All Of This And I'm Still Tired

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I ♡ @blushydior smmm

                𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔

𝐈 𝐀𝐌 = pure consciousness, inner self - the true you

before you and i say who we are, we are I AM.

before i say i am happy, i am sad, i am struggling, i am desiring, i am suffering, i am wealthy, i am lost, i am stuck, i am full of hopelessness, i am full of contentment, i am blushydior and when you say i am (your name)

I am… I AM.

❝ A man called Neville is not the way to the Father. Neville is not my identity. He is the garment I wear as I walk the earth. I am telling you what happened in me while wearing this garment called Neville. Certainly Neville is not God the Father of David, but I AM. Neville is not anything other than a little garment that God is wearing, playing the part called Neville, which is forever. ❞

you will always be I AM. that is god. what is attached to I AM is the garment you wear, the state you’re currently occupying, what you're conscious of being, the concept you currently hold upon self.

❝ Your consciousness is the mother-father, there is no other cause in the world. Your I AMness, your awareness, is this Moab or mother-father. You are always drawing something out of it. ❞

❝ What is God? God is man's consciousness, his awareness, I AMness. The drama of life is a psychological one in which we bring circumstances to pass by our attitudes rather than by our acts. ❞

I AM is pure. the only time it becomes impure is when you attach concepts to I AM - the good, bad, and the indifferent.

think of states as magnets, velcro, outfits or even rooms; easy to attach and detach, to put on and take off, to enter and leave - whenever and to whatever you please.

it becomes what you experience internally and a promise externally for imagination is the true and a very real reality.

❝ I AM is a feeling of permanent awareness. The very center of consciousness is the feeling of I AM. I may forget who I am, where I am, what I am, but I cannot forget that I Am. The awareness of being remains, regardless of the degree of forgetfulness of who, where, and what I am. ❞

know that you are just pure consciousness. all you will ever be is purely I AM. you are not your state, you occupy states.

it’s the same way as: you are not the room you’re in, you are just in it. you are not the clothes you’re wearing, you are just in them. you are not your body, you are just in it. you are not your reality, you are just in it.

absolutely everything is a garment, an emanation of god that you brought into being.

so this means you are not your thoughts, emotions, past, future, mistakes, concepts, and everything else you experience, you are just I AM.

the reason why many people struggle, worry, feel stuck or live in fear that they've ruined everything they've built is because they don’t know what they truly are. they think they are their states so they see it as impossible to change but that's wrong. you are just I AM experiencing your current state and with states come your circumstances.

⊂⊃ you can’t ruin what you already experienced within the world of imagination.

so therefore, I AM is never stuck. I AM can always change. I AM is free to be expressed in any way you desire.

I AM is simply I AM. you are simply I AM.

in the end: I AM is all you'll ever be. pure consciousness.

remember this.

❝ Now, Christ Jesus is the Lord. He did not come after David, but before him. God the Father gave himself to us; therefore everything comes after the Father. I now know that I also am God the Father, for he gave me himself and there is no way he could prove it other than through his Son David calling me "Father". Prior to that I thought I was Neville Goddard, born in Barbados as a member of a very large family. Physically that is who I am, but in the spirit I know I am not, for God gave himself to me; and to prove it his Son, as described in the Book of Samuel, called me "Father". This same Son will call everyone "Father" and then we will all be brothers. In spite of all the conflicts, horrible as they are, in the end we will discover everything was just a play - a play which was essential for God to give his gift to Man, and that gift is God Himself. ❞

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simplified summary:

I AM is all you will ever be. you are not your states, thoughts, emotions, experiences, and circumstances. stop giving temporary things permeance. even if you feel stuck in a state, worried that because you are having a human experience having off/bad days everything is ruined, and are experiencing things that are products of disorders and illnesses - you are safe. you are not subjected to these circumstances. you are your I AM, pure consciousness. i believe that this is a very important understanding. you may feel that you are stuck when everything around you is feeding into that but truly, you really aren't. beneath the garments, the clothes, outside of the house/room (state) you're in, you are pure. creations can never be superior than it's creator. you have the freedom to leave and enter a new one when you want and when you're ready. don't shame or guilt yourself, it's okay. practice forgiveness and forgetfulness & move into a new state wholly and fully. it's a clean slate. you just have to let yourself be free.

yield, don’t force.

it's about allowance and acceptance.

I love Dior so much

René Gruau. I love the illustrations of this artist sm!! Even more he did for Dior’s ads.

Truly yours. Dove.M

I will have a lizzy grant summer

girls don’t want boyfriends they want to have a lizzy grant summer

My husband left me on delivered for 7 hours. Good thing I don't care about him. If I did I'd be pissed.

I've fallen in love. Madly. Deeply. In love with running away. Becoming a stranger to myself and everyone who has ever known me.

I think I might fail my chemistry finals

I miss the 50s

going on a girls trip this summer!! (me and my earphones to the convenience store)

Same I need to start doing this

June 3 - June 9

monday: 35 minute gentle pilates

tuesday: 30 minute pilates hiit + 20 minute foam roller stretching

wednesday: 30 minute walking cardio + 30 minute pilates

thursday: 35 minute cortisol friendly full body w/ dumbbells

friday: 15 minute cardio + 30 minute pilates

saturday: 35 minute abs and booty pilates

sunday: 1 hour yoga

*last week was the worst week of my life so i didn’t work out at all but we’re back to it this week focusing on lighter and more therapeutic movement

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just girly things ୨୧

eve babitz to nourish your mind

miaou corset to sculpt a venusian figure

simone rocha pearl bag to fill with rose quartz and use as a weapon

gia coppola rosé to pair with pink sauce pasta

lana del rey necklace to feel like a park avenue princess

marie antoinette (2006) vinyl to sway in the moonlight to

repetto camille ballerinas to walk to the grocery store for warm bread

vintage blumarine midi skirt to sashay in

ralph lauren romance perfume to embody the old money fantasy