helmut marko the mouthpiece of how Red Bull has always, and will always, view their brown drivers. this team has continually been racist to Checo, Yuki and now Isack and their treatment has been so overlooked and ignored by everyone it's so upsetting.
Lewis asking Max to take a knee is low-key hypocritical when you consider that British media and some of his supporters are racist towards Max and lewis hasn't said a thing about it in the past years. Just look at how Max gets booed by british crowds due to the massive hate British media is spreading against him. Where was lewis to defend Max and call that type of behavior out?
Anon, I’m gonna hold your hand while I tell you this…..
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𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 ! — spencer reid x black fem reader
𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓! — i gotta find peace of mind • lauryn hill ; sistanem • jid ; show me • joey bada$$ ; purity • asap rocky
𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 ! — a few curse words, anxiousness
𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐑𝐄 ! — fluff, angst if you close your eyes a little bit
𝐑𝐄𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓(𝐄𝐃)? — omg hiiii,i saw that your taking requests and i was wondering if i could request a spencer reid fic where he has a chill earthy gf and the team meets her for the first time and is like shocked ish cause they expected spencer to be with someone who’s also like nerdy
𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐓 ! — 1.2k
𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒 ! — Following his release from prison, Spencer didn’t have the easiest time expressing his emotions, but gradually through the arms of a woman that smells of pomegranates and nag champa, he found peace.
𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄 ! — I changed it up a little bit because originally it was scarily close to “ewa”, so i deeply apologize that it doesn’t completely match the ask!
Spencer’s personality had grown much rougher since being released from prison. Made evident by the large book he’d thrown at the debriefing room’s glass and the lack of optimism in his speech and emotions, Spencer became a guarded being, completely avoidant of any form of vulnerability.
The team tried their best to provide forms of assistance. Penelope started leaving the man his sugar with a drop of coffee and a sweet treat on his desk in the mornings. Emily and JJ attempted to start and include him in conversations, feeling as though pity and direct changes to how they interacted with him would only offset him more. Morgan relaxed with the one-liners and jokes directed towards him but still maintained enough for work to not feel like a grave shift, while Rossi and Hotch remained as they were. Spencer’s paperwork following each had certainly lightened but if you were to ask them they knew nothing about it.
The team tried their best to support and aid Spencer into readapting, not wanting to risk him falling into less-than-healthy coping methods he’s used in tears past, which is why it was extremely weird to see the gradual changes in his style and attitude. It wasn’t a revert to the lighter neutrals and sweater vests he once adorned, but embellishments to what he currently sported—stacked rings and crystal bracelets decorating both hands, a collection of gold necklaces he’d rotate through, and he started smelling faintly of Mielle products and Nag Champa. He’d also, for lack of better phrasing, “mellowed out”. His words had almost completely lost their edge and hostility, no more foreign objects had been thrown out of anger, and they could start to see their old Spencer peaking through. They never knew how much they missed the sound of his voice and the privilege of asking him to shut up until he’s taken his unspoken vow of silence.
As a man who had been in love many times before, especially with a woman of a darker complexion, Rossi had immediately caught on the moment he saw a peak of an ankh. In her younger years, Hayden loved to drag Rossi through street markets collecting decor, trinkets, and things of the “spiritual” nature to keep around their shared home. So the waft of these scents he had gotten when Spencer walked to his desk a few weeks ago made him instantly aware.
Luckily, their annual pasta night had been quickly approaching, and ever the romantic, Rossi always strongly encouraged his team to bring their significant others. He wouldn’t approach or push Spencer on the topic unless he chose to bring it up himself, however, he is gossipy and extremely nosy so he anxiously awaited the day another would pick up on it and say the quiet thing aloud.
Unsurprisingly, Morgan was next. The subtle scent of pomegranate and honey hair products added a shine to boy genius’ natural curls. He may no longer have hair but he spent enough time around the women in his life to pick up on curl products from a sista in his vicinity. In general, the boy looked more alive. The eyebags decorating his eyes had lessened, and the paleness in his skin diminished almost completely. He knew this magic had to be the work of one of his own.
It wasn’t until the boy had been figuratively walking on air through the BAU that someone chose to mention it. Essentially floating past the chismosa trio of Morgan, Emily, and JJ.
“You got something to tell us, pretty boy?”
Passiveness and secrecy had never worked in the boy’s favor in the past and persisted in doing so as a soft smile grew upon his face. It was the dopey kind of a man in love and easily confirmed what most if not all had known.
“As a matter of fact, I do, but you’ll have to be patient.” he said before turning away from
The week leading up to this night at Rossi’s had the girls of the team shaking with anticipation. Penelope for one had taken any opportunity to speculate who this woman was, Reid never adapted in the internet usage aspect so attempting to search and stalk her social media profile would be futile, all they could do was guess and wait.
You could feel your tachycardic heart pounding away in your chest. You were proud to claim to be extroverted in any instance besides meeting FBI agents that your boyfriend had known for over a decade. They saw him become the man he was when he met you, so any opinions they could develop of you would inevitably trump his feelings and be the death of your relationship.
Hearing that you’d be going to a rich Italian man’s house for dinner and meeting so many new people, you’d taken that as an unspoken ‘you better dress to fucking impress’. Your attempt at people pleasing wasn’t intentional, you just wanted to love the people who lived your man, so soon after you returned from the bookstore with Spencer, you took to digging through the depths of your closet to reach untouched pieces saved for special occasions.
Even though it had been extreme, you stayed up for the entirety of the previous night to install some long small boho braids, you couldn’t tell if the urge to crack your knuckles had been from the exertion or your anxiety skyrocketing.
And regardless of whatever sweet and smooth words your boyfriend would utter, whether an “I love you, so they’ll love you” or “they aren’t as judgmental as you’re assuming” they did very little to quell the choking feeling you got every time you envisioned how this would play out. Because what do you mean they aren’t judgmental, when you’re entire career revolves around doing so??
Immediately spotting the gaggle of profiles standing around the kitchen island from the door Spencer had held open for you, you grasped his hand and made your way toward the group. Lips rubbing together to ensure the liner you’d repetitively applied in the car had fully blended into your chosen lip gloss, and soon stretching to reveal your smile of nervousness. You knew you looked nothing short of amazing, you just hoped they thought your personality was up to par as well.
The sundress you’d chosen to wear fanned out and flowed behind you with each new step you took, the clack of your heels grabbing their attention. Being a little farsighted, you could only see the physical appearances of them as you drew nearer. The closest being a beautiful blonde, adorning accessories exactly adjacent to the bangles, rings, and necklaces you wore. Your smile grew further as her chin comedically dropped.
“Oh my god, she’s hot.”
That made you let out the deepest sigh of relief.
𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙞𝙣 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙙𝙙𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩? 𝙘𝙡𝙞𝙘𝙠 𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚!
𝘐 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘢𝘨𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘴, 𝘴𝘰 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘧𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘵 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘢𝘨𝘨𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘳 𝘧𝘶𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬𝘴!
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People are so determined to break the spirit of young people, particularly black people, who are achieving success and it’s very much rooted in jealousy.
People are so desperate to have a gotcha moment for Jude that they are forcing a negative narrative about him. They are so desperate to see him fail just so they can sit in their local pub and say I told you so.
They built him up from Dortmund to Madrid but when they saw wait, this little black boy might actually do incredible things they decided they need to humble him because they don’t want him to have “to much power”. They have to remind him who wields the whip.
They can’t stand to see a young man and particularly a young black man who is eloquent, focused, showing his talent & reaping the rewards of it. It irks them to not have something about him that they can feel is negative so they can feel better about themselves.
Pure “mean girl” energy.
One of the things that is pitiful to watch is persons harping on “he’s so PR trained” because he speaks clearly and directly. As if it’s so offensive for a young man, particularly a black young man to be able to formulate an idea in his brain and speak in fluid sentences. It’s another branch of they need to have something to humble him - he can’t be talented and intelligent because how will they, the people who are drowning in their own insecurities, feel better about themselves ?
Then we come to “forcing it” ; Imagine complaining that he gave a disabled child a jacket in the rain. Are we sure Jude is the villain in this story Ryan? But I know how this script goes, once you become their target - just like Raheem, Sterling & Saka there is nothing you can do right. If Jude didn’t give that child his jacket, they’d say he is cruel, when he does give the child - he’s a PR merchant.
“Hasn’t had a good game in 2024” meanwhile by the end of the 2024 season Jude while playing majority games has - won la liga, won the champions league, won la liga player of the year and was real Madrid’s top goal scorer. But hey, clearly since you’re so smart Ryan, I’m sure we’ll be seeing your above the rest punditry on sky sports tonight.
The people like that aren’t trying to give any real opinions on football they just want to break a man who is achieving unimaginable heights. They want to see him crack and if it were to happen they will toss him aside and move along. Then every once in a while say hmm you remember Jude? He had so much potential.
It is especially hurtful to see English people behave this way. Why are you trying to tear down your own local talent? Why do you want to destroy the potential legacy and English man can make ?
It’s truly all disgusting and it’s ludicrous at this point to believe this level of bullying is warranted for any performance Jude could have had in a season with the results he has attainted.
I still cannot get over the fact that Oscar kept going. Like this man. he was fully stuck in the grass after his team had prevented him from going for the win before with fucking papaya rules, and yet he grit his teeth reversed out and actually scored two points. I cannot imagine what he was feeling that moment in the grass. they had literally marked him as out of the grand prix and he said actually no, fuck that. he is my driver of the day cause he should've won that.
JJ Maybank x Reader x Rafe Cameron
Warnings: mentions of NON-CON, DUB-CON acts, abusive relationship, domestic violence, violence (+ gun violence), gun kink, dacryphilia, attempted murder, mentions of blood, public sex, jealousy, manipulation, infidelity, underage drinking, drug use, canon ages, kook!reader
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summary: You’re charmingly spoiled. You’re too kind for your own good. You’re the princess of Figure 8 …and you’re way out of JJ Maybank’s league, but when he realizes that Rafe Cameron’s pride and joy is actually a bruised and battered damsel, he’s determined to save you.
Your rescue just comes with a price.
You blinked at JJ’s question, leaning back against the wall of the pool house.
He sat next to you, both of you facing the couch, and you tried to ignore the feel of his arm brushing against yours. Despite the fact that it was only a week ago that he was kissing you in your bedroom—and that Rafe didn’t not deserve it—you still felt wrong about the whole thing. Horrible or not, the older blond was still your boyfriend, and it was bad enough that you were hiding out in the pool house with JJ while Rafe was probably off snorting coke with his friends.
You didn’t want to make it worse by doing anything other than talking.
The blonde’s question made you eventually sigh, straightening.
“Hey…hey, you don’t have to answer anything you don’t-.”
“No…I…” you shook your head. “It’s fine.”
That was the truth.
“It’s just that I’ve never talked about any of this with anyone before…”
Your voice shrank, and you didn’t want to admit how comforting it felt to feel JJ’s hands come up to rest on your arms. It was strange to say all of this out loud to anyone, especially JJ, because you were so used to Rafe’s behavior—had been rationalizing it for so long—and you felt nervous as to how JJ would take it.
“It was my 19th birthday,” you slowly said.
You felt JJ tense, and when you snuck a glance at him, there was a deep frown on his face as he looked at you.
“We were arguing…” you sadly smiled as you thought about what it’d been about. “…because I wouldn’t have sex with him.”
You scoffed at the memory and at how you’d ignored what you thought was a little thing.
“It’d been a sore spot for a while. I was a virgin, I wasn’t ready, and Rafe was waiting longer than he’d anticipated.”
JJ’s hands fell, and he fully turned to face you, that frown remaining on his face as he listened.
“It became this whole…thing that really just pissed me off because it was my birthday,” you spat out, frowning now too. “It was my birthday party, and he was ruining it.”
You swallowed, recalling how angry and sad you’d felt that night.
“You know, I was reading up on this one day, and it said that sometimes people like him will purposely start arguments and fights on special days and holidays and stuff to make it all about them?” you chuckled to yourself, shaking your head. “They were right.”
Tears kissed your eyes, and JJ reached out to brush his thumbs underneath them.
“…because every time I think about that day, instead of remembering turning nineteen and celebrating with my family and my friends and my boyfriend… All I remember is him slapping me,” you whispered, holding JJ’s gaze. “All I remember is where it all started and how he begged me to forgive him…and how I should’ve left then.”
“Hey…”
“It was my birthday…but to me it’s just the beginning of the end. It’s the start of when Rafe ruined my life.”
JJ wrapped his arms around you, pulling you closer, and you pressed your face into his shoulder. You felt so odd—so much lighter—and you didn’t need to be a therapist to know that it was because you were finally talking about this. The blonde’s hands rubbing up and down your back was enough to make your lashes flutter.
“You know, I blamed myself for the longest time,” you mumbled.
JJ pulled away almost immediately, lips parting, and you shook your head.
“I know that it’s not my fault. I know that, now, but… I was so angry that night that I said things that I knew would make him mad,” you shrugged. “It just didn’t seem fair that I was the only one upset on my birthday.”
“That doesn’t excuse him hitting you,” JJ bit out, and you nodded with a shrug.
“It doesn’t…but…for a while I kind of believed I’d brought that on myself.”
JJ looked like he didn’t know how to take in what you’d told him, pink lips pressed together as he just studied your face. The bruising under your eye was practically nonexistent, and you shuddered when he reached up to lightly graze the skin with his fingers. You’d been exceptionally agreeable since the incident, dreading a repeat of the night where Rafe forced himself on you so violently that you’d had to strip the sheets.
JJ suddenly blinked, brows twitching, and there was an unsure look on his face.
“Can I ask you something?” he wondered, voice low, and you nodded.
A look passed over his face that you couldn’t place, and he seemed to be thinking hard about whatever was on his mind.
“A little over a year ago…”
You felt your shoulders droop, almost positive you knew where he was going with this.
“Sarah told us how you and Rafe had called the police one day.”
You sighed, recalling the story Ward had repeated. Neighbors were bound to notice a police car in the yard, bound to spread gossip, and he couldn’t very well tell people the truth.
“She didn’t know what for. Said that Ward wouldn’t tell her…”
JJ’s words died in the air as you stood, his hands falling from you. You tried not to think about that day if you could help it, and you were surprised by the quick procession of tears. JJ stood with you while you wiped your face, and you knew what he was going to ask before he even opened his mouth.
“Did you call the cops? On him?”
By his tone, you could tell that he knew the answer, and when you sniffed, JJ was there. He turned you around and pulled you against him. The reminder of that day—and all the emotions that weighed you down that evening—had more tears escaping against your will. You twisted your fingers into the back of his shirt, trembling in his hold, and JJ held you tighter.
“I thought I was going to die,” you shakily confessed. “I thought he was going to kill me.”
You could feel a shiver crawl down his spine at that.
“He was so mad,” you cried. “He was screaming and throwing glass at me and…he put a gun in my mouth.”
Your face was pressed into the crook of JJ’s neck.
“I didn’t know what else to do. I really thought…” you trailed off, squeezing your eyes shut. “It’s why I didn’t even want to talk to you. I didn’t want to go through that again for something as stupid as a smile.”
JJ seemed to freeze at that, and when he pulled away a bit, his gaze was questioning.
“What…?”
You opened and closed your mouth while JJ just stared at you, blue eyes glinting as his mind started to put the pieces together.
“What do you mean? Are you saying…?”
“No! JJ, that wasn’t your fault, it was mine.”
“Stop saying that,” he breathed. “What the hell do you mean? Are you saying Rafe did that because…?”
You rubbed your forehead, sighing.
“JJ, it wasn’t your fault. I’m the one who smiled back at you that day at The Wreck. Rafe saw.”
You swore you saw the color drain from his face, and you watched JJ stumble back, falling to sit on the edge of the couch. He was staring up at you with parted lips, and you didn’t need to be a mind reader to know that he was going over that interaction in his mind. It was such a simple and harmless interaction…one that had an almost fatal consequence.
JJ ran his hands down his face.
“…and when I told Rafe that you’d apologized to me?”
His voice was low—troubled—and when he lifted his gaze to meet yours, you only pulled your lip between your teeth. When you didn’t respond right away, you watched him exhale, shoulders sagging as he buried his face into his hands.
“JJ, that wasn’t your fault.”
I’m an idiot,” he choked out.
“JJ…” you whispered. “You couldn’t have known.”
“That doesn’t matter!”
He was standing, now, and you hated the conflict and regret you saw in his eyes.
“I knew he treated you like shit,” he spat, gesturing towards the door. “I knew it would piss him off.”
“JJ,” you reached for him.
“I just thought you guys would argue a little,” he whispered, and you rested your hand on his arm. “I didn’t know that he was…”
You held his gaze—yours pleading—as you tried to get him to see that it wasn’t his fault. You needed JJ to understand that there was no way he could’ve known. Sarah lived under the same roof as Rafe—and you half the time—and she still didn’t know. You weren’t going to fault JJ for thinking Rafe was only capable of being a little bit of an asshole.
When JJ’s hand rested on your cheek, your heart skipped a beat.
He was getting closer, and you should’ve been stopping him. The truth was that you felt safe with JJ, and you didn’t want to. The beginning of your relationship with Rafe felt like ages ago, so this safe—and excited feeling—you were experiencing with JJ felt almost new. When his nose touched yours, you placed your hand on his chest.
“I never would’ve done that if I had known…”
“I know you wouldn’t,” you reassured him, swallowing when his other hand touched your waist, fingers grazing the skin from where your shirt rode up. “It’s okay.”
“It’s not okay,” JJ argued. “You were right that day. I was being an asshole.”
When his lips brushed yours, you shook your head.
“JJ-.”
The rest of your words were swallowed when his lips covered yours, following you every time you tried to step back. It had been a week since he kissed you last, and the way he moved his mouth over yours told you that he would do it every day if he could. His hands were all over you, and you gasped into his mouth when they rested on the small of your back, pinning your lower half against him.
“I’m sorry,” he mumbled against your lips. “I’m really fucking sorry.”
When your back met the wall, JJ wasted no time in pressing his knee between your legs, and you couldn’t hold in the shudder as he pressed his leg against your clothed mound. Things felt like they were moving too fast, so much so that you didn’t even realize what was happening until you moaned, JJ forcing you to grind yourself against his leg.
His hands were tight on your waist, and his lips had just traveled to your neck when your phone rang.
It startled you and angered JJ, the blond letting out a frustrated huff. It was Rafe—you knew it was Rafe—the other blond calling you almost every hour from the moment he’d left. JJ’s hands briefly squeezed your waist before forcing himself to pull away. His blue eyes glinted, and when you studied his face, he only shook his head.
Reluctantly, he let you go.
“Hey,” you softly said the moment you answered the phone.
You avoided JJ’s gaze as Rafe’s voice filled your ear.
“You know what? I actually think I’m gonna just head home.”
JJ’s voice reached you from the kitchen, and you only briefly glanced up as Pope responded.
“Seriously man? Now, you don’t even want to go out anymore? You made such a fuss!”
“Yeah, I know,” the blond said, and you heard Sarah say something—probably to John B. “…but I’m not feeling too good, and I think I’m just going to go home.”
Pope sounded disappointed—as did John B. —but they didn’t argue with him much over it. You were currently in the Cameron’s kitchen getting something to eat, and you had been since Sarah, her boyfriend, Pope, and JJ came inside under the reasoning that Pope had to pee.
“We’re just going to hang out with some people at the beach,” she’d said.
You could see it in her eyes then that she’d wanted to ask you to join them, but even if you hadn’t given her a look warning her off of that, Rafe’s tight grip on you was clear. If Sarah thought he was strict before, then it was nothing in comparison to how he was now after the incident at The Chateau. His phone call only moments ago was proof of it.
“How are you going to get back?” Sarah wondered, her voice pulling you from your thoughts.
“You know I’ll find a way,” JJ told her, tone light and boastful.
She made an unsure sound before letting it go.
“Well, leave before Rafe gets back. I don’t want a phone call from Rose or Y/N telling me that my brother and my friend got into a fight.”
You closed the fridge as the rest of them filed out, telling JJ to call them when he made it back to The Cut. The house was oddly quiet, and while you wanted to pretend like you weren’t alone in the house with JJ—Rose didn’t count—it was kind of hard to do when you turned around to find him at the kitchen entrance.
He was wearing some shirt with the sleeves cut off—as he often did—and you tried not to let your gaze linger on his arms.
“I hope you didn’t do that for me…”
The smirk that danced along his lips gave you your answer.
“Maybe,” he shrugged, stepping into the kitchen. “I was kind of hoping Rafe wouldn’t be here.”
“…and he could walk in at any moment…as is his right. Considering,” you gestured around. “…this is his house.”
JJ leaned his arms on the other side of the counter, gazing up at you as you grabbed a paper towel.
“Hey, I’m sure I could find some excuse if he catches me in here…”
He straightened, slowly making his way around the island, and you didn’t miss that mischievous glint in his blue eyes.
“If he manages to find me on top of you…maybe I could even tell him I forced you into it.”
“JJ…” you said, taking a step back.
He held your gaze for a few moments before looking away with a shake of his head.
“Why do you feel bad about what you’re doing? He treats you like shit,” he chuckled, but it lacked humor.
You looked away from him, shrugging.
“I’m not doing anything,” you whispered.
He didn’t respond right away, and you didn’t hear him move closer, so you shuddered when you felt his fingers grazing the side of your face.
“You shouldn’t feel bad about kissing me,” he quietly told you. “If you ask me, you should be doing a lot worse.”
When you looked at him again, he was much closer than you’d anticipated, and you sharply inhaled. Despite his cheeky nature, you could see the way his eyes dimmed as he looked at you.
“Every time I think about him…and you…I think I could kill him.”
You frowned at his confession, shaking your head.
“JJ…”
“I would if you asked me to,” he continued, moving closer. “I’d drown him in the fucking ocean.”
“You can’t-! You can’t say things like that,” you said, voice lowering.
“Why not?” he curiously wondered. “You’re telling me you don’t want him dead for everything he’s put you through? There was blood on your sheets last week-.”
“I know,” you cut him off. “I was there, remember?”
You watched JJ take a deep breath, and he seemed to be calming himself down. The silence was a little tense, and you worriedly eyed the entrance, expecting Rafe to just show up at any moment. When JJ took your hand, you tried to pull it away, but he wouldn’t let you. You found yourself between him and the counter, and your heart was in your throat.
“I’m sorry,” he apologized. “I just…don’t understand why you’re fighting me.”
Your eyes burned, and you briefly looked towards the ceiling.
“…because,” you breathed. “He’s still my boyfriend.”
“The only reason you’re with him is because you don’t want him to fucking murder you,” JJ sneered. “That’s not a relationship, that’s a hostage situation.”
You couldn’t disagree with JJ’s assessment, and you both knew it.
“He enjoys treating you like shit…so why can’t you bring yourself to enjoy treating him like shit?”
Again, JJ’s logic wasn’t wrong, and you briefly closed your eyes with a sigh.
“…because if he caught me, he’d kill me,” you whispered.
When JJ’s hand touched your face again, you held his gaze. The smile he gave you was small, and your heart fluttered when he brushed his thumb over your skin.
“What did I say earlier?” he mockingly replied. “Let him try to kill me for fucking his girlfriend, I don’t care.”
He pressed his lips to yours.
“I just want you to stop feeling guilty over that asshole because he doesn’t deserve it.”
You chewed on your lip as he ran his eyes over your face, and when he was about to kiss you again, you shook your head.
“You should go. Sarah was right, Rafe could be back at any moment, and… That’s not a fight I think I’ll ever be ready for,” you sighed, moving from between him and the counter.
JJ seemed reluctant, but he eventually obliged, grazing his hand along your waist on the way out.
Rafe’s light snores grew quieter the moment you closed the door behind you.
He’d come to your house drunk and stumbling, too wasted to even fuck you—although it wasn’t for lack of trying. Naturally, he wouldn’t hear a word you said about drunk driving, waving you off and laughing in your face. After his second failed attempt to stay awake, he merely rolled off of you, his even breathing reaching your ears only moments later.
You’d pulled your knees up to your chest, eyeing him for the longest time and mulling over your conversation with JJ. You knew that the other blond wasn’t wrong. Rafe had done—and would do—much worse to you. Your relationship wasn’t a relationship, at all, but instead a prison, and maybe you shouldn’t feel guilty for finding some semblance of happiness. No matter where it came from.
Once alcohol knocked Rafe out, he was pretty much dead to the world for hours.
…and that was how you found yourself putting on shoes while he slept. You might’ve been more nervous and scared if you weren’t so in tune with Rafe’s patterns. There was no doubt in your mind that he wouldn’t wake up until at least noon the following day, but you still kept your steps light as you made your way down the stairs. You couldn’t stop your heart from racing, and your fingers shook while you disabled the alarm.
The walk across the lawn felt too long, and if you hadn’t already psyched yourself up, you might’ve turned around and went back inside the house. Out of paranoia, you looked over your shoulder, relieved to see that your room was still dark with no sign of movement in the window. JJ didn’t open the door right away when you knocked.
However, once fatigue faded a bit, and he realized that it was indeed you through the cracked door, he was swinging it open and pulling you inside.
“I just…wanted to sleep here for a few hours I guess,” you murmured, still feeling unsure.
JJ shifted on his feet, and you only then noticed his bare chest. The plaid pants he wore hung low on his hips, and you told yourself you weren’t here for anything like that.
“…and Rafe…?”
“So drunk that not even an earthquake could wake him,” you said with a shrug.
JJ pulled his lip between his teeth, eyeing you with a look that was hard to name. He didn’t respond right away, just staring at you and studying you. His light hair was going every which way, some hanging into his face, and one hand ran through it when the other eventually reached for you.
“I’m glad you came,” he whispered, pulling you to him.
The pool house wasn’t as big as others you’d seen—namely some of your former friends—but it was spacious enough for both a living room and a decent sized bedroom. JJ’s hand was tight on yours as he pulled you through the threshold, and you glanced around, recalling that you hadn’t been inside the bedroom since high school. The bedding was askew, obviously lived in, and you were glad your parents barely paid the building any mind outside of the yearly spring cleaning.
“Do you like staying here?” you asked him, sitting on the edge of the bed.
JJ found that funny.
“If you’d ever seen my place, you’d know how crazy that question is,” he told you, plopping down beside you. “I love staying here.”
His face was close to yours.
“…and not just because of the 100 thread count sheets or whatever.”
He shrugged at you, eyebrows waggling, and you fought back a smile.
“I guess I’ll have to see your place to give me some perspective then.”
His own smile twitched, and you didn’t like the way his face fell a bit.
“Nah,” he breathed. “That’s…not something I want you to see.”
You felt your own face fall.
“…I mean, I know things with your father are pretty…ugly, but it’s where you grew up, isn’t it?”
Your tone was a little hopeful, and you watched JJ watch you. His blue eyes shined in the darkness, and you didn’t miss the way his smile grew again. When he reached for your face, he let out a light laugh.
“Yeah…yeah it is where I grew up,” he confirmed. “I guess you’re right about that.”
He pulled you with him as he laid down, and you faced him on your side.
“We’ll have to find some way to get you back to The Cut then,” he whispered.
At the reminder of your last visit, you both grew quiet. You were sure you both were remembering that morning when Rafe came to pick you up, and you recalled your next reunion with JJ, feeling comforted that he was so worried about you the entire time. As if thinking of the exact same thing, he touched the skin under your eye, and before you could say anything, JJ leaned in to touch it with his lips.
“I really hate that you’re with him,” he said after a while, pulling away. “He doesn’t deserve you.”
You took a deep breath at that, reaching out and touching his arm, thoughtful.
“…and you do…?”
When you lifted your gaze, your eyes met his again.
“I like to think that I do,” he murmured, fingers dancing towards your chin.
JJ pulled you into a kiss, and despite the fact that this wasn’t what you snuck out of the house for, you couldn’t ignore the way your stomach flipped. In this moment, JJ felt like your boyfriend—lying in bed with you and talking to you and kissing you. It was the most relaxed you’d felt in bed for a long time, and you knew it was a feeling you could get used to…and have trouble going without.
“What are we doing?” you found yourself whispering in the darkness.
You looked between his eyes as you asked this.
“Rafe’s…asleep in my bedroom…and I…” you scoffed. “I’m here with you.”
“It’s sexy, isn’t it…”
“JJ,” you sighed. “I’m serious. Like…what are we doing?”
You were sure that your worry was all over your face.
“We don’t have to have an answer for that, right now,” was his response, hand touching your waist. “I just want to help you forget about Rafe, sometimes.”
He kissed you again.
“I want you to be with someone you don’t have to be afraid of,” he murmured against your lips. “Someone you can relax with.”
He pulled you closer, rolling you both, and when he rested on top of you, you pressed your hands to his arms.
“JJ, I don’t… I’m not comfortable with anything like that yet.”
Your lips brushed his as you spoke, and you swallowed.
“Kissing you and sneaking around to talk to you is one thing, but…”
You didn’t know why, but going beyond that in any way would make what you were doing seem too real—too deceptive. JJ didn’t seem to care about that though, pressing his lips to yours again.
“Do you trust me?” he wondered into the kiss.
“Yes, but-.”
“…but what?” his nose touched yours as he pulled back, holding your gaze. “You’re just scared because Rafe’s intimidated you and beaten you down so much that you’re afraid to do anything for yourself.”
Was that the root of it? It was true, of course, but you also still felt uncomfortable.
“I don’t know…”
“Hasn’t Rafe also been the only guy you’ve ever been with?”
You gave a reluctant nod, and JJ smiled at you.
“…and you don’t think that has something to do with it? You being scared of what you don’t know…?”
That was also true, and JJ took your silence as consent, kissing you again as his hand trailed down your frame. You made a slight noise of protest when his hand slipped between your thighs, Rafe’s t-shirt riding up. The blond on top of you swallowed it down, refusing to break the kiss, and you jerked when his fingers brushed over your underwear.
“JJ,” you said when you turned your head away, pushing at his arm.
“It’s okay,” he breathed against your cheek. “Trust me.”
When you looked at him again, his fingers were already tracing circles over where your opening was through the fabric. His blond hair touched your forehead.
“I would never hurt you,” he assured you, more pressure from his fingers, now.
You involuntarily lifted your hips, and you didn’t know if it was to push him away or get closer. You wanted to push him away, not quite okay with taking things this far just yet. In truth, you didn’t know if you’d ever be, and you thought about what JJ said. Maybe you were just scared, but did you fix that by pushing yourself to do something you weren’t ready for?
You supposed it didn’t matter, anyway.
JJ’s fingers were circling your clit, panties resting on his hand as he touched you. His lips trailed kisses along your neck, and without thinking, you threw your head back. You forgot all about Rafe who was knocked out drunk in your bed, none the wiser to JJ’s fingers sliding between your lower lips. You could feel genuine excitement, something you hadn’t felt in a long time, and you sighed when he dragged his fingers between your folds.
You could tell that JJ was being mindful of whatever lasting damage there still might be from last week.
“You’re so soft,” he murmured, lips at the corner of your mouth. “…and wet.”
You shuddered at those words and the feel of the tips of his fingers just barely dipping into you before he pulled them out.
“Do you get this wet for Rafe?”
The mention of your boyfriend had your heart skipping a beat, but the feel of JJ’s fingers massaging your soaking cunt had you answering honestly.
“No,” you breathed, and you felt him smirk against your skin.
“I want to fuck you so bad,” he confessed.
“JJ,” you warned, hand on his wrist.
“I know,” he sighed. “I know, but a guy can dream.”
You pulled your lip between your teeth.
“I think about it a lot…pushing my cock into you and watching you stretch around me…”
When you softly moaned at that, JJ hummed.
“Do you think about it too? About milking me dry?”
You clenched around nothing, aching as he circled his fingers.
“…because I do…especially in his bed,” you dug your nails into his skin. “Fucking you until you come on his sheets, letting me fill you up right where he sleeps.”
You gently shuddered, your orgasm washing over you as you wrapped your other arm around him. JJ rode the wave with you, fingers rubbing against you, playing with you as you soaked them.
“Atta girl,” he whispered against your lips, and you felt slightly disbelieving at what had just occurred.
The proof was smeared on the inside of your thighs, but even when you watched JJ place his fingers into his mouth, it still didn’t feel real. JJ wouldn’t let you go as you caught your breath, kissing you again when you finally did.
“See,” he quietly told you. “That wasn’t so bad.”
He may have been right in some aspects, but JJ’s way around words and that tempting influence of his had you worried about what else you’d convince yourself you wanted.
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summary : charles releases his debut album and fans go crazy, y/n and jude are the main talk over social media, and yet charles is adamant to get his girl back. faceclaim : cindy kimberly a/n : since you all asked here is part 2 <33 tysm sm for all the love ily all smmm also here is part 1. also might make a part 3 🙈
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liked by judebellingham, kikagomez, oscarpiastri and 5,720,820 others.
user278 oh she's defo listening to i love you i'm sorry
username_211 plsss 😭😭
f1fan ngl her and jude are acc rly cute
user00 the most gorgeous omlll
judebellingham ❤️
y/nusername ❤️
anon ugh what a bitch
username_78 i'm so glad that she is happy :)
f1fan_16 when i tell you i sobbed when i heard this lyric like i'm sorry but you can't convince me that he is not still in love with her
liked by landonorris, f1lover, justaninchident and 56,189 others.
landonorris trust me he is
user728 LANDO PLSS OMG username66 not him outing charles like that i can't
user400 on repeat.
username_15 this song feels like a stab through the heart.
charlesleclerc life recently 🤍🫶🐶
liked by landonorris, georgerussell, lewishamilton and 2,829,667 others.
user11 stoppp this makes me so sad to see leo without his mum 😭😭
f1fan i rly hope that he's okay
username_ we love you charles <3
user516 stop charles is actually the nicest person ever he does not deserve this
f1lover_45 ik charles is okay because he has lando
landonorris damn right
user526 off topic but the fit is fire 🔥
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texts between jude and y/n
baby? jude
yeah? y/n
can i come with you to paris fashion week jude
what omg acc?! y/n
id love to come and support you sweetheart jude
stopp why are you so perfect 🤭💗 y/n
that's all you jude
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judebellingham angel face
》 omg waitt is jude coming to paris fashion week?!?!
》 wait they are acc so cute
》 charles is better
》 y/n is acc so pretty
y/nusername paris fashion week with @ miumiu
liked by judebellingham, pierregasly, kikagomez and 3,282,962 others.
user82 she is defo getting war flashbacks from being in paris rn
username672 serving face !!
f1fan ooooo body is tea
justanichident so jealous of her beauty 🫠
kikagomez gorgeous gorgeous girl
y/nusername mwah
miuiu love the fit 😉
user526 guys guys did u see jude cheering her on ughh so so cuteee
judebellingham that's my girl
liked by y/nusername, kylianmbappe, lewishamilton and 9,728,551 others.
y/nusername love u smm thank you for supporting me 💋
judebellingham love u sm babygirl
user991 jude bagged a baddie fr
username both serving cunt
user_18 ultimate bi panic
f1fan oml the fits are actual perfection
ln4_67 y/n we need the skincare routine !!
username_99 my fav couple 💗
charlesleclerc album is finally out hope you enjoy!!
liked by lewishamilton, landonorris, oscarpiastri and 13,629,829 others.
user777 i'm in a puddle of tears
username51 i'm acc not okay LIKE SOME WARNING OF HOW HEARTBREAKING THIS IS WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE
f1fan okay kinda team charles rn because tf
justaninchident imagine your ex making a whole album about you, crazy stuff.
user33 LEWIS'S VERSE OMG THIS MAN I DIED
landonorris so proud of you man and so happy that not only me but everyone can hear this incredible record you made 🫶
user00 aww supportive bsf lando we love to see it
username11 so so good
f1lover oh charles
liked by justaninchident, f1_67, user88 and 172,552 others.
user415 nope.
username11 i'm crying over this like it's my own breakup.
justaninchident my therapist has heard too much about this that she is acc fed up of me.
f1fan_333 best song on the album but the saddest
user00 omgg guys imagine if he went on tour and sang these songs
f1_5 y/n lost a good one
user44 we all know damn well that she would take him back in heartbeat
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texts between jude and y/n
why did you lie to me??? jude
i didn't exactly lie....i said i was meeting a friend y/n
A FRIEND AS IN YOUR EX WTF Y/N jude
i'm sorry i didn't think you'd y/n
well i sure as hell do mind jude
you know damn well he is still in love with you jude
yk what? jude
what? y/n
i think you are still in love with him too jude
jude baby what are you talking abou i love you y/n
bffr y/n jude
i acc can't with you rn jude
i knew that getting myself involved with you was a mistake everybody warned me saying that you'd go back to him, well ig they were right jude
but i love u y/n
well too bad jude
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judebellingham no caption.
liked by kylianmbappe, footballfan_67, user626 and 7,529,331 others.
user432 no y/n.....
footballfan_67 my goat 🐐
username55 he deserves better than y/n honestly and anyone who says otherwise is dumb asf
f1fan he's so real for the no caption
username_411 yesss no y/n finally she was such a bitch
user11 bro acc finally looks happy
f1lover wait do we all acc think they broke up??
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liked by charlesleclerc, kikagomez, landonorris and 5,311,905 others.
user445 i'm so in love.
username67 serving face
f1fan i hope she's okay she looks a bit sad :,(
f1lover omggg charles in the likess
user900 my fav ever actually
username526 petition for y/n to become a victoria secret model 🪽🫧
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》 omg
》 y/n defo cheated i don't believe this crap
》 it defo wasn't mutual literally jude is with another girl, he either cheated or y/n did
》 oh she is soooo going back to charles
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liked by charlesleclerc, landonorris, carlossainz and 12,618,341 others.
user516 SHE'S BACKKK
username_67 omfgggg
f1fan ARE THEY BACK TOGETHER WHAT WHAT
justaninchident guess she finally realized that charles is just better
anon girl just broke up with jude and is now back with charles bffr omg like
user19 i need a moment BECAUSE WHAT
f1lover this is so y/n coded
user890 it girl before it girl now
username_56 i've never been happier 😫😫
user_53 guys guys hold up they could just be friends
anon shush let us dream
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