Not Richard Trying So Hard To Conceal How Much Money He Really Has Only For Henry To Turn Around And

i am currently rereading the secret history, and in doing so i remember the confusion i first felt when i saw how people interpreted the book.

the entire dark academia aesthetic doesn’t necessarily apply to the book, because to me donna tartt did a wonderful job at showing how almost performative it seemed. from henry and his constant umbrella carrying, to francis’ fake pince-nez, the characters themselves seem to be stuck in a persona. richard, too, finds himself wrapped up in this when he immediately jumps to buying clothes that similarly match their styles despite not having known them for very long at all.

their intelligence, as well, seems exaggerated or even romanticized by a lot of readers, especially when it comes to henry. bunny himself says that he believes francis is equal to henry when it comes to intellect yet henry is put on such a pedestal. so many readers treat the greek class like they have rare, unseen forms of genius. this in itself isn’t true. they are smart, you cannot ignore that, but we see judy poovey repeating what julian would say in lectures, just with less ancient references.

another commonly misinterpreted character is camilla. she is often infantilized. posed up, displayed as feminine, treated as innocent without flaw. so many ignore the fact she was often described as masculine, she was complicit in the murder of two men, and she was also a grown woman who had intercourse with her twin brother.

camilla is a victim, yes. she is a victim of her brothers later abuse as well as the unhealthy view the boys had on her— but camilla is still just as bad as the rest of them. the incest cannot be called consensual as it was not two healthy people making an informed choice, it is something both charles and camilla are both the perpetrators and the victims of. they are orphans, isolated, who latched onto each other, and it formed a toxic bond. charles did later become abusive, but it was a result of the trauma of bunny dying. this isn’t an excuse, simply a reason, but before bunny charles never hurt camilla.

donna tartt is a genius. richard, in his obsession, makes us view the group as he does. from the aestheticism to the romanticization, the book carries on by the reader’s themselves unintentionally writing in richards perspective.

unreliable narrators are not dangerous in what they don’t reveal, but how we interpret what they do.

new henrymilla just dropped i was inspired by this photo

i feel like Henry Winter wouldn’t fall in love with someone who idolizes him, but quite the contrary; he’d fall for the girl who knows he’s a manipulative shit, too cocky for his own good but still likes him.

therefore, he’s into degradation. in this essay I will…

would you rather kiss camilla oir have henry wunter shoot himself earlier in the book

now i know who this is.

kiss camilla :3!!

The Pupils

The cult

Their own respective pieces will follow, containing spoilers from the book.

whenever i think about the secret history i genuinely have to take a breath, the hyper fixation is so bad it’s not even funny. i finished tsh the summer before my freshman year. IM AT THE END OF MY SOPHOMORE YEAR NOW. RELEASE ME.

Void Method

Get into a comfortable position, close your eyes and relax

Start focusing on your breathing

Start affirming, I would use the affirmations " I'm pure consciousness", "I'm not attached to any reality", "I'm in the void state" until you get into the void state (I will explain the void state tomorrow)

You will now that you are in the void state if your senses "fade" (noises become quieter for example), you feel like you are floating and you feel like you have no attachment to anything

Once you are in the void state affirm that you are in your DR and start visualizing your DR (visualizing is optional)

Do this until you feel your surroundings change or until you fall asleep

The void method was the method, that I used, when I almost shifted and it is one of my favorite methods

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i would have included dead poets society but i haven’t watched it yet

Henry is not this perfectly composed psychopath that some people like to pretend he is. He loved Bunny, and he hated him, and those two things can and do coexist. Killing Bunny broke something in Henry, or maybe it unearthed something that had always been broken. But he still loved him. That was his best friend and his worst enemy and sometimes those two things aren’t so different. In this essay, I will…

Your Options Are Never Limited

If you decide to waste all your time on a method (like the void state), asking people what they did, begging people to manifest for you, consuming tons of loa content/success stories, without applying or learning the Law then thats on you. If you don't find one thing that works for you or that you feel comfortable doing and stick to it, then you're not gonna get what you want. That's just the way the Law works.

Some of you seem to forget that this is your life. If you dont do something that works for you, then you're wasting tons of time and you might give up. Don't change up what you've been doing just because some user on this app says so. You do what works for you. The void not cutting it for you? Affirm. Affirming is no good? Try SATS. No SATS? Visualize. Don't wanna do any of that? Just be in the state of wish fulfilled and know it is done. Or even, make your own method. All the end goal is is just to fulfill yourself internally and persist in it.

Again, you are never limited to one thing. Some of you need to get that through your skulls. If your beliefs are so limited that you think this one particular thing is all that can work for you, or has more power than anything else, then that is sad. How can a method have power when you are the one manifesting? Is the method God? Or are you God?