đĄđšđŠđ đ«đźđ§ - baseball player bfb!kim seungmin x fem reader
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cw: enemies to lovers, very mean dom seungmin, mc makes out w chan in a friend way, mc is dramatic and a brat, seungmin is done w her shit but is very possessive, SMUT MDNI
synopsis: you love your best friend, you hate her baseball playing brother. heâs not been home for a few years during your summers back home, so you canât wait for another amazing summer - until he returns home.
a/n: thank u all for being so excited abt this <3 sorry for the length. smut warnings under the cut!
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sw: very mean dom seungmin (again), face slapping, borderline exhibitionism, unprotected sex, creampies, multiple orgasms, heavy dirty talk, reader is a brat, breeding kink, reader is a painslut, begging
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When you were a mere three years old, you met your platonic soulmate in the form of Kim Sieun. She had the exact same humour as you, loved climbing on the monkey bars and she had a dog. It was your three best friend criterias fulfilled. When she first invited you to her house for a playdate, you were thrilled, and youâve been inseparable ever since.
Youâve been through everything together. Your first break-ups, your first hangovers, first parties, you name it - youâve both been present for each otherâs momentous events. You were pretty sure youâd both started your periods on the exact same day. She really was the other part of you, the second silver heart piece to your cheap friendship chain youâve worn for years around your neck.Â
The biggest heartbreak was when you moved away to attend university, and Sieun stayed to begin a full-time job immediately after graduation. Youâd been separated after being by each other's side for so long, when everything had been so perfect for you two up until then, only miniscule, small-term problems.Â
Well, perfect apart from one thing.Â
Her brother. Kim Seungmin was the bane of your existence. Ever since he met you, two years older than both you and Sieun, he found it funny to ruffle your hair and make fun of how shy and timid you were. Itâs something youâd brush off now, being the person you grew into - confident, loud, straight up stubborn as some might say. When you were younger, though, this cut deep. Youâd had your first ever crush on him, and confided in Sieun about the matter, to which sheâd giggled and fake-gagged as if she wouldnât be overjoyed to have you in the family. Youâd had your first ever crush on him, and heâd made fun of you for years after as if he knew. You cannot stand him now. Even being in the same room as the guy boiled your blood.Â
It was one of the reasons why you got rid of that personality. That wasnât you. You were shy and timid because you were only a kid, God damn it! Youâd love to say it hadnât affected you, but it had, and you and Seungmin had bickered ever since you gained enough confidence to fight back. It was actually something Sieun found very amusing, insisting that the two of you were fated soulmates.Â
Still, as you stood in the airport waiting for Sieunâs arrival to pick you up, you felt blessed. Coming home for the summer was always exciting. You got to see old friends, who would almost always have parties, and another exciting part was that youâd be staying with Sieun for a solid three weeks of it. It was going to be the best summer ever. Your parents had decided to go away on holiday two days before your arrival back home, and you couldnât have felt more satisfied with the development.
Oh, and - Kim Seungmin would not be there. No, while you were a student busting your ass to make ends meet, Seungmin had obtained a full baseball scholarship to university and went straight into pro baseball once heâd finished. Of course he did. You tried not to let it bother you anymore, that he was so fucking successful while being so smarmy. It wound you up beyond belief, so you just avoided thinking about the guy altogether.Â
Clutching onto your suitcase handle, you almost vibrated with excitement when Sieunâs half-dead car pulled up. Honestly, sheâd had the same car since you were seventeen, and it hadnât been fully working then. It was even worse after a few years. She kept saying sheâd get her dad to look at it, but she was always out and about doing god knows what in said half broken car. It was a death trap.
Immediately, you saw the car door swing open - and almost fall off completely - when her engine completely stopped. Sieun bustled out of the car to the loading area of the airport, her puppy eyes wide and her legs shaking. She was going to scream, or jump, or die. Maybe all three. You werenât doing much better - your eyes brimmed with tears when you embraced Sieun in a death grip of a hug.Â
âI- missed- you- God, canât breathe-â Sieun grunted, trying to push you off. You pulled away, still with teary eyes as you gazed up at her. She was taller than you, almost matching her brotherâs height. The whole family was relatively tall. As soon as you both looked at eachother, Sieun was gripping you in a firm hug again, and it was your turn to get suffocated.Â
Once youâd eventually stopped hugging each other and crying - it had been approximately five months since you saw each other last - Sieun loaded your suitcase into the car and all but pushed you into the passenger seat. You groaned as you kicked through multiple McDonaldâs cups to try and get your feet flat on the floor. Sieun simply giggled, settling into the driverâs seat.Â
She plugged in her seatbelt, starting to drive back to her family home. âSo, howâs college been? Any cute guys?â
âSieun, I called you every week, you know whatâs happened,â you laughed, playing around with the settings on her car to try and get the radio on. Did it even have a radio?
âThe radioâs broken.â Of course it is. Well, it couldnât get any worse - youâd already failed the Bechdel test.Â
You leaned back against the seat, fingers playing with the friendship necklace chain. You hummed, trying to think of something Sieun may not know. âWell, there was this one guy. Super my type. Stoic, a little bit bitchy, you know? Dark hair, and all that. But when we ended up sleeping together, there was no chemistry.â
Sieun groaned in sympathy. âYou know, I hate that! You really like a guy, and then he doesnât even know where the clit is. It really pisses me off. Howâs classes though?â
Sieun normally didnât ask this many questions straight off the bat, especially not ones she knew the answers to. She was distracting you, sweetening you up by acting like she was just so interested in you. Something was fishy, and it wasnât the strange smell of her car. When you turned to look at her, her plump lips were pouted as usual, covered in lip gloss - but there was an unmistakable twitch to them. Her eyes were narrowed, staring at the road ahead of her. She was hiding something.
You blinked. She started humming along to a song on the radio. There was no song on. Said radio was broken. âSieun. What gives?â
Sieun sighed, slamming her hands down on the steering wheel. âOkay! I didnât know how to tell you. I know this was meant to be our super amazing summer, face masks and beaches and just general slaying, so I didnât want to ruin it.â
You realised you were arriving onto her street, the big house always taking you by surprise. You wanted to focus on Sieunâs words, but you were instead distracted by the driveway. Sieunâs parents shared a car, and Sieun had her own car.Â
There were two cars in the driveway. Sieunâs parentsâ car, a silver tank of a thing that looked like it could get through a boulder. Then, a sleeker car, perhaps closer to a sports car - much cleaner, much more expensive⊠with a personalised licence plate. No. No.
âMy brotherâs home.â
You wanted to die. Gone were your slay summer plans - now youâd be perpetually arguing with your best friendâs annoying older brother. He did absolutely everything deliberately to piss you off. Taking way too long in the bathroom brushing his teeth while you needed to pee, disconnecting the games controller when you were finally about to finish a boss fight⊠just petty activities like that.Â
Why now? Why had he chosen this summer to come home, when heâd been away for every other summer playing baseball or whatever he does? No. He didnât deserve to be back right now. You shook your head at Sieun. âIâm not going to let him ruin our awesome summer.âÂ
Sieun spluttered out a laugh. âOkay, Seungminâs not the devil. You two bicker like an old married couple, yâknow. Maybe thereâs-â
âShut. It.â
You didnât have the time or the patience to hear yet another ten minute long spiel about how Sieun and her parents strongly believed that you and Seungmin were fated soulmates. The little patience you had completely disappeared when a figure bounded up to the car window. You turned to stare through the glass.Â
Kim Seungmin. Stood there, beaming at you with that dumb smile that he always had when he was ready to wind you the fuck up. You had thanked every single god that your window was still rolled up, maybe you could just hide until he got bored and left - until Sieun rolled the window down with an evil chuckle.Â
Then, you looked at him - like, really looked at him. The chubby cheeks heâd once possessed had disappeared with age, now sporting some nice looking cheekbones and a sharp jawline. The braces were gone, pearly white teeth showing with his smile, and his hair. God, his hair. Heâd dyed the front of his hair blonde, and it was just slightly parted in the middle to show his forehead. He cocked his head at you, eyes glinting with menacing delight at your appearance. Oh no.
âWelcome back, brat.â
The bane of your existence had gotten fucking hot.
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It had just gotten worse. Once heâd pretended to have an ounce of chivalry by helping you take your suitcase inside, Seungmin had immediately reverted to the person he was the last time you saw him. Which was a while ago, by that point, since heâd always been too busy playing baseball games to make an appearance in your life for the past few years. You hadnât really seen him since you went to university. It honestly made you feel relieved, but now youâd seen him - well, he was definitely better looking than he had been. That fact was only reinforced to you as you walked through their long hallway, taking in all the family pictures that had been up for so many years. You were even in a few of them, chubby cheeks and acne galore as you stood with your arm around Sieun.Â
Youâd stared at him all the way through dinner, in all honesty. After your second, adopted parents had greeted you and Sieunâs mother had cried upon seeing how much youâd grown - you hadnât grown since you were thirteen, being on the shorter side of things - youâd all sat down to eat the hearty meal that she'd prepared. Seungmin sat in front of you in his assigned place, something you previously wouldâve hated, but you could at least analyse him.
Yeah, something had changed. He was aesthetically pleasing, but you hadnât forgotten his fucking behaviour. He was a menace. You shoved another forkful of the homemade lasagne in your mouth, furrowing your eyebrows at the boy sitting in front of you.Â
His eyes flickered to look at you, but you didnât even think about looking away. His eyes were so dark. Stoic, almost, and he was like⊠okay, yeah, he looked like your ex-fling from college. Thatâs weird. It didnât even stop you maybe bordering on finding Seungmin attractive, as much as it put you off of your lasagne to even think of the concept.
âCan you stop fucking staring at me?â Seungmin hissed, his fork clattering down to the plate with an eye watering noise. You huffed, reaching forward to stab him with your knife before Sieun yanked your hand back.Â
âWho said I was staring at you? Iâm eating my fucking food, you heathen, and everytime I look up your ugly face is right in front of me-â
âOh, I missed this!â Sieunâs mother smiled, her eyes fond. âLet me just get a camera, and I can take a picture of you three.â
Later on, in Sieunâs room, you both sat with your legs laid up against the headboard and sheet masks on your face. The anger was still burning in your stomach, but you were trying not to let everything revolve around him, like it always did.Â
âSo, weâre going to watch Seungminâs baseball game tomorrow. Mum and dad are super excited about it,â Sieun said, painting your nails where your hand laid on her stomach. You groaned, feet kicking against the wall with small thuds. Sieunâs hand paused with the tiny paint brush, turning to look at you through narrowed eyes. âYou donât think he⊠looks different? Everyoneâs been saying that since he came home.â
âLooks different?â You snickered. âStill looks pretty fucking weird to me. Seriously, how are the two of you even related? Youâre pretty, nice, funny, and heâs so fucking- ugh! I canât even explain it, and he-â
Sieun snorted. âYou think heâs hot.â
You gasped, pulling your hand away. The nail polish smeared all over your finger, which was decidedly the one you used to point menacingly towards your lifelong best friend. âI do not! Heâs gotten taller, yeah. The hairâs⊠different, but thatâs the only thing thatâs changed. Heâs still fucking annoying, even after getting his braces off, and-â
âAnd youâve noticed all these things about him,â Sieun sighed, leaning up and readjusting her whole body to sit cross legged, facing you. She put the paintbrush back in the nail polish bottle. The sheet mask made her look a lot less friendly than she was trying to be. The Sheet Mask Murderer could be a good horror film, you pondered, as she stared at you. âBestie, Iâm not going to be upset if you have a crush on my brother, you know? I know heâs grown up in the past year, and so have you. Things could be different now, and⊠you could be part of the family, officially, I guess.â
You screwed up your face, shock painting your expression. The sheet mask got caught in the lines of your forehead. âYouâre deranged, Sieun. You know that, right? Like, youâve actually lost the plot this time.â
Sieun sighed, fingers reaching to peel the sheet mask off of her face. âI have always been deranged.â
âWell, yeah, there is that.â
She flopped back down next to you, dark hair splaying around her head like a halo. âWe will still have the best summer. I promise you.â
âOkay, my conditions are that we have to go to a lot of cool parties, get amazingly drunk and maybe fuck one or two people. Deal?â
âUm, duh? Deal.â
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Youâd dreaded the baseball game all day. For starters, you were going to see baseball, something you had absolutely no clue about. Secondly, it was your literal enemyâs baseball game. It was also one of his pro games, and was taking place at a massive stadium where just about everyone seemed to know who Seungmin was and who his family was. Youâd already had to witness Sieun posing with a peace sign for multiple selfies with fans once youâd all found your seats, and Sieunâs mother had already put an arm around you to show you exactly where Seungmin would be once the game started.
âHeâll be over there,â She pointed to a part of the field. You didnât really care. You had no clue what baseball was or any of its rules - just that there were bats and they hit balls and ran. You decided that was all you needed to know. You werenât going to do any research for it, not if it was him playing.Â
You and Sieun had dressed up, too, because Sieun had thankfully found a beach party for you all to go to later. âAllâ sadly included Seungmin and his gaggle of just as annoying friends. The only one you really got on with was Chan, who was mature and seemed to be ageing ten times quicker due to the stress the rest of the group caused him. You both kissed when you were drunk and had agreed you were just friends who liked to kiss, which was optimal for you, really. You had decided that you would dress up nicely in a borderline slutty white dress and sandals for the party, and you had makeup on. It was most definitely for the party, and not for any other reason.
When the game started, you thought you were going to have a heart attack and die. While Sieun and her family were cheering out Seungminâs name, all you saw was that ass in tight, pinstripe trousers. He was grinning, waving over to your section - definitely not at you, he hated you and you were literally looking at him with the most shocked expression in that moment. He looked good. You decided it was okay to admit that mentally, because no one was ever going to hear you say it. His ass looked peachy and you wanted to bite into it like it was one, and maybe see what the front of his body looked like - all of it.
It all looked good, at least when he was wearing clothes. Broad shoulders pulled that jersey tight around them, and his hat was pulled low to almost obscure his dark eyes. When he rolled his neck, clicking it out with one broad hand before grabbing the ball, you knew your panties were wet. Soaking, actually, because he looked so broad and so tall and so fucking powerful on that pitch. Youâd always had a thing for men who looked like they could fuck you like you were beneath them. The fleeting thought that Seungmin would definitely do just that caused your cheeks to blaze.
Obviously, his team won. Obviously he did, because then you had to stand there afterwards when his whole family hugged him and you just stood there kicking pebbles before wincing that it hurt your bare toes. Fuck sandals. Fuck Seungmin.Â
Once heâd hugged Sieun, he turned to you, cheeks slightly pink from the exertion of the sport. You briefly thought about how baseball wasnât even that tiring. One stripe of black paint on his cheek caught your eye when you looked at him. When Sieun elbowed your side, you looked up, arms folded across your chest. Seungmin blinked at you, hands in his pockets with a cocky smirk. You knew what he was waiting for.Â
Mumbling, you spoke - âCongrats.â
âSay it properly, brat.â
âFuck you, I donât say what you want me to say!â You kicked a pebble at him successfully, smiling in accomplishment when it bounced off of his knee. He simply scowled, repeating what you said in a meh bleh, bleh bleh type of way. When you let your arms drop from your chest to strangle him to the floor Bart and Homer style, Sieun gripped you by the back of your bodycon dress and dragged you back to stand next to her.Â
âGo get changed for the party, Seungie,â She said, keeping you in her hand like you were a rabid dog on a leash. âAnd you. You canât just try to strangle my brother-â
âHow did you even know I was going to strangle him?â
âBecause, itâs not the first time!â Sieun shouted, stomping her feet like a child. She finally stopped holding onto you, huffing as she turned to look at you fully. Seungminâs parents had left to get to the car, insisting on giving you all a lift to the beach where the party was held. Your parents would never. Youâd lost count of how many times you had blisters from walking back from somewhere five miles away because your mother was engrossed in another show on television. Seungmin raised an eyebrow at the both of you.Â
âIâm gonna go get changed.â He finally spoke, waving towards the direction of the locker room. You grimaced.
âOkay, and? I donât care,â When you watched Seungmin walk away, eyes unable to tear away from that tight ass in those trousers, you could practically feel Sieunâs own eyes boring into your face. Finally turning to look at her, you saw a slight smile on her lips. âDonât.â
âI didnât say anything, bestie.â
You stormed off to the car, in a foul mood now that youâd been caught by Sieun ogling her own brother. Just to make matters worse, you had been designated to shimmy into the middle seat of the back because you were the smallest, so youâd be sat in between the two siblings. Brilliant. Just ideal, really. Thankfully, Sieunâs parents had already put the air con on. The heat of the summer had been killing you in that packed baseball stadium.Â
âSo, what did you think of Seungmin?â Sieunâs dad asked you. He looked a lot like Seungmin actually, just an aged version with salt and pepper hair. You smiled politely, about to respond before Sieun cut you off.
âDad, donât. Sheâs already wound up.â You wanted to kiss Sieun. You could not discuss what had just happened, including the game. Youâd spent the whole time drooling over the bane of your existence. When Seungmin finally got to the car, you side eyed him in order to see what he was wearing, and were more than pleased to see he was in a light grey t-shirt and baggy blue jeans. Good. Nothing tight.Â
The beach party was packed when you arrived there. A lot of sweaty young adults smoking weed, drinking and perched around a campfire or dancing near the portable speaker playing music quietly. All you could think about was how much you deserve a drink after the dayâs events, and you were quick to drag Sieun over to Chan when you spotted him. Dark curly hair hidden under a hat and a sleeveless black tank top. Unmistakably Chan, and also unmistakably someone who would donate alcohol to a good cause.Â
He immediately looked up at you, his smile wide with dimples adorning his cheeks. You saw Seungmin flop down next to some other friends he had from the corner of your eye. Chan caught your attention though, handing you and Sieun a beer each. âHello, you. Welcome back to the town.âÂ
âChannie!â You squealed, taking the beer from him and wrapping your arms around his neck. He subsequently pulled you onto his lap and Sieun giggled, sitting in the sand next to him. Youâd always been close with Chan, and you wouldnât be lying if you said you found him attractive. Those arms showing in the sleeveless top were definitely doing something for you that night, but you werenât sure if it was the pent up aggression from earlier. You immediately pressed the beer to your lips at the thought, swigging down a lot of the liquid.Â
Then, it just felt like the drinks kept coming. Over and over you were drinking beers that were handed to you by either Chan or Changbin, one of the others you were friendly with, and you found yourself becoming tipsy and slouching on Chanâs lap. The fire burned your eyes a bit when you stared into it, but you were still giggling, leaning your head back on Chanâs shoulder.
Seungmin glowered, turning to Sieun and speaking almost inaudibly. âStop her drinking. Sheâs making a fool of herself, all over Chan like that.â
âTheyâre friends, you idiot. Sheâs not even drunk, theyâre just always like that!â You didnât have time to thank Sieun for defending you immediately against her own brother because Hyunjin was coming over to you with two small plastic shot glasses. One sniff of the liquid proved it was vodka, a fact you werenât surprised about - Hyunjin loved to get utterly white-girl-wasted at any party. His smile was wide and eyes half-lidded already when he looked at you.Â
âThis is for you,â Hyunjin whispered. His fringe almost obscured his face as he handed a shot glass to you, and offered the other to Chan. Chan held out his hand, pushing it softly back to Hyunjin. Hyunjin literally just shrugged his shoulders, toasting your own shot before knocking his own back. He didnât even make a face when taking shots, which was probably the fact about Hyunjin you were most jealous of - along with his ethereal beauty, obviously. You grimaced when the liquid hit your own taste buds, glugging it back thankfully. You couldnât gag on Chan right now.Â
The music filled your ears as the sun began to set. Someone had turned the speaker up just a bit louder, and Jisung had started to dance and embarrass himself. It was the usual behaviour. You saw Changbin chatting to some girls you and Sieun had gone to school with, and Sieun got up to go and join, leaving Seungmin chatting with the other boys on the other side of the bonfire. You sat quite happily on Chanâs lap, listening to him telling a story from work.
âI mean, it was insane. Hannie quite literally wrote this entire song in like, five minutes. We were all super drunk. I have no idea how he did it,â Chan said, hands flying everywhere in his story. You blinked at him for a moment, processing who Hannie was. Ah. Han Jisung. Hannie. The round-cheeked boy was still twerking across from you. âAre you okay?â
âYeah, âm just a bit tipsy now,â You giggled, nuzzling into his cheek. Chan laughed at your level of clinginess, hand placed on your hip comfortingly. âSorry, Channie.â
âThatâs okay. Hey, remember a few years ago? You always wanted kisses from me and Changbin when you were drunk, heh,â Chan looked at you, eyes fond. When you finally looked into his eyes, it was like your brain caught up with what he was saying. Kisses? God, thatâd be so good.
âKisses. Oh my God,â You whispered, eyes wide. Chan threw his head back, hand over his face while he laughed this time. âChannie.â
Chan sighed, finally looking at you. âYes? What is it?â He knew what it was. You surged forward, pressing a familiar friendly kiss to his plump lips. He raised his eyebrows in shock, pulling you back by his grip on your hips.
âI cannot kiss you right now. Seungmin is there, and he is looking at us.â
âWho cares about that guy? Heâs an ass,â You mumbled, pressing your lips to Chan again. Chan sighed into the kiss, finally giving up and letting his lips brush against yours. You loved kissing Chan. It was always so fun, so familiar, just two friends making out when drunk. It was one of your favourite pastimes, to be honest. You were just getting into the kiss when you felt hands on your waist, scooping you up and throwing you over one broad shoulder. You heard Chan laugh while you were disoriented, trying to work out whose shoulder you were even on and why are you walking away from the beach party?! You were having so much fun!Â
âWhat is goinâ on?!â You shrieked, legs flailing around. You were slurring at this point, and you even heard Sieun giggling over the music. Finally, you heard a sigh as the feet of the body you had been stolen by started to wade through the sand and onto the street.
âWe are going home. Thatâs whatâs fucking going on,â Seungmin. You grimaced, wriggling to try and get off of his shoulder, but the grip he had on your body was unbelievable. âWhy the hell were you doing that?â
âDoing what? Kissing Chan? I always kiss Chan.â
âI donât want you to do that anymore, okay?â You huffed at his words, resorting to slamming your fists on his back as he walked quickly down the street. He didnât even flinch. âAre you listening to me, brat? I donât want you doing that.â
âYou are not my fucking dad, Kim Seungmin. You donât decide who I kiss!â You sounded like a petulant child, whining and squirming around to be put down on your feet. Finally, Seungmin grabbed your hips with both hands, placing you down on the floor. Cars were speeding past you as you both stood on the pavement. You crossed your arms over your chest, vision slightly blurry from the intoxication and body covered in sand. Seungmin didnât look to be doing any better, beige specks of sand in his dark hair and his grey t-shirt completely covered. He shoved his hands in his pockets, tilting his head when looking at you.
âI may not decide who you kiss, but Iâm gonna be mad if you do that again. Got it?â Seungmin was stoic, sharp as he spoke in a monotone voice towards you. You furrowed your eyebrows. What? Why did it matter? âHeâs my friend.â
âOkay, and? I donât care.â You repeated your words from earlier. Seungmin huffed, blowing a strand of blonde hair from his forehead. You looked at him. He looked at you. Then, he was turning around, walking down the road in the direction towards his house. You gasped, appalled that heâd leave you there on the side of the road like some kind of bag of trash.Â
After a few long strides, you heard him groan faintly in the distance. He stopped dead still, turning around to you with a grimace. âAre you coming, or?â
You stood your ground. âNope.â
âFine, stay there and be killed by a raccoon or something, fucking brat. Or worse, an actual murderer. Wouldnât that be scary? A murderer just killing you while youâre standing there in your sandals. Canât even protect yourself, canât throw your shoe at him like you do with me because what harm will sandals do-â Seungmin stopped talking when you ran at him, eyes wide as you wrapped your arm around his own. He huffed, trying to shake your arm off of his, but you held on tightly. Your bottom lip quivered. You were such a baby when it came to scary things like raccoons and murderers.Â
ââM scared now, Seungmin.â You whispered, leaning your head on his arm. You could practically sense Seungmin rolling his eyes as he wrapped his arm around you, holding you close to his warm body.Â
âOnly five minutes now. Five minutes and weâll be home, okay?â You nodded, trying to keep up with the strides of his long legs.Â
In bed that night, laying in Sieunâs bed sans Sieun, you couldnât help but wonder just what the fuck that was. Seungmin was almost nice for a moment. Sure, heâd had that weird freak out about you kissing Chan - that was strange - but then heâd not left you on the side of the road. A few years ago, he would have left you on the pavement and then proceeded to go get a car to run you over on said pavement. He had changed.
Kim Seungmin was hot. Youâll admit that, unfortunately. But now Kim Seungmin was hot and he had morals, too.Â
That one would be hard to process.
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The next morning, you were woken up by Sieunâs arm across your forehead and her soft snores in your ear. You briefly felt extremely guilty for making sure she hadnât gotten home safe, but judging by her still sleeping, sheâd left after youâd fallen asleep. You wanted to wake her, to ask her what the fuck her brotherâs deal was, but you settled on heading downstairs to get some breakfast and calm your stomach. It felt like a bomb had gone off in there.Â
You started to make your way downstairs to get breakfast, but you walked straight into Seungminâs chest as soon as you left Sieunâs bedroom. He stood with a mug of coffee in his hands, blinking down at you like you were, in fact, a bomb that had just gone off in front of him.Â
You stared up at him, eyes wide. He furrowed his eyebrows. âMove, brat.â
Oh. So he was just going to forget him being borderline nice ever happened? What a fucking- ugh! You scoffed, looking down at the coffee.Â
âYou know this isnât your room right, dumbass? Take your coffee into your own room.â Seungmin rolled his eyes, barging past you to stand by the door.
âItâs for my sister, dumbass.â You wanted to ask whereâs mine, then, but Seungmin would only laugh at you and move on with his life. It annoyed you beyond belief that Seungmin had actually been nice to you the night before and then continued to act like absolutely nothing happened. You wanted to positively kick him across the face like the Mortal Kombat games he used to unplug your controller on.
Still, you had hope for the summer. Two straight days of hell would not change your mind. You just had to get through today, a chill, relaxing day with Sieun where you both nursed slight hangovers and probably cried over making mistakes the night before. Then there was hope for some fun tomorrow.Â
Tomorrow was the annual camping trip with your friend group. It only went on for one night, in the woods close to your actual home a few streets away, but it was something everyone looked forward to. Unfortunately, given that your friend group was also Seungminâs friend group, and that he was back now, it meant he would be there. This was unlike the annual camping trips before, and you were dreading his presence. You just had to avoid him, and he wouldnât stop you kissing your friends. He wouldnât stop you having fun if you just acted like he wasnât there. The thought made your blood boil.Â
You hid in the bathroom until you heard Seungminâs footsteps recede back into his bedroom, and then you emerged. Fuck breakfast. You needed a good heart-to-heart with your best friend. Stomping back into the bedroom, you were met with Sieunâs eyes still only half open, just about emerging from above the mug.
âOh, hey,â Sieun mumbled. She blew the hot liquid in the cup and then took a sip, humming with satisfaction. You stood there, arms crossed across your chest and foot tapping with annoyance. Sieun looked at you. You looked at her, a frown on your lips. She sighed. âWhatâs he done now?â
âWell, what the fuck was last night, Sieun?!â You exclaimed, throwing your body down on the bed. Sieun snorted, sounding like she was holding back a laugh. âSieun, he picked me up and took me from a party. What was that? And, and! On the way home, he was kind of being⊠nice?! Then, just now, this morning, he was being absolutely horrible again!â
âAnd this annoys you becauseâŠ? Youâre always horrible to each other, sweetie.â
âYes, Iâm aware,â You huffed, turning over to scream into a pink heart pillow on Sieunâs bed. âHeâs coming tomorrow, too. Like, as if it could get any worse!â
Sieun hummed. You heard the mug clink onto the bedside table, probably to live next to another ten mugs for about three weeks. âIâll make sure heâs on his best behaviour.â
You grumbled into the fabric. Then, as if youâd completely forgotten about it, a blurred memory came into your head. I donât want you doing that anymore. Heâd said that in confidence, stood there in front of you, all long legs and pouty lips forming the words. âHe⊠he said he didnât want me kissing Chan anymore.â
Sieun spluttered. âHe- he what?! Why would he say that?â
You shrugged. âDâno. Weird though. It⊠it made me feel weird. Like, almost shy. I donât know.â
âThatâs because you have a big old crush on my brother. Weâll address that later, though, because it seems my brother may have a big old crush on you,â You lifted your head, blinking at her. The drink had gone to her head last night. She was now clinically insane, beyond deranged by the sounds of it. Her eyes were peering out of the window opposite her bed in deep contemplation. âI mean, it makes sense. You two do bicker like an old married couple, but maybe thatâs your shtick.âÂ
âI do not have a big old crush on your brother. He does not have a big old crush on me. We are mortal enemies.â
âMmhm, okay, honey. Weâll see what happens tomorrow, yeah?â
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You didnât sleep a wink the night before the camping trip. Of course you didnât. Your thoughts were riddled with stupid remarks and baseball uniforms and long legs looking amazing in said baseball uniforms. Eventually, youâd actually cried a bit, just wanting him to leave your mind. Then, you felt pathetic crying over a man. That disgusted you beyond belief.
It had you thinking that Sieun may have been onto something. Maybe you did have a stupid crush on her brother. Maybe it had never left, ever since youâd caught sight of his chubby cheeks and mop of dark hair when you were both little. Youâd have to just overcome it. Arguing with him would probably help, and you did that everyday, so itâd be fine. Manageable, at least, so long as he kept his goddamn nose out of your business. Youâd had stupid crushes on people before, and you knew this one could leave very easily and very quickly.
Unfortunately, due to the lack of sleep, you had been forced to smother your eye bags in concealer that was maybe a shade too light. Seungmin had commented on this when you and his sister loaded your stuff into his pristine car, grimacing at the sight of you.
âYou look like a ghost, brat.â You had immediately tried to rub the concealer off with your fingers, and now it was just a smeared mess on your otherwise decent skin. Fuck that guy. Fuck Kim Seungmin. Fuck yourself, too, because why were you trying to adhere to what he said?
It had still been plaguing your mind when you laid next to the lake in the woods while everyone drank around you. You had taken your premixed cocktail in a can to the lake not too far from the lake, and were perched in your blue bikini trying to get somewhat of a tan. Your skin was only blazing with anger, not sun. All of a sudden, you heard some branches snapping, and opening your eyes served you with the face of your best friend.
âTruth or dare. Câmon, everyoneâs playing.â
You were lugged back to the campsite, groaning with your can still in your hand. Chan perked up immediately at the sight of you, patting his lap in invitation.Â
You went to walk over, smiling at his dimpled cheeks, but quickly turned to Seungmin. âSorry, Channie, I should probably check if Iâm allowed first.â
Everyone erupted in roars, even Chan, who dragged you by your waist onto his lap while still giggling. Seungmin practically glowered, eyes staring you down with the anger within him.Â
âLet's start with you then, brat,â Seungmin said, motioning towards you with the hand wrapped around the neck of his beer. âTruth or dare?â
You pretended to think. You always chose the same thing. âTruth.â
âBoring!â Sieun screamed, her pink bikini strap slipping down her shoulder. Changbin used two fingers to push it back up into place. Always a gentleman. âOkay, what is the biggest lie youâve ever told?â
Seungmin turned to Sieun, displeasure written all over his features. âItâs literally meant to be me asking the question.â
âI donât care.â Sieun shrugged. She also knew what the biggest lie youâve ever told is, judging by the smirk on her face when she turned back towards you.
You smacked your lips together. Okay. If he had a crush on you, it would be instantly severed in that moment, because you were about to wholeheartedly tell the truth. âSeungmin, I was the one who broke your PS4. I spilled coffee over it.â
âWhat?! You fucking brat!â Everyone screamed again, Chan howling with laughter at Seungminâs exasperation. âTell me that you arenât serious. You told me that-â
âI told you that the dog peed on it?â You giggled. Seungmin nodded, eyebrows furrowed. âYeah, no. It stank of coffee, so youâre kinda dumb for believing me in the first place.â
Seungmin huffed. His cheeks were red, breathing heavy. Oh, he was so mad. Good. You lived your life specifically to piss Kim Seungmin off.
âOkay, Seungmin. Truth or dare?â Changbin spoke up. He didnât need to speak up, because his voice was like a foghorn already. Seungmin sighed again, turning to the shorter male.Â
âDare.â
âI dare you to kiss Dahyun.â You turned to the girl in question. She was quite quiet, only speaking when spoken to, but you and Sieun had been friendly enough with her back in high school. Sheâd been close with Chan, though, and had kind of stuck with the group since. You thought she didnât even like Seungmin either, but the way she perked up at the statement said otherwise.Â
Seungmin, however, was still looking very pissed off. He put his beer bottle on the floor, sighing as he made his way over to Dahyun. You heard Jisung giggling, making lewd comments and noises in Minhoâs ear, who just pushed him off with a sigh of fondness. All of a sudden, Seungminâs lips were pressed to hers. You could see everything. Tongue and spit swapped between the two, and you found yourself turning to look at your drink instead. Awkward.
It made you feel awkward. More than that, though, it kind of made you feel weird. You werenât sure of the emotion exactly, but you knew you wanted to leave instantly and never see Seungmin or Dahyun ever again. You also wanted to scream. Especially when you finally let yourself look up, when the cheers receded to murmurs and Seungmin had pulled away from Dahyun, looking straight at you.Â
You locked eyes with him, blinking. Then, you saw fucking red.
âWhat the fuck is wrong with you?â You blurted, seeing Seungminâs eyes widen at your outburst. Dahyunâs eyebrows raised, looking at you with fear. You turned to her with a timid smile. âNot you. Him. The bastard you kissed seems to think he can tell me what I can do, who I can kiss, yet he seems to be doing whatever he wants? Is this a joke, Kim Seungmin?â
Sieun laughed awkwardly from her position next to Changbin, rising up onto her feet. âOkay, perhaps this doesnât need to happen right now-â
âNo, let the brat speak to me how she wants. Itâs not going to fucking end well, and she knows it,â Seungmin spoke, throwing his beer bottle down on the floor exasperatedly. He stood up, light blue baggy jeans looking slightly brown with the mud and an oversized jersey falling off of broad shoulders. You took in his appearance with nothing but an angered expression, cheeks burning with rage when you realised he still looked really fucking good with his hair dyed like that. Something about him shouting at you was turning you on, too, but you decided to address that at a later date. âI told you not to kiss Chan for a good reason.â
You scoffed. You could practically hear Chanâs hair turning to grey from stress behind you. âOh, yeah? What reason is that? Heâs my friend.â
âYou should- you should only kiss people you like. People youâre interested in,â Seungmin was shouting now, finger pointing at you determinedly. You rolled your eyes, making him stomp his foot in the mud.Â
âI guess that means that you like Dahyun then, huh?â You said, remembering to give Dahyun another smile. This really wasnât against her. She was sweet, and she hadnât done anything wrong. Kim Seungmin just grinds your fucking gears.Â
You realised way too late that maybe you didnât want to know the answer to the question that youâd so loudly shouted.Â
Seungmin ran his hand through his hair, licking his lips. You tried to avoid staring at his mouth when he eventually retorted. âMaybe I do, brat. Whatâs it to you?âÂ
You blanched. It was nothing. It was nothing to you, really, but you definitely couldnât back down now, even if you could sense the rest of your friendship group feeling slightly awkward in the wake of tension. You folded your arms over your chest, staring Seungmin down while you searched your brain earnestly for something that would hurt.Â
âItâs nothing to me. I donât give a fuck about you, Seungmin.â
Seungmin looked like heâd stopped breathing, staring at you with intensity in his eyes. You couldnât quite work out what emotion they held, but you had a feeling that you may have gone a bit further than your normal bickering. It was only a matter of time, really, with you having a very short temper and all.Â
As if it had never even happened, Seungmin rolled his neck and shrugged. He sat back down on the floor with a flurry of movement and with another shift, his arm was around Dahyun and he was pulling her close. She looked like she wanted to run very far away, but then Seungmin was handing her another beer and it was apparently fine.Â
Changbin cleared his throat. âOkay, shall we continue?â
The rest of the night went with seemingly no hitches. Everyone drank, sang, danced, and the tents were slowly filling up with people retiring from the night, their skin still dewy with the water from the lake close by. You even managed to avoid getting riled up by the bastard sitting opposite you, so that was an achievement in itself. Eventually, you retired to the tent you, Sieun and Chan had been designated, limbs stiff from sitting down for so long.
Wiggling into your sleeping bag, you zipped up the fabric with your whole body inside like a cocoon. You could hear mumbling and giggles from the next tent over, but choosing to ignore it, you shifted over to face Chan. He was still awake, scrolling through his phone. You werenât sure the guy ever fucking slept, in all honesty. Sieun snored behind you steadily, the sound of cicadas breaking up the noise of her heavy slumber.Â
Chan blinked up at you, locking his phone when he saw you were still awake. The moonlight just about seeped through the walls of your temporary home for the night and you could see his features, sharp as always. He grinned at you, pulling you closer by your sleeping bag. âSo.âÂ
âSo,â you agreed, nuzzling into his bare shoulder. The summer heat was still present in the night, although mild, and heâd clearly chosen to not overheat with his chest bare. âThis whole night was really weird, Channie. My life is really weird right now.â
âTell me about it,â Chan hummed, fingers scratching on your scalp soothingly. âHow long?â
You furrowed your eyebrows in confusion. Chan simply looked at you earnestly, his lips in a tight smile. âHow long⊠what?â
âHow long since youâve liked him?â Chan whispered, clearly registering the noise from the next tent over. You blanched, before realising that well - you could lie to Kim Sieun, Kim Seungmin and yourself, but you couldnât lie to Bang Chan. He was too kind, too dear to you in a different sense to what Sieun was.Â
âI dunno what it is, but Iâm ignoring it,â you responded, even quieter than his whisper. âItâs weird. Makes me feel weird.â
Chan let out a silent laugh, chest shaking next to you. âCrushes tend to do that, babe. They make you feel all weird and fuzzy.â
âKim Seungmin does not make me feel weird and fuzzy, Channie. I canât stand him.â
âYou canât stand him because he makes you feel weird and fuzzy, and maybe itâs about time you realised that.â
You huffed, turning over to press your back against his chest, despite being separated by sleeping bags and extra fabric. Chan shuffled closer, pulling you in for a cuddle nonetheless. He pressed a kiss to the back of your head, murmuring, âyou canât avoid him. I know you want to, but you canât. Heâs your best friendâs brother.â
Unfortunately, this was something you had already recognised. Staring at Sieunâs sleeping figure reminded you that yeah, he was your best friendâs brother, and while a relationship between you and him would never fuck anything up⊠well, an unrequited crush might. It would be too awkward. Thatâs why you swore you were going to ignore him.Â
You had to go back to hating Kim Seungmin.
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Fortunately, it was a lot easier than youâd anticipated. Youâd managed to avoid him in his own home. You didnât even see him in the hallways, sticking to showers late at night while he was always showering in the early morning, and you and Sieun had been eating out nearly every day to avoid family dinners. It almost felt rude, but with Seungmin, being rude was not possible. He was the epitome of rude.
Rude, brazen, and with zero morals. Youâd almost forgotten that in the haze of him being nice once and looking pretty all the time. Sure, he was aesthetically pleasing, and maybe he was exactly your type. But you were never going to forget the history between you ever again, not if you put your mind to it.Â
However, the concept of your own morals slipping to actually possibly like Seungmin had ruined your days since. You just couldnât believe yourself! Thatâs Seungmin you were very nearly lusting over. Your mortal enemy, the bane of your existence. Who cared if heâd gotten hot?
Apparently, you did. As you stood in a party with Sieun dancing around carelessly, you were clutching your drink tight and thinking of your enemy. The drink limited your inhibitions, making you able to think more freely. Why did he look at you like that after kissing Dahyun? Why did he stop you kissing Chan? Why did-Â
âWhy are you still overthinking? Weâre at a party!â Sieun hollered, the drink in her cup threatening to slosh over the edges with her dancing. You shook your head, putting on your best fake smile.
âI am having the bestest time,â You insisted, smiling and starting to do a little jig to the music. The house party, held at Changbinâs literal mansion, was slowly filling up. You and Sieun had retired to the kitchen to down a few drinks so that you felt less awkward and could start going feral with the rest of the party, but the more drinks you had, the more you got inside of your own head. This wasnât like you. You were the party girl, the girl who everyone had awaited return to the town - you wanted to scream and stomp your feet like a child.Â
âYouâre totally not, honey,â Sieun mumbled, seeing the look in your eyes. You sighed, downing back the concoction in your cup. Youâd worn another slutty dress to the party, done your makeup and hair and now it was all going to waste. âAre you sure you donât wanna head back?â
You shrugged. âI mean, if you want to, we can.â
Sieunâs eyes widened. âWell, I was just- I was gonna call you an Uber, and get you home. Iâm gonna stay, yâknow, itâs Changbinâs house, and⊠yeah.â
And she wanted to make out with Changbin. She was so valid for that. You sighed again, looking around at the kitchen. The party was a bit too much for you right now in your utterly discombobulated headspace. Maybe you should go back, just chill for the night, sleep. It was probably for the best, or youâd ruin Sieunâs night too by being so awkward.Â
âAh. Yeah, okay, maybe itâs best if I go home,â You looked at Sieun, who was beginning to eye up Changbin. He was in a pretty intense game of beer pong with Jisung, and both parties were screaming their heads off. You didnât want to stand between Sieun and her destiny, her fate. Sieun turned back to you, a glint in her eye. âAlright, would you call me an Uber? But um, maybe I should go to my house. Yâknow, since-â
âHeâs at practice,â She said, shaking her head. âNot home. Donât worry, he wonât be home for a little while.â
You frowned, checking the time. It was 9pm. Did practice go on this late? You let yourself accept her statement anyway. You still had no clue what happened in baseball, or what happened in baseball practice nonetheless. It could go on until 3am for all you knew. Sieun pressed a few buttons on her cracked phone before she was grinning, sending you a thumbs up.
âAll done. He- the driver, heâll be here in five. Good?â You nodded, giving her a quick hug. âYou need me to wait outside with you?â
âNo, no,â You shook your head. You couldnât ruin her night even more through your petty questioning of why, why, why. After giving Sieun a quick kiss on the cheek, you made sure she went straight over to Changbin and was safe before you left the house. It took you a solid five minutes to even try to wade through the bodies and you were thankful you were leaving -Â you really didnât have the headspace for that.
Standing outside, you rubbed your hands over your arms to try and gain some warmth. Youâd never been great with cold, and although the summer nights werenât as biting on your skin, it was still unpleasant when you didnât have the body of a friend next to you. It was also your fault for wearing a strapless minidress that was about two seconds from falling down or riding up, or both.Â
The car really only took five minutes. You were thankful for this, as Ubers were inherently unreliable and it was getting colder, and way too loud in the house behind you. Scurrying down the front steps, you didnât look at the car until you were about a foot in front of it, looking up at the vehicle.Â
The car was very familiar. You werenât sure if the few drinks youâd consumed had made your eyesight go funny, but⊠no, that definitely was Sieunâs car. You could see inside the car, a lot cleaner than when she picked you up from the airport but still looking half broken. And⊠Oh God. Sheâd really done you dirty this time.
Seungmin was sitting in the driverâs seat, and he rolled the window down upon your arrival. âAre you getting in?âÂ
âNo.â You blurted, arms crossed over your chest. âWhy are you driving Sieunâs car?â
âMineâs in for a service,â He responded, eyes racking over your figure. âYou look freezing, brat. Get in.â
âNo.â
âIâm not going to have to get out and grab you, am I?â He said, eyes narrowing at you. You blanched. He was kinda scary tonight. With a sigh, you made haste to the other side of the car, and heard him mumble âthought notâ.
You buckled up your seatbelt when in the passenger seat, and tried to reach over to fiddle with the aircon. The car was cold, too, and you found yourself even more on edge now that you were sitting with Seungmin in a confined area.Â
Fiddling with the aircon, you felt Seungmin bat your hand away. âItâs broken.â You turned to look at him, completely silent, and then you saw it. He was in his baseball uniform. Tight pinstripe trousers on those long legs and a loose jersey on his upper body, hair almost flattened from his hat. It still looked good, blonde streaks breaking up the dark mop of hair on his unfairly pretty face.Â
âHello?â He waved a hand over your face. âAre you deaf now, brat? Itâs broken.â
âYeah, sorry,â You mumbled, turning to face out the window. You sensed Seungmin tensing, before he sighed and started the engine to the car. The car started to speed away from Changbinâs house before you even recognised it, too holed up in your head.Â
Seungmin sighed again when you were still silent, no noise circulating the small space of the car. âWhatâs wrong with you lately?â
You turned to him, blinking. âHuh?â
âIâm asking whatâs wrong with you lately. Iâve barely seen you. You havenât been bickering at me, havenât tried to physically fight me lately. Whatâs going on?â
You screwed your face up in confusion. âYou donât even care, Seungmin, so why are you asking?â
âOf course I care,â Seungminâs eyebrows furrowed. He was staring at the road, not looking at you even as your eyes raked over his body unashamedly. âI donât completely hate you, brat. You just piss me off a lot of the time. So, whatâs wrong?â
Gazing at the bulge in his trousers, you realised you needed to stop being so thirsty and reply. âI donât want to talk about it.â Why did you say that? Why was that the thing that came out of your mouth?
âFunny, because you seem to always want to talk,â Seungmin snickered, one hand tight on the steering wheel. His other arm rested on the armrest, looking the epitome of comfort and relaxation while you felt like you were dying. His remark made you burn with anger. How dare he? You donât even talk that much, really. âI mean, canât really get you to stop talking, so-â
âShut up!â You shrieked. âYou wanna know whatâs wrong? You. Youâve been pissing me off so much lately, Seungmin. First, itâs the baseball uniform. Like, do the trousers have to be that tight?! Then, you stop me kissing Chan, and make me like, reconsider our whole dynamic for a hot second. Oh, and then, you kiss Dahyun, and that just- that just made me feel all weird. I didnât like it, I felt weird.â
It was silent for a beat. Another beat passed, and Seungmin was brushing his tongue over his teeth in silent thought. Then, he was pulling into a layby on the side of the quiet road you were driving down, and he unbuckled his seatbelt. The engine switched off and Seungmin turned to you, eyes gazing directly into yours.
âFeel weird how?â He questioned. You scoffed.
âWhat do you mean?â
âHow did it feel weird, brat? You felt confused, maybe a bit sick, awkward even? Upset?â All the emotions Seungmin was quick firing at you had you nodding. You had felt all of those things. Then, all of a sudden, Seungmin was lunging towards you and pressing his plump lips against yours. You gasped, hands going to his broad shoulders. When you felt the material of his baseball jersey, you realised you kind of didnât want to pull away, and you brushed your lips against his in a response to his movement.
When a second passed, Seungminâs tongue was pressing into your mouth with fervour, one large hand going to the back of your head to keep you in place. You whimpered into the kiss, your tongue dancing against his and your fingernails digging into his shoulders. When Seungmin eventually pulled away, you chased his lips subconsciously, pouting when he just stared at you.Â
âHow did that feel?â
âSeungmin-â
âHow did that feel, brat? Fucking answer me,â His thumb swiped across your bottom lip, slick with spit from his filthy kiss. You moved to encase his thumb in your mouth, keeping eye contact as your tongue swirled around it.Â
Letting his tongue drop out of your mouth, you undid your seatbelt, moving closer to the figure next to you. âFelt good.â
Seungmin hummed, hands moving to grab your hips. He effortlessly lifted you onto his lap, your core settled right on top of the bulge in his fucking baseball trousers. You squirmed, hands moving to brush his hair out of his face. It was a strangely intimate moment, your fingers in his hair. âIt feels good because we like each other.â
âMm, no. Not possible,â You insist. Seungminâs lips turned up into a smile, his eyebrow raised. âWe bicker all the time, and-â
âAnd you got just so pissed at me kissing Dahyun, just like I lost it over you kissing Chan. I saw you staring at my ass in my game, and in all honesty, Iâm staring at your thighs in that dress right now.âÂ
You look down at your thighs. They were spread immodestly, plush flesh slung over Seungminâs thinner legs. Your dress had ridden up with your movement, and your core was barely covered by a strip of black lace that you referred to as underwear. It could barely be considered as underwear. Turning your attention back to Seungmin, you saw him still staring at your thighs, a hungry look in his eyes.Â
âBut- we argue all the time. You boil my blood, to be honest,â You admit, feeling a bit sheepish sitting on top of him like that. Seungmin let out a small laugh, hands moving to brush up and down your thighs. The feeling of his warm hands on your bare skin made you sigh, inching closer for more touch.Â
âYou piss me off too. You piss me off so much, I want to fuck you until youâre screaming my name and crying. Is that fucked up?â Seungmin spoke, licking his lips. His attention went up to your own lips, to which you were nervously biting your bottom one. âI liked you when you were shy and quiet and you barely spoke. When you became stubborn, and outspoken, I liked you even more. It made me want to fuck you into submission, brat.â
You could literally feel yourself getting wet. Fuck you into submission? Now that sounded fucking amazing. You werenât surprised he had the exact same sexual interests as you. You were a brat through and through. Itâs where the nickname came from, after all.Â
âFuck me then,â You kissed his lips chastely, feeling him groan deeply into your mouth. He entertained you for a few seconds, a filthy swap of spit and tongue before he was pulling away. Your chest heaved, fingers digging into his shoulders once again. âFuck me. Please, Iâll beg! I donât care, just-â
âShut the fuck up, brat,â Seungmin admonished. Your mouth instantly clenched shut in reaction, toes curling in your shoes. He threw his head back, eyes shut as if he was trying to control himself. He was just as affected as you. After a moment passed, he looked back at you, eyes still just as dark. âIâm not fucking you in Sieunâs car. Iâll take you home and fuck you nice and full in my bed. Does that sound good?â
You found yourself nodding, and Seungmin let you reposition yourself back in the passenger seat. You had never felt more excited in your life. Except, when he tried to start the ignition with the key, the car spluttered a few times and then stopped altogether. You blinked at the car. Seungmin took in a sharp inhale of air. He tried to turn the key again, and the car rocked as if in protest, but didnât start. It was dead.
âOkay, fuck me in the car then?â You questioned, turning to face Seungmin again. You saw him almost laugh, lips curling, before he was shaking his head at you.Â
âI like you too much to treat you like that.â
âSeungmin, you treat me badly everyday. Itâs our whole thing.â
âWell, yeah, but youâre my girl now. Itâs different. Weâre still going to bicker like mad, but Iâm not having our first time be in a fucking car. Especially not one owned by my sister,â Seungmin sighed, long fingers reaching into his pocket. He clicked a few buttons before he landed on Chanâs contact. It didnât even ring once before Chan picked up. âHey, old man. So, weâre stuck in Sieunâs car, itâs finally died. No, Iâm not with Sieun. Yes, Iâm with her. Chan, can you stop asking questions and just come and save us?â
Your chest was still heaving when you heard rushed murmurs. His girl? Heâd called you his girl, and surprisingly⊠you werenât all that mad about it. He was sexy, and he was rude. But wasnât that your type anyway? Taller than you, stoic, bitchy and could actually fuck you good. The last statement was something you had no doubt about, the way heâd effortlessly moved you onto his lap like that⊠you were squirming in your seat just thinking about it, clenching your thighs together. You didnât even hear the click of the phone when Seungmin hung up, still focused on trying to get some friction on your core.
âStop being a brat,â Seungmin demanded. You pouted, turning to him, to which he met your gaze with a steely glare. âIâm sure you can wait until we get home. Chanâs on his way.â How fucked up is it that even though heâs still being mean, heâs just making you like him more?
It wasnât long before Chanâs sleek black car pulled up in front of Sieunâs. Luckily, youâd parked on a housing street where not many cars passed, so itâd be alright for Sieunâs car to stay there until the morning. Seungmin was instantly unbuckled and out of the car, baseball uniform tight on his legs as he walked over to your side. When you got out of the car, you expected him to walk away from the car straight away, but he had his arm around your waist tightly as if he was escorting you to the other vehicle. You even saw Chanâs confused expression in the driverâs seat.Â
Chan only looked more confused when Seungmin followed you into the backseat and sat next to you, leaving no space. âUhm, so. Back to yours then, Seungmin? We can sort the car tomorrow.â
âYeah,â Seungmin agreed, quiet as his warm hand went to rest on your thigh. Subconsciously, your legs spread to allow him access, and you heard him sigh next to you. Chan started the engine, speeding off down the road. He seemed on edge, turning the radio up loud.Â
You stared at the rearview mirror, seeing Chan focusing on the expanse of road in front of him. With one of your boldest ever moves, you grabbed Seungminâs hand, placing it on the front of your panties where you were soaking through the lace. Seungmin leaned in close, lips brushing against your ear.Â
âYou want me to finger you while he drives us home? Thatâs dirty, pup,â Seungmin murmurs. You let out a shaky breath, head rolling onto his shoulder. âMaybe I shouldnât. Youâre too desperate, I donât think youâve worked for it yet. Letâs make out a little, howâs that?â
You nod eagerly, fingers moving to grasp on his biceps. âYeah- I need something, Seungmin. I think Iâm going to die, youâre so hot in that fucking uniform, I-â
âYouâre filth,â Seungmin groaned. âFucking- câmere.â His hand went to the back of your head, yanking your hair back before his lips were pressed against yours.
His tongue pressed his spit into your mouth in the most sexual kiss youâd ever had, and you let out a soft sigh at the feeling. His lips were so soft, so plump against yours and it weirdly just felt right - you liked him a little more when he was kissing you until you were breathless over when he would make fun of you.Â
âOkay!â Youâd forgotten Chan was even there until his hands clapped together. You both turned to look at him, your lips kiss-bitten and swollen. You were outside Seungminâs house. When did you even get there? You blinked, staring at Chan. He gave you a wide smile. âIâm so glad you guys have worked things out, but I really donât want my car soiled. Please go home.â
âThanks for the lift, old man.â Seungmin was dragging you out of the car by your wrist, all the way up the driveway and into the house. Before you knew it, he was taking you up the stairs, too, and you were standing in front of his door.
Seungminâs bedroom door. You couldnât remember the last time youâd even been inside. It used to be littered with figurines and music paraphernalia, and you had no idea what it would look like now. When Seungmin pushed open the door, it looked a lot cleaner and less immature, pristine grey sheets tucked into the corners like a hotel room and only a few baseball items littered around.Â
He turned to you, pressing a peck to your lips. âAre you sure you want to fuck me? I have to warn you beforehand, I can get a littleâŠâ
âMean?â You giggle. Seungmin nods, a smile on his lips. âI like mean. I thought I made that obvious.âÂ
âAnd I like bratty girls who need to be hurt until they cry. Are you a little painslut, brat?â You nod at his words. You couldnât think of anything better, molten hot need rushing through you at the mere idea. âGood. Get naked for me and lay on my bed.â
Scurrying over to his bed, you just couldnât believe you were actually about to do this. You were about to fuck the guy who you absolutely hated a month ago. You wouldâve never dreamed of this - but now, it had you thinking. All of the bickering, all of the pissing each other off - had you just been trying to wind each other up for a specific response? Had you been doing it to get his attention? The thought hurt your brain, but you knew one thing. You wanted to fuck Kim Seungmin so fucking bad, and fuck whatever happened afterwards.
The fabric of your dress dropped to the floor once youâd unzipped it, the fabric pooling at your feet. You kicked it away, leaving yourself braless with just underwear on. Seungminâs eyes trailed down your body, humming when you settled back against his sheets.Â
Thatâs all he did for a while. He just looked at you, taking your full appearance in with wandering, claiming eyes. You found yourself meeting his gaze when he looked at your face. His trousers were even tighter than before, a long, hard erection pressing against the fabric. Letting your palms wander up your tummy, a delicate, grazing touch that made you squirm, you landed on your chest and tugged on your nipples.
âAre you gonna fuck me now, Seungie?â The nickname dropped from your mouth before you could even process it. Seungmin scoffed, before he was pulling his jersey off with haste. It left him bare, exposing soft, milky planes of skin to your eyes. His body was lean yet toned, looking like the muscles would ripple under your fingers but feel so velvety at the same time. It was the perfect representation of his personality.Â
He was on the bed quicker than youâd expected, lunging towards you like a primal animal stalking its prey. You gazed up at him when his movement landed him above you, your legs spread around his hips. All that was heard throughout the room were deep breaths when his bulge situated against you through your underwear, the puffs of air spanning across your skin where he leaned above you.Â
âShould I fuck you?â He mumbled. You nodded slowly, letting your hips roll up against his. Seungmin licked his lips in response, hands going to pin your hips down. âTell me what you like.â
You whimpered when his lips went to your neck, sucking on a spot underneath your jaw that felt so, so sensitive. âI like... Rough. Pain. I like it rough, I like being treated like Iâm beneath you, but then- God, Seungie- you need to- I need to cum, when we fuck. Please?â
âMen donât make you cum often, brat?â You shook your head, whining again when he sucked a hickey into your collarbone sharply. âThatâs a pity. I bet you look so fucking beautiful when you cum, so desperate. I think Iâll let you cum.â
âThank you,â You moaned lowly when he trailed his lips further down your body. His lips encaptured one of your nipples, a hard peak so sensitive to his loving tongue. The moonlight shone through his curtains, highlighting the new hairstyle he had and his button nose when he sucked on your breast. As if heâd been building up to it, Seungmin let his teeth bite into your nipple sharply, and you positively squeaked at the sensation.Â
Letting your nipple pop out of his mouth, Seungmin grinned up at you. âGood?â
âMore, more. Please, hurt me, please-â
âHurt you?â He shifted again, looming over you in that dangerous, almost territorial way. âWhat if I slapped you? On your face. Would you like me to make that pretty face red?â
You gasped, eyes rolling back at the mere idea. He ground his bulge into you, waiting for your answer. âI- I love that, please, Seungmin, slap me. Oh my God, please, I think Iâm gonna die-âÂ
You were cut off with a harsh smack to your cheek. Your head rolled, gasping in the aftermath of the pain. It shouldâve put you off, it shouldâve hurt too much, it shouldâve made you question if he really liked you - but all you could think was again, please. Thatâs all you could say, too, begging him to slap you again.Â
âFucking filthy brat,â He grumbled, hand swinging again to slap you across the face. When your head tried to roll to the side again, he gripped your cheeks with his thumb and finger. You whined incoherently when he looked down at you, squishing your cheeks, until he was letting spit dribble into your mouth. âMine.â
âYours,â You nod, agreeing, and Seungmin groans at the sound of you saying it. You heard the rustling of fabrics, the moving of bedsheets and then his cockhead was positioned at your sopping wet hole, panties pulled to the side. You tried to buck your hips into it, trying to catch his cockhead and lure him inside, but his grip pushed you back down.Â
âTell me again. Youâre mine, yeah? No more kissing Chan,â Seungmin rubbed the leaking tip against your hole, making you attempt not to squirm again. âNo more arguing with anyone that isnât me, brat. Iâm your punching bag, yeah? You take all your anger out on me and Iâll fuck you nice and hard afterwards, hurt you the way you like. Thatâs what youâve always done it for, right?â
Your brain was fuzzy. Yes, thatâs what youâd always done it for. You had always done it to get a rise out of him, and now that you were being put in your place, it made you feel like you were running a hundred miles an hour through a sandstorm.Â
âYes, âm yours, Seungie, please, can I have it? Need it,â You whine, head thrown back against his soft pillows. Seungmin coos at you condescendingly.Â
âDo you? But what about prep, brat? Itâll hurt otherwise, wonât it?â Despite his words, heâs pressing the head of his cock inside of you. The stretch was blinding, making your toes curl and hands dig into the pillows.Â
âI- I want it to hurt.â
âOf course you do,â Seungmin sneers, before heâs pushing his whole cock inside you at once. Itâs long, pressing against your cervix as he bottoms out and your eyebrows furrow, jaw dropping in a silent moan. âThat pussyâs so wet, fuck. I turn you on that much?â
âIt turns me on to argue with you, turns me on when youâre mean- fucking, Seungmin, please, move,â You were admitting something you hadnât quite admitted to yourself just yet, but when Seungmin started to snap his hips against yours, your brain went clear of all thoughts. âAh, oh my fuck- fuck, fuck, fuck- hnng-â
ââS good? Youâre taking me so well, pretty little brat, you want a reward?â You nodded at his words, but you werenât braced for his hand smacking your cheek once again. You reeled, eyes feeling blurry as his hips picked up the pace. He was breathing heavily on your cheek, warm breath fanning over even warmer skin. âWas that good? You want more?â
âPlease, Seungie, please, more, slap me again, harder,â He slapped your opposite cheek this time, a welcome relief from your reddened cheek. The problem was that when his hand collided with your skin, you felt yourself seize up and - oh. You were cumming. âAh-â
âFuck, are you cumming that quick? Youâre so fucking filthy, pup,â Seungmin groaned, his cock still bullying into your hole. With his pace not slowing, you couldnât ride out the orgasm properly, and it was just one constant blissful experience. Your eyes rolled back into your head, toes curling with pleasure. âCumming from me slapping your pretty little face. Dirty fucking bitch.â
âSeungie- I canât, I canât take it, please slow down!â You were squealing at that point, fingers digging into the pillows.Â
âI donât think you want me to, do you?â
He was so right. You shook your head, whining out again when he pulled out. Your hole fluttered around nothing, clit still swollen with arousal. Your slick had dripped all the way down to his pristine sheets, tarnishing his once neat room. Seungmin was quick to spin you around, putting you on your tummy with your ass just slightly raised for him.Â
Within a brief moment, he was pushing inside of you again. His cock was still wet with your arousal, and your back arched when he bottomed out inside of you for the second time. Seungmin gripped your hair, making your back permanently arched for him. His lips attached to your neck, blonde highlighted hair draping onto your skin.Â
ââS good, so good,â You babbled, trying to push your ass back onto him. Seungmin allowed it this time, his hand moving from your hair to your neck. He squeezed the sides expertly and you whimpered, hands moving to grab his wrist.Â
âYou like that, donât you? Iâm meant to be your enemy, you dirty bitch, and look at you,â He was chuckling mirthlessly, grinning when you kept babbling. âI guess you like my cock too much. Dumb fucking slut, all I have to do is fill you up and youâre nice and sweet for me.â
âB-Bet you wish youâd done it sooner,â You quip, which wouldâve been much more impressive if you hadnât stuttered it out. âWouldâve shut up for you and been a good girl a long time ago.â
Seungmin hummed. âI think I like you bitchy, brat.â
âI jusâ like you,â You slurred, feeling Seungminâs pace slow. Heâd resorted to a slow, deep grind that had you feeling every inch and every vein on his cock. You could hear him snickering in your ear, and he pressed a cute little kiss to your neck. His free hand went down to your clit, rubbing precise, firm circles against the swollen button.
âThink you can ride me, or are you too cock drunk?â Seungmin hummed. You shook your head rapidly.
âI- too much, canât-â
âAlright, brat, let me fuck you some more then. I need to cum in this pussy, yeah?â Seungmin was laughing again, and all of a sudden, heâd let go of your neck. You were immediately face planted into the pillows and Seungmin gripped onto your ass, thrusting into you quicker this time. You whined, trying to push back onto him, but he smacked your asscheek in admonishment. Letting your hips shift slightly to allow your hand to meet your clit, you picked up where Seungmin left off with the tight circles. It made the pool of arousal in your tummy clench, and you vaguely realised you were going to cum again.Â
âSeungie, please- I want cum, want cum, with me, please-â
âWant me to cum inside you, brat? While you cum around my cock? Thatâs dirty, pup,â His voice faltered when his hands gripped onto your asscheeks harder, spreading them to see where his cock was entering you over and over. You knew you were soaking, you could feel it - and the wet glide of his length inside of you felt fucking delectable. You recognised no one had fucked you like this before, letting you cum over and over on their cock like this while they held back their own orgasm, and it made your head dizzy. Youâd have to come back to Seungmin for more, you thought, and you didnât hate the thought at all.Â
The bed rocking suddenly caught your attention, and you whimpered, trying to alert Seungmin of the noise. The last thing you needed was his parents hearing you get your back blown out by their son, who you claimed to hate. You reached back, trying to grab his arm, but he was groaning loudly, cockhead hitting your g-spot with every thrust.
âSeungie, âs too loud, the bed,â You managed to get out, drooling on his pillows. Seungmin let out a loud groan before he was pulling you back onto him, forcing you to fuck back onto his cock.
âAnd? I donât care. Pussyâs so fucking good, gonna make me blow, shit,â Seungmin mumbled. âYou ready for my cum, brat?â
âYeah, want it, please, please Seungie, fill me up, breed me!â
âBreed you? You want me to breed this pussy, dirty pup?â He bit your neck sharply, making you keen. You nodded erratically at his words. You couldnât think of anything better than him filling you up with his cum. âCum with me. Flood my cock.â
His hand came down on your ass again, and as you felt his hips stall, an unfamiliar warmth filling up your pussy, you let go around him. Your pussy fluttered with delight - probably also confusion, because oh my God, you were cumming twice? With someone else?
It felt messy, juices gliding everywhere as he just rocked his hips a little to ride out your orgasms, and then you were left to fall flat on the bed. He pulled his softening cock out, sighing when your pussy oozed out his cum onto his sheets. He didnât seem to care about his bed, much more entranced with the sight of your hole gaping after him.Â
Heâd fucked you so good your pussy was going to remember the shape of his cock forever. That was for sure.
You let yourself drift, brain going blurry until you felt a cloth wiping between your legs. It was cold, slightly wet as it rubbed over your swollen folds, and you whimpered, trying to shift away from the touch.
âStay still, brat. âM just cleaning you up.â You nodded, face still buried in the sheets. It was then that Seungmin finally pulled your panties down, chucking them to the floor and pulling a pair of basketball shorts up your trembling legs. Were they⊠his? Heâd put you in his clothes? Bizarre. You didnât even react when he spun you over, pulling a baggy t-shirt over your upper body. Heâd gotten fully dressed in a plaid pyjama set, baffling you. When had he done that?
You were moved again, positioned on a very firm chest and a bottle of water pressed to your raw lips. You glugged it down thankfully, blinking up at Seungmin. His hair was mussed, but pushed back with a cute Pochacco headband. Wow. He was actually cute.Â
There was a beat of silence, then Seungmin spoke. His hand was tracing your scalp, running his fingernails over it. âI meant what I said. Youâre my girl. I think you always have been.â
You scoffed. âYours?! Iâm not a possession, Seungmin-â
Seungmin kissed you softly, giggling when you still tried to yell. Had he always reacted this amused when you bitched at him? You realised that⊠yeah, he had. It really did entertain him. âYouâre so cute when you have a go at me like that, you know? Such a brat.â
You twiddled your thumbs together when he pulled away from the kiss, staring at the bottoms of his plaid pyjamas shyly. âSo⊠you wanna be like, together? Since youâre hot, and all.â
Seungmin chuckled again, pulling you closer to his chest. âAs long as you never ever stop bitching at me.â
âI donât think I could stop even if I wanted to.â
âI like you that way, brat.â
END.Â
ËÊâĄÉË
EPILOGUE
Sieun stared at you upon your arrival to breakfast. Her parents were preoccupied in the living room, and her eyes settled directly on your neck. You knew that your neck was littered with bite marks, hickies galore, but youâd tried your best to hide it.
âListen, Iâm so happy for you,â She began, hand clasped tightly around her mug. âI know I always ask you for details of sexual escapades, but I kind of donât need to know about how good my brother is in bed.â
âOh, yeah, for sure,â You nod, agreeing. âBut he does know where the-â
âStop!â
A mug of coffee is placed in your hands, made just the way you like it. The steaming liquid is a welcome warmth, as is the kiss that Seungmin presses to your cheek. You blush, staring up at him when he wraps his arms around your waist.
âGood morning, brat.â
pairing: jungkook x reader genre: dark romance, psychological thriller, soft yandere
summary: Jeon Jungkook was once just a foreign high school friend until he disappeared without a word after graduation. Years later, he came back, not just to reconnect, but to claim a place in your life as your lover. To everyone else, your relationship is something out of a fairytale, the kind others envy. And for a while, you believed it too until the mask he wore began to slip, revealing a side of him you never saw coming.
warnings: emotional and psychological manipulation, control and possessiveness, obsession, anxiety and mild distress, isolation and coercion, themes of entrapment, smut wc: 20k
parts: (1) | (2)
Your friends haven't noticed yet because they're facing the other way.
âY/N,â he calls, his voice cutting through the night.
Your friends turn.
âYou werenât answering your phone again.â His tone is eerily neutral. âWe have to go home. Now.â
You step forward instinctively, but Mina blocks you.
âNo,â she says firmly. âSheâs not going with you.â
Jungkookâs gaze flicks to her, his brow arching, lips pressing into a tight line. He stares at her for a long moment before turning back to you.
âY/N?â
Henry, oblivious to the growing tension, chimes in. âMan, Y/N might stay the night. Chloe booked a room for us since sheâs leaving Monday.â
But you wish he hadnât said that.
Jungkook shifts his gaze to Henry, his jaw tightening. He doesnât say anything right away, just studies him.
âHenry, right?â Jungkookâs voice is smooth as he twitch is lips. âI havenât formally met you. I only ever see you when Iâm picking Y/N up.â He tilts his head slightly, eyes locked onto him. âHow have you been? Last time I heard a news from you is when you were smuggling cocaine into campus during high school.â
Your stomach drops.
Henryâs eyes widen. âWhat the fuck are you talking about?â
âOh,â Jungkook smirks. âThey didnât know? How is that possible, considering theyâre your friends?â
âJungkook, letâs go.â You reach for him, desperate to diffuse whatever the hell this is.
But Mina steps in again, eyes burning.
âY/N, youâre staying,â she says. âWe already talked about this.â
You ignore Mina and head straight for Jungkook, needing to escape the tension pressing down on you. The longer you stay, the harder it gets to breathe.
Your friends react. Voices overlapping behind you but you donât look back. Your focus is locked on Jungkook, searching his face, trying to figure out what heâs thinking.
Without hesitation, you reach for his hand, ready to pull him away with you. But before you can, his grip tightens, stopping you in your tracks.
You glance up, and thatâs when you see it. Heâs smiling.
âItâs okay, love,â he says smoothly, pulling you closer, his eyes flickering toward your friends. âYou can stay the night.â
Your stomach twists. âNo, we can go nowââ
âYou can stay,â he repeats, his voice calm, too calm. âItâs Chloeâs last night. I get it now. Go ahead, have fun. Iâll wait for you at home tomorrow.â
âButââ
You hesitate, trying to explain, to tell him thereâs no need, that youâll just leave with him. But before you can get the words out, he cuts you off.
âYou will stay.â He said firmly. The smile doesnât waver, but you know better. You know he doesnât like this.
âIâll see you tomorrow. I love you.â
He leans in, pressing a quick kiss to your lips. Before you can say anything else, he turns and walks away, leaving you standing there, your pulse hammering in your ears.
Your friends didnât like what happened. They didnât like how the situation turned out. But if they thought they were the only ones pissed about it, they were dead wrong. Because out of everyone who hated what just happened, no one despised it more than you.
Shame burned through you. The way you broke down in front of them, the way Jungkook showed up and, without a second thought, you fell right into line. How easily you let him take control. And worst of all, you ruined Chloeâs night.
Pathetic.
You fucking hated every second of it, and the last thing you wanted was to face them now. If the earth could open up and swallow you whole, youâd gladly let it.
But they didnât let you go.
They didnât let you walk away, didnât let you brush this off and deal with it alone. Were they disappointed? Yeah. But they didnât leave. They stayed.
And as much as you wanted to leave because of Jungkook, because you knew he wouldnât like this, you realized something else. Maybe it was a good thing he âletâ you stay. Because you needed this. More than you even knew.
Youâd been so wrapped up in him, so caught in the push and pull of his world, that you forgot what it felt like to just be with your friends. The people who had always been there, long before he ever stepped into the picture.
It hit you then, how much of yourself youâd been losing. How, somewhere along the way, your world had started revolving around him.
But tonight, even just for a little while, you were free.
The party was still on-going, but your friends were done. Without much debate, they decided to head back to the hotel Chloe had booked. You felt bad and offered to stay, but they werenât having it. They just wanted to get out of there and honestly, so did you.
You already knew what was coming once you got to the hotel. This wasnât just about tonight. They wanted to know everything. About Jungkook, about the way your life had changed since you started dating him.
And the moment you started talking, it all clicked.
You knew he was controlling. Deep down, you always knew. But youâd convinced yourself it wasnât that bad. That it was just love. Just care. But standing here, hearing your own words spill out, you realized how much of yourself youâd let slip through his fingers.
Every choice, big or small, it had all been him. And you? You just went along with it.
Chloe, sitting cross-legged on the bed, hugs a pillow to her chest. Her voice is gentle, but thereâs frustration laced in it.
âWe get that you love him,â she says, watching you carefully. âBut you know youâre being manipulated. So why arenât you doing anything about it?â
âBecause sheâs blinded by love, Chloe. That explains everything,â Mina says, taking a swig of the beer they snuck out from the club.
âItâs not just that.â Henry leans forward, grabbing a bottle from the table. âSheâs not just ignoring the red flags, sheâs doing whatever he wants because she doesnât want to start a fight. Itâs easier to just go along with it than deal with the fallout. Itâs not always because sheâs blinded by love, but sheâs being manipulated.â
Mina shoots him a look. âWow, you talk like you werenât smuggling cocaine in high school.â
Henry groans, flipping her off. âFor the last time, I was broke, okay? I needed cash, and it was a quick way to make money.â
Mina snorts. âYeah, yeah. I just canât believe you were out there selling coke to Jungkook of all people.â
You lean back against the bed, half-listening to them bicker, half-lost in thought. Itâs been a while since youâve hung out like this, probably since before Jungkook.
Itâs crazy how much your life has changed since him. The good, the bad⊠and everything in between.
Chloe, whoâs been quiet, finally speaks up. âBabe,â she says gently, turning to you. âI get that you love him. But if being with him is messing with your head, thatâs not love. Thatâs control. And if you keep letting it slide, itâs only gonna get worse.â
She holds your gaze, voice softer now. âLove is supposed to make you happy. Not suffocate you.â
Now that youâre actually aware of whatâs going on between you and Jungkook, you have no clue how to deal with it. Do you bring it up? Do you let it slide? Do you even want to address it at all?
Your friends make it sound so simple. Just talk to him, stand your ground, donât let him control you. Or worse, break up with him. But the moment you even consider doing any of that, your mind shuts down. The thought alone makes you want to retreat. What if it makes things worse? What if he gets distant? What if you regret it?
Youâre not the type to challenge Jungkook, not when you know how he reacts. He never outright shuts you down, but his silence, his coldness. Itâs enough to make you second-guess yourself. So, most of the time, you just let things slide. Itâs easier that way.
Still, a part of you was waiting for him to call or text last night. He didnât. And now, youâre torn between reaching out first or pretending like it doesnât bother you. Either way, the weight in your chest hasnât lifted.
And now, itâs morning. Time to face him. And if youâre being honest, youâre nowhere near ready.
But thereâs no avoiding it. No matter how much time youâve had to think about what to say or how to say it, youâll never be fully prepared.
Your friends dropped you off at your own apartment, unaware that you had no intention of staying. You didnât want them to know you were going back to Jungkook. Maybe because you didnât want to hear their protests. Or maybe because, deep down, you werenât ready to admit to them or yourself that you still couldnât walk away.
Stepping inside, youâre greeted by the same apartment, the same furniture, the same neatly arranged belongings. But it doesnât feel like home anymore. It hasnât been for a while.
Itâs past nine in the morning. You donât know what time Jungkook expects you back, but you do know he expected you to leave with him last night. Thatâs enough to make your stomach twist.
You sink into the couch, staring at nothing, lost in the spiral of your own thoughts. Flashes of last night replay in your mind. The way your friends looked at you, their words, their concern. And then, memories of Jungkook resurface the good ones, the ones that make it so damn hard to leave.
The idea of walking away terrifies you.
You love him. More than you probably should. More than what might be good for you. And even if this isnât sustainable, even if a part of you knows something has to change⊠youâre not ready.
Not yet.
You lost track of time until his message popped up:
âI cooked lunch.â
Thatâs it. No questions, no extra words. Just a statement.
As you walk through the lobby of his apartment building, your pulse quickens, your hands trembling slightly at your sides. You tell yourself to calm down, but the closer you get, the harder it is to breathe. You wish you could put this off a little longer, but you canât.
Your fingers shake as you punch in his door code. You hear your own heartbeat pounding in your ears.
And then, without thinking, you step inside.
The apartment is filled with natural light, curtains drawn open to welcome the crisp autumn air. Itâs colder now, the season shifting.
Heâs at his desk in the living room, focused on his laptop. The moment he notices you, his face lights up. He gets up instantly, closing the distance between you in a few strides, wrapping you in a warm hug, pressing soft kisses to your temple.
âYouâre finally home. You should eat. I made beer-battered fish.â
His voice is light, casual, like nothing happened last night.
You hesitate for a second before answering. "Okay."
It comes out flat, almost lifeless.
You walk toward the dining table, already set with plates and food, and sit down. You expect him to follow, to sit across from you like usual.
But he doesnât.
And somehow, that makes you even more nervous.
Youâre not hungry. Even if you were, you wouldnât have the appetite for this. But you force yourself to finish the food he made anyway, each bite sitting heavy in your stomach. Itâs not the taste, itâs the way your nerves are twisting into knots, making you feel like you might be sick.
He doesnât come in while you eat. The silence in the apartment is suffocating, pressing in on you like a weight you canât shake off.
When youâre done, you get up and head toward the bedroom to change, passing through the living room where he still sits. He doesnât look at you, doesnât say a word, like youâre not even there.
Itâs driving you insane.
A while ago, he seemed fine. Now, he feels like a ticking bomb.
Youâd rather he just say something, anything than sit there like this. You know his cold treatment too well; itâs his way of controlling the situation, making you come to him first. But this time, something about it feels different.
You donât know how. You just know it does.
Youâve already showered, organized your closet, done everything you could think of to keep yourself busy. And yet, the apartment feels empty. Or rather, he feels absent.
Maybe heâs just busy.
But you know better.
Steeling yourself, you step out of the bedroom and head toward the dining area. You donât even make it halfway before you hear it, his scoff, sharp and pointed.
âSo youâre really gonna act like nothing happened, huh?â
There it is.
You turn to see him standing up from his chair, arms crossed, leaning casually against the kitchenâs pass-through window. His expression is unreadable, but his tone drips with sarcasm.
âYouâre not even gonna explain last night?â His lips twitch as he watches you, waiting.
You hesitate, then exhale. âNothing happened. They just wanted me to stay. Thatâs it.â
You keep it short, simple. The less you say, the better. Or at least, thatâs what you tell yourself.
But even now, you canât believe how hard youâre trying to avoid this.
Jungkook shifts, hands slipping into his pockets as he steps toward you. His face is neutral, unreadable, but his presence alone makes your pulse spike.
When heâs finally in front of you, he leans in just enough, his gaze locked onto yours, dark and unwavering.
Then, in a low whisper, he saysâ
âWhy do you make me feel so stupid?â
âNo, Iâm not!â you snap, voice shaking with frustration. âThatâs really what happened! They found out I wasnât staying the night because you didnât let me.â You take a step back, putting distance between you.
His brow arches, his expression unreadable. âSo youâre blaming me now?â
âItâs not like that,â you grit out. âI told you Iâd come home with you, right? But instead, you made me stay.â Your patience is wearing thin, your hands balling into fists at your sides.
Jungkook scoffs, his jaw tightening. âBecause thatâs what you wanted to happen.â His voice drop dangerously low. âYou didnât even pick up your fucking phone. You didnât give a damn that I was losing my mind, calling you hundreds of times, wondering if something happened to you.â
Your breath catches. Heâs right. You didnât answer. You couldnât because your phone was buried somewhere in your bag. But that doesnât mean you wanted to ignore him.
Jungkook shakes his head, his gaze piercing through you. âYou love doing this, donât you? Running off, not answering your fucking phone, making me go insane thinking something happened to you.â His voice is like fire, burning through the tension between you.
A sharp pang of guilt twists in your chest. You canât deny heâs right, but itâs not like you did it on purpose. It was an honest mistake.
âIâm sorry, okay?â you say, exhaling shakily. âI didnât mean to leave my phone behind. They justââ you pause, searching for the right words, âthey cornered me, forced me to stay because they were upset that I kept ditching them.â Your voice softens, hoping to ease the tension. âOf course, I wanted to stay. Itâs Chloeâs last night before she leaves.â
But Jungkook doesnât ease up. If anything, he looks even more pissed. His eyes darken, his lips curling into something bitter.
âOh, right,â he drawls. âWhy donât you just do what you did before? Go out with them without telling me.â
The accusation hits you like a slap. You blink, momentarily stunned.
He catches it immediately, his smirk sharpening. âDonât act like you donât know what Iâm talking about, Y/N,â he says, voice low and edged with something dangerous. âWe both know you do.â
Heâs right but it was one time. Just once. And you never did it again.
âAnd did I ever confront you after you did that?â His voice is steady, but thereâs an edge to it. âI didnât. And now you wanna question why I donât like you hanging out with them so much?â He lets out a cold laugh, shaking his head. âBecause I know youâd pick them over me.â
âWhat are you saying? Thatâs not true!â You shake your head, frustration bubbling up as you take a step closer, reaching for him.
But before you can even touch his arm, he moves away. Fast and deliberate.
"You all act like Iâm the fucking villain just because I care about you," he spits, his voice shaking with frustration. "But you never question them, do you? You never doubt your precious friends. Henry did illegal shit before, and you didnât even fucking flinch. I just donât get it⊠Why is it so easy for you to doubt me, but youâd defend them in a heartbeat?"
A lump forms in your throat as you watch the single tear slide down his face. Your body instinctively moves, but something inside you hesitates.
And with that, you see yourself all over him. Â
"Love, stopâplease.â Your hands tremble as they reach for him, but he turns away. âI⊠I donât want you to feel that way. I never meant to make you think that.â Your voice breaks, a lump forming in your throat. âYou have to believe me.â
You try to reach him hoping he wonât flinch. Your hands find his face, fingers tracing the sharp lines of his jaw as you gently wipe away the tears, your voice softening. âI donât think youâre wrong. I donât blame you. Please donât believe that.â
He stays silent, letting you wipe his tears, his breathing uneven, his jaw tense. His eyes stay downcast, refusing to meet yours. But when he finally looks up, something in them is cold and distant.
His hands come up, gently wrapping around yours as they rest on his cheeks, but instead of leaning into your touch, he slowly peels them away. His warmth disappears as he steps back, putting space between you.
"I think⊠itâs better if we take a break," he murmurs, his voice barely above a whisper, yet it cuts through the thick air between you.
He holds your gaze for a moment, just long enough for your stomach to sink, for your chest to tighten before he turns on his heel and walks away, leaving you standing there, frozen, the ghost of his touch still lingering on your skin.
You stand there, frozen, the weight of the last five minutes pressing down on you like a tidal wave. It happened too fast, so fast that even now, as the seconds drag on, your mind refuses to catch up.
Where did you go wrong?
All you ever wanted was to be happy, but it feels like happiness always comes at a price. Like the universe waits for you to smile just so it can rip something away. What did you do to deserve this?
Is this love? A love that confines you, that forces you to choose?
Love is supposed to set you free, isnât it? But instead, youâre trapped, forced to pick between him and your friends, even when you should be able to have both.
He left. No call, no message, no sign of where he is or if he even cares that youâre falling apart.
That day, you cried harder than you ever had before. You wanted it to stop the exhaustion, the ache in your chest, the way your tears wouldnât stop spilling no matter how much you told yourself to breathe.
Are you really the one at fault? Or are you just trying to convince yourself you are?
Because when you think back, when you trace every argument, every moment that led you here, the path always leads back to you.
Maybe if you had just done what you were supposed to as his girlfriend, this wouldnât have happened.
Maybe he was only trying to protect you, and you mistook it for control.
Maybe... maybe this is all your fault.
You waited for him that night, but the door never opened.
Alone in his cold, empty apartment, you curled up in bed, the silence pressing down on you like a weight you couldnât shake. The room felt lifeless without him, just shadows and stale air, a place that wasnât home without his presence.
When you couldnât take it anymore, you reached for your phone, fingers trembling as you dialed his number. The ringing felt endless, each unanswered call chipping away at the hope you were holding onto. Message after message went unread, each one met with nothing but silence.
With every call he ignored, your chest grew heavier. With every text he didnât even bother to open, your tears only fell harder.
Is this what he felt when you didnât pick up those nights? When your phone sat forgotten in your bag while you laughed with your family and friends, unaware that he was here, alone, drowning in the same silence thatâs now swallowing you whole?
The thought broke you.
You sobbed into the pillow, exhaustion creeping in, but no matter how drained you felt, the tears wouldnât stop.
âLove, Iâm really sorry. I promise to understand you better. Please come back.â
That was the last message you sent before sleep finally took over as your phone slipping from your grasp.
A soft touch brushes your cheek, warm and featherlight. It pulls you from your sleep, but the pounding in your head makes you wish you could slip right back under. Your eyelids feel like they weigh a ton, but when you force them open, the first thing you see is a blurred figure sitting beside you.
Jungkook.
Even though you feel awful, the second you recognize him, you push yourself up, ignoring the ache in your body.
âKook.â Your voice cracks as tears spill down your cheeks. Without thinking, you throw yourself into his arms, gripping him tightly. âWhere have you been? Iâm so sorry.â The words tumble out between sobs, raw and desperate.
He doesnât say anything at first. Instead, he gently pulls away, his expression unreadable as he wipes the tears from your face. His touch is slow, deliberate, his eyes locked onto yours.
You reach up, pressing his hands against your cheeks, needing to feel him, to make sure heâs really here. You have a lot to say, but nothing comes out. His presence alone is overwhelming, so instead, you lean into him again, wrapping your arms around him, seeking comfort in the familiar warmth of his body.
âDid I worry you that much?â His voice is soft, almost teasing, as he pats your back.
You nod, burying your face into his shoulder. âIâm really sorry.âÂ
He pulls back just enough to meet your eyes before leaning in, his lips brushing over yours in a soft, kiss. His kiss is soft at first, teasing, but the second you open up for him, his grip tightens, one hand cupping your face while the other slides down your back, pressing you flush against him. He groans into your mouth, deep and needy.
You could feel the heat radiating off of him and he pressed you back against the bed, his body pinning you in place. Your heart was hammering in your chest, and you couldn't help but arch your head back, giving him even more access to your neck. You let out a small gasp as he began kissing and biting at your collarbone as his mouth continue to explore your body with his mouth.Â
His hand slides lower, fingertips grazing the waistband of your shorts, playing with the fabric but not moving further. His lips ghost over yours, teasing, as he watches the way your chest rises and falls beneath him.
Before things could go any further, he pulled away, resting his forehead against yours. You both stayed like that for a moment, caught in the stillness, before you gently guided his body to lie next to you. You wrapped your arms around him, holding him close. He let out a soft chuckle, but you werenât focused on that. Instead, you rested your head on his chest, your fingers finding his, intertwining them tightly as you settled into the comfort of his presence.
And just like that, everything is back to normal. At least on the surface.
You apologized over and over, making sure he knew you never meant to hurt him. You reassured him that he was right, that everything he did was only for your sake. You didnât push back, and didnât ask questions. Instead, you accepted the blame like it was yours to carry.
He never said sorry. Not even once. Not even for leaving you alone the entire night.
But you let it slide because, in the end, it was your fault⊠wasnât it?
After that, you chose your words carefully, avoiding anything that might set him off again. You never wanted to feel that kind of loneliness again, the kind that settles deep in your bones, creeping through the empty, dark space he left behind.
You had already made him feel that way before. Twice, actually. So who were you to complain?
Yeah, itâs all on me.
You tell yourself that, over and over, until it almost feels true. But somewhere in the back of your mind, a small voice whispers. Is it, though?
Why is it always you taking the blame?
Why does it feel like your feelings donât matter?
Why is it always you bending, apologizing, making things right?
But before those thoughts can settle, you push them away. Itâs easier that way. Easier than starting another fight.
You've come to realize that in this relationship, it's always you who has to bend. And maybe that's fair. After all, every problem you've had somehow traces back to you, doesnât it?
And just like that, everything is back to normal. Just the way you wanted. You've pushed aside all the doubts, all the nagging thoughts, and focused on the present. You're okay again. At least, thatâs what you tell yourself.
The next day, you spend the entire day at his place, filing another leave of absence. You would have gone to work, but with his influence in the company, you didn't really have a choice. He wanted you to stay with him, so he made sure of it, calling in on your behalf. It should bother you. It does bother you. But you let it slide. Another argument isnât worth it.
âLove, Iâve been thinking,â his voice is low, and smooth, as he moves behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist. The warmth of his body presses against yours as he pulls you closer. âWe havenât gone on vacation in a while.â His hold tightens slightly as he nuzzles into your neck, his lips nibbling your skin just enough to make you shiver.
You keep your focus on the pan in front of you, stirring the glossy red sauce of the spicy gochujang dish he once taught you to make.Â
âAnd where do you want to go?â you ask, keeping your voice light, as if this is just another conversation.Â
âI want to take you to my hometown.â His voice is smooth, as his chin settles on your shoulder. His arms stay firmly wrapped around your waist. âYouâve always wanted to see where I grew up, right?â His breath tickles your skin.
âLately, things have been⊠overwhelming,â he continues, his voice softer now. âI think we could use a break. Just the two of us. What do you think?â He tilts his head slightly, eyes watching you closely, waiting.
You donât hesitate. âYes, of course. Iâd love that.â The words leave your lips before you even process them.
He grins, pressing a quick kiss to your temple. âThatâs perfect! Weâll leave this Wednesday. Tomorrow, letâs wrap up a few things before we go.â His tone is light and excited.
You froze.
Wednesday?Â
You glance at him over your shoulder.
âThis Wednesday?â You ask as if you misheard.
He nods, his expression unreadable. âYeah.â Like itâs the most obvious thing in the world.
Something in his voice shifts ever so slightly as he studies your face. âWhy?â He tilts his head, and though his lips curl into a small smile, thereâs something else lurking beneath the surface. âYou donât want to go?â
The way he says it, itâs not a question. Not really. Itâs a warning. A test.
And you already know the right answer.
âN-no⊠Of course, I like it. But isnât this a little⊠sudden?â You try to sound reasonable, careful not to make it seem like youâre pushing back. âKorea is on the other side of the world, love.â
Jungkook tilts his head, watching you with an unreadable expression before raising a brow. âI donât see the problem.â His voice is calm and dismissive.
You take a breath. âI have work.â
At that, he smirks, like you just said the funniest thing. âAnd?â His fingers lazily trace patterns on your arm, his touch light but distracting. âYou can file a vacation leave, right? OrâŠâ He pauses, his eyes locking onto yours. âIf you still want to work, we can set up a work-from-home arrangement.â He says it so easily.Â
His thumb touches your wrist. âYou donât have to worry, love. Even if you resigned tomorrow, youâd still be fine. You have me.â He smiles, pressing a feather-light kiss to your forehead. âI can give you anything you need. Anything you want.â
Your chest tightens, and yet, the words slip from your lips before you can stop them. âOkay.â Because what else are you supposed to say?
âHow long are we staying?â You ask, hoping for a solid timeframe, something to hold onto.
Jungkook shrugs, lips curling into a small smile. âI donât know yet.â His voice is light, almost playful. âBut donât worry, weâll stay as long as you want.â
Something in your gut tells you the choice isnât really yours to make.
Youâre not expecting anything extraordinary from this trip with Jungkook. To you, itâs just a regular vacation. Your first one together, sure, and your first time traveling so far, but still, just a trip. Something to look forward to, a break from everything.
You tell yourself itâs just that. A getaway.
But what you donât know is that Jungkook has plans of his own. Plans you wish you had seen coming. Plans that wonât just shift your view of him but will change your life in ways you never imagined.
If only you had realized it sooner, before it slipped beyond your control.
â
Jungkook loves you to the point of obsession. To the point where the thought of losing you tears at him like an ache that never fades. He already has you, but itâs not enough. Not yet. Because if he doesnât hold on tight, you might slip away.
He tells himself heâs only taking care of you, keeping you safe the way no one else can. But care isnât enough. He needs all of you. Your body, your mind, and your heart trapped so deeply in him that escape isnât an option.
Youâre fast asleep beside him, your head tilted slightly toward him as the plane hums steadily through the air. Jungkook glances at you, his fingers instinctively adjusting your blanket before brushing away a few stray strands of hair from your face.
His chest tightens just looking at you. His heart beating a little too fast, a little too hard. His fingertips trace the curve of your cheek, lingering for a moment, memorizing the warmth of your skin.
He loves you, so much that it gets under his skin. The thought of you slipping away, of someone else touching you, laughing with you, knowing you the way he does, it makes his blood run hot. Itâs possessive, a little unhinged, but he doesnât care because as long as you're his, everything feels right.
He sat there in the dim glow of the cabin lights, watching you. Just watching. Your head rested against the seat behind him, your slow, steady breaths syncing with the quiet hum of the plane. You looked so peaceful, so his.
Jungkookâs fingers twitched, aching to touch you. Carefully, he reached for your hand, his touch featherlight to avoid waking you. His fingers slipped between yours, securing them. He exhaled slowly, lowering himself beside you, his body finally at ease. With your warmth so close, he allowed his eyes to close.
Seoul welcomed you with open arms.
The city was electric, alive in a way that made your eyes shine. Jungkook had seen Seoul a thousand times, but seeing it through you made it feel new. You marveled at the skyline, the pulse of the streets, the way everything felt both familiar and foreign. He loved that look on your face, pure, unfiltered awe.
He wanted to give you a tour, let you soak in every inch of this place, but exhaustion clung to you after the long flight. He wasnât about to let you wear yourself out. You had all the time in the world here.
Jungkookâs Seoul penthouse was larger than the one back home. More luxurious. The moment he led you inside, he saw the way your lips parted, your gaze sweeping across the expansive space. The floor-to-ceiling windows framed the city like a moving painting, streaks of gold and blue reflecting off sleek marble floors. The chandelier overhead cast a warm glow, elegant yet imposing.
Unlike his other penthouse, which leaned toward a more minimalistic style, this one felt fuller, like a place meant to be lived in, not just visited. And now, with you here, it finally felt like home.
Jungkook watched as you moved through the space, your fingertips grazing the polished surfaces, curiosity flickering in your eyes. His stomach tightened. He wanted to freeze this moment, capture the way you looked standing there, fitting so perfectly into his world.
Before he even told you about this trip, he had already made sure everything was perfect. The penthouse, his Seoul home wasnât just renovated. It was transformed. Every detail was designed to make you feel more at home here than anywhere else. More than the other penthouse. More than the place you called home.
Jungkook didnât just want you to love this place. He wanted you to feel like you belonged here. That leaving wasnât even an option.
âKook, I thought I knew how rich you were, but damn, this is way more than I imagined!â you said, swirling the wine in your glass as you lounged on the couch. The city lights stretched out through the massive floor-to-ceiling windows, Seoul alive beneath you.
Jungkook leaned in, taking your free hand in his before pressing a slow kiss to the back of it. But even that wasnât enough. Sitting beside you wasnât enough. He wanted more, needed more. Holding your hand was just a weak substitute for what he really craved.
âThis is where I lived for six years," he murmured, brushing his lips along your knuckles. âSo I wanted it to feel like home.â
Your home.
You tilted your head, watching him with curiosity. âWhere are your parents? Do they live separately from you?â
âTheyâre in Busan,â he answered smoothly, taking a sip of his wine. âThatâs my hometown, but I moved here when I started my business.â
You hummed, nodding. Then, the question came.
âAre we going to meet them?â
Jungkook stilled. His lips remained against your skin, but his movements stopped. He tilted his head slightly, a slow grin spreading across his face as he held your gaze.
âYes,â he said after a moment. âOne of these weeks.â
It wasnât a lie. He had plans for you to meet his family eventually. But not now. Not yet. Right now, he wanted you all to himself, with no distractions, no outside influences. If you met them too soon, they might say things, ask questions, things that could make you think too much.
And he couldnât have that.
Not when everything was falling into place so perfectly.
His parents were good people. Sweet, jolly, loving. Just like yours. And they loved him, he knew that.
But love didnât always mean understanding.
Everything changed when they decided to move him away from you after high school. That was their mistake.
His family used to own a food company. It was doing well, until it wasnât. Bankruptcy hit hard, and they had to pack up and start over in another country, relying on relatives to get back on their feet. Then, years later, some investor showed up, talking big about bringing the company back. His parents ate it up, convinced this was their second chance.
And just like that, they dragged him back to Busan.
For what? A company that was never going to make it? He knew from the start it wouldnât work, and surprise, surprise. It didnât.
But that wasnât even the worst part.
The worst part was being away from you.
That shit messed him up.
The years without you were torture.
They twisted his mind, frayed the edges of his sanity. Every single day without you bothered him, turned his thoughts into something negative, something desperate. He had spent so many nights thinking of you, wanting you, missing you so badly that he almost left everything behind just to find you again.
But, of course, it wasnât that simple. It wasnât that easy. He needed a plan.
And now?
Now, everything he had, everything he built, it was all for you.
And he wasnât going to lose you again.
Your first few days in Seoul were everything you imagined. New places, new experiences, a whole different world to explore. You wanted to do everything at once, squeezing a weekâs worth of plans into a single day.
Jungkook found it cute. Exhausting, but cute.
Still, he didnât like how restless you were. There was no need to rush. You had all the time in the world here with him.
âI saw this huge library in Gangnam,â you said over dinner in Hongdae, eyes practically glowing with excitement. âI think itâd be nice to spend a whole day there, just working and reading. What do you think?â
Jungkook glanced at you, chewing slowly. âYou wanna work there for a day, hmm?â His voice was gentle, but his grip on his chopsticks tightened slightly.
He wanted you to enjoy Seoul, but he preferred to pace things out. He had everything planned, not just for the city, but for the rest of South Korea. And youâd explore it all his way.
âYeah, I just wanna try working outside your apartment for a change. I think thatâd be cool,â you said, sipping your drink.
Of course, your job let you work remotely. Because of him.
It wasnât difficult to pull some strings, to make sure your company gave you that freedom. Jungkook couldâve had you quit altogether if he wanted, but he wasnât reckless. He knew better than to push too hard, too soon.
He had limits. The kind that kept you from slipping away.
âOkay, you can do that tomorrow.â
As much as he wanted to be with you every second of the day, he couldnât. He had business to handle too. But that didnât mean he wasnât keeping an eye on you.
You werenât familiar with Seoul yet, and he needed you to be. He wanted you to settle in, to feel at home here the same way you did back in your country because thatâs exactly what he planned for.Â
Of course, he wasnât reckless. He wouldnât just send you off on your own without precautions. He had someone watching, just in case. It wasnât about control, it was about keeping you safe. People might think he was being overbearing, but they didnât understand. If you have something precious, you donât risk losing it. You protect it.
And he already lost you once. That wasnât happening again.
â
Sitting in a high-rise conference room, discussing market expansion with Seoulâs biggest executives, Jungkook casually checked his phone under the table. His screen lit up with your activity, a habit he never planned to break.
You were at home. That was good. But youâd been on a phone call for almost an hour.
His jaw tightened. Who the hell were you talking to for that long?
He didnât have full access to your conversations, just enough to know where you were and what you were doing on your phone. Usually, it was nothing out of the ordinary. But this? This was new. And he didnât like surprises.
Jungkook locked his phone and leaned back in his chair, eyes unreadable as the meeting droned on.
It could be your friends. It could be your family. It could be anyone.
But the fact that he didnât know was driving him insane.
âWeâre positioning ourselves as a premium alternative. Market research shows a gap in high-end offerings for this industry, and we intend to fill that space,â Yoongi, the CEO, said, but Jungkook barely heard him.
His grip tightened on his phone as he stared at your activity log. The timestamp kept ticking up. Forty-five minutes, then fifty, then an hour. Who the hell were you talking to for that long?
Mina? Chloe? Fine. He could tolerate that.
But it could also be Henry.
Fuck him.
Jungkook clenched his jaw. He knew Henry was âjust a friend,â but that didnât mean he had to like it. He didnât like you talking to any man, let alone being friends with one. If it were up to him, he wouldâve cut Henry off years ago.
âMr. Jeon?â
Jungkook blinked, snapping out of it when he heard his name. He glanced up from his phone, locking the screen before looking at Yoongi.
âCome again?â he asked, voice steady despite the irritation simmering beneath it.
âAs I mentioned, weâre positioning ourselves as a high-end alternative. Market research reveals a lack of premium options in this industry, and we plan to capitalize on that opportunity,â yoongi repeated, watching him carefully.
Jungkook exhaled, slipping his phone into his pocket.
âGood,â he said coolly. âBut I want clear numbers. Expected ROI, break-even timeline, and contingency plans if the initial launch underperforms. Email them to me by my Monday.â
Yoongi nodded, but Jungkook wasnât paying attention anymore.
He cut the meeting short without a second thought, pushing back his other appointments. He needed to go home. Now.
The thought of you on the phone for over an hour, laughing, talking, confiding in someone while he was stuck in a boardroom made his blood boil. He couldnât stand not knowing. He needed to be in control, needed to know every little detail, even the things that werenât his business. Because when it came to you, everything was his business.
When he stepped into the penthouse, the sight of you greeted him instantly. You were in the receiving area, vacuuming, completely unaware of how restless heâd been.
Youâd been here for a week already, and as much as he was letting you do whatever you wanted, he was also watching. Watching what you did, who you talked to, how you spent your time.
âYouâre home early. I thought you werenât coming back until dinner,â you said, smiling as he walked toward you. He pressed a quick kiss against your lips, but his mind was elsewhere.
âYeah, I am,â he said smoothly, shrugging off his coat. âHow are you doing, Y/N?â
You turned off the vacuum, stretching your arms a little. âIâm good. Just cleaning up a bit.â
Jungkookâs eyes flickered around the room until he spotted your phone on the center table.
âWhat did you do today?â Jungkook asked, watching you closely, waiting, hoping youâd tell him without him having to drag it out of you.
You glanced at him briefly. âJust cleaned up a little and got some work done this morning.â
Not the answer he wanted.
If you were going to tell him about that damn phone call, you wouldâve said it by now. But you didnât.
He couldnât ask outright, not yet. He knew how easily thoughts could plant themselves in your mind, and he didnât need you questioning things. Heâd find another way to figure it out.
Then you hesitated, inhaling like you had something to say. Your lips parted, but no words came out.
Jungkook leaned against the counter, loosening his tie. âYou wanna say something, love?â
You finally spoke. âWeâve been here for a week already, but⊠we havenât really done much for a vacation.â
Ah.
You didnât even need to finish. He already knew where this was going.
âI know youâre really busy with work, but I was just wondering⊠how long are we planning to stay here?â
Jungkook stared at you for a moment before tilting his head slightly, lips twitching in amusement. âWhy? You wanna go home already?â
Your eyes widened, and you shook your head. âOf course not! I was just curious⊠I mean, weâre here for a vacation, but you work a lot.â
He knew what you meant, but that didnât mean he liked hearing it.
âOh? I didnât realize we werenât allowed to work during a vacation.â His voice dripped with sarcasm, one brow raised.
âThatâs not what I meant,â you huffed. âI justâI was just wonderingââ
Jungkook cut you off, nodding as if he was mocking you. âI get it. You want us to go out more instead of me working.â
âN-no, thatâs notââ
âItâs okay, Y/N.â His voice was smooth, sharp eyes locked onto you. âI get your point. Weâll do things your way.â
Except you didnât need to say it. He already knew what was on your mind. But he wasnât going to let you say it.
True to his word, Jungkook made sure to give you what you wanted.
For the next week, he took you around the city showing you Seoul through his own curated version of it. He noticed the way your mood shifted, heavier than before, and he knew it was because of that conversation.
But he didnât have to address it.
Because soon enough, youâd forget about it.
Just like right now.
â
You were sipping a hot coffee, eyes locked on the dazzling view from Namsan Tower. The city stretched beneath you, glowing under the deep night sky, and Jungkook knew exactly what you were thinking.
âWow. Seoul is really beautiful, Kook,â you murmured, your voice full of wonder.
But he wasnât looking at the view.
He was looking at you.
You were glowing under the soft moonlight, the city lights reflecting in your eyes. He should be admiring the skyline, but you were the only thing worth looking at. He hated how much he loved moments like this, how much he wanted to preserve them.
So, without a word, he pulled his phone from his pocket, aimed the camera at you, and snapped a photo.
You notice Jungkook taking a picture of you, and without hesitation, you step closer, snatching his phone from his hand. A grin spreads across your face as you switch to the front camera.
âCome on, Kook, smile!â you say, glancing at him before snapping a quick selfie. The first shot catches him off guard, his expression unreadable, but you donât stop there. You take a few more. Three, to be exact until you're satisfied.
Jungook watches you quietly, letting you have your moment.
âHonestly, a picture doesnât even do justice to how beautiful this city is,â you say, handing his phone back before turning to admire the view again.
His gaze lingers on you for a second longer before he finally looks at the skyline, pretending to take in the same sight you are. âYeah, youâre right,â he says, voice smooth, controlled.
You glance at him, eyes curious. âSince youâve lived here most of your life, are you used to seeing this view?â
Jungkook leans against the railing, watching the city lights flicker. âHmm⊠Iâd say yes, but I still find it beautiful.â
You hum in response, sipping your coffee. âOur city is nice too, but maybe I appreciate this more since itâs my first time here.â
A slow smirk tugs at Jungkookâs lips. Good.
Because youâd be here longer than you expected.
And by the time you realized it⊠youâd already have fallen in love with it.
You both linger around Namsan Tower a little longer, strolling past the endless sea of love locks. The air is crisp, carrying the quiet hum of the city below. You stop at a small booth selling locks, eyes lighting up as you pick one.
âKook, letâs do one,â you say, already reaching for a marker. You scribble your initials on the lock, then his, before securing it onto the fence. With a grin, you toss the key away, watching it disappear into the night.
Jungkook watches you, amusement flickering in his eyes. You think this lock is what symbolizes your unbreakable bond? Thatâs cute. But itâs unnecessary.Â
With or without it, youâre his. Heâll make sure of that.
Jungkook slips an arm around your waist, pulling you in as he looks down at the love lock you just attached. âUnbreakable, huh?â he murmurs, a faint smirk playing on his lips.
If only you knew how true that was.
Youâve done almost everything there is to do in Seoul, and he knows youâve loved every second of it. From the food to the culture, every little thing has captivated you. And watching you take it all in, smiling like this city is your new home, itâs a sight he could never get tired of.
One of the things heâs grown to love about you is how easily pleased you are. The smallest things make you happy, and that makes you easy to care for. Easy to keep close.
Even back in high school, you saw something in him that others didnât. When people distanced themselves, you stayed. When they looked away, you looked closer. You chose him, even when no one else would.
Maybe it was a pity. Maybe it was something deeper. It didnât matter. What mattered was that you loved him, and that was enough. Enough for him to hold on, to fight for this, to shape this love into something unshakable. What others thought of him was irrelevant. The only thing that mattered was you, your choices, your opinions. And as long as he could help it, your choices would always align with his. Even if that meant guiding them himself.
He took you around South Korea, but on his terms. It wasnât the kind of vacation where every day was a new adventure. No, he kept it balanced. Some days for exploring, some for work. That was how it had to be.
You never argued. Never complained. Whether it was because you didnât mind or because you simply chose not to voice it, he didnât care. Silence was compliance, and compliance meant control.
And thatâs exactly how he wanted it.Â
Jungkook followed a step behind you as you traced your fingers along the cold metal railing, your gaze lost in the beauty of Nami Island. The soft autumn breeze played with the hem of your pleated skirt, your oversized knitted sweater draping over your frame in a way that made you look so warm, so delicate. He couldnât wait to take you home, wrap you up in his arms, and keep you there for as long as he wanted.
You stopped suddenly, turning to him with a soft smile. It was enough to make his heart stutter, but there was something in your eyes. Something distant. He quickened his pace, closing the space between you, and without a word, he took your hand in his, lacing your fingers together as you walked side by side.
âThank you for bringing me here, Kook,â you said, your voice light but careful.
He glanced at you, studying your expression. You were smiling, but he knew you too well, something was off.Â
âItâs a pleasure, love.â He waited, expecting you to say more. But you didnât.
He hated that.
âHow much do you love your stay here?â His tone was casual, but the question wasnât.
âI really love it here, Jungkook. I really do. Korea is so different from home, but still, I love it here.â
Home.
The word made something dark coil inside him.
He pulled you closer, guiding your head against his chest before pressing a kiss to your forehead. He held you there as you walked together, feeling the warmth of your body against his, the way you fit so perfectly against him. You were his home, his peace. His.
But no matter how tightly he held on, he couldnât control everything. He could make every decision for you, shape every choice in his favor, but there was one thing he hadnât accounted for:
The possibility that you might make a choice of your own.
And that was the one thing he wasnât prepared for.
Jungkook barely had time to remove his coat when he saw the worry in your eyes. You looked like youâd been waiting for him for a while, pacing, rehearsing your words. He already didnât like where this was going.
âJungkook,â you started, your voice edged with hesitation. âI just had a meeting with our senior. They need me back for a presentation with new investors and stakeholders. I also have to report to the boardââ
He stopped listening. He didnât need to hear the rest. The way your voice wavered, the way you clutched your hands together, he already knew what you were about to ask.
âThen let someone else handle it.â His tone was clipped, final, like it was the simplest solution in the world.
âI canât!â Your frustration spilled over, your voice rising slightly. âIâm the Investor Relations Manager. Itâs my job, Kook! No one else can do it.â
Jungkookâs jaw tightened.
He had already let you keep your job even though he preferred otherwise. It was his choice to allow it. And now, you were asking him to choose again? To let you go back?
âWhen are we going home?â Your voice softened, practically pleading now. âKook, they really need me this time.â
He held your gaze for a moment, his expression unreadable, then casually looked away as he removed his coat, his movements slow, deliberate.
âIâm not sure,â he finally said, shaking off invisible creases in the fabric. âIâll be busy for the next couple of weeks. I have deals to close, business meetings to attend. You know how it is.â
You swallowed hard. âThen can I go home first?â
That made him stop. Completely.
His fingers curled around the fabric of his coat, knuckles whitening as the air between you turned still. His dark eyes lifted to meet yours, and something flickered behind them. Something unreadable yet unmistakably dangerous.
âYouâre leaving me?â His voice dripped with sarcasm, but underneath it was something else.
Panic.
You stepped closer, shaking your head quickly. âKook, Iâm not leaving you. I justâ I really need to go back. Just for work.â
He didnât answer. Instead, he let out a slow, humorless scoff.
âWow,â he said, running a hand through his hair. âAfter everything Iâve done for you, is it that easy for you to leave? Just because they called you? What? Once?â
âThatâs notââ
Jungkookâs fingers twitched at his side, his breathing slow, controlledâtoo controlled. He could feel his patience thinning, unraveling like a loose thread he was trying desperately to keep together.
âThey told you before?â His voice was quiet, almost calm, but there was something beneath it. Something sharp. âAnd you didnât tell me?â
You flinched slightly. âI didnât want to ruin your mood,â you admitted.
He let out a slow breath through his nose, jaw locking. âAnd now youâre blaming me?â
You pressed your lips together, frustration flickering across your face. âNo, of course not! I justâI didnât want to ruin our vacation, Jungkook. Thatâs why I kept it to myself. But I have to tell you now.â
He scoffed. âAnd you donât think telling me now ruins it?â
âThatâs not what I meantââ
âWell, thatâs exactly what you meant, Y/N!â His voice was sharper now.
You blinked at him, startled by the sudden shift. He rarely raised his voice, but when he did, it was like a storm brewing, low, intense, unpredictable.
âIâve been here, juggling everything. Work, time with you, making sure you have everything you need. And youââ He let out a dry laugh. âThe second they call, youâre ready to drop everything. Just like that.â
You opened your mouth, then closed it. No words came out.
Jungkook tilted his head, studying you. The way your hands trembled slightly at your sides, the way your throat bobbed as you swallowed back emotions you were trying so hard to hide.
He should feel guilty. He should care.
But he didnât.
âThe worst part?â His voice was softer now, but it was the kind of softness that made the air feel heavy. âYou prove to me, over and over again, that I will never be your priority.â
A tear slipped from the corner of your eye, but he didnât move. Didnât reach for you.
Let you feel it. Let you sit in it.
Because this wasnât just about work. This was about control.
And he refused to lose it.
âIf youâre so desperate to leave,â he finally said, turning away, his voice cold and detached, âthen go.â
He didnât wait for a response.
Didnât need to.
Because he already knew that you wonât leave.
He couldnât understand why you insisted on working. It wasnât like you had to. He was here, ready to give you everything. Yet, you kept holding on to something so insignificant when he had already built an entire fucking empire for you. Every deal, every dollar, every sacrifice, it was all for you.
When he started making real money, it wasnât greed that drove him It was you. You were the reason he clawed his way to the top, the reason he burned through sleepless nights, the reason he never let himself fail. He stayed away, kept his distance, let you live your little life because he wanted to come back when he was ready, when he was powerful enough to make sure you could never slip through his fingers again.
The person you knew in high school? He buried him. In his place stands someone unrecognizable, someone untouchable. And yet, no matter how much money, status, or control he has, the thought of you walking away still eats him alive.
So before that can happen, heâs already making sure it wonât. Because whatâs the point of having everything if he doesnât have you?
Youâre the only fucking reason he has to live.
Jungkook yanked his phone from his pocket, his fingers moving swiftly as he dialed the CEO of your company. He knew you wouldnât leave. Not really. You couldnât. But he wasnât the type to sit back and hope. He made sure of things. He always did.
âY/N wonât be coming back,â he said the moment the call connected, his tone cold, final. âFire her. Tell her sheâs being replaced by someone more competent.â
There was no hesitation on the other end. Just immediate agreement. As it should be. The moment the call ended, he exhaled slowly, satisfied.
He worked too hard, built too much, just to have you run back to a life that no longer served his plans. Everything he had, his success, his power, it was all for you. But if your choices didnât align with his? Then you didnât need choices at all. He still let you think you had them, of course. As long as they led exactly where he wanted.
And sure enough, he was right. You didnât leave. Because for what? Work? You didnât have one anymore.
He watched as you withdrew, as you curled in on yourself, as you let the weight of everything settle in. He didnât stop you when you pulled away, when you cried, when you let yourself crumble under the reality he created for you. He let you feel the loss, the loneliness. Not because he didnât care. Of course, he cared. He always cared.
But sometimes, he had to let you break on your own. Because only then would you finally see, he was all you had. Just like you were all he needed.
Of course, he didnât let you cry alone the whole time. He gave you space just enough to let the weight of everything sink in, to let you feel small, lost. But he was always there, lingering in the background, ready to be the only comfort you had left.
Because he would never leave you to suffer on your own. Not when he was the one who put you in this position in the first place. But you didnât need to know that.
Now, in the dim glow of the bedroom, he held you close, feeling the way your body trembled against his. His arms were firm around you, securing you exactly where you belonged. Right here, with him. He leaned against the headboard, his fingers tracing slow, soothing patterns on your arm, his presence steady, inescapable.
âI know it hurts now, love,â he murmured, his voice soft, patient, the perfect contrast to the chaos he caused. âBut maybe itâs for the best. Maybe this happened for a reason. Youâll be fine⊠Trust me. As long as youâre with me, youâll be fine.â
He wiped the tears from your cheeks with gentle fingers, studying your face as if memorizing every vulnerable detail. And you didnât say a word. You didnât ask for help, didnât fight to get your job back, didnât even question why it all happened so suddenly.
Nothing.
Only quiet sobs escaped your lips.
And that was fine. More than fine.
Because as long as this kept you here, exactly where he wanted you. He could live with that.
You stayed home for the following days. Barely leaving the bedroom. Jungkook let you be, giving you space while he handled business, but that only worked in his favor. You werenât going anywhere, and he didnât have to worry too much. Not when he had eyes on you the entire time.
Of course, you didnât know about the hidden CCTV in the apartment. You didnât need to.
Most of the time, when he checked the feed, you were either sleeping, mindlessly scrolling on your phone, or watching TV. You looked drained, distant. Maybe even depressed. But he wasnât too concerned. Youâd be fine. You always were.
He also monitored your phone activity. He saw the messages, the way you still kept in touch with your friends and family, updating them on your life. But he noticed how carefully you chose your words, how you left things out.
And that? That satisfied him.
You defended him without being asked, without him even having to plant the idea in your head. You already knew what he wanted. You knew exactly what to say, how to make them believe that everything was fine. Thatâs how he knew you loved him just as much as he loved you.
You were such a good girl for him. So obedient.
He knew your friends didnât like him especially Mina. Not that it mattered. If anything, it thrilled him to watch you choose him over them every time. To watch you stand by him, no matter what.
It felt so good.
And he wasnât going to let you drown in misery forever. No, he made sure of that.
For the past week, he took you out every day. Five-star restaurants, designer boutiques, all your favorite places. He made sure you were surrounded by luxury, by comfort, by him. He wiped away every trace of sadness, covering it up with indulgence, making you forget, if only for a moment what had been taken from you.
But he wasnât blind. He saw the shift in you. The way your smiles were forced. The way your laughter lacked its usual warmth. The way you were starting to notice.
But he didnât have to do anything about it.
Not yet.
Because sooner or later, youâd understand. The life he was giving you was far better than the one you had before.
And when that realization finally sank in?
You wouldnât want to leave.
â
Just like he promised, he was taking you to Busan to meet his family. It felt like a necessary step. An assurance of his love for you. A way to solidify things, to remind you that he was willing to give you everything, even parts of himself he didnât care for.
He also figured this trip would help. A change of scenery. New faces. Because lately, the only person you had been around was him. Not that he minded, but he didnât want you to feel isolated. Even if, in reality, that was exactly what was happening.
His relationship with his parents had never been close. Even as a kid, there was always distance. But after they dragged him back to Korea, forcing him away from you, thatâs when he truly cut them off.
The only reason he still tolerated them now was simple.
They were the reason he worked so hard. The reason he built everything from the ground up. The reason he clawed his way to the top, just to have you in his arms again.
If not for that, he wouldnât even spare them a second thought.
"I'm really glad you finally visited us after so many years, son. And you even brought your girlfriend with you," Jungkookâs mother said, her voice warm with nostalgia.
Jungkook barely reacted, keeping his expression smooth as he sliced through his food. You and he sat at the dining table with his parents, the scent of simmered broth and fresh side dishes filling the space. His parents were thrilled, probably thinking this visit meant something.
They had no idea how he really felt. And they didnât need to.
âWhat do you do for a living?â His fatherâs voice cut through the quiet clatter of utensils. The question was aimed at you, and instantly, Jungkook felt your body tense beside him. Your hand, which had been resting lightly on the table, twitched just slightly and he clenched his chopsticks tighter.
Before you could even answer, he spoke for you. âSheâs taking a break right now. Thatâs why weâre here for a long time.â His voice was even, but his grip had turned rigid.
You turned to him, your expression unreadable, but he refused to meet your eyes. Instead, he continued eating, slow and controlled.
âReally? But what did you do before?â His mother chimed in, her curiosity laced with harmless interest.
He wanted to shut this conversation down. Shift it away. Stop them from prying. But he had to play along.
âI was an Investor Relations Manager,â you answered, offering a small, polite smile before turning your focus back to your food.
His father hummed in acknowledgment, then turned to Jungkook. âInvestor, huh? As I recall, your business is in the same field, isnât it?â
Jungkook stabbed his chopsticks into a piece of meat, his jaw tightening.
âYou never tell us much about your life. Even your business,â his mother added.
"All we know is youâre making millions and millions every day. If only you invested in your own parentsâ business, that would be great.â
Jungkook mentally rolled his eyes, keeping his expression unreadable.
He would never invest in something like that.
And he sure as hell would never invest in the very thing that tore him away from you.
Jungkook could feel your eyes on him, waiting for a response. But he kept his gaze fixed on his food, forcing himself to chew slowly. It wasnât worth talking about. Not now. Not ever.
Sensing the silence stretching too long, you spoke up instead.
âActually, Jungkook and I met at work, and before that, the last time we saw each other was in high school. Thatâs where we really got to know each other.â
His mother giggled, a soft, nostalgic sound. âI still canât believe you two are high school sweetââ
âHoney, they were only friends in high school!â His father cut in with a laugh.
âOh, right! But if we hadnât moved back here, maybe you two wouldâve been dating since then!â
Jungkook tightened his grip on his chopsticks. The conversation was light, harmless even. But he wasnât stupid. He noticed how you shifted in your seat, how your fingers grazed the table absentmindedly like you were holding something back. He could read you too well. He knew there was something you wanted to say but you didnât.
And he had a feeling he knew exactly what it was.
âIf only he had introduced you to us before!â His mother sighed wistfully before turning her gaze to Jungkook. âYou know, he was different when he was younger. More⊠open, I suppose. But ever since we moved back here, he became quiet, distant. We knew he wanted to stay in your country, he even begged us to go back but it wasnât that simple.â
She looked at him then, a sad, longing expression crossing her face. âWeâre proud of the man heâs become, of course. We just wish he could be open with us again. Let us back into his life.â
Jungkookâs jaw clenched. The sound of his fatherâs spoon clinking against his bowl suddenly felt too loud. The warm aroma of the food became nauseating.
This. This right here was why he had kept his distance. Why he loathed them.
Pathetic.
They sat there, spewing bullshit, acting as if they were the victims. Acting as if they deserved his time, his emotions, his fucking pity. They had no idea. They never took responsibility. Instead, they pointed fingers at him, as if it was his fault that everything turned out this way.
But it wasnât.
It was theirs.
He was already done with this conversation. Done with this entire visit. He needed to get out of here.
With you.
The lunch dragged on longer than Jungkook would have liked. His parents kept the conversation going, moving from small talk to stories about their old business. Their grand rise and inevitable failure. They spoke as if reminiscing about something tragic, but all Jungkook heard was noise.
He barely touched his food, his jaw tightening every time they brought up the past. He masked his irritation well, but the tension in his grip against his chopsticks was telling. He just wanted to leave.
This was exactly why he never wanted to come here. Why he never wanted you to meet them. They talked too much. About things that didnât matter. About things he never wanted you to hear.
And now, he could already tell. You had questions. You always did when something didnât add up. And right now, after everything his parents had carelessly spilled, your mind must be full of them.
Of course, you didnât ask in front of them. You wouldnât. But he knew you too well.
And he was right.
Because the moment the car was back on the road, heading toward Seoul, your voice broke the silence.
âYour parents are nice.â Your voice was light, but Jungkook could hear the underlying curiosity.
âUh-huh.â His response was flat, laced with sarcasm.
âThey even wanted us to stay. Theyâre really accommodating, Kook.â
He saw you glance at him from the corner of his eye, but he kept his gaze locked on the road. His grip on the steering wheel tightened slightly.
âI have a meeting first thing in the morning.â
Without warning, he overtook the car in front of him, the sudden movement making you flinch.Â
âSorry, love.â His voice softened, one hand briefly leaving the wheel to rest on your thigh. A gentle caress.
He had spent all his patience back at that house. The last thing he wanted was to talk about his parents again.
âI didnât know you had an older brother.â Your tone was casual, but there was something beneath it. An unspoken challenge. âIt sucks that I only found out now. I just realized⊠I barely know anything about your past.â You sighed. âI feel bad.â
âThatâs why I brought you home to meet them,â he said, hoping it didnât sound as sarcastic as it felt.
You studied him for a moment, like you were trying to read him. He gave you a small smile, his hand still resting on your thigh, fingers tracing lazy circles. A distraction. A way to keep you comfortable.
Then, you caught him off guard.
âKook, why didnât you invest in your parentsâ business?â
His grip on the wheel tightened. He didnât expect that.
You continued before he could answer. âYouâre a big-time investor, right? It would help them a lot.â
âItâs not worth investing in. Itâs already a failed business.â His tone was neutral, controlled.
âBut they loved that business. Losing it broke them. Isnât there any chance of bringing it back?â
âNo.â His voice was sharp, final. âIf there was, I wouldnât hesitate.â
That was a lie. Even if their business was worth saving, he still wouldnât do it. They didnât deserve it. They didnât deserve anything from him.
You looked at him again, hesitant, like you wanted to push further. To unravel the parts of him he kept hidden. But then, you seemed to realize he wasnât in the mood to talk about it.
So you stayed quiet.
Good.
As much as he wanted to tell you everything, how his parents ruined his life, how they ripped him away from you, he couldnât risk it. Couldnât risk you looking at him differently.
Heâd rather keep you in the dark than let you see the parts of him he didnât want you to understand.
â
Itâs been a week since you and Jungkook visited his parents. And two weeks since you lost your job.
You havenât told him about it. You havenât asked about going home either. Not once. And itâs better that way. If you did, he already had an answer prepared, but he preferred that you didnât ask at all.
Youâve become more obedient, following his lead without hesitation. You donât ask for anything anymore. You donât make requests. You just⊠comply.
It should make him happy. He decides whatâs best for you, after all. But he doesnât want you to turn into a lifeless doll, either. You should still function like a normal girlfriend and hold onto him like you need him.
And you do need him.
Jungkook wants to give you everything, especially now that youâre finally settling into his rhythm. He wonders if you realize how much he adores you like this. Maybe you donât. Maybe you think this is just another day, another morning, another moment.
But to him, itâs everything.
Youâre sleeping beside him, curled up and peaceful, completely unaware of his gaze lingering on you. His love for you grows stronger every day, so intense it nearly overwhelms him. It consumes him.
He rests his head on his arm, watching you, memorizing the way your lashes flutter faintly with every slow breath. His free hand moves on its own, fingers ghosting over your cheek.
His heart pounds in his ears.
The back of his fingers trail down to your lips, tracing the soft curve of them. You donât even stir. He tucks a stray strand of hair behind your ear, his touch lingering longer than necessary.
Then, his fingers drift lower, down your arm, feeling the warmth of your skin. So soft. So delicate. His.
He could feel a familiar sensation growing between his legs as he touched your soft skin. He tried to ignore it but failed. The more he touched you, the more he thought about how much he wanted to be with you. He couldn't stop imagining all the ways he wanted to touch you, to be inside you. He felt his self-control slipping away as he placed his thumb finger on your lower lip, imagining how it would feel wrapped around him.
He couldn't help but look at your body, the outline of your breasts visible through your flimsy pajamas.
He have touched you several times but the sensation and feeling of your body was so intoxicating and addicting he couldn't get enough.
Fuck, Y/N.
He can barely keep himself from losing control. He desperately wants to bend you over and taste your lips but he knows that's not what he's supposed to do, so instead he slowly pulled his dick out and began to slowly stroke it while you sleep beside him, teasing himself.
He canât help it but want to press you against the bed, taking in and enjoying every curve of your body, but he knows he canât do that. Not now. He takes your hand softly in his, holding it warmly. His other hand slowly teases his dick, imagining how youâd feel under him, as he stares directly at your pretty face, his thoughts filled with nothing but how desperately he wants you, yet he holds himself back.
Damn it, love.Â
He gripped himself tightly, his dick throbbing and leaking a small amount of cum that he eagerly spread over himself, slicking his movements as he pumped it harder and harder, his eyes locked onto your peaceful sleeping face, silently begging for you to wake.
His hands, despite his best efforts to keep them still, began to roam down your body, splaying out over your stomach and slowly inching lower until his fingers splayed out over your pussy through the thin fabric of your sleepwear.
He wanted you to wake up as his body already halfway there even without your touch. He hoped your eyes would flutter open and catch him like this, his pants tented, his hips subtly humping the air, his hands twitching with the urge to grope your body again unconsciously.
"Fuck..." he hissed under his breath, losing control as his hand moved faster over his length, the wet sounds filling the room.
"Love..." he moaned your nickname, imagining it was your hand, your mouth, your heat around him rather than his own hands.Â
The soft, sensual moan that escaped your lips in your sleep sent electric jolts through him, making his grip on his dick tighten as he continued to stroke himself feverishly. He scooted closer, his fingers teasing your pussy through your clothes, rubbing slow circles over it.
His breath hitched as he felt the dampness seeping through your thin pajama bottoms, signaling your body's unconscious response to his touches. He gently slipped his hand inside, finding your folds slick and warm, a soft whimper escaping his lips at the contact.
As your eyes flutter open, you catch the erotic sight before you. Jungkook was furiously pumping his dick, clear fluid leaking steadily from the tip. The wet, obscene sounds of his strokes filled the air.
âK-kook, what are you doing?â Your voice was low and husky and your arousal was obvious, making him lose control faster.
Without warning, he covered your body with his, capturing your lips in a deep, hungry kiss. His tongue plunged into your mouth, dominating it as his body pressed you into the mattress. His weight pushed your smaller frame down, causing your chest to rise and fall rapidly.
He humped against your center like a wild animal, marking your neck with hot, open-mouthed kisses and sucking hickeys onto your jaw. His lips traveled down your chin, your jawline, your neck, leaving red, passionate marks. He was practically dry humping you, his control shot.
"Love..." He growled softly, hearing your shaky voice. Your arousal made him hungry. He yanked your shirt off, his mouth latching onto your breast without warning. You threw your head back with a loud moan as he sucked hard, his other hand pinching and rolling your nipple.
He could feel your softness against his tongue, the way you filled his mouth perfectly. He sucked harder, his hand squeezing your other breast possessively.
He kissed lower, trailing his lips down your stomach, his hands pulling your pajama bottoms down slowly. He peppered kisses on your pelvis, his hot breath tickling your lower belly. "Lift your hips, Y/N..." He whispered, his voice muffled against your skin.
He spread your thighs wider, diving between them. He flattened his tongue against your entrance, licking upwards to catch your wetness. "Damn," He muttered, watching you toss your head back. He wrapped his lips around your clit, sucking softly while pushing two fingers inside you.
God, youâre so fucking beautiful.
He watches you play with your breasts. Your fingers twisting your hard peaks made him harder. He pushed his fingers deeper, his mouth suctioning around your clit. Your moans grew louder, your back arching off the bed. His free hand spread your thighs wider apart.
Your nails dug deeper into the bed as you neared the edge. He suddenly pulled back, leaving you empty and disappointed. Before you could protest, he pulled his pants down and pressed the tip of his hard dick against your clit. His head rested on top of you, grinding his tip against you.
"K-kook⊠please?" He smirked wickedly, watching you throw your head back. He ground his tip against your sensitive nub, teasing you.Â
He paused his tease and grabbed your face, staring harshly into your eyes. "Remember this...you're mine." He grumbled, crashing his lips against yours. The kiss was desperate and hungry, his tongue dominating yours immediately. He pushed his tip inside you slowly before thrusting hard. âDo you understand that?â
"Do you understand?!â He growled, his deep voice echoing. He thrusts his hips harder, watching your breasts bounce. He repeated himself slower, "Answer the damn question." His fingers dug into your hips painfully. "Use your words,"
"Yes!â You answered with a tear in your eyes as his movement became faster.
"Fuck, Y/N," he panted against your lips, his body shaking when both of you reach orgasm. He remained buried deep inside you, his eyes locked onto yours. "You're mine. Only. Mine." He enunciated each word slowly, leaving no room for misunderstanding.
He leaned down and kissed you deeply, his tongue exploring your mouth. When he broke the kiss, he rested his forehead against yours, his eyes filled with love and adoration. âI love you, Y/N. I love you so fucking much it hurts.â
â
Youâre such a good girl. So obedient. So perfect for him.
Jungkook always knew youâd get there eventually. Youâre adjustingâslowly, but thatâs okay. He can be patient. He understands that change takes time.
But heâs not blind. He sees how quiet youâve become, how your laughter has faded into silence. You talk less, do less. Even when he offers to take you out, most of the time, your refuse. You spend most of your time curled up in bed, staring at your phone or watching TV, lost in some world that isnât his.
Thatâs fine. Youâll come around.
He tells himself itâs just part of the process. Your adjustment period. Youâre still settling into your new reality, learning to accept that this is your home now.
But even if he understands, that doesnât mean he likes it.
He misses the way you used to be. The spark in your eyes, the way you used to tease him, the way youâd reach for him without thinking. That version of you is slipping away, fading like a dream upon waking.
Does he regret this? Is he having second thoughts?
Never.
This is only temporary. He knows that if he wavers now, if he lets himself get soft, heâll never have what he truly wants.
So he wonât.
Instead, heâll remind you.
Heâll give you all the attention you need, fill every empty space in your mind until thereâs no room left for doubt.
âLately, youâve been watching a lot of baking videos,â Jungkook muses, his voice casual. Itâs a quiet Friday afternoon, and he got home earlier than usual. Youâre curled up on the couch, a snack in hand, eyes fixed on the TV.
He moves closer, pressing a lingering kiss to your neck before catching your lips. He feels you relax beneath him, just slightly.
âNothing really to watch,â you reply, brushing it off.
Jungkook settles beside you, his gaze never leaving you as he reaches for a snack. His fingers trail absentmindedly along your thigh, slow and deliberate.
âI was thinking,â he starts, his tone light, âmaybe youâd like to take baking lessons? Learn how to do it yourself.â
âThatâs not necessary, Kook,â you say with a small laugh. âI just find it entertaining, thatâs all.â
He hums, rubbing slow circles into your skin. âThen do you want to do something? Yoga classes, maybe?â
Silence.
You hold his gaze, but thereâs something in your expression that makes his stomach tighten. You hesitate, as if weighing whether to say whatâs really on your mind. And suddenly, he regrets even asking.
He should change the subject. He should pull you back into something softer, safer. But before he can, you speak.
âWell, if you have something inââ
âWhen are we going home?â
His whole body stills.
For a second, he doesnât move. The words settle between you, heavy and suffocating. He exhales, slow and measured, before finally standing.
âIâm not sure yet,â he says, already walking toward the dining hall. âI told you, I have a lot to handle, love. Iâll let you know when.â
Jungkook doesnât wait for your response. He turns on his heel, heading toward the dining hall. He pulls the refrigerator open as he grabs a bottle of water, twisting the cap off before pouring himself a glass. The sound of liquid hitting glass fills the silence.
He knows you're there before he even turns around.
Your presence lingers, hesitant but heavy. He takes his time, swallowing the water then he finally turns to face you.
âI miss home, Kook.â
Home. That fucking word again.
Ever since you started mentioning home, Jungkook has felt a slow, burning irritation clawing at him. The word itself is harmless, but coming from your lips, it feels like a blade. You and he have different definitions of home, and every time you say it, it grates against his nerves.
âWeâve been here for three months already, and I really, really miss home.â Your voice wavers, eyes shimmering with unshed tears, and it makes his irritation flare hotter.
âArenât we living in the same home either way?â His voice drips with sarcasm, his patience thinning.
âThatâs not what I mean. I miss my family, my friends, my countryââ
âAnd you donât think I feel that too?â He cuts you off, his tone sharper now.
The glass in his hand meets the kitchen island with a dull thud, his fingers tightening around the rim before he releases it. His gaze, dark and unreadable, locks onto yours.
âDo you think I donât want to go back?â He exhales harshly. âI planned to stay here for a vacation. But I had to handle so many things because, for what? To fucking build the life I want for us!â His voice rises, his frustration cracking through the surface. âIâm not doing this for myself, Y/N. Iâm doing this to secure our future.â
Tears finally spill down your cheeks as you look at him, and something about it. The way youâre crying, the way youâre making him feel like the villain making his jaw tighten.
âTell me,â he steps forward, closing the distance between you, his presence towering over you, âdo you really think Iâm keeping you here just because I want to?â His voice dips lower, but the intensity in his stare is suffocating.
You shake your head quickly. âKook, thatâs not what I meant!â Your fingers tighten around his, desperate, pleading. âOf course, I appreciate you! Iâm sorry if thatâs how it sounded, but thatâs not what I meantââ
You keep talking, rushing to defend yourself, but Jungkook isnât listening anymore.
His mind is elsewhere.
Your words dissolve into the background as something deeper stirs inside him. He watches your lips move, watches the way you hold onto him like youâre afraid of slipping away.Â
Before you can finish, he pulls his hands away, wiping his own tears like heâs trying to erase the moment entirely.
Then he steps back.
âI think we should give ourselves some space.â His voice is quieter now, but distant, detached. He turns, ready to walk away.
But before he can take another step, you do something that surprises him.
âJungkook, no!â
Before he can take another step, your arms are around his waist, locking him in place. Your grip is desperate, too tight, too frantic, like you're afraid he'll vanish the second you let go.
âN-no⊠please, letâs talk about this now! Please donât leave me again.â
The way your voice breaks sends a thrill through him. Youâre cryingâreally cryingâand he didnât expect it. Not like this.
âPlease donât leave me again! Letâs talk about this now. P-please donât leave me alone.â
Your hands clutch at his back, fingers twisting into the fabric of his shirt like you're trying to anchor yourself. When you pull back to look at him, your face is soaked, lips trembling, eyes blown wide with fear. Fear.
His heart pounds so hard itâs almost painful. A rush of something hot, something intoxicating, swirls inside him. You need him.
You really need him.
âW-we can talk about this now. Just please, donât leave me alone.â
You bury yourself into him again, squeezing so tightly he almost forgets to breathe.
Jungkook stands frozen, overwhelmed by the moment, his pulse hammering in his ears. His breath comes out unsteady as his lips curl into a slow, hidden smile. He wants to laugh. Fuck, he wants to celebrate.
Because this. This is exactly what heâs been waiting for.
Youâre clinging to him. Begging. Terrified at the thought of losing him.
You get it now, donât you?
After a long pause, he finally moves. His hands glide up your back, soothing, reassuring. He exhales softly, letting just enough warmth seep into his voice.
âOkay, love. Weâll fix this.â
Heâs too happy. A little too happy.
Your reaction, it was unexpected, raw, perfect. The way you clung to him, the way your voice cracked, the way you begged, fuck, itâs all replaying in his head like a song on repeat. It was beautiful. You need him just as much as he needs you. You just proved it.
And that means one thing: Youâll never leave. Not really.
You might resist, you might hesitate, but in the end, you break exactly how he wants you to. He doesnât just control you, your whole existence is wrapped around him now, woven into his life so tightly thereâs no escape.
But then, why?
Why did you suddenly bring up home? Why now, after all this time?
His jaw tightens. Something triggered you. Something. Or someone.
He doesnât need to guess. He already knows.
Itâs past 2 AM when he finally moves. The room is quiet, bathed in the soft blue glow of the nightlight. You're asleep, curled up in the king-sized bed, your breathing slow, steady and peaceful. Completely unaware.
Jungkook reaches for your phone on the bedside table, unlocking it effortlessly with his Face ID. He leans back on the couch, screen illuminating his face, and scrolls straight to your messages.
He knows exactly where to look.
And of course, he was right.
His smirk is slow, dangerous, curling at the edges as he reads.
You: I miss you too! Iâll see you soon once I return.
Mina: As you should. Iâm so sick of being with Henry all the time! When are you even coming home? Youâve been there since forever.
Chloe: Yeah, Y/N. I thought youâd only be there for a vacation? You never said youâd stay this long.
You: Not sure with Jungkook. He has a lot of business to do as of now.
Henry: Are you even part of his business? Last time I checked, you and he were there for a vacation, not for business. Seriously, Y/N, heâs caging you at this point.
His smirk twitches.
And then, there it is. A missed video call, two fucking hours.
Yesterday. While he was too busy working to notice.
His fingers tighten around the phone. Of course. They filled your head with bullshit.Â
How stupid of him to let this slip.
It wonât happen again.
He locks the phone and sets it back on the table, gaze flickering toward you. Youâre still fast asleep, unaware that your little secret is no longer a secret.
Jungkook leans back, exhaling through his nose, his mind already working.
Heâll fix this.
He always does.
Jungkook doesnât waste time.
The moment he discovers what your so-called friends have been whispering in your ear, he takes action.
First thing in the morning, before you even stir awake, he makes a call. The kind of call that isnât exactly legal. By noon, heâs holding a sleek, black signal jammer in his hands, fresh from the black market. Compact, powerful, and silent.
He wonât resort to something as obvious as taking your phone away. Thatâs not the game he plays. No, no, no. He wants you to believe youâre still in control. That your world isnât shrinking. That nothingâs changed.
Because thatâs the key, you canât miss what you donât realize youâve lost.
He positions the device in a discreet spot, its range wide enough to swallow every signal in the apartment. But, of course, heâs thought ahead. He installs a high-power signal booster for himself because while your world goes dark, his remains crystal clear. He still needs to monitor things. Track things. Track you.
It doesnât take long for you to notice. The way your fingers swipe at your screen again and again, waiting for something to load. The way your brows knit together when nothing does. The way you glance around, confused, frustrated.
He sees it all.Â
Your world is already shrinking, and you donât even realize it yet.
Jungkook leans back in his chair, a slow smirk forming.
âWeak signals happen sometimes, love. Itâll come back. Donât worry.â
He pressed a soft kiss to your cheek before pulling you onto the couch, wrapping you in his arms as the TV played in the background. What else could you do, really? Without a working connection, entertainment options were limited, and he had to pretend he was dealing with the same issue. TV was the perfect distraction. One that kept you close to him.
In a way, he liked this. No phones, no interruptions. Just the two of you, undisturbed. The thought alone made his heart flutter.
The next day, the situation hadnât changed, and he knew frustration would start creeping in again. So he took you out. All day, keeping you occupied, keeping your mind off things. You didnât resist. Why would you? There was nothing to do in the apartment without the internet, no one to talk to, nowhere else to turn.
A museum date. He half-expected you to get bored, but to his surprise, you didnât. You wandered through the exhibits with wide, fascinated eyes, taking in every detail, pointing out the ones you liked best. Jungkook watched you more than the art. Watched the way your lips curved in a smile, the way your fingers traced the air as you spoke. You werenât hard to please. Anything he laid out in front of you, you embraced, appreciated, accepted.
That was what made it so easy to love you.
And that was what made him tighten his grip.
Because something so easy, so pure, could be taken away in an instant.
He wouldnât let that happen. Not now. Not ever. You were already his, and keeping you meant protecting you. Even if you didnât realize it yet.
For the third, fourth, and fifth day, nothing changed. The signal jammer stayed on, and you stayed unaware. He kept you entertained when he was home, making sure there was always something to distract you. Movies, dinner, his arms wrapped around you on the couch. But when he wasnât around, all you had was the TV.
That was fine. That was good.
Whenever he was out, he tracked your location. He never mentioned it, of course. He played dumb when you casually told him where you went, what you did to pass the time. It made things easier. It reassured him. You were still being good, still keeping him in the loop, still showing him without even realizing it that you loved him. That you werenât going anywhere.
And that was all he needed.
Because as long as you kept being this obedient, this trusting, you wouldnât even notice the strings wrapped around you, pulling you exactly where he wanted.
But of course, no matter how much control he had, some things still slipped through the cracks.
He thought he had everything covered. That as long as you stayed close, as long as you kept looking at him the way you always did, nothing would change.
But even the most perfect plans had flaws.
It was a cold Thursday evening when Jungkook stepped out of the shower, steam curling around him as droplets clung to his skin. A towel hung low on his waist, and the heat from the water still lingered on his body, contrasting the chill in the air. He had just returned from a long business meeting. Another deal closed, another win under his belt. You were in the kitchen, insisting on making dinner, and he let you.
As he pulled on his nightwear in the walk-in closet, he instinctively reached for his phone. But his fingers met empty space. His usual spot? Empty. Bedside table? Nothing. Maybe he left it outside? That was unlikely. His phone was always with him.
The frustration simmered. His brows furrowed as he searched every possible surface in the bedroom. It wasnât there. His chest tightened. And thenâ
A ringtone.
Not from inside the room. From outside.
His breath caught. His phone wasnât on silent. You were hearing it.
A sharp pulse of panic shot through him as he shoved the bedroom door open. The sound grew louder, the vibrations almost rattling in his ears, until he saw you.
Standing at the dining table.
Staring at his phone.
A cold sensation crawled up his spine, harsher than the evening air. His fingers twitched. His heart pounded, slamming against his ribs, too fast, too loud.
Without thinking, he strode forward and snatched the phone off the table, immediately declining the call. His grip was tight, white-knuckled. He could feel your eyes on him, could see the way your expression shifted, shock, realization, suspicion.
Then, you moved.
You pulled your phone from your pocket, swiped through the screen, and then your jaw clenched.
Slowly, you looked at him.
Brows furrowed.
And then, without a word, you turned your phone around and showed him the screen.
âHow come you can get calls when I canât even reach you?â Your voice had that sharp edge, like you were daring him to slip up.
Jungkookâs grip on his phone tightened for a second. Just a second before he let out a slow breath. One you wouldnât even notice.
âI donât know,â he shrugged, meeting your gaze without hesitation. âIâve had signal since yesterday.â
Your brows furrowed. âWhat? That doesnât make sense. I donât have network service. No internet, either.â You scrolled through your phone, frustration seeping into your voice.
âMaybe itâs your phone. Not the network.â
âHuh? How does that evenââ
âI donât know, love. Iâm not a technician.â His tone was casual, a little too nonchalant, as he turned to walk away.
But you werenât letting it go.
âWhy didnât you tell me?â Your voice was sharper now, accusing. âYou knew Iâve been complaining about this for days!â
Jungkook exhaled through his nose, jaw tightening, but his voice was still even. âI didnât notice right away. And Iâve been out, havenât I? Besidesââ He scoffed. âDo you even see me using my phone when Iâm home?â
Your frustration boiled over. âUgh, this is so annoying! What the hell?â You jabbed at your phone aggressively, like pressing harder would somehow force it to work. When it didnât, you let out a groan, tossing it onto the table with a thud before running a hand through your hair.
Jungkook clenched his teeth, trying to suppress the irritation crawling up his spine. âY/N, can you calm down? Itâs just a phone. Weâll fix it.â
âYou donât get it!â You snapped.
Your voice cracked slightly, your chest rising and falling with every frustrated breath. âThatâs my only way to keep in touch with my friends and family while Iâm stuck here! Itâs the only thing I have to pass the time! I have nothing to do, Jungkook. Itâs draining! I feel exhausted just⊠existing like this!â
His stomach twisted.
Not because of what you said, but because of the way you said it. This was the first time heâd seen you this raw since your last big fight. It was like catching a glimpse of something real. Something he wasnât supposed to see.
And honestly? He didnât know how to feel about it.
His fingers curled, nails pressing into his palms, but his face remained unreadable.
âOkay,â he finally muttered. âWeâll get your phone fixed.â
That was all he said before turning on his heel, walking away, leaving you standing there, stunned.
The moment Jungkook stepped into the bedroom, he lost it.
His phone hit the bed with a dull thud, but it wasnât enough. His hands went straight to his hair, fingers tangling in frustration as he paced back and forth, his mind spiraling.
Anytime now, you could put the pieces together.
Anytime now, you could realize everything.
No. No. No. That cannot fucking happen.
His jaw clenched so tightly it ached, teeth grinding as he tried to force himself to think. He needed a solution. Fast. But every scenario felt like a loose thread, something that could unravel the carefully built illusion he had created around you.
His breath came out sharp and ragged, his chest rising and falling as panic crawled up his spine. His hands curled into fists, nails pressing into his palms.
Calm down. Think.
Would replacing your phone be enough? Could he make it seem like it was just a defective device all along? Should he play dumb, act as if he had no clue what was going on?
Fuck. Think!
Heâd always been careful. Always one step ahead. So why was he unraveling now?
Why did this feel different?
He sucked in a slow, shaky breath, trying to steady himself. He was just being paranoid. Thatâs all this was. He had handled worse. He had controlled worse.
This was just another obstacle.
And like always, heâd find a way to make sure you stayed exactly where you belonged.
But he was wrong.
Because the moment he woke up, you werenât beside him.
It felt like a bucket of ice had been dumped over him, freezing him in place. His body tensed, fingers gripping the sheets as he blinked, trying to process the empty space next to him.
No. No, no, no.
He had stayed up late, trying to think of a way to fix things. He didnât even realize he had slept in. And now, you were gone.
His hands were already shaking as he pushed himself out of bed, his heart pounding.
âY/N?â
The bathroom, empty. The closet, empty. The longer he searched, the faster his panic grew.
He stormed out of the bedroom, checking every corner of the apartment, but you were nowhere to be found. His breathing turned ragged, his vision tunneling. His fingers fumbled as he reached for his phone, opening the tracking app.
There you were. Not far.
A mall.
Fuck.
His jaw clenched so hard it ached. He already knew what you were doing.
His mind raced, self-loathing creeping in. How the fuck did I let this happen? He had been so careful. He had planned everything so perfectly. And yet, somehow, you slipped away.
His grip tightened around his phone as he immediately dialed a number. The person he hired to watch you.
âFind her,â Jungkook ordered, his voice dangerously low. âNow. And tell me exactly what sheâs doing.â
Ending the call, he exhaled sharply and let his body drop onto the couch, his knee bouncing as he tried to steady himself.
Calm down.
He had dealt with things like this before. He knew exactly what to do. You were easy to convince, easy to pull back into his world. You always had been.
There was no reason to panic.
Because no matter what, he wouldnât let this ruin everything.
He had come too far, done too much. What was the point of stopping now?
Minutes later, his phone buzzed. An update.
You had bought a new phone.
Of course, you did. He expected it. He had already planned his reaction, the perfect lie to feed you. He knew how to twist things, how to shape reality into something that made sense to you.
He was ready.
This was just another obstacle, a minor inconvenience. Soon, everything would be back to normal.
Or at least, that was the illusion he forced himself to believe.
Because the moment you walked through that door, his world shattered.
All the confidence, all the carefully built lies, gone.
The second you speak the truth, everything he worked for started to crumble.
You stood in front of him, unmoving, while he lounged back against the couch, arms crossed over his chest. The apartment felt colder than usual, the lack of sunlight casting a dull, gray shadow over everything, including you.
You looked drained.
Dressed in a white knitted sweater under a long black coat, paired with jeans, you slowly unwrapped the scarf from your neck, gripping it tightly in one hand while your other held a paper bag.
He already knew what was inside.
The new phone.
Your eyes locked onto his, unblinking, unwavering. There was an intensity in them that made something deep inside him churn, but he didnât let it show. Instead, he was the first to break the silence.
âWas it really that hard to wake me up and let me know you were going out?â His voice was laced with sarcasm, a smirk tugging at the corner of his lips. âYou just couldnât wait to get your phone fixed, huh? Had to rush out and buy a new one?â
He scoffed, shaking his head.
You didnât answer.
You just stood there, staring at him with eyes filled with something far worse than anger. Disgust. Your jaw clenched so tightly he swore he could hear your teeth grinding, and then he saw it.
A tear.
His smirk twitched, faltering for just a second.
âWhatâs with the face, love?â he drawled, tilting his head. âI thought you fixed your little problem?â
His voice dripped with mockery, but something inside him twisted, because he could feel it.
Your tears fell silently at first, but then you inhaled sharply, steadying yourself before speaking.
âMy phone was jammed,â you said, voice shaking. âBoth my phone and the internet connection were jammed.â
Jungkook felt a flicker of something. Surprise, irritation, but he masked it, tilting his head as if your words were nonsense.
âHow would your phone be jammed?â His tone was casual, almost amused, like he was humoring you.
You let out a bitter laugh. âI donât know. Ask yourself.â
The sharpness in your voice sent a ripple of irritation through him.
âHow the fuck is my phone jammed while yours isnât?â You took a step closer, eyes burning with fury. âDoes that make any sense to you? Both my laptop and my phone had no signal the entire fucking week, while you were just fine.â
His jaw tightened.
That bastard. The man he hired had left out important details. He hadnât reported that you had your phone checked.
Fucking useless.
âWhat the hell are you talking about?â He scoffed, forcing his voice into something more natural. âI didnât have service either. You know that. We were bothââ
âNo!â
The single word sliced through the room, loud and unwavering. It caught him off guard.
âI checked your phone this morning,â you continued, voice shaking with restrained rage. âI checked your laptop, too. And both of them had WiFi.â
His fingers twitched. His mind raced.
âThen thatâs not my problem anymoreââ
âYou donât get it, do you?â
Your voice dropped to a whisper, slow and deliberate.
Jungkook felt a chill run down his spine.
âOrâŠâ You took another step forward, your eyes locking onto his like you were staring into something dark and rotten. âIs this just what you wanted me to believe?â
Jungkook didnât say a word at first. He just watched you, his gaze unwavering, calculating.
He couldnât afford to make a mistake now.
âI canât believe youâre blaming me for this.â His voice was measured, carefully laced with disbelief, like he was hurt. âWhy would I even do that?â
Then, quieter, like he was nursing a wound only he could feel. âWhy do you always blame me when things go wrong for you? Even when itâs your own fault?â
You scoffed, tilting your chin up defiantly. âAnd how exactly is it my fault that my phone was jammed? Thatâs not something I could have done to myself, intentionally or unintentionally!â
âNo, Y/N.â His voice hardened. âIâm not just talking about the jammer. Iâm talking about everything, all the accusations, all the times youâve turned on me, made me the villain in your little stories.â
You narrowed your eyes. âWhy are you even bringing all that up? Weâre talking about the jammerââ
âBecause thatâs the problem!â His voice rose suddenly, sharp and unwavering. âYou always blame me. The moment something inconvenient happens, itâs Jungkookâs fault. Like itâs second nature to you.â
He took a step forward, but you stood your ground. Your eyes locked onto his, unflinching, before you exhaled and turned to leave.
Panic flashed in his chest.
No.
In an instant, he was behind you, gripping your wrist, firm, but not enough to bruise.Â
âAre you seriously walking away right now?â His voice was dangerously low, breath uneven. âWeâre still talking.â
You yanked your hand free without hesitation. âThereâs nothing left to say. This isnât going anywhere.â
Jungkook clenched his jaw so hard it hurt.
His fingers twitched at his sides, the rage bubbling beneath his skin.
âWhat?â His voice was strained, barely holding back his temper. âYou accuse me of this bullshit, throw it in my face, and then just walk away?â
You took another step toward the door of the bedroom, but this time, you hesitated. Then, slowly, you turned back to face him.
Your expression was unreadable. Empty.
âYes,â you said, voice hollow. âBecause youâll never admit it. Youâll just twist everything, turn it all around, like you always do.â
Jungkook felt his stomach twist at the way you were looking at him. It was like you were seeing him now, really seeing him.
And then, without another word, you turned your back on him and walked away.
For the first time in a long time, Jungkook didnât know what to do.
Jungkook felt like his mind was slipping. Too many thoughts, too many emotions crashing over him at once. He couldnât process what just happened. He needed clarity, needed to understand you. Because suddenly, he couldn't read you anymore.
He hated that.
He stormed into the bedroom without hesitation.
âWhy are you doing this to me, huh?â His voice was sharp, cutting through the tense air the moment he stepped inside. âIs this your way of getting back at me? Because I didnât let you go home when thatâs all youâve been crying about for months? Is that it, Y/N?â
You turned to face him, brows furrowing. âWhat are you talking about? I never said that!â
âOh, so you donât say it, but you show it instead?â His heartbeat pounded against his ribs, his breathing growing heavier. âYou think I like watching you change? Seeing you drift further away when all I wanted was for you to wait? You think I enjoy having you next to me when I can tell your mind is somewhere else? That youâre just enduring being with me?â The words poured out of him, unfiltered, his voice trembling with something raw.
âIâm not pulling any act, Jungkook. Thatâs all in your head.â Your tone was flat, detached.
That only set him off more.
âOh, fuck it, Y/N! Just tell me the truthââ
âNo, you tell me the truth!â You cut him off, voice ringing through the room. âTell me why you jammed my phone! Tell me why youâre tracking me!â
Jungkook froze. His breath caught in his throat.
His head tilted slightly, eyes narrowing, but he said nothing.
You took a step closer, pointing at him with a shaking finger. âYou think I didnât know? Thereâs a tracking chip inside my phone. And what? Youâre going to sit there and twist it around again? Pretend itâs my fault that a tracker magically ended up in my phone? Just like how you jammed my signal?â
Your voice was sharp, relentless.
Jungkook didnât move. Didnât speak.
He just stood there, staring at you. Eyes dark, jaw clenched, mind racing.
Jungkook watched you with hollow eyes, his mind spiraling as your words cut through him like a blade.
Enough.
Youâd had enough of him.
He shouldâve seen this coming. The way you looked at him differently, the way you hesitated before answering, the way you started pulling away, piece by piece. But knowing didnât make it any easier to hear.
âI ignored all the red flags,â you said, voice shaking, tears slipping down your cheeks, but you didnât wipe them away. âI kept telling myself you were doing it because you loved me. I swallowed every truth right in front of me, thinking it was for my sake. But everyone was right.â
Your lips quivered as you exhaled shakily.
âYouâve been manipulating me. Youâve been making me blind to everything youâve done.â
Jungkookâs fingers curled into his palms, his nails digging into his skin.
His jaw clenched. His breathing slowed.
âAnd you know what?â You let out a bitter laugh, eyes glassy. âYou are right. This is my fault. Because I let you do it. I let all of this happen.â Your voice cracked, but you kept going, pushing the knife in deeper. âI loved you. I fell so fucking deep that I couldnât even pull myself back up.â
Thatâs when he noticedâ
You were packing.
You werenât just throwing words at him, trying to wound him.
You were leaving.
You grabbed your phone, your wallet, a small pouch, only the essentials. Because you werenât planning to come back.
The thought made his vision blur with rage.
Something inside him snapped.
His breathing turned eerily calm. The thick mask he had been wearing, the patient, loving, understanding Jungkook you thought you knew, shattered in an instant.
"You think you can just leave like that?"
His voice was soft, almost tender. But it sent ice down your spine.
You froze, fingers gripping your bag. When your gaze met his, your whole body tensed.
He took a slow step forward. Then another. But he stopped midway, slipping his hands into his pockets like he had all the time in the world.
"After everything Iâve done for usâ" his lips curled into something twisted, "you think Iâm going to let you walk away that easily?"
He let out a quiet chuckle. Low. Cold.
Your breath hitched.
And then he saw itâ
The way your eyes darted to the door. The way you shifted ever so slightly, like you were ready to bolt.
He tilted his head, gaze darkening.
"Why are you stepping back?" His voice dropped even lower. "Are you scared?"
You didnât answer.
His smirk widened, his steps slow and deliberate as he closed in on you.
He backed you into the wall, trapping you in place.
"Because you should be."
Jungkook's grip on reality was slipping, but he didnât care.
He loved you.
Loved you so much that if keeping you meant becoming the villain in your story, then so be it. If he had to be the bad guy to make you stay, heâd do it without hesitation.
His lips curled into a slow, knowing smirk.
âIs this what your friends planted in your head?â His voice was calm, too calm. Each word rolled off his tongue deliberately, like he was savoring them. âTheyâll say anything, wonât they? Whisper the nastiest things to break us apart because they donât understand. They donât matter in this relationship.â
He took a slow step backward.
"Thatâs why I didnât want you around them in the first place.â His tone was gentle, almost affectionate, but the weight of his words was suffocating. âThe more time you spend with them, the more they poison your thoughts. Filling that pretty little head of yours with lies.â
Jungkook sighed, shaking his head like he was disappointed.
âBut you just had to be stubborn. Kept pushing my buttons. And now look where we are.â
His gaze flickered down to your parted lips, to the way your throat bobbed as you swallowed hard. He move closer to you once again and leaned in just enough to catch the way your pupils dilated.
His smirk widened.
âSo yes,â he whispered, voice dripping with satisfaction. âThis is your fault.â
You flinched.
He saw the way your body trembled, the way your fingers curled into your palms like you were trying to steady yourself. But what made him really grin, what sent a shiver of satisfaction down his spine, was the quick, fleeting glance you threw at the door.
You were considering running.
How cute.
A quiet chuckle left his lips as he watched you inch back, your breathing shallow, your mind scrambling for an escape.
Too bad.
You werenât going anywhere.
Jungkook tilted his head, watching you with something between amusement and disbelief.
âI canât believe youâre still thinking of leaving when you have nowhere else to go.â His voice was light, almost teasing, as if the idea of you escaping was a joke.
Then, without warning, he ripped the phone from your hand and tossed it across the room. The sharp crack echoed as it shattered against the floor.
Your breath hitched. âJungkook, please. Youâre scaring me.â
But he wasnât listening.
He grabbed your laptop from the coffee table, eyes dark with something unhinged, and in one swift motion, hurled it against the wall. The device split in two on impact.
You screamed.
Your breath hitched as you stared at the shattered remnants of your phone and laptop. The metallic clatter of destruction echoed in the room, but it was the eerie silence that followed that made your blood run cold. You couldnât move. Couldnât breathe. The only sound was the erratic pounding of your heart.
Jungkook exhaled slowly, his eyes locked onto yours with a satisfaction that made your stomach twist.Â
It was done.
There was no turning back now.
His fingers twitched at his sides before he took a step forward, closing the distance between you two. You flinched, instinctively stepping back until your legs hit the edge of the bed.
âYou donât need them anymore,â Jungkook murmured, voice dangerously soft. âIâm all you need.â
You shook your head, your voice barely a whisper. âY-you⊠you didnât have to do that.â
He tilted his head, watching you, drinking in your helplessness like it was a drug. âI did,â he said simply as if it was the most natural thing in the world.
âNow, thereâs nothing left to come between us.â
You wanted to scream, to fight, but the weight of his words pressed down on you like an immovable force. There was no way out. No reaching for help. He had stripped you of everything, piece by piece until all that remained was him.
Jungkook reached out, his fingers grazing your cheek, a mockery of affection in the way he cradled your face. âYouâre mine,â he whispered, the words sinking deep into your skin, your bones. His grip tightened just enough to make your breath hitch. âSay it.â
You trembled, lips parting, but no words came. A flicker of something dark passed through his eyes before he crushed his mouth against yours.
It wasnât gentle. It wasnât soft. It was raw and possessive, his lips crashing against yours with bruising force. You struggled, hands pushing against his chest, but he was stronger.
âJ-Jungkook, noââ
âYouâre mine, Y/N.â His breath was hot against your lips, his grip unrelenting. âYouâre fucking mine, and no one will ever have you but me.â
His mouth trailed down to your neck, teeth grazing over your skin before he sucked harshly, marking you like a brand.
You fought. You squirmed. But he didnât care.
Because in that moment, the last of his carefully crafted mask shattered.
This was him. The real him.
And now, you finally saw it.
You had seen glimpses before, but you ignored them, forced yourself to believe they were nothing. That he was nothing more than a man who loved too much.
You were wrong.
You had unknowingly created a monster. A monster that could no longer be controlled.
And now, it was too late.
Because every path that once led to freedom was gone, every exit sealed shut.
And you were trapped.
Trapped in the darkness with him.
As he pulled away, he wiped a stray tear from your face, his smile almost gentle. âThatâs my good girl.â
The finality in his voice made your stomach drop. There was no escaping him.
Not now. Not ever.
-end-
I hope you enjoy this fic as much as I enjoy writing it! This was supposed to be a one-shot, but when I started writing, it turned into a two-shot lmao. And just when I was about to finish it, I thought about making it a three-shot, but then I realized it wasn't really necessary hahaha
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[ last updated: 10/25/2024 ]
â§ Ë. PROFESSOR GETO SERIES âł Professor Suguru Geto is a renown ethics professor, and you're a straight A student whose GPA he's trying to ruin. You're more intent on making him see your brilliance -- but you get more than you bargained for, when the two of you learn about what you owe to each other.
â§ Ë. PROFESSOR GOJO SERIESâł Professor Satoru Gojo had never failed at anything -- until his latest research project. That's why he had found himself at a weeklong conference, where he discovers the perfect distraction -- you. And he can't help but be drawn to you - even after he finds out that you're the one person he's trying to avoid most
â§ Ë. SATORU GOJO
seeing you tonight, its a bad idea right? | smut, fluff âł seeing your ex is always a bad idea, except when its satoru gojo.
bigger than the whole sky | angst, fluff, manga spoilers âł before his fight, you and satoru have an honest conversation about the future.
dessert before dinner | smut, fluff âł satoru can't wait to have you until you get back from the sister school event, so he plies you with sweet words until you agree to have dessert before dinner.
all's fair (in love and mergers) | long fic, smut, fluff, bffs to enemies to lovers âł you're not sure what's worse -- being an arranged marriage or being an arranged marriage with the person who used to be your best friend.
three's a crowd (ft. suguru geto) | long fic, au, smut, fluff âł professors satoru gojo and suguru geto rarely wanted the same thing at the same time -- that was until you.
bloodsucker | smut, dark âł you had avoided your ex for so long, only to run into him at a halloween party, and he's the same as ever but has his teeth always been that sharp?
got you | smut, dark âł satoru finally found you -- and he's not going to let you go this time.
is it over now | angst, fluff, smut âł suguru thinks the only way you'll leave him is if he lies to you about cheating on him - and it is. but turns out, you're not so easy to leave - for him and his best friend (ft. satoru gojo). "if you want, i can come inside?" | fluff, crack, domestic âł nobara spots gojo with a sorcerer she's never seen before and of course hijinks ensue (aka hearing gojo's english va (kaiji tang) say the above line in apothecary diaries and i lost my mind).
i wanna show you off | sugar daddy au, smut, fluff, slight angst âł when you accompany your friends to a bar rich men and women frequent, you catch the eye of a certain white-haired rich man, who is more than willing to spoil you
tastes sweeter on your lips | fluff âł on a rare day off, you decide to take care of the strongest sorcerer - with something very sweet.
the doctor is in | smut, fluff, au âł when you go to your annual check-up, you didn't think you'd be crushing on your doctor - or that he's conduct such an in-depth examination.
twenty-nine | fluff, angst, crack âł it's gojo's birthday, and he can't help but reflect on what birthdays have meant to him over the years, especially the year you decide you don't really want to do anything for his birthday (but it turns out you do).
sit in my lap | fluff, crack, domesticity âł you and satoru take your daughter to see santa at the mall, and satoru proves that he's just as much of a match for his daughter, as he is for you.
just a little longer | fluff, angst âł after geto defects, you find yourself on a roof of a building wondering where things went wrong - and you're not the only one.
sweet nothing | fluff, angst âł satoru always comes running home to your sweet nothings -- except this time.
lower your guard | fluff, smut, au, longfic âł after the gojo family receives threats to their lives, you're hired to protect the heir to the company, satoru gojo - you just didn't realize how charming the rich heir would be - and just how hard it would be to resist his advances. don't want any other shade of blue but you | fluff, smut, fake dating, longfic âł you can't help but say yes when your longtime crush asks you to be his fake girlfriend for a year to get the gojo clan to stop arranging marriage proposals for him. but little did you know, he would be doing both of you a favor. love means to say goodbye | multi-lives au, fluff, smut, angst, jjk manga spoilers âł "would we love each other in every life?" it's the question you asked satoru the night before his battle, and he replied that, of course you would. but did that promise create a curse -- or were you both always cursed to begin with when it came to love? yakuza fiance (ft. suguru geto) | smut, yakuza au, fluff, threesome âł you had no patience for the yakuza lifestyle your grandfather had -- you wanted to live a normal life, but when it leaks that your grandfather is in talks to have you engaged to one of two yakuza heirs -- you realize you're in deeper than you thought -- especially when they both fall in love with you.
a house is not a home | canon au, fluff, suggestive âł you come home after a long day of work unable to find the person you call home anywhere â until you reach the bedroom (househusband gojo).
just wanna fuck with you, just to make up with you! | smut, modern au, fluff âł satoru gojo is the man everyone wants, except you - he pushed you away after you had your daughter, you divorced him. so what happens when he comes to pick up your daughter for his weekend, and he finds you ready for a date?
rumor has it that my best friend loves you (and i do too!) | smut, actor au, fluff âł rumors swirl about a love triangle between you and your two heart throb co-stars on the set of jujutsu kaisen. except in this case, you and your two co-stars are happily dating. but what happens when you get casted in a movie where they want you to have a PR relationship with your co-star? especially when your bfs find out who it is
break my soul in two (but you're right here) | angst, manga spoilers âł satoru showed no concern for himself -- so you had to, even if no one else would.
beat the heat | smut, fluff âł itâs a heatwave in tokyo and who better to spend it with than satoru, who has an interesting idea of how to pass the time â fucking the heat away.
feral for you | fluff, smut, angst âł satoru gojo rarely loses his cool. except when it comes to you. so when you get taken, he takes matters into his own hands to find out who did it and make them pay.
yours to keep | childhood friends au, fluff, eventual smut, angst âł satoru gojo fell in love with you from the moment he met you at eight years old. and when he sees you again, he knows â he has to make you his.
the honored one | smut, manga spoilers, canon-divergent au âł it's your duty as the wife of the clan head to help your husband get dressed -- even for battle. but that didn't mean he couldn't spend some time undressing you.
â§ Ë. SUGURU GETO
meant to be | smut, dark âł when Suguru defects, he asks you to come with him -- but he's not going to take no for an answer.
three's a crowd (ft. satoru gojo) | long fic, au, smut, fluff âł professors satoru gojo and suguru geto rarely wanted the same thing at the same time -- that was until you.
is it over now (ft. satoru gojo) | angst, fluff, smut âł suguru thinks the only way you'll leave him is if he lies to you about cheating on him - and it is. but turns out, you're not so easy to leave -- for him and his best friend
might hurt | fluff, crack âł suguru's popularity is truly a curse, especially when he gets hit on right in front of you. luckily, you both know how to handle those situations.
i just want to fuck all night | smut, fluff, sex pollen âł after swallowing a curse, geto finds his body in an uncontrollable state of arousal, and who better help him cure it than you?
would it be enough if i could never give you peace? | fluff, angst, smut âł suguru's birthday spent with you is like a dream -- the perfect day spent in bliss, but what happens when the dream has to come to an end?
yakuza fiance (ft. satoru gojo) | smut, yakuza au, fluff, threesome âł you had no patience for the yakuza lifestyle your grandfather had -- you wanted to live a normal life, but when it leaks that your grandfather is in talks to have you engaged to one of two yakuza heirs -- you realize you're in deeper than you thought -- especially when they both fall in love with you.
â§ Ë. KENTO NANAMI
no regrets | hurt/comfort, fluff, angst âł when nanami is injured from his fight with mahito, you're sent to pick him up. and both of your careful avoidance of your feelings for each other comes crumbling down.
armed and dangerous | smut âł nanami's arms were always so nice around your throat, but you never tried having his arm between your legs before, until.
good girls get backshots | smut âł nanami has always been a gentleman, but he finally decides to play rough and mark you up -- at your request.
five times nanami wanted to propose but didn't | angst, fluff, smut âł nanami wanted to propose to you so many times - but it was never the right time, and then, there was no time left.
best part of my day | fluff, domesticity âł on a bad day, you give nanami just what he needs, and remind him why you are truly the best part of his day.
all the time in the world | fluff, hurt/comfort âł after shibuya, nanami lets you tend to his burns and have an honest discussion about what happened there and what it means for your future. but i'm a fire (and i'll keep your brittle heart warm) | fluff, hurt/comfort, smut, au âł throughout your years of jujutsu tech, you take care of kento, whether its a wound from a curse or a simple cut his finger -- and when he returns he finds you still ready to take care of him -- even after shibuya.
â§ Ë. YUTA OKKOTSU
âł coming soon :)
â§ Ë. CHOSO KAMO
it's a need | hurt/comfort, smut, fluff âł after you take an attack meant for him, choso can't seem to understand why -- so you show him just how important he is to you.
hey emo boy! | fluff, smut, au âł saw this boy at the mall last week. got the kind of look to make me freak. wanna fuck in the back of the hot topic?
best friend's brother is the one for me! | fluff, au, smut, bedsharing âł you've been asked whether you and yuji are together a million times - but the truth is his brother is more your type -- so what happens when you end up sharing a bed one night?
just one more bite! | fluff, modern au, smut, vampire au âł choso kamo is your coworker who seems to hate your guts - even though you're both always stuck working together, but the only reason he does is because he wants nothing more than to eat you up -- blood and all.
â§ Ë. RYOMEN SUKUNA
paint the town red | smut, dark, au âł you've always been a goody two shoes -- or so your friends say -- so what happens when you decide to do the first bad thing you've ever attempted and try summoning a demon -- and it actually works?
the girl next door | smut, age gap, modern au âł you had grown up next door to the itadoris, but you never had met their uncle. and for good reason, he had spent the majority of his life in and out of jail. but now he was finally out, and he only had one goal in mind -- getting you in his bed.
â§ Ë. YUJI ITADORI
don't want you like a best friend! | best friends to lovers, fluff, fwb, smut, au âł yuji itadori has been your best friend since you were kids, and when he offers you to teach you how to fuck, you don't expect him to be able to find his way into your heart too.
jealousy, jealousy | smut
which of the men whimper | smut
spooning the dilfs | fluff
jjk men and if they're good at singing | crack
all tied up | smut
househusband suguru
househusband nanami househusband gojo (1) (2) (3)
mindreader nanami
geto swallowing a aphrodisiac curse
gojo - maybe in another life
guitarist! suguru x opera singer! reader (1) (2) (3)
frat boy! suguru x nerd! reader (1) (2) (3)
curse! suguru (1) (2) (3) bringing suguru back to life
part one. part two. part three. part four.
boxer!sukuna whoâs instantly intrigued the first time you two meet. You were passing behind him when you noticed that heâs suffering from a knot in his shoulder. You didnât hesitate to offer your help even with the evident scowl on his face.
âCan I touch you?â You asked politely with those innocent eyes. How dare he say no to that?
He nods timidly, inhaling a bit when he felt your fingers press onto his skin. You added pressure to deviate the tension on his muscles with such ease that even the current doctor canât do.
âThere, all done!â You smiled at him and walked away as if nothing happened.
He canât get you out of his mind after that.
boxer!sukuna who learned that you were the new lead doctor of his agency. Heâs so confused when you look so unfazed when examining him. The man was 6â8 and made out of muscle, yet you look at him like itâs normal for you to see his men like him all the time. He wants to change that.
boxer!sukuna who intentionally makes himself lose during training and sparring sessions just to have an excuse to see you more.
âYou canât keep doing this Sukuna.â Youâre pissed, he can tell by the tone of your voice.
âDoing what?â
âYour next fightâs coming up. You canât keep getting hurt. I thought you were the best boxer?â
âYou distract me when you watch me fight, baby.â
âDonât do that too.â He raised a brow at your statement.
âIâm your doctor âkuna, you canât flirt with me.â
Then maybe you shouldnât give me a nickname, he wants to say.
âCanât help it doc, youâre too pretty.â
boxer!sukuna who going to give his PR team a headache, and the HR a disaster because his interest in you isnât going away any time soon.
boxer!sukuna who watches you like a hawk when you examine other boxers. He thinks you look so cute when youâre extremely focused. Though sometimes, his jealously streak kicks in. He wants you to focus on him and only him.
boxer!sukuna who flirts with you non-stop even if you try to push him away. He believes that fate brought you to him that day you two met. The poor man is stage five in lovesickness.
boxer!sukuna whoâs now suffering from an injury from his last fight that his vision started to become a little blurry. He still won but everyone rushed to attend to him backstage. You in particular, were very worried. Unfortunately, it looks like he needed to be taken to a hospital.
âDonât pass out on me Sukuna.â Your palm felt so warm and comforting on his cheek.
âIf I survive this, let me take you out on a date.â He managed to grin.
âDonât be so dramatic.â
Heâll take that as a yes.
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author's note âžș Hello all! Tysm on all the love and support you've given me on just the teaser!! I have begun the series taglist as well (at end of fic) and if you'd like to be added, please comment so I can add you :) pairing âžș Suguru Geto x Reader content âžș platonic-bestie!gojo, corporate-worker!reader, slight tension, studying mentioned, modern au, reader uses female pronouns, this is an 18+ series - mdni divider credit: @/toastray àšà§ art credit: @/juziluohai
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Morning meetings were always the worst.
Your eyes flicked between the PowerPoint presentation on your laptop and the clock in the bottom corner of the screen. 10:17 AM. Barely past mid-morning, and already your inbox was overflowing, a steady stream of tasks waiting to be tackled.Â
Your manager was droning on about Q2 projections, but you werenât really listeningâyour mind was elsewhere.
More specifically, back to Getoâs message.
You had responded, the plans had been loosely set in motion, but ever since then⊠nothing.Â
No follow-up text. No details. No confirmation. It wasnât like you were expecting Geto to flood your notificationsâhe didnât seem like the typeâbut still, there was an odd weight to the silence. Like something unsaid was hanging in the air, waiting.
Your phone, face down on your desk, was an itch you couldnât scratch. Every so often, between emails and reports, you found yourself flipping it over, just to check.Â
No new messages. No notifications. Just the same boring reality of your corporate grind.
You sighed, refocusing on your laptop screen.Â
Work first, overanalyzing later.
àšà§ àšà§ àšà§
By the time the workday finally dragged itself to a close, you were exhausted.
The kind of exhaustion that settled behind your eyes, heavy and dull.Â
You trudged back to your apartment, shedding your coat as soon as you stepped through the door, kicking off your shoes like they were the final obstacle standing between you and sweet relief.
Your phone buzzed as you collapsed onto the couch. For a fleeting second, your stomach twisted in anticipationâonly for it to immediately unravel when you saw the name on the screen.
Gojo.
You exhaled through your nose, a half-smile tugging at your lips as you answered.
âWhat, do yâhave a sixth sense for when I get home?â
âObviously,â Gojo said, his voice light with amusement. âI told you, Iâm always watching.â
âGross.â
âYouâre gross.â
This was routine by nowâGojo calling you at random times throughout the week, sometimes to tell you about his day, sometimes just to be annoying. You never really minded.
âSo,â he drawled, âhowâs the thrilling life of a corporate drone? Please, tell me in excruciating detail about your latest battle with Excel.â
âOh, you know, just living the dream,â you said, stretching your legs out. âEmails. Meetings. Staring at spreadsheets until my vision blurs.â
âRiveting.â
âYou know it.â
He chuckled. âWell, you got a busy week ahead, or what?â
The question was casual, barely even a thought, but before you could think better of it, you answered honestly.
âNot really. Just work. Oh, uhâactually, Iâm meeting up with Geto sometime this week.â
Silence.
ââŠGojo?â
A sharp inhale on the other end. Then, suddenlyâ
âThis guyâs working in the shadows.â
You blinked. âHuh?â
âOh my god.â His tone was deadly serious, but you could practically hear the grin behind it. âI had no ideaâŠHeâs been playing the long game. Years of silence, and nowâbam. Heâs got you exactly where he wants you.â
âOh, shut up.â
âI knew it. I knew he was too smooth, too strategicââ
âGojo, stop.â
ââwaiting, biding his time, and then when I least expect it, he makes his move.â
You pinched the bridge of your nose. âThis is why I donât tell you things. There are no moves being made.â
Gojo laughed, full and delighted, like this was the funniest thing to happen all week. You could imagine him nowâprobably stretched out on his couchâtaking up too much space, grinning like an idiot.
âIn all seriousness, though,â he said, still sounding far too amused, âwhatâs up with that? Since when do you and Geto make plans?â
You hesitated, your fingers tightening around your phone. âI donât know. He just texted me out of nowhere. Said he was 'working in my area now' and wanted to catch up.â
A pause. Barely a second, but you caught it.
ThenâGojo sucked in a sharp breath through his teeth. âOof. Wow.â
You frowned. âWhat?â
âNah, nothing. Itâs justâyou ever watch a nature documentary?â
You blinked. âHuh?â
âYou know, like, those ones where the predator stalks its prey for ages before it finally pounces?â
ââŠGojo.â
He let out a long, dramatic sigh. âItâs just crazy. I always thought Geto was a patient guy, but this? This is another level. Heâs been lurking in the tall grass for years, and now that the timing is right? Bam. He strikes.â
You groaned. âOh my god.â
âNo, no, I respect it,â he continued, completely ignoring you. âItâs a slow-burn strategy. Like, why rush when you can let the tension marinate, yâknow?â
âThereâs no tension. Orâewâmarinating. Why are you like this? â
âMm.â He made a noncommittal noise. âYou sure?â
âYes, Iâm sure.â
âBecause I dunno,â he mused, âfeels like a little tension. Maybe a tiny bit. A smidge. A sprinkle.â
âGojo.â
âThere was definitely a little spark back in university,â he said, far too casually.
You scoffed. âHuh? No, there wasnât. We barely even spoke.â
Gojo let out an incredulous laugh. âWere we even in the same room? You two had vibes.â
âYouâre such a liar.â
âIâm an eyewitness, actually,â he corrected, as if that made it any better. âAnd what I âeye-witnessedâ was undeniable tension.â
âYou 'eye-witnessed' nothing.â You pinched the bridge of your nose. âThis is why I donât tell you things.â
âI think itâs great, honestly,â he continued, undeterred.Â
âYou guys should totally bond. Maybe do one of those, I dunno, deep and meaningful heart-to-hearts. Oh! Maybe a romantic little dinner. Candlelight. Soft music. He reaches across the table to hold your handââ
âIâm hanging up now.â
âNo, wait! Wait, what are you wearing?â
You froze. âWhat the fuck?â
âFor the meetup, duh.â He sounded way too amused. âGotta dress for the occasion.â
You groaned so loudly it was nearly a scream, and Gojo lost it, laughing so hard you heard something clatter in the background.
âGod, you make this too easy,â he wheezed.
âYouâre the worst.â
You were going to regret telling him about this forever.
Before you could dwell on it too much, Gojo spoke again. âWell, I, for one, fully support this development. As long as you keep me updated.â
You snorted. âYeah, because thatâll happen.â
âHey! I have a right to know if my best friend is being seduced by my other best friend.â
âNo one is being seducedâgod are you even capable of shutting your mouth?â
âJust saying,â he said lightly, and you could practically hear the smirk in his voice. âIf you show up to our next reunion looking all starry-eyed, Iâll know exactly who to blame.â
You scoffed. âAnd if I donât?â
âThen Iâll know Suguruâs lost his touch.â
You groaned, pushing your face into a pillow as Gojo laughed through the speaker. He was ridiculous.Â
You ended the call with an exasperated sigh, tossing your phone onto the other side of the couch like it had personally wronged you.
Silence settled over your apartment, but your mind was anything but quiet.
Gojo was just messing with youâhe always did. But still, his words lingered, replaying in your head like a song you couldnât shake.
âFeels like a little tensionâââThere was definitely a little spark back in universityâ
Ridiculous.
There was no tension. Not back then. Not now.
âŠRight?
You scoffed aloud, as if that would somehow erase the warmth you felt spread across your cheeks.
Good thing Gojo hadnât FaceTimed youâheâd never let you live it down.
The man had a sixth sense for embarrassment, and your flushed face wouldâve been prime ammunition.
àšà§ àšà§ àšà§
*2 Years Prior: Campus Library â 11:46pm*
The study room was too small for the three of youâGojo made sure of that. He sprawled in his chair, long limbs kicked out beneath the table, tapping a pencil against his textbook like he was drumming a countdown to his own inevitable failure.Â
The midterm was tomorrow, and judging by his groaning, he had barely started reviewing.
"I don't get why we even need to know this crap," Gojo whined, head rolling back against the chair. "I could fail this test and still be smarter than half the students here."
Across from him, Geto turned a page in his notebook, pen gliding smoothly over his notes. "Then fail," he murmured, voice steady, unbothered. "See how that works out for you."
Gojo huffed, but Geto wasnât paying much attention to him anymore.
His gaze had flickered across the table a few times now, to you.
Your elbow rested against the desk, cheek propped in your palm, eyes flicking between your notes and the thick textbook at your side. The tip of your pen hovered between your lips, an unconscious habit that surfaced whenever you were deep in thought. A line appeared between your browsâconcentration. Frustration.
Geto let his pen roll between his fingers, movements slow, measured.Â
The numbers on your page hadnât changed in minutes. His eyes traced the faint tap of your index finger repeatedly tapped your cheek, the subtle way your grip on the pen tightened and loosened, like your thoughts were trying to work themselves out through movement.
He tapped his own pen lightly against the table near your textbook, breaking your trance. "Youâre stuck on that problem."
Your head lifted, blinking. "Huh?"
The side of his mouth curled, almost imperceptibly. "Youâve been staring at the same equation for five minutes."
A quiet pause. Then you huffed, setting your pen down and leaning back slightly in your chair. "It's impossible. Iâve tried solving it three different ways, and none of them work."
Geto exhaled, shifting his chair closer. The scrape of wood against tile was barely noticeable beneath Gojo's continued dramatics. "Here. Let me see."
His arm brushed against yoursâbarely, just enough for him to notice the warmth of your skin through your sleeve. You smelled like warm vanilla and old books, a mix of whatever candle you always burned in your dorm and the ever-present scent of study sessions in the library.Â
After a moment, your brows lifted, expectant, seemingly waiting for an explanation.
His gaze flickered to your lips, still caught between your teeth, before dropping to the numbers scrawled across the paper. With a smooth movement, he picked up your pen, turning it between his fingers once before tapping against the right equation.Â
âHere,â he murmured, the weight of his voice settling between you. âYou skipped a step.â
Your breath hitchedâso faint he almost missed it. Almost.
He kept his voice level as he pointed to the equation. "Your mistake is here. You're missing a step between these two lines."
You sighed, running a hand through your hair. "Seriously? Ugh, thatâs so stupid. I shouldâve caught that."
"You're tired." He said it plainly, matter-of-fact. "Thatâs all."
Another pause. You tilted your head slightly, watching him â Like you wanted to say something.
Then Gojo launched a crumpled paper ball at Getoâs head.
"Hey! If you two are done whispering sweet nothings over math problems, can someone help me before I actually fail this test?"
Gojoâs paper ball bounced off Getoâs head and landed on the desk with an unceremonious plop.
Geto barely reacted, only sighing through his nose like heâd already resigned himself to Gojoâs antics long before this moment. He passed you the highlighter you had been reaching for, his fingers grazing yoursâjust barely, just long enough that it wasnât entirely accidental.
You hesitated, lips parting slightly, but whatever thought had been forming was cut short when Gojo's loud voice interrupted you.
"*Phew,* Finally! I was starting to think you two were gonna start privatizing your study notes.â
You rolled your eyes, shifting in your seat. âHave you ever made your own notes? Ever? Once?â
Gojo scoffed, leaning back in his chair. âDonât need to. You are both so lovely I don't need them.â
Shaking your head, you refocused on your notes, tapping your pencil against the paper before absently bringing it between your lips again. It was muscle memory at this pointâsomething you did when you were getting deep in thought, when you were stuck.
Geto noticed immediately.
His gaze flickered down, almost involuntarily, catching on the slight indentation the pencil made against your lower lip.Â
For just a second, his fingers stilled where they had been idly rolling his pen, the movement betraying the momentary shift in his focus.
He looked away, back at his own notesâbut too late. You had caught the lapse, the flicker of hesitation, and the way his fingers flexed slightly against the spiral binding of his notebook before resuming their casual twirl.
But it appeared as if you hadnât realized the reason behind his hesitation.
Geto cleared his throat, voice still effortlessly smooth but quieter now. âFine. Letâs make sure you donât completely bomb this.â
Gojo immediately perked up. âThank god. I was losing hope, honestly.â
Neither of you responded.
Geto twirled his pen between his fingers againâslow, thoughtful. His eyes drifted back to you, studying, considering. Thenâhis voice, quiet yet deliberateâ
âYou do that a lot y'knowâ
Your brows knitted slightly. âDo what?â
âThe pencil,â he said, tilting his chin toward you. âYou chew on it when youâre focused.â
You blinked, seeming caught off guard.Â
Gojo snorted. âWow, Suguru. Riveting observation.â
But Geto wasnât paying attention to him. His eyes didnât even flinchâHe was still watching you, something unreadable flickering behind his dark eyes, like he was committing the detail to memory.
âDidnât realize you paid that much attention,â you muttered, sounding unaffected by his gaze.
âYeah?â His lips curved, the ghost of a smirk. âGuess I just notice things.â
àšà§ àšà§ àšà§
Back in the present, you exhaled sharply, shaking off Gojoâs previous teasing as you always did after your phone calls.
Your phone sat beside you, its dark screen reflecting your faceâlips pressed together, brows drawn, eyes still distant, lingering somewhere between then and now.
You scoffed under your breath. A little spark? Yeah, okay.
If Gojo had been trying to get under your skin, heâd succeeded. But not in the way he probably thought.
You thought about it some moreâwhat he had said on the phoneâthere had been no sparkânot the way he meant, anyway.Â
It was just... familiarity. That quiet, unspoken understanding that came with years of late-night study sessions, shared snacks from vending machines, and the kind of silence that never felt uncomfortable. Getoâs attentiveness and willingness to help was just who he is, it did not mean anything more than that.
If there had ever been anything more, wouldnât you have noticed?
Your gaze dropped to the phone resting in your lap, thumb grazing the edge of the screen before you realized you had already picked it up. With a quiet sigh, you leaned back against the couch, unlocking it without a second thought.
The message thread with Geto blinked up at you.
His last message was still there. Still waiting. Still unanswered.
"Geto: I know a place. Iâll send you the details later this week."
Your fingers hovered over the keyboard, hesitating for only a second.
Then, finallyâ
You: So, whenâs this catch-up happening?
The message sent before you could overthink it.
With a yawn, you pushed yourself off the couch, stretching your arms overhead before trudging toward your bedroom. The day had been long, and the weight of it was finally settling over you, making your limbs heavy.
Flicking off the light, you slid under the covers, the warmth of your blankets pulling you in almost instantly. You sank into the mattress, letting out a slow breath as your eyes fluttered shut.
Sleep came quickly, tugging at the edges of your consciousness.
Thenâjust as you were about to slip under completelyâ
Your phone buzzed against the nightstand.
Your eyes cracked open, pulse skipping despite yourself.
For a moment, you didnât move. Didnât reach for it.
But eventually, you did.
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Just for me to find faster đ
this is my masterlist for all the drabbles, one-shots and series that iâve written :)Â
at the moment, i only have imagines for skz, but i am open to writing for other groups. let me know which ones you would like. once i start writing for other groups iâll add them here as well!Â
bang chan
[9:26 am]Â
lee minho
a new side || [part 1] [part 2]Â
ăŽÂ minho your best friend, your ride or die and nothing more than that right? so you thought until he comes to your with the idea to DATE YOUR BEST FRIEND?!? an innocent fake relationship turned into feelings of possibly love or were you just going crazy?Â
seo changbinÂ
love over bets
㎠changbin was your local high school bad boy, known for dating girls for short periods of time and for one-nightstands. one day he smiles to you in class and soon after he asks you out. but why⊠all for a mere $100?!?
hwang hyunjin
eccedentesiast || [part 1] [part 2] [part 3] [part 4]Â
㎠you escaped your mafia family just to find yourself in another gang from the guys who gave you a tattoo? and how did you end up taking care of the ice prince himself and with such a loving group of boys you would soon realize that you would do anything for. [a/n: this is somewhat based on the story Blood Ink from wattpad,,, 10/10 recommend]Â
han jisungÂ
[1:57 am]
lee felixÂ
[11:55 pm]Â
kim seungmin
[1:23 pm]
yang jeongin
[coming soon]Â
OT8 reactions
[coming soon]
I hope this helps anyone who wants to navigate/find my imagines! ill try to get a new piece in the next few days.Â
Every love song is about you
Things are not always as they seem.
A bump in the night. An eerie feeling creeping down the back of your neck. A cold chill blanketing your skin in goosebumps. All things that make you think you may not be alone.
Mythical creatures and dangerous monsters walk among us without us being aware. Supernatural beings with abilities beyond our comprehension. Some with mind boggling magic. Some with an intense thirst for blood.
But what happens when you fall in love with these beings? How do you continue to navigate through a world you thought you knew now that itâs been turned upside down? Hosted by Sarah @caelesjjk and Sav @jeonjcngkook , Our magical collab participants are here to show you how to give you heart, mind, and bodyâŠto a monster.
Posting of the works will tentatively be in the early months of 2023.
âł written by: sarah @caelesjjk
âł pairing: bogeyman!seokjin x f. reader
âł genres/aus: supernatural au, smut, romance
âł summary: Seokjin has been gone for awhile. People have forgotten who he is.
And what he is, is the monster in the shadows and beneath the bed. He walks through dreams and turns them into nightmares. Itâs more of a curse than anything else.
But when he finally returns to the town he once called home, nostalgia for the girl he once loved making him seek out her home, he finds you instead. And you know all of Seokjinâs secrets, the ones he hoped would never surface again.
âł written by: sarah @caelesjjk
âł pairing: vampire!yoongi x reporter! f reader
âł genres/aus: supernatural au, vampire au, fake dating au, ceo au, romance, smut
âł summary: youâve been undercover at one of Min Yoongiâs many hotels in the city for the past week. youâre there because of the rumors that have been spreading regarding his vampire employees feeding off of his human guests. what you donât expect to happen, is Min Yoongi discovering your true intentions in his hotel and offering you a very interesting ultimatum. pretend to date the vampire CEO to help appeal to his human guests or quickly find out just what kind of monster he can really be.
âł written by: hali @sailoryooons
âł pairing: Witch!Hoseok x human!reader
âł genres/aus: 18+, strangers to lovers, modern-day southern gothic, smut
âł summary: From the moment you step foot in Kill Devil, you know something about the town is off. Determined to find out exactly how your sister went missing in such a small town, you receive unlikely help from the man staying in the motel room next to yours. But there is so much more than what meets the eye with Hoseok and the citizens of Kill Devil.
âł written by: sav @jeonjcngkook
âł pairing: ceo incubus namjoon x erotica novalist human reader
âł genres/aus: supernatural au, incubus au, office au, forbidden romance, smut,
âł summary: after the success of your first novel, a place on the New York Times Best Selling Authors list and multiple book tours, it's now time to write the sequel to your highly anticipated series. But with success comes mind numbing writers block. Unable to shake yourself from the rut, no amount of research seems to aid your issues. That is until someone gives you a more hands on approach to help your troubles.
âł written by: maggie @kth1
âł pairing: royal guard werewolf!jimin x princess!femalereader
âł genres/aus: 18+, royal au, semi-modern day au, forbidden love au, smut
âł summary: When your families castle becomes overrun by ruffians on your niece's birthday celebration, you (the youngest princess of your family) are seized in the crossfire of the outrageous invasion. Caught at the wrong place and wrong time, you are taken for ransom as you protect those of your family. With the rebels holding you captive, hoping to exchange you for their own diabolical agenda, your most regal and trusted royal guard takes on the task of bringing you back no matter who or what stands in his way.
âł written by: jai @gimmethatagustd
âł pairing: ghost!taehyung x human!reader
âł genres/aus: 18+ | supernatural | strangers to lovers | fluff | smut | angst
Ⳡsummary: Kim Taehyung and his ex-fiancée met their untimely deaths when they were young and in the midst of heartbreak. When he's doomed to roam the earth as a ghost with unfinished business, Taehyung is convinced that finding the soul of his true love and righting his wrongs will set him free. You, on the other hand, aren't easily convinced that you're the reincarnation of Taehyung's true love, and you have no intention of being haunted for the rest of your life.
âł written by: lati @jjkeverlast
âł pairing: human!jk x succubus!f.reader
âł genres/aus: supernatural au, demon au, college au, frat party au, humor, smut, sub!jk and semi strangers to lovers
âł summary: jungkook has never dated anyone, because of you and you're soft touches that bring him to orbit. it's all it's ever been, just sex between you. although, it brings an unexpected turn when jungkook accidentally blurts you out as his girlfriend to his college friends which results in them expecting you at the upcoming frat party. what jungkook doesn't know is that you're much more than just someone he meets when he's lonely.
 HAVE READ WAY TOO MANY KIRIBAKU FICS AS OF RECENTLY SO HERES A RECOMMENDATION LIST:
- the laundry room ; dellsey //https://archiveofourown.org/works/11567502 Itâs a really cute quick fic about special moments Kirishima and Bakugou are able to share while they wait for their laundry to finishes :) - The Beauty of a Beast ; starofjems // https://archiveofourown.org/works/6563575/chapters/15017230 A Beauty and the Beast AU!!! Itâs a longer fic, but 100% worth the read. The author is SO good at portraying the characters personalities.
- Heart Strings ; starofjems //https://archiveofourown.org/works/8232415 This one is also by starofjems!! Although it is a lot shorter, it is still AMAZING. Bakugou is able to see a red string that connects soul mates together and eventually Kirishima stumbles by. - Spooky times & cuddles ; Jartz // https://archiveofourown.org/works/8423458 A VERY cute short fic about Kirishima going over to Bakugouâs house for halloween! Itâs good to read any season though. - Whoâs Next? ; MyBlackCrimsonRose// https://archiveofourown.org/works/7872574/chapters/17979370 Bakugou gets hella hurt during a fight and Kirishima is a BADASS in getting revenge. This one is also a quick read and I highly suggest it!! - the easy parts ; chonideno // https://archiveofourown.org/works/12794481
Kirishima gets hurt and is informed that there will be a lot of scarring. Itâs follows him through his struggle of insecurity regarding the scars and his acceptance. - itâs pouring out here ; shizuumi151 // https://archiveofourown.org/works/11431818 Kirishima is on a basketball team with Bakugou and he is the team captain. Kirishima has a crush on him and they have a little run in after getting caught in the rain. - 2am Knows All Secrets ; Unbreakable_red_riot // https://archiveofourown.org/works/8738770/chapters/20035240 OH MY GOSH THIS FIC!! I really love the concept of Bakugou having nightmares about Kamino and the author does an amazing job at showing his difficulties with them. Kirishima keeps waking up to loud noises from Bakugouâs room and goes to scope it out; resulting in a few sleepovers⊠-  Shitty Hair and Shitty Nightmares honest_pebble //https://archiveofourown.org/works/17745419 (I have so many nightmare fics oops!) Bakugou is struggling with nightmares and Kirishima is a good friend and helps while Bakugou figures himself and his feelings out.
- a heart swelled to bursting ; eggstasy // https://archiveofourown.org/works/7350946/chapters/16697356 This fic literally stole my heart and has to be one of my favorites. Itâs the next summer and they are back at the training camps, but Bakugou has been repressing some worries. Itâs a very Bakugou centric story, following him dealing with PTSD with help from other characters. - Let Me Save You ; lovelylittlefruit // https://archiveofourown.org/works/18016766 A short story showing the after effects of a battle where Kirishima saved Bakugou. This is more angst/conflict than fluff but I do still recommend it!! - safe & sound ; Authoress // https://archiveofourown.org/works/6835363 This one made my heart SO happy and soft jeez ahaha. Bakugou has to be kept in a safe house after Kamino because of more threats and Kirishima is his comfort buddy. - not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all ; theroyalsavage // https://archiveofourown.org/works/7612939 AAAA!!! Itâs a â10 Things I Hate About Youâ AU and its REALLY good even if you havenât seen the movie. Very sweet and the character personalities are done really well. - heart stains on the carpet ; cityboys //https://archiveofourown.org/works/7085671/chapters/16104262 THIS STOLE ALL MY UWUâS AND MORE! Kirishima is Bakugouâs live in body guard who got a little closer to him than he had planned. Very cute and has some of the best dialogue Iâve read in a fic. Definitely goes with my favorites. - how they got detention for a week ; eggstasy //https://archiveofourown.org/works/6961186 Kirishima is determined to go out with Bakugou no matter how intimidating that may seem. Kaminari tries to stop him but itâs no use. I really enjoyed reading this and I loved how the authors incorporated the Bakuquad!! - How To Make Bakugou Katsuki a Decent Human Being ; keptein // https://archiveofourown.org/works/6693406 Kirishima is set on making Bakugou a nicer guy no matter what it takes. (Even if that means pulling a Pavlov on him) but along the way he catches feelings. - ten things i learnt about you ; tamacchannn // https://archiveofourown.org/works/11532900 A very soft fic about Bakugou realizing things that he likes about Kirishima. Made me gush quite a few times. - donât count on me to tell you when ; newamsterdam // https://archiveofourown.org/works/10948695 GOD I LOVE THIS ONE TOO. Itâs set in the future when they are pro-heros. Kirishima come back to see Bakugou and confess his feelings, but they end up just being friends with benefits for awhile. Very well written - do right by you ; kyoutimes // https://archiveofourown.org/users/kyoufushi81/pseuds/kyoutimes Kirishima and Bakugou are working together and Kirishima has a crisis about his sexuality. (Thereâs more to it than that but I donât wanna spoil it :P) I loved the emotion in this AAAA - yes, you say youâd like to ; Authoress // https://archiveofourown.org/works/10660773 Kirishima invites a few friends to the beach, which eventually lead to THE WHOLE CLASS joining. He didnât want to invite Bakugou, strictly because he didnât want to get turned on at at the beach. - Kiss your knuckles before you punch me ; Claus_Lucas // https://archiveofourown.org/works/11574039/chapters/26006592 Bakugou saves Kirishima who is a boxer by lighting some of his own fireworks. I donât know how much I can give away without spoiling it, but this is on my top three. While proud of Kirishima, Bakugou needs to remind him of his limits regarding his boxing career. - what he thinks he knows ; lovelylittlefruit // https://archiveofourown.org/works/18060950/chapters/42685514
Mainly Bakugou sided? It follows Bakugou as he realizes that there more to the assumptions he makes about his crush, Kirishima. Itâs unfinished but Iâm excited to see the rest soon!! - good to you ; Authoress // https://archiveofourown.org/works/6904558 Takes place directly after Kamino. The two boys refuse to stop holding hands which leads to other conclusions. I love this sm, I had very soft moments and thereâs a cute little twist that I LOVED at the end. - An obvious patch ; SweetScentences // https://archiveofourown.org/works/11061918 Shinsou steals Bakugouâs eggs and Kirishima gets stabbed all the while. JK, thereâs more to it than that,,, this is one of those fics I feel like itâs best enjoyed if you go in blind. I enjoyed every minute of this fic, laughed and teared up. - But for now, Iâm with you; eikoexe // https://archiveofourown.org/works/8135834/chapters/18649226 A really goofy and cute texting fic!! Kirishima accidentally texts Bakugou thinking itâs Kaminari demanding a Dorito stealing confession. Itâs still being written but I do love it very much so far. Read if you need a laugh!! (Sadly, itâs been over a year since the last update so Iâm not expecting it to continue soon :()
-neon season; chonideno // https://archiveofourown.org/works/14716277
I really love this author jeez. Itâs a road trip fic and these boys are very frustrated with their feelings toward each other (Mainly Bakugou lolololol) The way emotions are written is amazing and I fell in love with how they portrayed Kirishima and Bakugou.
-the color red; ayadormouse // https://archiveofourown.org/works/7156871/chapters/16249418
G o d ⊠This is like a coffee shop/college AU and it holds a lot of family angst for Bakugou. Bakugou is an artist and Kirishima is persistent in getting know the angry guy that doesnât know how to order coffee. Heroes and quirks are more of an old myth/history type thing, but there still are mentions of it.
-downhill; eggstasy // https://archiveofourown.org/works/10551482
Kirishima is a mom friend and loves learning small facts about his friends while in the dorms. This has almost every class 1-A character in it which I love because not a lot of authors write about some of the mpre minor roles. They play truth or dare and it gets out of hand.
-Of course I was worried; Ellieb3an // https://archiveofourown.org/works/11778534
Kirishima gets hurt after his big fight in the manga (so there are spoilers) but he gets confused when Bakugou doesnât visit him in the hospital and avoids him when he returns to the dorms. Bakugou is just a secret softy who was worried about his mans. I love seeing the softish side of Bakugou aaaa.
-The Wild Side; Mishelledor23 // https://archiveofourown.org/works/17973662/chapters/42453836\
Kirishima and Bakugou are married and in Kirishimaâs mind, everything is going great. Until, he wakes up one morning to see a letter and Bakugouâs wedding ring. My heart breaks for Kirishima in this one, and Iâm so curious as to why Bakugou left. (Itâs on going!) Kaminari and Mina are also present and go help Kiri with a mission.
-Roses are red and they taste like shit; Unbreakable_Red_Riot // https://archiveofourown.org/works/11747658/chapters/26475072
A Bakugou hanahaki disease fic, this is also high on my favorites list. I couldnât put it down for the life of me. Mutual pining eventually, but it focuses in mainly on Bakugou and his families way of dealing with the disease.
-little are the things we learn; newamsterdam // Â https://archiveofourown.org/works/11400303
The two boys never outright tell their class they are dating, but 5 of them figure it out and each one of them is stunned by their relationship. Perfect mix of angst and fluff, told from different characters perspectives as they see and analyze the two.
- Detonate; theroyalsvage // https://archiveofourown.org/works/6933307
Bakugou is acting weird and a little insecure almost at a party he was invited to. Kirishima finds him on the roof and tries to figure the explosive boy out.
-Trash Goblin Finds Love; wrunic // https://archiveofourown.org/works/17888012
Another coffee shop AU with a scientist Bakugou. This one made me giggle and the writing is so in character. I love how it ends and Kirishima is a big cutie in this one.
-Radio Silence; doop_doop // https://archiveofourown.org/works/16186643/chapters/37824590
After getting hit with a coma quirk, Kirishima is bedridden and canât move. Although his body is asleep, he can hear everything that is going on. So naturally, his friends visit him as much as possible to keep the guy entertained. But Bakugou realizes thereâs something more to his feelings for Kirishima. (this shit is so cute, Bakugou reads to him)
-one to ten; crunchrapsupreme //https://archiveofourown.org/works/11770692
Kirishima wants to ask Bakugou out, but Kaminari demands that he becomes friends with him first. So Kirishima sets out to become a âLevel 10â friend to Bakugou. (This one is also very cute, Bakugou is a cat lover and it makes me melt.)
-out of sight, within reach; Poteto //https://archiveofourown.org/works/11750853Â
Gahhhh oblivious mutual pining makes me w e a k⊠Bakugou realizes he loves Kirishima while dragging his drunk body back to his house. Jealousy and miscommunication from both sides until there is an emergency and Bakugou drops his grudge.
Thatâs about it! Feel free to add more in the comments :)