Sorry For Being Obsessed With Love. As If It's My Fault

“Suddenly I needed my heart in a hurry. I offered it to you, cold and dripping, incompletely thawed. You didn’t even wash its blood from your fingertips. As it numbed them, you asked me to kiss your hands.”

— Carolyn Kizer, excerpt of “What the Bones Know” in Cool, Calm and Collected

“The trick is to enjoy life. Don’t wish away your days, waiting for better ones ahead.”

— Marjorie Pay Hinckley

“Oh, darling….You will be good to me, won’t you?…You will, won’t you?…Because we’re going to have a strange life.”

— Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms  

Finance Girl Starter Pack

1. Books

You will read books but don’t be overwhelmed by them. Every finance book reiterates the same thing. Understand the difference between personal, corporate, public, and international finance. Hence there are certain I moody to vocabulary for each field. Once you become family with the basics, it will be easier to understand as you go on.

2. Finance media

Being on top of the financial news is a good way of knowing the finance. You’ll come across real life scenarios of some of your textbook definitions. Watch CNBC, Bloomberg. You can read Wall Street Journal, Barron’s, Kiplinger. You can also check online sources like Investopedia, Nerdwallet, and some interesting ones that include news on fintech.

3. Productivity & tools

My favorite is Notion. I use it to track assignments and projects, Google Calendar is your friend. Know how to use Google Docs. Play with various tools to figure out which you like best.

4. Skills

Knowing how to use Excel and PowerPoint is a pathway to opportunities. Use YouTube first, then try other classes available on Udemy, Coursera, or eDx. Build up skills in modeling and business analysis. Communication and other soft skills should also be worked on.

5. LinkedIn

LinkedIn is very important to network in finance. Start with a professional headshot. You can connect with industry leaders and corporations you’d like to work for. Create a profile that includes your skills, showcase your financial modeling, dashboards, infographics. Be consistent and engaging.

6. Good business wear

A wardrobe of staple work clothes will go a long way for interviews and busy work days. Two to three blazers ( including tweed), a classic work bag, comfortable shoes, formal dress, and pants. The goal is to be business- professional, business-casual, or business-chic.

Red satin draped over porcelain skin

She is smoking his cigarettes

Just to taste his lips

Baking his favorite cherry pie

Spraying on his cologne

Waiting so patiently

For him to come home

...

(he never came home)

༄ 𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐤

Greek Gods as Incorrect Quotes Pt 4

Artemis: I'm gonna need a human skull but you can't ask why.  Athena: Only if you also don't ask why.  Athena: *pulls four pristine human skulls out of their bag*  Artemis: ...  Artemis, grabbing a skull: This one will do.

Dionysus: I'm going the fight the next person who insults Ariadne.  Ariadne: I hate myself.  Dionysus: Alright, square up.

Hermes: Hey, can we stay in your dorm tonight?  Hephaestus: Why?  Dionysus: Ares fiddled with an ouija board and cursed ours.  Hermes: Apollo doesn't know how to banish spirits, so he just threw salt at them and yell "DOES THIS LOOK LIKE A HOTEL TO YOU?!"

Aphrodite: If looking good was a crime, you’d be a law abiding citizen. 

Zeus, handing out popsicles: Which flavor do you want?  Hermes: Blue flavor!  Zeus: Uh, you mean Blue Raspberry?  Hermes: Blue flavor! Blue flavor!  Zeus: Blue is not a flavor!  Hermes: BLUE FLAVOR!

Apollo: A butterfly! Hey, little guy, gal or nonbinary pal!  Aphrodite: Can a butterfly be nonbinary?  Apollo: I mean, maybe? I don't judge.  Dionysus, staring dreamily out of the window: Ah, have you ever imagine having butterfly wings? Then-  Artemis: Then it would be inconvenient as f*ck. Your wings would smack every doorframe and your clothes would have to have holes in the back.  Ares: Also, your wing's paper thin, so even a six year old aimed a NERF gun at it would... Yeah...  Hermes: *sips coffee* According to all known laws of aviation, there is no way that a-  Dionysus: No, nononono. You f*ckers have already shattered my dream, you don't get the f*cking privilege to make that reference.  Athena: Also, it's about a butterfly, not a bee... Why would you make that reference?  Apollo: You clearly have not lived with him long enough.

Artemis: Theater kids are just choir kids who joined forces with the band and strings kids. 

Ares: The moon looks beautiful, doesn’t it?  Hephaestus, looking at Ares: Yeah… but do you know what’s more beautiful?  Ares and Hephaestus in unison: *sighs* Aphrodite

Hera: Hephaestus! What did I tell you about lying?  Hephaestus, looking down: ...That it only works on Zeus.

Ares: My life is a little too much panic and not enough disco.  Hermes: My life is a little too much fall and not enough boy.  Apollo: My life is a little too much chemical and not enough romance.  Dionysus: My life is a little too much imagination and not nearly enough dragons. Athena: Why? Just why?

Apollo: Do you take constructive criticism?  Hermes: No, only cash or credit.

Apollo: What situation is not instantly improved by the addition of fishnets, I ask you.  Artemis: Being a fish.  Apollo: Well, sh*t.

Dionysus: Forgive me Father, for I have sinny-sin-sinned.

What do yall think cuz its for a competition and i need the 1k

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I am not okay

Why?

I have a nice life

A good school

Good grades

A good family

So why?

Is it the fact that no matter how many positive things I have, there'll still be negative things?

Is it the fact that I serve no purpose?

Is it our misogynistic society and that I, as a woman, can never do anything about it?

I always knew that, but I still can't get it in my head

I can't accept it

I won't accept it

Regret is something all of us have experienced

I've regreted many things

And talking about my feelings is one of them

You might say

"Get a therapist" or,

"Talk to your guidance counselor"

or better yet,

"Talk to your parents"

I can't trust any of them

I'd rather talk about my feelings to people the same as me or I'd rather not talk about my feelings at all

People were raised differently, in different places, and by different people

You can't talk about loving the same gender to someone homophobic

can you?

The system is flawed

I know that

Yet I don't know why

Living is the most beautiful yet cruelest punishment

I wish I was aborted

You wouldn't like that

You would say

"Don't say that! Abortion is a sin"

Wouldn't you?

Please don't say that

There are people you can talk to

You feel bad for them

Because the fact you can talk to them

Means they've gone through the same thing

Don't help people when you can't help yourself

I've seen people do this

You aren't bound to anyone

Don't let them force you to help them

Pretty privilege is something that I would never have right now

You would probably say

"Don't mind them! You are beautiful"

I'm not

I know it

I don't mind

I'd rather have money

Do I disgust you?

Don't tell me

I'd rather not know

Nothing can hurt me that way

Friends are hard

I don't have friends

Friends are people you can talk to

Laugh with

Play with

I don't have friends

I talk to people, of course

I would go insane if I didn't

But I don't have friends

This poem is all over the place

With no main point

I don't know how to organize things

I'm sorry

Please forgive me

Please don't say I'm silly or being dramatic

Please respect me

Please don't make fun of me

Please

I am sad

I feel sad alot

But

I am also happy

I also feel happy alot

I am

Me

I can get through this

I can endure it

I am satisfied

I am okay

I can read a 500 page book or 100k word fanfiction in one sitting, but the moment I have to do a required reading for uni I suddenly don't know how to read

Either the world is so tiny or else we are so gigantic; in any case we fill it completely.

-Franz Kafka

“Most times, it’s just a lot easier not to let the world know what’s wrong.”

— Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters