Lostindifference - Why..?

I’m sitting here laughing now but it’s crazy how my attitude switches up in just a few days. Like how was I trying to run a little ed blog like 4 days ago now everything’s all good and I’ve decided that hmmm maybe I don’t want to starve myself, or at least don’t need to as I’m only a teen and with that still developing so why ruin my bodily functions and even more so what do I get out of hating myself. I have had on and off disordered eating habits for a while now but I think I genuinely have the drive to keep pushing and take care of myself even when I don’t want to this time, and I know it will take a while to love or at least like myself, so I’m trying to start now. I feel as if I can consider myself lucky to not have fallen into severely disordered and extremely damaging eating habits and since I am overweight with a bit of a slower metabolism I think that gave me some wiggle room as well which I’m thankful for as I was able to not get sick. Kinda a bunch of yap but yea and PLEASE EAT SOMETHING FILLING AND MAKE SURE TO DRINK WATER‼️🫵🏾🫶🏾

Trying to become obsessed with self care the way I was obsessed with self destruction.

Me when I have to go to school

Hi, I’m Amira from Gaza, 23, and supporting my family after my father’s death. My mother is ill, and our home was destroyed in the shelling🍉🍉.

We are now living in tents. Please help by donating or sharing our campaign link to find safety. Thank you and God bless. 🙏🙏

Her go fund me is linked on her page!

I HAVE to stop intentionally looking at triggering content and get my shit together, a family member I live with just called me of today for not eating like I’m supposed to and mentioned taking me to the doctor over it and it’s like they can’t do anything cause there’s nothing actually physically wrong with me it’s just what’s going on in my head and eating less has reduced my appetite. She’s the last person i want to take me to the doctor though so leaving my Lana del ray girl interrupted era that lasted about 2 days 😓

I think I’m learning to become comfortable in my loneliness, which I guess I was going to have to learn to do sooner or later. I would complain about the lack of social interaction I can say that it feels better than overextending myself to talk to the people I consider friends when they take so long to respond or don’t respond at all and then rarely take the initiative to reach out to me and with me already feeling a sense of stress that I don’t even know why I’m feeling it just wasn’t sustainable and yes it does hurt but so did being ignored and disregarded.

⌕ dragon ball • piccolo.

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I wish my life was still mine, like when I was a kid felt so good to get home from school and have something to be passionate about doing but now it’s getting home from school and feeling like I have no privacy, no place where I can destress and be alone without someone else being there, it’s feeling like I have no life outside of what I do academically and that while I have a body, I’m not a person. I’m more of an object to fulfill the expectations of others. Someone that needs to respect everyone except myself. Someone expect to throw everything I know and believe aside to dial down myself and make me digestible for others. It hurts.

What's his name?