i am a menaceMy name is Baby🦇they/them/theirs dey/deren/dessen it/its🦇🦇This is my blog about all my favourite things: Bob's Burgers, The Simpsons, Halloween, Literature, Witchcraft, History 🦇🦇 A-gender 🦇🦇A-sexual 🦇🦇A-romantic🦇🦇 A-utistic 🦇🦇A-DHD🦇🦇I like peppermint ice cream, sour gummybears, salt'n'vinegar chips, pickles, ranch dressing and peanut butter m&ms 🦇🧛♀️🦇🦉🕸️🎃🧟♀️👻🌕
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how it feels to listen to an album in order
^ me & the artist sharing their beautiful vision for a cohesive work of art
I love videos of people performing religious ceremonies for small animals. Especially if it’s not something a small animal could participate in theologically.
So many dipshits always trying to summon angels or devils. Focus on summoning the gnomish folk. Get real.
does anyone want to start another dancing plague with me
no YOU live in a society. i live in an "abandoned" victorian castle "infested" with vampires with a huge library containing first edition books that have been banned by the catholic church for immoral content
nb people are members of the fae
got called into the living room because "they're talking about something you'll like on tv" and it was a documentary about arsenic poisoning
Hey what was that noise whose outside
Things that make me (autistic and goth) a vampire:
Sun? No, thank you. Instant kill.
Counting everything. Please don't throw rice at me.
Invite me directly. "You're always invited". No, I have to stand at your door and you have to say "Come in", else I can't physically enter.
Did someone eat garlic like 5 days ago? I can tell.
You don't want to be informed for three hours about the different sounds bats make?
Black cloths. Everything else is too overstimulating.
Very formal and rigid way of speaking and behaving, almost like a dark lord in 1894.
"I've recently started this hobby... wait, this was a decade ago?"
taking out my anger on the people who fuck up my day at work by scribbling scary and inhuman architecture on a piece of paper. once i get good enough at it they will go there in their dreams
I think bringing up "it/its" pronouns is a good test for people who claim to be "trans allies" because it so easily weeds out the people who are only doing it superficially. I've seen so many people who will post "Punch your local TERF #transrightsarehumanrights" and then turn around and be like "If someone says they go by 'it/its' pronouns it's actually good to misgender them because they're just teenager trenders"
goth women. you agree. regoth
Every "online autism test" is like
Question n: Do you struggle with answering ambiguous or unclear questions?
Yes
No
Question n+1: Are sounds good?
Yes
No
"Mozart was autistic because he was a child prodigy who wrote whole pieces in a day" no Mozart was autistic because he used echolalia and always spoke the truth even though it got him violently ejected from his workplace and had no interest in marriage and had a childish personality and sense of humor and was routine-oriented and had a low frustration tolerance. the prodigy thing has almost nothing to do with it. I would like to see one scholar within my lifetime consider the posthumous diagnosis for ANY reason other than "little boy played music well." I take personal offense to the fact that despite his utter genius he's been considered immature by academics because of his mannerisms. where have I heard THAT one before?
shoutout to offputting autistic people
As a kid, I wasn't taught any concept that there's a difference between wanting to do something, and enjoying it. I was a largely unsupervised kid with undiagnosed ADHD and parents who expected their kids to just raise themselves on their own. So when I was capable of spending hours drawing or reading a fun book, but couldn't even remember that I had homework, ever, I was told that I simply didn't want to do well in school. And who was I to question that, I'm eight years old.
Enjoyment and passion were the only forms of motivation I knew, and if I couldn't make myself either love doing boring math homework as much as I loved my hobbies, or force myself to push through things I hated with sheer willpower alone because I want to succeed so bad, then clearly I was simply not as good as all the other kids, who could do that. And that attitude carried onto adulthood. Every time I struggled to muster genuine love and passion into something, I thought that I just don't want it badly enough. Not to enough to love it, or to suffer through it.
Being medicated for the first time was a game changer. Like holy shit, so this is your brain on dopamine. And suddenly I wanted to do things, turned my life around, took up the passion career I had never dared to try. And when the first "honeymoon phase" of the meds wore down, the same fear came back - I don't like this anymore, do I not want it bad enough? What else could I possibly want?
And I shit you not I was literally 30 years old when I understood that life isn't just either loving every minute of pursuing a passion that you love, or joylessly dragging yourself through things that you don't even want to do. I can just tell myself "just because I don't like doing this doesn't mean I don't want to be doing it." It's not a mark of failure, weakness or lack of motivation, if sometimes the career you want to be doing just feels like having a job.
guess i'll put this here too, even though its past the day in my timezone lol
We got a grand total of five trick or treaters and I missed them all because I was stuck in meetings 😔
All after I stayed up late last night turning the house into a giant monster.
So if you see this I am mentally handing you a goodie bag. Happy Halloween! 🎃
Can we stop using "still lives with their parents" or "unemployed" or "doesn't have a drivers license" or "didn't graduate high school" as an insult or evidence that someone is a bad person? Struggling with independence or meeting milestones is not a moral failing.
a bottom-tier autistic experience is being told throughout your entire childhood that you are just an overthinker when it comes to social situations and later finding out that your friends did, in fact, hate being around you and tried to communicate that through weird little hints
On the discussion of book accurate depictions of Sherlock Holmes, one thing I really want is accurate Mycroft. In the books Sherlock is very… autistically coded. At least to me, an autistic person. And Sherlock basically states that Mycroft has more “severe” autism. Sherlock says his brother is more brilliant than he is but absolutely cannot function in society and hates social interaction so much he founded a society for the purpose of minimizing it as much as possible. In addition it’s implied he becomes overstimulated so easily he has to curate his environment to be devoid of disturbance and noise.
Give me the autistic brothers but one has it much much worse
Enough of this Mycroft as the more sociable of the two who is a powerful politician. This man would have a meltdown if he had to be that social!!!
Autism thing i hate that it’s considered rude to not like a food and not want to eat it. And i hate that i have to be all apologetic about it instead of people just understanding that foods just aren’t for everyone and a person not wanting to eat something isn’t an insult to anyone’s cooking
people make fun of people with ADHD for saying that everything is a symptom of ADHD. and that's fair. it's annoying. but please understand. having ADHD is an endless conga line of realizations that some shit you thought had nothing to do with your ADHD is actually a symptom of ADHD. so eventually you're just like "probably that too, yeah, fuck it" whenever basically anything happens