Numb???? (Rant Not A Poem)
Numb???? (Rant not a poem)
I Dont know how i am feeling, i just know that i am not okay okay, i look okay but i dont think i am, i want to lie on the floor, i have to convince myself not to eat the same thing over and over, even though that's all i honestly want to eat, its hard to focus and i feel so easily irritable.
I hate having to explain the way I am feeling to people most times I am met with template responses and on the worst side, seemly dismissive responses or passive dismissive responses, like “you will be fine” and the other variations of it, the craziest thing is, I don’t even know what the response should but it makes me want to shrink still, a part of me feels like people avoid me or reduce interaction with me when they can’t quite grasp what I am feeling and that makes me feel alone and like I shouldn’t share how I am feeling but I also know that bottling it up is not the way to go, so no up and no down
Sometimes I daydream or bother line dissociate from my body to relax, I wonder if other people do that too.
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You can say "I am struggling to do [x thing] because of my disability" and neurotypicals + able-bodied people will come up with any reason ever why it isn't actually your disability causing you to struggle and is actually a personal moral failing.
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How do you decide what’s best for you?
I’m not sure if I can answer that question, I think it starts with asking yourself the hard questions.
Are you happy?
Will you be happy?
Does this make you happy?
Is this what you really want or is it what I think I should want?
parent-child dynamics are soooo crazy. i love you i resent you i can't stand you i adore you i pity you. and still watching your hair get a little more grey every time i see you makes my stomach feel weird
This might be an unpopular opinion but:
I'd rather start the romance all over again
I'd rather fix the problems
I‘d rather work on the triggers
I'd rather find out what went wrong
I‘d rather go through the hardships
I'd rather go through more fights and arguments
I'd rather go on more dates
I'd rather work on winning you over a million times
Than to start all over again with someone that won't be the same
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Moving on
Moving on from something is an entire process, moving on from a person is a different ball game, however watching someone move on from you brings with it a unique different type of sadness, which can be hard to articulate at first but then you sit with it for a bit and you come to the realization of why this sadness feels different, it’s cause you are being de-centered but then you think when did being in the center of another person’s life matter to you so immensely and then you realize it’s simply love.
I don’t think you can fully stop loving someone you truly loved, they will always be a small part of you that you carry forever.
That’s it, that’s the post.
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I don’t write great poetry but I write and they make life feel a little less heavy
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