead, that or find some more peridot that is smaller (this is the smallest thing I have besides jeremejevite, which is the size of a grain of rice and some cut gems.) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This is one of my favorites in my collection, I love when they have inclusions. I consider the first pic the front and the second pic the back.

Titlecard for Minx, Minx as Mae. :D Night in the Woods is such a great game, haven't felt so relatable to a character or game in general since probably The Cat Lady. The art is so nice in the game as well, down to the the smallest details, animations, music and the writing.