I NEED more derek fanfics
Derek Morgan x Female!Reader
maybe something where reader goes into labor while Derek is away on a case or reader surprises Derek with a visit to the office and brings their new born along with her ( kinds how Haley did with Jack in the earlier seasons )
AHHHH!! love this one, thank you very much for the request. Actually thinking of combining both of these into a two part imagine?? For now though, enjoy panicked Derek <3
Summary: Despite his desperate attempts to be by your side 24/7, Derek is convinced the universe is out to get him during the final days of your pregnancy
Themes/Warnings: pregnant!reader, fiance!derek, general themes of the show e.g unsubs, graphic cases (not in depth detail) fem!reader, fluff fluff Fluff!!! angst if you squint...
"Don't-"
"Derek please."
"Sit! Ah ah, stay... good girl, you get a treat."
A quick sloppy kiss is planted on your left cheek while Derek holds you down by the shoulders, trapping you in place in the nest of pillows and blankets he created to accomodate your swollen stomach and achy back. Your fiance stands behind you, knees kneeling on the arm rest, while he massages the knot growing at the base of your neck, while you lightly scoff.
"Speak to me like that again and I will knife you."
"Easy Mama, you shouldn't model such a hostile attitude for the little man!"
Reaching up behind you, you grasp at his neck gently, bringing him back down to your level for a kiss. The kiss goodbye which you had previously attempted to get up and give him, before he left for God knows how long.
A cheeky grin grew on his lips as you moved to his ear with a whisper;
"She, will be the most well-mannered child ever born, taking after her mother..."
"Bet?"
"Shut up," another kiss lands on his lips, "Hotch is waiting."
Derek lets a low groan, one saturated in frustration, slowly spill into your shared kisses. Eyebrows furrowed together, accompanied by a small frown, he allows his head to lull to one side, rubbing the pad of his thumb tenderly along your jawline.
"Don't dare move from this couch, Sweetheart. Not without Garcia or your mother here to help you out."
"Der-"
"Humour me gorgeous?"
A final kiss, and a huff;
"Fine."
You can't find it in yourself to feel any sort of remorse for agreeing to his terms as his blinding toothy grin leaves a fuzzy warmth budding in the pit of your stomach. What harm will a few days on the sofa do you anyhow?
Hotch was growing impatient, although, trying his best to remain understanding. He knew how hard it was, how the guilt of leaving your pregnant partner at home eats you alive. However, these were the demands of the job. One last nagging phone call from Hotch, and Derek was half way out the door, reminding you of the meals in the fridge (kindly prepared that morning by Penelope) and of the vitamin supplements you have to take before you go to bed.
With a swift, yet endearing exchange of I love you's, Derek was finally on his way to Florida. He knew it was silly, hating an arsonist more for taking him away from his growing family, than the actual crimes committed. Yet, these were the demands of matrimony and fatherhood.
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Three days of couch-rotting down, and you were verging on insanity. Every slight movement left a series of uncomfortable spasms in your joints, the braxon hicks were something serious, and you constantly felt as though you had a gaping hole in your stomach, almost as if you were riding a never ending rollercoaster. Baby Morgan needed to make an appearence soon, or she would have to be evicted.
With twenty minutes left on the clock before your mother was scheduled to come and help you to the bath, you awoke from your half-sleep with a start. Why were your sweatpants sticking to your thighs?
Yes, Derek forbid you from moving unless absolutely necessary, however, peeing yourself was definitely classed as an emergancy. Except, you hadn't. There, as if it was the most normal thing in the world, sat a weird bloody substance on the line of your underwear.
Fuck. Me.
Immediately you called your fiance. Should you be calling him first? What's he going to do from Florida? This was a bad idea, he's busy after all... But, before your anxiety could hang up the phone, the one voice you so desperately needed sang down the line like a prayer.
"Hey gorgeous girl, how's my little famil-"
"Baby! Now- baby is- Help."
"What?! Sweetheart hold on, are you sure?"
"Honey, my mucus plug is very much unplugged and my abdomen is being ripped apart."
A sharp wail escaped you as a dull ache made itself known in the pits of your cervix, and then the anger came.
"Derek. I need you. Now."
"Everything is going to be just fine sweetheart, let me call-"
"No! Don't leave me, please don't leave me."
"Okay angel, I'm right here." His assurance soothed you for the time being, both of you awaiting your mother's arrival. And it was safe to say, Derek was sick to his stomach.
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Every damn day. Every day he tried his hardest to be there, especially nearing the end of your third trimester. His biggest fear was accidentally leaving you alone when that one awaited moment came; and his greatest nightmare had just come true.
"I should've been there Reid!"
Spencer nodded, sympathetically, "You couldn't have predicted this."
"Well, I should've. Fuck. It's just exactly what I should've predicted" He felt as though he could cry, and stifling a sniffle he continued, "Of course the second I leave that's when the little guy decides to make an appearance."
"Murphy's law! Essentially everything that could go wrong will go wrong. Named after Edward A. Murphy Jr, for centuries this belief has plagued several societies-"
"Spence." JJ shook her head gently, nudging it towards Derek's defeated countenance.
Grimacing, Spencer blushed and tried again, "Morgan, honestly you couldn't have done any more than you already have."
JJ then chimed in, "She's not holding this against you, shit happens, and you are getting ready to go home right now! I mean - you got the call a half hour ago, and already the jet's almost ready"
Opening his mouth the respond, Derek was cut off by Hotch swinging the precint's office door open, informing him that he could go home.
"Jesus, that fast?"
He was already rushing out of the room when he heard the discussion between JJ and Hotch,
"Special treatment for the family man."
Family man. He was a family man now. Non-commital SSA Derek Morgan had a bride-to-be waiting for him, and a baby on the way. And he could never be happier.
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Within hours, Derek was bulldozing his way through the ward, stopping every nurse who was unfortunate enough to get in his way, to ask for your room. When he finally found you, he all but fell through the door with panic.
"Is everyone okay?" Kiss. "Hi baby!" Kiss. "Are you okay?! Is baby?"
The tenderness with which he held your face immediately soothed every anxiety within your body, even only momentarily. He was here, he made it. After an elongated silence, you shook yourself into action, reminding yourself that Derek was not a mind reader, despite what his job would lead you to believe.
"Everyone's okay honey, little rascal is still inside me," you replied softly, almost inaudibly, the fear felt previously when you had first called him suddenly returning, "You made it?"
His heart lurched and eyes softened at the vulnerability in your voice, and Derek finally took in the sheet white anxious expression settled on your face. Gently, he clasped his warm hand around your own, careful to avoid tugging at your drip, and dropped a sweet kiss to the cracks of your knuckles.
"I made it sweet girl." Another kiss, then travelling to your trembling lips, "I'll always make it doll. That, I can promise you forever."
I need more fics like this
simon 'ghost' riley x reader
wc: 0.2k
the phone buzzes at 3:07 a.m.
you answer on instinct, heart thudding like a warningâbut the moment you hear the low crackle of distant static, your chest eases.
"si?" you whisper, voice thick with sleep.
"told you i'd call."
his voice is gravel, dulled by poor signal and fatigue. but itâs him.
"you okay?"
"fine," he says. it's automatic. a soldier's answer. then quieter, "can't sleep."
you sit up against the headboard, brushing hair from your face. "where are you?"
a silence and then, his answer.
"nowhere good."
he never tells you, not really. you stopped asking a long time ago.
there's a pause. you hear him breathe.
"is she awake?" his question makes you smile for a moment.
"she had a nightmare an hour ago. i rocked her back down, but sheâs been babbling since. talking to the ceiling fan, i think.â you explain softly, sitting at the bed.
he huffs something close to a laugh.
"i'll put you on speaker."
in the dim nightlight, your daughterâgrace, as he was gifted to call her, lies in her crib, blanket half-kicked off, tiny fists waving at nothing.
simon listens. on the other end of the world, he's crouched in some half-shelled out building, rifle at his side, bone-wearyâbut when his daughter coos into the line, high and breathy and nonsense-sweet, his eyes close.
"bah-bah. da-da-da-da."
he bites down the ache.
"daa,"she says again, louder, like she knows.
his voice breaks low over the line. "that's me, sweetheart."
as the line keeps up, you smile with your eyes closed. tiny moments, as you called them. tiny moments where simon could feel happy even if he was crossing the whole world.
a/n: simon would have a daughter fight me
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fluffy aaron request !! reader is on a date that is going so bad when she gets called in for a case so she shows up in her like fancy date outfit and confides in hotch about her horrible date then he offers to make it up to her and takes her out when they get back <3 maybe thereâs some room for slight jealous!aaron in there somewhere tehe
it's a date
there's always room for jealous!aaron đ€ cw; fem bau!reader, mutual pining, a touch of nervous and jealous!aaron, brief standard cm case info, fluff <3
You were the last one to arrive at the BAU, departing from the far side of town and evening traffic to blame.
Consequently, you pulled stares the second you arrived within the roundtable room. Your presence was anticipated, for one, the sound of your heels clacking against the hard floor, and:
A low whistle exited Morgan.
"Look at you." He tossed out, a tickled grin spread wide across his face.
Your current attire was a dress; a fancier, slightly more risqué choice compared to your typical office wardrobe. It was a light beige, your hair was down your back in loose curls, makeup more enhanced than your usual routine. Aaron had to (internally) admit, you looked stunning.
"Hot date?"
"You could say that."
Aaron felt his jaw move. Clench, actually.
"Sorry for cutting your night short." He apologized, forcing his sentence out deep from inside his chest. He turned towards the screen, concealing himself.
"On the contrary," You eased yourself into your chair, eagerly accepting a file from Emily. "Thank you for cutting my night short."
"With this one, you may want to rethink that sunshine." Penelope clicked her remote, illuminating the screen with the latest case photos. "Ain't no rest for the wicked."
The team collectively ran through it quickly; a brutal family annihilator, decreasing cooling off period, the gravity of the situation heightening and a panicked town. Wheels up in 30 to Oklahoma.
As the others trailed out, Penelope hurrying to her bat cave, Aaron slowed his pace. He prolonged securing his files into his briefcase, zipping it shut, leaving only the two of you in the room.
Coincidentally, you weren't in too much of a rush either.
"That bad?"
You huffed in response as your eyes found his. He was met with a hardened, utter annoyance, instead of your familiar warm liveliness.
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"There's not much to talk about." The bottom of your files hit the surface of the table, loudly, stacking the few evenly together. "The guy sucked. Interrupted me every second he could. I don't think the restaurant he picked was up to code either. Thank goodness I got the call before our food arrived." You shuddered lightly, in theatrics but also genuineness. "I'm greatly looking forward to pretending it never happened."
There was a carefree airiness within your voice - attempting to wave it off, the simple acceptance of one night gone bad - but small dismay was amongst your words.
"I'm sorry." While Aaron meant his apology wholeheartedly, he couldn't help but feel relieved, for his own selfish reasons. "But I am glad you narrowly escaped the potential food poisoning."
That pulled a laugh from you, agreeing. "But it's fine, really. I didn't want to go anyways, don't know why I did." You shrugged as you disrupted the continual, shared eye contact. While the tail end of your sentence was spoken lowly, it wasn't long lasting, picking up some enthusiasm. "How was your night going?"
"Jack and I were just settling down to watch a movie."
"Which one?"
"Shrek."
Your head tilted exasperatedly, face pulling into jealousy. "Really? How fun." You whined gently, wishing your night could have been spent with the two of them. Your preferred choice of company.
"Well, he wasn't too happy it was cut short." Aaron admitted, a loose, downhearted chuckle escaping.
"You'll make it up to him. Perhaps a multiple movie feature when we're back? Shrek, Shrek 2, Shrek the Third... maybe order some pizza too." You suggested, reaching out to touch his arm reassuringly with a gentle smile. "No matter, he'll be thrilled."
Sourcing from your touch, lightning bolts dashed within his arm, feverishly. Aaron soon found himself simply studying your face, falling on the silent side. You were just, you. Extraordinarily kind, beautiful you.
"C'mon, Dave told me if I was late to the tarmac once more, he'd tell the pilot to leave and I'd have to take a commercial." You joked. Although, a small part of you feared he'd stick to his promise.
"Yeah, like I'd let that happen." He rolled his eyes, amusedly shaking his head.
The bullpen was quiet; most had gone home, the overheard lights had dimmed, the team long out of earshot. As the two of you neared the glass doors - Aaron leading - there was an urgency heightening in his chest, mere seconds away from bursting. As if each step forward, he was losing precious time. Any hesitations on the temptations he had felt for months dissolved. Now or never.
"What about you?" He asked, sweetly but timidly, finding a sudden interest in the floor.
"What about me?"
"Who's going to make it up to you?"
"Well," That caught you in a bit of surprise, your feet halting. Aaron turned, his eyes lifting. "That's a million dollar question right there. I don't see anyone lining up to take me on some extravagant outing, do you?" You forced out a laugh, your cheeks fairly blushing.
"Maybe," Aaron replied, his voice wavering with a touch of nervousness. It was rather endearing, seeing him so adorably flustered. "Perhaps the person you're looking for is right in front of you. Figuratively, at that."
A rather charmed expression formed on your face. Eyes brightening, lips pursing upwards, "Are you asking me out?"
"I'm trying." He confessed, his boyish expression just as light as yours. "So, tell me. How am I doing?"
"How about this," You spoke slowly, attempting to suppress the butterflies in your own stomach, hoping to maintain some composure within your answer. "Your next available night after your movie marathon with Jack, I'm completely and all yours."
All yours. He could get used to that.
"It's a date."
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This makes me want a kid so bad
in which your daughter goes to the BAU to hand out her extra Valentines
who? spencer reid x fem!reader category: fluff content warnings: horrible tooth rotting fluff, chemist!reader and leah, the spencer reid dilf agenda, valentine's day, reader wears pink (it's FESTIVE) word count: 1.47k a/n: happy valentine's day my loves!!!!
You had just finished helping your daughter put her visitor badge over her head before she proudly approached the two agents manning the security desk.
She brandished two Valentineâs Day cards for them, grinning while they looked down at her in surprise. You watched them tentatively take the cardstock from your three-year-old while she teetered back and forth in her pink Mary Janes. They thanked her while you pulled your visitor badge on. âCâmon, Leah,â you said, holding your hand out for her to take, âLetâs go see Daddy.â
âDaddy!â She chirped, her pure, childhood joy causing people in the lobby to stare. Most people were already vaguely aware of who she was, and even if they werenât, itâs difficult to be truly bothered by a kid wearing heart antennae. Adjusting her grip on her basket of Valentines, she led you to the elevator, practically dragging you through Quantico.
Her hand couldnât quite reach the button in the elevator, accidentally hitting the number four while wavering on her tippy toes. âHere, lovey,â you said, reaching over her and pushing the number six for her.
Leah beamed up at you. âThank you,â she whispered, lowering herself and standing next to you, tugging on your pink sweater in an attempt to get your attentionâas if she had ever lost it. âYou wanna Valentine?â Her voice was soft, as if you were exchanging state secrets in the elevator, sweetly leaning her head against your leg. She stumbled over the name of the holiday a bit, replacing the second ânâ with an âm.â
âIâll get one after everyone else,â you reassured her, adjusting her headband and smiling at the way the hearts bobbled.
She nodded confidently, making faces at her reflection in the elevator doors as you continued your way up.
You held your breath as the doors opened, once again holding your hand out for her to take so you could enter the bullpen in an orderly fashion, but as soon as they were open, she had taken off, the door being held open for someone else, leaving a perfect gap for her to slip through. There was barely enough time for you to call, âIncoming,â before she ran directly into Luke.
Thanking Anderson for holding the door for you, you followed Leah into the bullpen at a much slower pace and locked eyes with your husband, sighing in relief at the fact that youâd made it with little stress.
Your daughter had already been rescued from a room full of tall people by Dave, whoâd hoisted her onto someoneâs desk, so they were nearly at eye level. âHappy Valentimeâs, Dave,â she said excitedly, urgently rifling through her basket to find a treat that she deemed worthy of his receipt.
Rossi smiled at her, âHappy Valentineâs Day, kiddo. What have you got there?â You werenât sure if he was faking interest for the sake of your toddler, but either way, you were grateful for the opportunity to sneak by them, approaching Spencerâs desk.
He powered off his computer monitor as you leaned on the edge of his desk. âHey,â he greeted, leaning his head up so you could plant a quick kiss on his lips. âDid she have fun?â
You nodded, peeking over your shoulder to see Dave walking Leah around to hand out Valentines to the entire office. âWe severely underestimated the number of parents who keep their kids home for Valentineâs Day,â you informed him. Leahâs daycare class had been nearly empty when you picked her up early.
âWhat does that mean for us?â He asked, placing his hand on your knee and giving it a squeeze.
Raising your eyebrows, you grinned impishly, âIt means weâre bringing a lot of lollipops home with us.â
Spencer chuckled, eyes following Leah as she made her way to Emilyâs office, jumping up the steps and giggling at the sound effects that Tara made when she landed. âHow was your morning?â He asked nonchalantly, and since nothing Spencer ever did was nonchalant, you knew he was on a fishing expedition.
The corners of your mouth quirked up while he shuffled the papers on his desk, preparing to spend his lunch with you and Leah. âOh, I dropped Leah off and then went to work. I only had one class to teach, Physical Chemistry, as you know. I had some time before I needed to be back at the daycare, so I decided to stop at home and found a large bouquet of red and pink roses on the kitchen counter. They didnât belong there, so I tossed them in the trash before heading here.â
âYou did not,â Spencer challenged, grinning up at you, pushing his tongue against his teeth like he did when he was holding in a laugh.
You laughed breathily, hiding your smile behind your hand until Spencer reached up and took your hand in his. âNo,â you acquiesced, âBut I have no idea where weâre going to put two dozen roses.â
He pretended to think about it for a moment. âHow about the kitchen counter?â
Humming, you leaned down to kiss him again. âWorks for me,â you murmured to him on your way back up. You turned your head to find your toddler, seeing that Penelope had made her way to the bullpen and was putting a red feather boa around Leahâs neck.
Listening in on their conversation, you frowned when you overheard Leah complaining that the boa wasnât pink. âLeah,â Spencer called her name, having overheard the conversation himself. âWhat do you say to Aunt Penelope?â
The three-year-old spun around, stumbling a bit when she tried to come to a stop, before looking up at Garcia and jumping, âThank you! Matches my butterfly ears!â She fumbled the word âbutterflyâ a bit in all of her excitementâbubberfly.
Your husband looked at you, confused. âButterfly ears?â
âAntennae, obviously,â you told him, shaking your head in faux disappointment that he didnât understand what she was talking about.
He shook his head in disbelief. âHey, princess, câmere,â he said, waving over your daughter.
You waved to JJ and Emily as they joined the impromptu gathering, with everyone in the bullpen watching while Leah skipped over to her dad. âHi, Daddy,â she greeted, lifting her arms for him to pick her up, which he did happily.
âHi, baby. Happy Valentineâs Day,â he replied, sweeping a stray strand of hair from her forehead. Heâd left before you got her dressed this morning, so he hadnât been able to see her in her festive outfit, complete with a pink and red tutu.
Comfortably sitting in her fatherâs lap, she giggled when he tickled her side. âHappy Valentimeâs Day, Daddy,â she managed to squeak out. Sighing when he finally gave her a break, she asked, âLunch?â
You smiled softly, âSoon, lovey.â The three of you had planned to do lunch as a family, and Penelope had promised to take Leah for a sleepover so you could go out for dinnerâyou were nervous, and she was thrilled.
She kicked her feet contentedly, telling Spencer about the cards she had given away at the security desk in a hushed voice while you watched an exchange across the bullpen. Luke was leaning toward Tara, holding his lollipop in his hand, âWhat flavor did you get?â
Tara peered at him suspiciously. âBlue raspberry,â she replied.
âIâll trade you a green apple,â he offered, extending his arm out for the swap.
Turning in her chair, Tara scoffed, setting her Valentine on her desk, âNot a chance.â
A small gasp to your side caught your attention. âNo trades, Newbie!â Leah shouted from her perch.
Instead of turning on your daughter, Luke immediately pointed at Garcia, âYou coached her!â
Penelope feigned offense, holding a hand to her chest and looking around the bullpen, âIt is my duty as her godmother to warn her against certain people.â
âMeaning me?â
âIf the shoe fits, Newbie,â Penelope replied, leaning against a vacant desk while she awaited Lukeâs response.
He looked over at Leah now. âHow did she even hear me?â
You shrugged. âShe has freakishly good hearing; weâre thinking of having her tested.â
Spencer nudged you at your joke, smiling slightly, âShe saw you.â
Sighing in defeat, Luke gave Leah an exaggerated pout, âIâm sorry I tried to make a trade. Can you forgive me?â
Leah nodded with a toothy smile. Luckily, she was three, and things were easy to get over. âHey, do I get a Valentine?â Spencer asked, playing with the hearts on her headband. Â
Humming, she shifted on his lap. âMommy put all of the pink ones in a baggie for us.â
You flashed a grin back at your husband, pulled a Watermelon lollipop out of your purse, and handed it to him. âIâm very good at what I do.â
I love Derek Morgan and Penelope Garcia
can i request a derek fic where readers also in BAU and theyâre married and everytime someone says âmorganâ both her and derek turn around or show up and the teams figuring out how to differentiate the morganâs and dereks just all smug like âyeah sheâs MY wifeâ
i love youâre writing btw!!!đ©·
"Morgan?" Penelope calls from the kitchen, "You're scheduled for a retake of your ID photo today at 12!"
The responses she gets are a, 'What?' from you, and a, 'What'd you say?' from your husband. You blink bewilderedly at him, and relish the way that his grin lights up the room between you, like a sunbeam shot into your chest.
"Oh, not you," Penelope huffs, peering over the open door of the fridge to glance between you two, "I meant the pretty one!"
"That doesn't narrow it down, babygirl," Derek raises an amused brow at her, drumming his pen on the wood surface of his desk, "You talking to me or my wife?"
"Your wife!" Penelope all but snaps, "Derek, your ego is so inflated."
"It's your fault," You tease Penelope, who withdraws from the fridge with a can of soda and a slightly guilty expression on her face, "I seem to remember you answering just about a thousand of his phone calls with, 'Ahoy there, sexy'."
"Stop," She pleads regretfully, cracking the tab on her soda can with more force than she needs to, "Don't- stop! I didn't know you two were- were hitched! -were canoodling! I never would have talked about his abs if I'd known he was taken."
"It's okay," You promise her, and you really mean it, because you know for all of their sex-crazed banter, they're friends to the highest degree, and Derek is faithful to you. "Penelope, if it weren't for you, he wouldn't know how to paint nails."
"It's true," Derek nods, grabbing your hand to showcase the baby blue color he'd applied for you just yesterday, "You're my personal trainer, P.G."
She surrenders with a sigh, and you're glad that she seems to not harbor any real guilt, because you'd hate for her to be burdened with it. She leans in to peer at your hand Derek has on display, and when she looks closely at your ring finger, her nose scrunches in a grimace.
"You got it on her cuticles, Derek," She chides, disapproval apparent in her tone that makes your chest shake in a gleeful laugh, "Have I taught you nothing?"
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I love this sooo much
in which spencer reid picks up uni!reader from a party. you're drunk, and he's in love with you
fluff:) warnings/tags: established relationship, fem!reader, university!reader x professor!spencer but you're not his student, unspecified age gap, um statistic about deaths from drunk driving, spencer is a nerd a/n: this is accidentally so romantic I'm gonna puke
The night is chillyâa still, dry type of cold that comes before snowfall. Itâs quiet, like the world is preparing for that heavy blanket of white. Even the pounding bass from the frat house doesnât make it very far before falling flat at the end of the yard. By the time Spencer gets you to his car down the block, itâs a thready pulse.Â
âThanks for walking me,â you say, giving him a saccharine smile as he opens the passenger door for you. His scoff is a thick white cloud, crystallizing against cold, shining skin, slightly pinkened from the temperature. Spencer is glowing like a star tonight. You donât know if itâs the blurriness from the alcohol in your system smudging the edges of him, or if itâs just that incandescent halo that always seems to follow him around.
âYou know I wasnât going to let you walk down frat row by yourself at one in the morning.â
You pout and look up at him, leaning close.Â
âSo you donât want me to say thank you?âÂ
Spencerâs mouth is curved in absent-minded affection as he takes advantage of the opportunity to study you up close with darting eyes, entertaining your girlish flirtation, and you in turn get to admire the starlit flush of his cheeks, the way his hair falls around his face and thick eyelashes frame irises that could melt ice. Youâre not entirely conscious of the huge grin that cracks open your face, but you suspect its presence when his own lips part, still smiling, like heâs maybe going to say something sweet. Or teasing.Â
âYouâre drunk.â
At this absolute and unarguable truth, you frown. Heâs grinning now as he adjusts the thick scarf around your neck, shielding your ears and neck further from the chill that the open car door canât block.Â
âNo Iâm not.â
âCâmere,â he murmurs, and before you can process it heâs leaning down, so of course your eyes are going to flutter shut and of course youâre going to kiss him back. The gentle ferocity of it only has you stumbling in place a little bit, and he steadies you with hands around your waist. Itâs over entirely too soon. You blink up at him, your shock and fluster betrayed by the visible huff of air dispelled as soon as he pulls away. Heâs smiling even wider now. Vindicated. Eyes sparkling. âGin? Wow. You are drunk.â
It takes you a moment longer than it usually would to decipher how he figured this out.Â
âSo you just kissed me to prove your theory right?â
The sparkling satisfaction from his indictment softens around his eyes.Â
âI knew you were drunk when you almost fell down the stairs a minute ago. The kiss was purely selfish.â
âItâs icy,â you defend, and your heart flutters as he comes in for another kiss. Itâs soft and still shockingly deep for being on the street, where anyone could seeâalthough everyone smart is inside, and anyone else is too drunk to care that his mouth is open against yours and the heat of it is translating deep in your stomach. Youâre dizzy by the time he laughs quietly against you.Â
âWhat college student is pounding gin and tonics at a frat party?â
The thick wool of his coat bunches under your searching fingers.Â
âMe,â you whisper. âI was classing up the joint.â
The final kiss he presses to your lips is sweeter and half smile. âDrunk.â
The murmured accusation shouldnât make you feel so giddy. Maybe itâs all the gin.Â
âNot.â
Another little chuckle warms the tip of your nose and your lips as he breathes it out.
âSo youâre good to drive us home?â
You itch to kiss him again, but instead, you respond, âOne person dies every thirty nine minutes in America from drunk driving.â
âGood job. You passed.â
The praise is accompanied by a thumb rubbing at your hip through denim. He probably thought you werenât listening when heâd spouted that particular statistic a few hours ago.Â
âDo I get a gold star?â
He kisses your head.Â
âWeâll see. Get in.â
On the way home, that last shot hits you. You slump down in your seat and hide your face in your hands.Â
âOh, Spencer. Iâm⊠Iâm drunk.â
You feel him glancing at you before he sets a concerned hand on your thigh.Â
âYou okay?â
Morosely you nod.Â
âYeah. I took a shot with this⊠Delta Phi Epsilon guy, right before you got there. I wasnât gonna, but he was like, no, you have to! And now I realize that was dumb.â
Spencerâs hand finds the back of your head, stroking your hair.Â
âDo you know what Iâm going to say about frat boys pressuring you to drink?â
âIt wasnât like that. He was really nice.â
âIâm sure he was,â Spencer says dryly. âLots of men become really nice when they think they might have something to gain.â
âI thought he was gay!â You laugh, uncovering your face. âSorry, dad. I wonât drink alcohol or talk to boys anymore.â
Spencer makes a face and you know youâve successfully traded pounds of flesh.Â
âIf you call me dad again Iâm making you take an abnormal psych class.â
You give him a lazy smile which he only takes his eyes off the road for a few seconds to admire.Â
âIâd take abnormal psych if you were my professor.â
That perpetual upturn at the corners of his perfect mouth flickers wider.Â
âWow. Does gin make you sexually frustrated?â
âIt makes me lazy. The professor-student thing is really low hanging fruit.â
âYeah, it is. You know Iâll expect better material from you once youâve sobered up.â
You sigh and let your head loll to the front again, studying the tunneling road through the windshield. A few flakes slash the headlights. Your mind wanders. You donât bother reeling it in.Â
âIâm really glad Iâm not your student. Iâd have the worst crush on you.â
Spencer casts you another side-long glance before adjusting the rear-view mirror.Â
âYou donât have a crush on me now?â
âOf course I do. But you like me back. If I was your student youâd never look at me like that. I would just have to pine after you and fall in deep unrequited love like all your other female students.â
He hums skeptically.Â
âI donât know what Iâd do. I canât imagine not being in love with you.â
âThere are universes where youâre not. There are infinite realities where I am your student and you donât like me back and youâre dating other girls who arenât me and youâre saying this exact stuff to them.â
âTrue. There are also infinite realities where I find you and I fall in love with you.â Spencer reaches over again, taking your hand and settling them, joined, in your lap. âFor each trillionth of a billionth of a second of the life Iâve lived thus far, there are infinite universes which exist solely so I can fall in love with you in a new way. Over and over again. Thereâs not a choice I could make in any timeline, or in any universe, that doesnât lead an infinite number of meâs to an infinite number of youâs.âÂ
The engine hums. The tires roll.Â
Other than thatâitâs dead silent.Â
Because how could he ever expect anyone to respond to that?
You slink low in your seat and bring his hand to cradle your face, warm against your cheek.Â
âI hate you,â you mumble. Spencer strokes your jaw absentmindedly, not at all concerned by your dramatics.Â
âYou hate me? I just said I love you.â
âNo, you did not. You said thâI donât even wanna call it romantic. Romantic doesnâtâI donât even know what that was. You canât just say things like that, Spencer! You canât just casually say stuff like that to me, and especially not when Iâm drunk, because Iâm gonna start crying!âÂ
The last word pitches up and perfectly illustrates your point as tears begin to roll down your cheeksâstill nipped by the cold.Â
Spencer quickly pulls the car off to the side of the abandoned road.Â
Heâs all affection as he twists to face you and take your face in his hands properly, thumbing away tears.Â
âWhat? Whatâs wrong?âÂ
âYou j-just love me so much,â you sob.
âYes,â Spencer laughs like itâs the most obvious thing in the world. âI do. I love you so much. I didnât mean to make you cry, sweetheart.â
âYouâyou donât even realize, that you said the nicest thing anyoneâs ever said to anyone, and you love me more than anyoneâs ever loved anyone, andâandââ
You cut yourself off with another hot wave of tears and a shuddering cry.Â
âOh, my girl,â Spencer coos through an adoring little laugh as he pushes hair out of your face. âYou are so drunk, baby. Come here.â
You let him undo your buckle and pull you across the console-less seat (thank you, vintage car) into his arms. For a minute or two you can hardly speak, crying into the warmth of his jacket as he holds you.Â
Eventually, you manage to raise your head and pull back enough to look at him. Immediately heâs assessing you with those soft eyes, watching how you wipe away whatever tears didnât soak into his clothing. Under his watchful gaze, you exhale a sniffing laugh.Â
âIâm sorry.â
âDonât apologize.â
Itâs so immediate youâre knocked off balance again. âWellâyou were just being nice, and Iââ
âI do love you more than anyone has ever loved anyone.â
Usually, you dislike being interrupted.Â
In this instance, youâll let it slide.Â
Itâs simply too earnest, too honest as his eyes dart between yours like he couldnât contain it. Like you said it and the thought struck him right in the faceâan obvious truth he hadnât considered before.Â
âIn infinite universes?â You sniffle.Â
âIn infinite universes,â he agrees.Â
Both of you notice the snow has started to come down outside. Over the course of a few silent minutes, it gets heavier and heavierâa soft hail, sheets of whispering white.Â
Youâve never been afraid to break the silence with him.Â
But maybe if you werenât drunk you could keep your questions to yourself.Â
âHow many snowflakes are we looking at?â
Spencer hesitates, drawn from some kind of hypnosis.Â
âHard to be sure. Heavy snowfall like this could easily put us at six inches within the hour. In that case weâve watched around point two inches fall. Visibility is probably reduced to about a quarter mile⊠point two inches across a square quarter mile is a hundred and seventeen thousand five hundred square feet of snow, average density of flakes at this temperature being about three kilograms per cubic foot of snow, and a snowflake weighs maybe⊠point zero zero zero zero zero two kilograms, so, roughlyâŠÂ very roughly⊠weâre looking at one hundred and forty two million snowflakes. Thatâs my best guess.â
You look up at him from where youâd been resting your head on his shoulder.Â
âYouâre the coolest person ever.â
He blushes.Â
Tries to reply.Â
Looks back out the window and huffs a nervous laugh, like youâve flustered him.Â
âLots of people could do that. The math isnât too complicated. Itâs also probably wrong.â
A slow smile blossoms on your face.Â
âYouâre never wrong. So⊠what percentage of infinity is a hundred and forty two million?â
âUh⊠undefined,â he laughs, looking back down at you. âBut⊠in tangible terms, which is inherently contradictory because infinity is completely intangible, and actually pretty meaningless to mathematiciansâmore of a philosophical concept than a numerical one⊠it is a very small fraction. Itâs nothing.â
âI donât want philosophical,â you murmur, reaching up to graze your knuckles along his cheekbone. âI want hard numbers.â
He catches your hand and holds the tips of your fingers to his lips as he thinks, watching hundreds of millions of snowflakes falling from the wide black heavens through narrowed eyes.Â
âA googol is written as a one followed by a hundred zeros, and a googolplex is a one followed by a googol of zeros. Thatâs the largest named number we have. It surpasses the estimated number of atoms in the universe. Itâs too large to conceptualize. Mathematicians donât really have any practical use for numbers above one trillion, but the largest number youâll find in a dictionary and which might be formally accredited is a centillion, which is a one followed by three hundred and three zeros. Itâs bigger than a googol but hardly a fraction of a googolplex. Butâokay, weâre setting aside the conceptual numbers. What was your question?â
Your head spins as you laugh.Â
Too much gin. Too many IQ points.Â
âInfinity divided by, uh⊠the number of snowflakes I can see right now.â
The engine is still onâheat blows steadily, warming your arm through a coat and sweater, and whatever it canât reach is warmed by Spencer.Â
âRight. Okay. Wellâto put it into perspective, with snowflakes, you have around one septillion that fall each year. Thatâs twenty four zeros, so⊠a lot. Are you with me?â
âNo.â
âGreat. So, a hundred and forty two million is basically infinity.â
This earns a clumsy, drunken laugh from you, and he smiles like heâd been hoping for that.Â
Itâs so warm in the cab of his car. Itâs so warm under his gaze.Â
Outside, the snow continues to fall.Â
For each flake, there is a world where you and Spencer fall in love. And in the grand scheme of things, youâre not looking at very many.Â
In infinite universes, youâll find each other. For eternity.Â
Youâd be happy with just this one.Â
This is so sweet
synopsis: you switched your perfume, and suddenly Oscar has the sniffles.
pairing: oscar piastri x reader
not proof read! this oneâs like mega short
Your day followed its usual standard routine. You showed up to the track later than he did. Found him sitting in the back of the garage, cooling down, getting his head level before qualifying.
He hugged you briefly, too conscious of the cameras pointed in your direction. But he hovered near, his face inches from your neck. And then a sniff reached your ears. When he noticed your amused and questioning look, he pulled away, resuming a normal posture beside you. âAre you coming down with a cold?â You asked.
âNo.â He dismissed quickly.
You were willing to brush it off until it happened again. After qualifying, when he hugged you again, he lingered longer. And you swore you heard another sniff.
And again, when he took your hand on the way back to the hotel and kissed your palm. Your hand lingered around his mouth far longer than typical.
And again, when he kissed you later that night. He paid extra attention to your neck.
Thatâs when he finally spoke up. âDid you change your perfume or lotion or something?â He asked, nose nudging against your neck. Another sniff, this one more pronounced.
You nodded, fingers threading through his hair. âYeah, why?â Your question was pushed to the back of his mind, as it was too busy being plagued by the smell of vanilla and strawberries. âDo you not like it?â
He nodded quickly. âGod, no. I love it.â He sucked on your neck, drawing a gasp out of you. âYou smell like a dessert.â Breath fanning over your skin, tongue laying flat on the spot heâd just sucked a hickey onto. âSo sweet.â
You hummed and pulled away. âIâll keep that in mind.â
I love this so much đ€đ€
in which your cat has taken liking to your friend with benefits, and you begin to battle with the consequential feelings.Â
pairing:Â spencer reid x fem!reader genre:Â fluff (18+ for suggestive content) tags:Â established friends with benefits. reader has a cat. your cat likes him more than you :(Â avoidant!reader for like a teensie second. it's okay happy ending. the happiest possible ending actually. fade to black. word count:Â 1.9k a/n:Â sometimes the most beautiful poetry can be about simple things. like a cat. :) im a dog person. idk why i wrote this.
Seventeen times.
That is how many times Spencer Reid had found residence at your apartment in the past month alone, taking up the space on the other side of your bed. Thirteen of those times he had stayed the night. Six of those times, he had come for sex. The other eleven? He had come because you needed a friend.Â
Or, rather, your cat did.Â
You had discovered you weren't any more complex than your average man, at the end of the day. Human beings are at their core created to love and be loved, and by extension, to want and be wanted. You wanted Spencer, and you were wanted by Spencer. For both your friendship, and the intimacy your relationship provided.Â
But you did not love him, and he did not love you.Â
Cat's are anything but fickle creatures. A lot of your best friendships were centred around whether or not your cat developed a liking to the person or not. Oftentimes, your fleeting relationships came down to the odd sixth sense the animal had for disliking the worst people. That, and your one night stands were never a crowd favourite within the walls of your apartment. And yet; Spencer Reid.Â
He was nothing short of charming. In a sort of dorky way, yes. But whatever socially romantic skills he lacked, he most certainly made up for by giving you the best of just about everything in bed. A small part of you wants to claim it's human instinct to know how to worship the person meant for you, but the logical reason is probably his eidetic memory knowing exactly what he's doing after a singular trial run. Entertaining the thought of being his soulmate was not a wise choice.
He most certainly was your cat's, though. The Ragdoll always jumping down to greet him the second he stepped foot in your apartment, usually resulting in the break of a kiss and a five minute intermission before the two of you could do anything.Â
At first, it was an inconvenience. Your cat had never taken such a liking to a person you'd brought home before, and it was jarring to watch a man you were partially trying to undress, stop everything to pet your cat. Now, it is simply endearing. You've stopped trying to steal Spencer's attention before the cat does, and you've come to the conclusion that Spencer's priority list will always be the feline, then you.Â
Today was, seemingly, no different. Despite the dull ache between your legs and the fact that this visit had started as something as obscene as Spencer calling from his work bathroom to ask if he could come over after for he was, and you quote, in dire need to touch you (among many other things), whatever those needs were, were put on hold.Â
You smile regardless, leaning against the edge of your couch as he crouches down to meet Po â yes, like the panda â his hand immediately reaching out for the cat to run his head along.Â
Spencer's head lifts to look at you. "Morgan thinks Po isn't a real cat, and we've just got a name for yourâumâ" his brain catches up to his mouth mid sentence, and he's stammering his way to silence.Â
"Please tell me you defended my cat's honour," you retort.
"I did! I even showed him the photo I took of him while you were in the shower last week. He thinks it's a different person's cat."
You shake your head in disapproval. "Unbelievable. Your coworker thinks we've named my pussy."
"That's just Morgan."
"I wish Po could speak English. Then he could hear this nonsense, and stop loving you more than me," you grumble, and Spencer's lips twitch up into a smile, as he situates himself on the floor, the cat climbing into his lap.
"Actually, he technically can. Cat's can understand up to thirty-five words in whatever language you train them in. Also, when they meow, they begin trying to mimic the sound of certain human words. It's their vocal tract that prevents them from literally speaking English," he explains.
But, you're too invested in the way his long fingers are delicately running through the cat's hair, to both respond, and really pay any attention at all.
You had had fleeting thoughts about real feelings for Spencer two months ago. Brushing them off as loneliness and your need to satiate the hopeless romantic within you, you'd forgotten about it up until this recent week.
He'd been over every single day, sometimes for sex, oftentimes for a movie and dinner (which was usually a bowl of pasta you had overestimated while cooking). And every single time, you'd developed an overwhelming anxious pit in your stomach when watching him interact with Po, your heart fluttering the entire time, mind running rampant on domestic thoughts you should be squashing.Â
Should be, but weren't.Â
You'd tried to put it down to the motherly instinct you had over the animal. Seeing somebody else treat him with as much love and care as you did was endearing â it wasn't a Spencer Reid specific trait. Yet, here you were.Â
"I feel like the benefits of this relationship have changed," you say, seating yourself in front of Spencer on the floor, Po lifting his head to look at the person behind the sudden movement, before he let it rest back on Spencer's thigh.Â
"To what?"
"My cat," you huff, and Spencer laughs.
"He is my favourite benefit thus far," he muses.Â
"The feeling is definitely mutual," you nod your head to Po, whose eyes were now shut, seemingly quite comfortable disregarding all your personal plans and taking Spencer's attention.
"Animals don't usually like me," he comments. "I don't know why Po is different."
Oh, you had a few ideas why.
"Maybe he's exercising the keep your enemies closer life motto," you offer, and Spencer's eyebrows shoot up in faux offence.Â
"This is unadulterated love," he protests. "He does not think of me as an enemy."
"That's what he wants you to believe," you hum, pushing yourself up on your legs. "Well, since plans have been rudely interrupted, do you want some dinner?"Â
"Sure," he answers, though his attention is back on Po. Clearly so, for he says, "I'll get to our original plans after we eat, don't worry," almost absentmindedly.
It's the kind of thing that makes you forget you're in the room with the dictionary definition of a nerd. You know it's only because sometimes he says what he is thinking without thinking. It doesn't do anything to help the ongoing internal battle about your feelings for him.Â
Or maybe he does know exactly what he's doing.
"You should get a cat," you say, heading into your kitchen to find something for the two of you to eat. "You seem to like them enough."
"Why? I have yours."
"I'm not going to be around forever," you reply, unthinking. "I mean, one day we're gonna have to end this because the other has found someone they want to be with. Properly. It wouldn't be fair to keep a friendship."
He falls silent, and when you lift your head, you see he's staring at you with an almost confused frown on his face, which triggers your own confusion to appear. His scratching of Po's head has been interrupted, and you're starting to question what was wrong about what you had said.Â
Sure, you're pretty sure you have feelings for him, but as far as you knew, they were one sided. Right?
"I didn'tâI thoughtâ" he cuts himself off, takes a deep breath, then continues. "I thought that had changed this past month."
"What do you mean?"
"I justâI've been here for things other than sex a lot. I thought you knew I liked you, and you were subtly trying to tell me you liked me too. I'm starting to sense I misread that."
For a profiler, he was incredibly awful at reading you.Â
"Yeah..." You slowly nod your head, but it's the deepening of his frown that has you rushing to add, "I mean, IâI do. Like you. I'm kind of embarrassed that was obvious. But I didn't think you liked me outside of having sex with me. I wasn't trying to communicate my feelings. I was trying to hide them."
"Oh," he falls silent again. "So the times Iâve been here in the past month werenât makeshift dates?"
"They weren't intended that way..." you trail off. "Did you see them as dates?"
"Kind of, I guess," he's back to running his fingers through Po's fur, just to keep his anxious hands busy. "They don't have to be, if you don't want them to. I just thought this feeling was mutual and we were... I guess, dating."
"The feeling is mutual," you quickly correct him. "I know that now. I didn't think we were dating because I didn't think you liked me back. Changing our relationship kind of needs to be a conversation."
"Right," he breathes out, an awkward smile painting his lips. "Is this the conversation, then?"
"I guess?"
"So now we're dating."
"If that's what you want," you nod, head feeling a little fuzzy.
"Is it what you want?" he presses. Always the gentleman.
"Maybe," you muse, leaning forwards against the kitchen countertop.Â
He's watching you, and for a second you let the silence fall over you, fearful that you've just discouraged him enough to ruin things between you. He carefully takes Po off his lap, the cat running into your room the second his paws hit the hardwood floor, and he's standing up to move over to you.Â
"I don't like maybe," he frowns. "Yes or no?"
You blink, realising he was evidently too anxious of your genuine response to have any recognition to your poor attempt of a joke.Â
"Yes, Spencer. That's what I want," you're breathless as you speak, and you're thankful for the relieved smile that stretches across his lips.
"That's what I want too," he answers.Â
"Yeah, I figured." Your second attempt at a tease lands, and he huffs a small laugh, which warms your heart. "Do you still want dinner?"
He had somehow gotten closer to you throughout the awkward enough conversation, and he was sliding his arms around your waist. Something he had done many times before, yes, and yet this time it was feeling much more intimate, and your heart was thrumming against your chest a little harder than usual.Â
"Maybe it can wait?" he offers, ducking his head down, lips ghosting over your own. "I don't have a bothersome cat keeping me preoccupied from you, now."
Despite yourself, you poke a finger into his chest and say, "Don't insult Po."
"I'm not. Just merely stating an obvious fact."
"I'll call him back in here to preoccupy me."
"He has selective hearing. And he likes me more than you."
Your lips drop into a frown, lower lip jutting out, and Spencer is quick to try and kiss it off within seconds of noticing it.Â
"I'm sorry. That was mean. I promise he doesn't like me more than you," he says, though his voice is too amused to be entirely sincere.Â
"That was mean," you agree with a firm nod. "You're very mean to me, Spencer Reid."
"I know, I'm awful. Can I make it up to you, sweet girl?"
Well, when he asks you like that.
"Mm..." you hesitate, but he's already guiding you around, walking you backwards, through your apartment and towards your bedroom. "Yeah, I guess so."
Hands that were around your waist hike your shirt up, his lips still kissing against your skin despite the intense multitasking he was forcing upon the two of you.
"Thank you."
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Minutes before your wedding is supposed to start, Spencer gets cold feet, and you have to find out why.
who? spencer reid x fem!reader category: fluff (a smidge angsty) content warnings: alzheimers, weddings, children, babies, sad!spencer, reader wears a dress and makeup, cursing word count: 1.8k a/n: so this became sadder than I had initially intended. also i decided to try something new and write in a different POV and i don't know if i like it. this is my entry for @imagining-in-the-margins' new beginnings challenge, because nothing says new beginning quite like getting married! thank you for having this challenge!
If it were up to you and Spencer, your wedding wouldâve taken place at a courthouse with no fuss, just rings and a certificate. Especially after he shot down your idea of a 24-hour wedding chapel in Las Vegas.
In your defense, you pitched it to him as an intimate wedding in his hometown, but he didnât take the bait.
But when the team found out that the two of you were planning what they deemed unsuitable, they all volunteered to help throw together a ceremony and reception. Everyone was under the duress of Penelope at the time, but they all volunteered.
She could be very formidable when she wanted to.
Your now maid of honorâs eyes were shimmering as she carefully adjusted some of the last few strands of hair upon your head, you had managed to talk her out of a tiara, but to Penelope Garcia, a veil was non-negotiable. âYou look gorgeous,â she says, âthe perfect bride.â
Laughing uncomfortably, you turn to look at yourself in the full-length mirror and take a deep breath, âThank you, Pen.â
âI know I may have slightly nudged you in the direction of a bigger wedding-â
âMore like punted,â you interrupt, an affectionate smile on your face.
Rolling her eyes, she leaned over to grab her buzzing phone on the velvet chair in your ready room. âWhatever, I just think that after everything you and Spencer have made it out of, you deserve a celebration that reflected that,â she speaks passionately, as she always does when discussing people in love.
Turning around to look back at the mirror, the tulle of your veil cascading over your shoulders as you grew giddy. Your dress was a whimsical, white chiffon that fell to the floor and moved with you as you walked. Small straps of fabric were delicately draped over your arms for an off-the-shoulder effect, you had never felt more glamorous. Although, if there was a day for glamor, your wedding day would certainly qualify.
You snap your head around to see Penelope furiously typing on her phone, âUh oh,â she whispers, looking at the screen.
Humming, you step off of the pedestal and over to her, careful not to trip on your dress, âWhatâs wrong?â You murmur, trying to see what was distressing her. Dread built in your stomach; the team couldnât be getting called away? Two of its members were about to get married. This is why you shouldâve just gone to the courthouse; you never shouldâve let Garcia talk you into this.
Jolting you out of your panic induced stupor, she answers, âSomethingâs up with Reid.â
Your heart clenches, âReid? My Reid?â You whisper, âIs he okay?â
The two of you jump when someone bangs on the door, and she moves to open it, just a crack at first â to see who it is â and then all the way open to reveal Luke on the other side. Naturally, the members of the BAU made up your wedding party, and Luke as the best man was the easy choice.
He was mostly dressed, save for the bowtie that remained undone around his neck, âI need to steal Y/N.â His shoulders were rising and falling quickly like he had run across the building.
âSheâs getting ready for the wedding. Her wedding,â Penelope answers, gesturing back to you. âBesides, itâs bad luck for the groom to see the bride before the wedding.â
Really, you were mostly ready, you just needed to put your shoes on and line up. âThere wonât be a wedding if we canât get the groom out there,â Luke replies.
You warily approach the doorway, peeking around the door, âWhatâs wrong?â
âHe just needs you,â Luke explains, gesturing toward you with his hands.
Nodding determinedly, you step out the door and run over to the other side of the building to where the groomâs ready room is, pulling the fabric of your dress up so that you donât trip. Along the way, you pass a few guests, but you donât stop.
It wasnât news to most of them that you were a grounding force for Spencer, the two of you had been put through, as Luke put it, the wringer together and still managed to come out the other side. You skid to a halt in front of the door and knock quickly, âSpence, itâs me.â
âItâs bad luck to see the bride before the ceremony,â he murmurs through the door, echoing the earlier sentiments of Penelope. You know he doesnât believe in it, which only adds to your concern.
You couldnât help but roll your eyes, fidgeting with the doorknob just to discover itâs locked. âIf you donât unlock the door, Iâm going to go find Derek and have him kick it down for me,â you threaten, wondering if the reminder of all of the people here would coax him out.
There was no response from the other side of the door.
Sighing, you turn to look at Luke, âCan you give us a minute?â He nods, letting you know heâll talk to Garcia before walking down the long hallway.
Once heâs gone, you hear the tell-tale click of the door unlocking, âGarcia will kill you if you walk in here.â
âPenny isnât here, baby. Itâs just you and me, okay?â You speak lowly, âWhatâs wrong, my love?â Dropping your hand on the doorknob, you startle slightly when it turns and the door swings open.
You yelp when Spencer pulls you in, closing the door behind you before he wraps his arms tightly around your waist. Immediately, you feel his body relax against yours, âIsnât this supposed to be bad luck?â He murmurs.
Humming, you return his hug gratefully, âWeâve had enough bad luck, donât you think? Itâll be okay.â His arms loosen around you, and you pull away slightly so you can look up at him, placing your hands tenderly on his chest, thumbing the satin fabric of his lapels. âAnd besides, Iâm not fully dressed yet. Iâm fairly certain that means it doesnât count.â
âYou look beautiful,â he whispers, holding you out at armâs length. âYouâre perfect, and IâmâŠâ His voice trails off as he takes a step back from you, sighing as he takes a seat in one of the white chairs in the ready room.
Tilting your head to the side, you felt the fabric of your veil flow to the side, âYouâre what, Spence?â You ask, slowly approaching the chair he was sitting in.
He furrows his brows in apprehension, âI think I might be scared of you,â he answers candidly.
You couldnât help the giggle that spurted from your lips, âAm I really that scary?â You inquire softly, seeking more answers from him. You saw him better now, the darkness of his tux offset by the purple bowtie and handkerchief, joined with the light florals of his boutonniĂšre. Spencerâs hair was a mess, a tell-tale sign that he had been running his hands through it.
Clearing his throat, Spencer looks up at you with a look in his eye that you canât quite place, âI passed by your room earlier, and I heard you laughing.â He took a deep, tentative breath, âI thought you sounded so happy, and now Iâm not sure I can keep you happy.â
Sighing, you duck your head slightly, âSpencer,â you say seriously, âare we still getting married today?â
âWhat?â He says in disbelief. âOf course we are, thatâs not- Iâm sorry,â he murmurs, shaking his head. âWeâre still getting married; Iâve quite literally never wanted anything more in my entire life. Iâm just worried,â he speaks quietly.
Gingerly, you step closer to the chair before he reaches out for you, placing a hand on your waist and gently guiding you down until you are sitting on his lap. âYou make me so happy, Spencer Reid. I know that somewhere in that gorgeous brain of yours you know that, but I also know that you are your own worst critic.â
Youâre sitting sideways on his lap with your legs latticed on top of each other. Gingerly, he places a hand on your thigh and another on the small of your back, âYou deserve everything you want in the world.â
âAnd I want you. Doesnât that count for something?â You ask him, emotion beginning to rise in your throat â you cannot cry, then the wedding would really be delayed. âSpencer, Iâm so ecstatic that at the end of today, I get to be your wife. Thatâs such a privilege to me. You and I, we get to be so fucking happy today. We deserve that.â You tell him gently, âWe get to be married and go on our honeymoon and come home and we can tell all of your stories to your mom, and weâll have a baby or two and weâll be so fucking happy.â You swallow your emotion, looking up at the light in the hope that it will clear your tears. âFor the rest of our lives, weâll be so happy.â
Then it came, âI donât want to forget you.â His voice is almost imperceptible, but you hear him still.
The ache in his voice feels like a stab to your heart, you were well aware that his mother had Alzheimerâs. She wasnât having a good day today, but the two of you had gone to visit her in the morning. Ever since she was diagnosed, itâs been like Spencer has a storm cloud hovering over him â he canât be tested for the gene markers, not for a few more years. Taking a deep breath, you reach over and smooth his hair back, âIf you get Alzheimerâs, I will sit down with you every day and remind you. Iâm going to walk down that aisle today and tell you that Iâm going to love you in sickness and in health and Iâm going to mean it.â
âIâm scared,â he murmurs, leaning into your touch.
Using your free hand, you reach up and tenderly wipe a tear from his cheek, âWe can take it.â
He nods in agreement with you, âTogether, as a team,â he concurs, a slight amount of confidence returning to his voice.
Resting your head on his shoulder, the two of you take your moment. The last moment before you officially unite as one, and you let that moment take as long as you need. âI should go,â you whisper, looking over at the clock, the ceremony was supposed to have started by now.
Spencer leans down and kisses you, âIâll see you out there?â He asks expectantly.
Nodding assuredly, you reach up and wipe a smudge of lipstick from his mouth, âIâll be there.â
During the ceremony, you impressively were able to keep yourself together, until you promised him you would love him in sickness and in health.
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Bombshell r loosing her mind when Spence walks into work late that one day and he has the âboy bandâ haircut
âWhatâs with the face?âÂ
Morgan raises his eyebrows at you, waiting for an answer you donât have.Â
âWhatâs wrong with my face?â you ask.Â
âNothingââ
âClearly.âÂ
âYou look way too happy, considering.â He gestures to the board currently displaying a grisly crime scene photo and the empty seat across from you. âAnother case, and a severe lack of your favourite toy.âÂ
âSpencer isnât my toy, heâs my sweetheart, and Iâm gutted heâs running late but Iâm toughing it out.âÂ
Being on the team is all youâve ever wanted. With Gideon long gone and enough time elapsed between Straussâ political push for Emily, youâre here permanently, where youâve always wanted to be. Itâs been the best few months of your life. A lot of that due to Spencerâs unfailing friendship. Heâs so kind to you. Youâre really getting along.Â
âLetâs focus in,â Hotch says.Â
You bridle with excitement, poorly contained. You donât get very far into spitballing when JJâs lips part in bemusement.
âWell, hello,â she says.Â
You turn in your chair away from JJ and Penelope where theyâre giving the presentation to the door, where Spencer is smiling genially. He sits down with his bag still on his shoulder, a heavy silence having fallen over the room.Â
Spencer has cut his hair. Gone is the long, mostly straight lengths of his hair. Did he get a perm? Youâre shell-shocked. âOh my god,â you mumble to yourself.Â
âWhat, did you join a boyband?â Hotch asks, frowning.Â
His lips part in small offence. âNo,â he says.Â
Emily and Morgan laugh. Spencer tucks his chair in, and you donât know who wants to say what or how quickly youâre supposed to pretend to get over this, but you donât care. âSpencer!â you say, âSpencer!âÂ
âL/N, please donât start.âÂ
Hotch is only saying please because he knows he had his own reaction he couldâve kept internal, how can he ask you to smother your own. You lean hard across the table and gaze at Spencer lovingly âstartled but inarguably infatuated.
âYouâve never, ever looked this handsome before,â you say, true and not true, âever. I gottaââ Your hand reaches out at the same moment your legs decide to stand. âCan I touch it?âÂ
Hotch sighs with disappointment.Â
You pass behind your teammates' chairs to look at him.Â
âStop,â Spencer says immediately, his palm to your stomach. âYouâre being mean.âÂ
âIâm being mean? You didnât even consult me.âÂ
âItâs my hair.âÂ
âSpencer, youâre gorgeous no matter what, but I need some warning if you donât want me to do this.âÂ
âSit back down,â Morgan says, rolling his eyes.Â
You tuck one lovely curl behind Spencerâs ear carefully. âI love it so much, I canât believe it. This is the best thing thatâs happened to me since I joined the BAU.âÂ