If You're A Kid, Please Take Some Time To Disconnect From Your Phone Today (and Every Day). Phones Aren't

I don’t care anymore. Just let me go.

This is all meaningless and pointless. I’m fighting a losing battle, I’m trying to survive something I never had a chance to begin with.

This place only brings me sadness and paint, just let me leave.

It's like we all collectively forgot as a society that friendship and just connection in general takes effort. Even if you meet someone you immediately click with, it takes hanging out about 20 times (!) to become friends. And guess what, some of those 20 meetings might be awkward or unimpressive.

We all want to reap the benefits (having a friend circle, having a partner, getting married) without doing the work (going to events, interacting with people, learning to handle conflict maturely, dating). Myself included. If I could, I'd never leave the house or go on another mediocre date again... except, that's part of the process.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, the cure to the loneliness epidemic is touching some grass and building tolerance for tedious in-person interactions.

ADHD PRO TIP: if your space continually ends up cluttered, then your stuff is probably too difficult to put away or includes too many steps.

Let me explain.

Our brains can only handle so many steps in a task before the "eh, I'll do it later" instinct kicks in. When this happens, we set the object down on the nearest flat surface and let it pile up. Once it's down, it becomes scenery and we stop worrying about it (...until the clutter becomes stressful).

I have art supplies under my bed that can only be accessed by taking everything else out from under there first. Once I've done that and used my item, I never want to put it back because it's an entire ordeal. "I'll do it later." Yeah no the fuck I won't.

The solution was one of these bad boys:

Wheels so it can be moved around, clear so I can see what's in it, and separate drawers so I can store multiple types of objects separately. It's much easier to toss something back in the drawer than rearrange the underside of my bed for the fifth time.

Another example is laundry. It's practically a universal experience that ADHD people will move the laundry basket around our room instead of actually putting the clothes away. I do it frequently. While I can't eliminate that entirely, I can mitigate it for one simple reason: I hang up my shirts. Why have I been folding my shirts to put them in the basket, only to unfold them to hang them up? It's way more effective to just bring a bunch of hangers to the laundry room with me and go straight from dryer to hanger to closet.

The less steps a cleaning task has, the more likely we are to get it done.

What's his name?

Just a semi-regular reminder that you do not have to wait until it is "that bad" in order to start pursuing recovery. You don't have to let it get worse in order to count. If it's happening to you, it counts. You matter and you don't have to put yourself through more suffering and a longer, more arduous recovery process (and more lasting damage!) in order to prove that it was bad enough. If you want to get better now, you do not have to get anybody's permission to do it. Healing can start anytime, anywhere, and you do not have to endure any worse in order to deserve better.

"i can take care of myself" <- girl who absolutely fucking cannot

something I’ve realized recently is that I don’t actually want to hate myself it’s just something that has become involuntary, I hope that one day my mind won’t find it necessary to betray my body

Having to live a future you didn’t think you’d be alive for is so fucking hard