Ummm Random Style Change (i'll Be Switching) Anyway Angst Art Of The 'boy With The Demon Blood'

silly!!!

I was kind of a lonely kid, Dean.

probably waiting for Padme and Luke at the spaceport or sth ajshdgkasd

"What are you doing?"

"Wrapping Sammy's Christmas present."

Cas admires all the wrapping material spread out on the table. "You're putting a wrapped box inside another wrapped box?"

Dean smiles and nods. "Uh huh. And inside that box is another box, which has another box, which has another box, which has his present."

"I don't understand. Won't Sam be mad opening so many boxes? What is the pleasure here?"

"The pleasure is for me."

"What's the present?"

"Starbucks gift card."

"You're going back to Hell."

I always have a hard time depicting the various layers of back muscles under the skin, so I made this as a study/reference.

Mine by Taylor Swift is theee SamJess song

”I find hope in striving to be whole.”

Oh I’m gonna need every line of this talk printed on my wall I can already tell. Go Sister Johnson, go.

you are not a misfit! You are a needed part of the body of Christ!

hi so what qualities do you think dean admires about sam and vice versa would like to know your thoughts

Love your meta btw as a new spn fan

Hi Nonny, tysm for the ask!

I haven't thought a ton about this question prior to now, so I'm interested in other people's opinions too if they want to add them on reblog. But it seems to me that the 'what does Dean admire about Sam' half of the question is pretty easily answered, because Dean isn't shy with his praise of Sam in canon.

He's also not shy with his criticism, of course, and I think this is because some of the things he admires most about Sam are the same things that are dangerous to him personally. My favorite recap is in the finale:

And there's this from 15.11:

Dean says similar things in other episodes, going way back to 1.11, which the finale speech is practically a word for word recap of:

I think Dean legitimately believes all this; that Sam is better than him in practically every way-- smarter, more compassionate, more optimistic, possessed of a better moral compass (usually), more skilled in a variety of ways, etc. And especially that Sam is healthier than him; more of a complete, autonomous human being who would be fully able to live a "normal" life if circumstances were right, whereas he, Dean, would not be. By "you're stronger than me" (which he also tells Sam before he goes to Hell in s3) he means "capable of independence".

I have decidedly ambivalent feelings about the "Dean is Sam's Parent" reading of spn, but I do think this is a very parental type of admiration; both because of the 'I'm proud' piece and because 'I raised you to be able to outlive me' is maybe a parent's primary responsibility second only to unconditional love. And I think it's realistic and sympathetic that Dean admires these traits in Sam while simultaneously fighting tooth and nail to undermine Sam ever actually becoming fully independent as long as Dean's alive (and until the finale, even afterwards). "You're better than me; don't leave me" is honestly extremely relatable.

R.e. the 'what does Sam admire in Dean' part of the question, I think that's more complicated to explain, and I'm especially interested in what other fans think about this part. I think obviously if someone asked Sam what he admires in Dean, he'd be able to run off a list of traits. And he does sometimes mention traits he finds admirable in Dean, like in 8.14 where he says "You're not a grunt, Dean. You're a genius" and says Dean is a better hunter than either himself or their father.

But for the core of what I think Sam feels about Dean that's in the same, idk, synonym group ig, as 'admiration', I don't think 'admires' really covers it very well. It's almost more like worships. He thinks, quite simply, that Dean is good. And since he thinks that he, Sam, is fundamentally not good, he sees Dean as the final arbiter of, well, everything. Sam thinks Sam could never go on a quest like Galahad, but although it's never specifically mentioned, I think its pretty clear he believes Dean could.

I think Sam feels about Dean the way I think deeply religious people--not the kind that mouth platitudes but the kind that have really struggled with and thought long and hard about their faith--feel about God. He knows Dean makes mistakes, he knows Dean is deeply fucked up in many ways, he yells at and argues with Dean and goes behind Dean's back and lies to him and etc, all because he does truly understand that Dean's decisions are, on a practical level, sometimes honestly pretty messed up. But he also has an unshakable faith that where he, Sam, might make bad choices because he's bad, Dean will struggle but ultimately always eventually choose correctly, even if one of the steps along the way is chopping Sam's head off with Death's scythe. Because Dean is good. Sam fans (myself included) will look back on the panic room and think "wow Dean sure was living up to the family-is-hell premise on that one", but Sam will look back on it and think "he saved me".

Wait, I'm still not over JD Vance getting snubbed at the Vatican. First time he showed up he got a cardinal who was told to tell him he sucked and should repent. Then, after whining and complaining he finally got to sit awkwardly in a room with the Pope who clearly didn't want to be there.

It's super funny as a Mormon because...

Our boys got in first try and had a grand old time with good ol' Grandpa Frankie. And we're, like, Heresy Incorporated over here

And on the topic of Mormons being more likable than JD

We tend to have a better success rate of knocking on doors.