i could write multiple ESSAYS on the misogyny in the secret history and how well donna tartt writes it. MAYBE I WILL
"camilla led richard and henry on" and who said that? the men? including richard, world class manipulator who at one point wanted to beat and rape her? if sleeping or flirting with multiple boys in the group makes her an evil temptress then i suppose francis is also a slut and richard and charles are both evil for hooking up with him as "straight" men. but we all know why no one cares about that.
I'm going to start posting some reality-shifting tips on my blog. These are tips that help me, and if you want to, you can give them a try as well!
Okay, so, Here It Goes:
My first real tip is to practice meditating. Now, will this make shifting instantly easier? No. Will this make you shift the first time? No. So, what is the point of this tip, you make be asking. I will tell you:
Remember that there are a couple different components to shifting, and each of these components is a skill that you must learn, much like swimming, painting, or playing an instrument. It is hardly ever the case that someone can do these things first try with no practice (or even low-quality practice).
One of these components is meditation. Getting into a meditative state is a huge first step in shifting in most cases, and for most people, it is also the biggest hurdle.
It is crucial to practice meditation, especially outside of a shifting attempt, especially if it does not come easy to you during a method.
My suggestion is to do a guided meditation at least once a week at first. Then, you can move it to twice or even three times a week. When you practice meditating, it gets easier, because it is a skill. The goal is to build the meditation skill so that when you go to do a method, the first meditation part is easier for you and less of a hassle.
I know this is not what most people want to hear as a shifting tip, but I promise it can help in the long run. I know everyone is different, but in my case as a person with pretty bad ADHD, practicing meditation has made things much easier for me when it comes to shifting.
The Secret History (1992)
how i imagine those partygoers looked at camilla and richard when they left that one party together
can we forget about the terms “3d” and “4d” and everything else. it was helpful at first when it came to understanding the loa but now it just overcomplicates it for some of y’all. before any of you guys learned about loa, you were already manifesting unconsciously. when manifesting, you were never like “okay so I have to have it in my 4d for it to show up in my 3d” you just had an assumption which turned into reality. when you overcomplicate manifestation, it gets complicated and it’s as simple as that. you said loa was hard, so it was hard. you said loa was easy and effortless, so it’s easy and effortless. manifesting is literally just deciding a desire. you don’t have to believe it, you don’t have to feel it, you just have to state that it’s true so it’s true. you said you’re rich so you’re rich. it’s instant. time delay doesn’t exist unless you make it exist and the only way you can do that is if you decided that it exists. so forget about the terms 4d or 3d and just decide your desire and tell yourself that it’s true. if you said it’s true, it’s true. thats simply just the law. think/affirm in your favor (since affirming is just thinking) and that’s exactly what will show up in your life. matter of fact, stop separating the 3d and the 4d. although they are different things, think of them as a whole since your 3d is literally a reflection of your 4d. manifestation is life. your entire life you have been manifesting. ALWAYS. so why make it complicated now? you’ve been doing it your entire life, the only difference is that you’re consciously doing it or being aware that you’re doing it but being aware of the fact that you are constantly manifesting shouldn’t change how easy it is. manifesting is literally so simple. affirm that you have a desire/think in favor of your desire and BOOM! just like that, your desire INSTANTLY manifests.
i hate that everyone only uses calm “aesthetic” songs for the secret history. like genuinely let’s be serious i think the downward spiral of the group would be a genre they are most likely against like rock or metal.
along with that being said, i think there are some calmer songs but it would be more older. i’m noticing it’s all taylor swift but camilla was said to put on a josephine baker album. let’s get serious.
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does anyone have any idea why the greek class actually went to Francis’ lake house or was that just something they did sometimes? Richard mentions them being there when it first snowed, during Henry’s birthday, but he was just randomly invited one weekend? And then him and Charles talked about not wanting to go back to Hampden so I was thinking it was over the span of something like a thanksgiving break but I would think Richard would mention that.
The Greek class 🏛️
the cure mentioned HELL YEAH!!
bc i cannot stop thinking about how each of them would be if they were gen z 🤍 tried to keep all of this as true to character as possible
Edmund ‘Bunny’ Corcoran
- Writes his essays with Chat GPT last minute
- Uses swipe to text
- Doesn’t have Marion on Snap (at least for a good, long while)
- Always has a cookie or snack cake with him when he showers
- Voted for Trump proudly
- Does not, somehow, own a MAGA hat. or at least, he doesn’t have one at Hampden
- Spends hundreds of dollars on Subway Surfers and Minion Rush every month
- Will not get anything with cinnamon dusting bc he inhaled cinnamon in public once by mistake
- Often sells Cloke ½ of his ADHD meds
- Makes Henry pick up his prescriptions
- Bluetooth Headphones. Bunny gives me major Beats vibes, tbh
- His favorite candies are Satellite Wafers
Francis Abernathy
- Keeps a refillable vape on his person at all times (his is silver and as small as refillables come,) but also has Strawberry Lemonade Loon disposables hidden places he frequents. Two in his coat pocket. One in his book bag. One hidden in his room. Two hidden at henry’s. Even one in an empty classroom at the Lyceum. He smokes cigarettes sometimes, too, but likes the accessibility of vaping
- Complains often about the TikTokification of “quiet luxury” and “dark academia”
- He has both WebMD apps
- Plays computer Sims at night & has a Sim for each person in the Greek Class. He keeps this secret bc in his Sims game, he’s married to Charles
- Walks out of the room when politics come up
- Spends time practicing writing in different fonts
- Has a pretty sizable internet following, most specifically on TikTok because he posts his outfits to brooding sounds. To his knowledge, the group is unaware. (Except Charles, anyway.)
Richard Papen
- Always asking Judy and Francis if he can hit their vapes. Will not touch Charles’s vape with a 10 foot pole.
- Dab pen under the mattress
- ‘Borrows’ Bunny’s adderall on occasion
- Sleeps through the day & forgets to eat so frequently that he has a permanent $800 dining dollar balance
- He peels his lighters until they’re white and leaves them around campus
- Has a 3 year long Duolingo streak in one language. Scottish Gaelic, of all things.
- Follows Francis’s TikTok on a burner account and spends hours stalking his posts
- He likes brat, secretly. He listens to it at Judy’s while they gossip and get high
- He’s very into Letterboxd even though he doesn’t often watch movies anymore
- A day does not go by that he is not at least looking on Depop
Henry M Winter
- Has a flip phone that he keeps in the breast pocket of his coat
- Everyone thinks he doesn’t know how to text but Camilla showed him (her first phone was a flip phone,) he just texts her and Bunny exclusively. it takes him 15 minutes to draft a text, though, so Bunny usually calls instead
- Has a collection of bespoke vintage lighters
- Keeps a single pair of unworn Golden Goose sneakers at his parents house bc he’s fascinated by the way they look so beat up and awful, yet so expensive in the same breath.
- His suits are all custom
- Always one slip of the tongue away from passionately ranting about AI & US literacy rates, or how people who vape are cowards
- Has a very large stash of swiss chocolate in his bedroom
- Bunny forced him to buy a signed Duran Duran record during one of his phases & Henry still listens to it on occasion
- Francis gifted him The Cure’s Three Imaginary Boys & Wish on vinyl freshman year and he very much enjoys listening to those on occasion as well.
- Has a 10 step Korean skincare routine
- Will not drink soda of any kind. Water, coffee, and good liquor only. On very rare occasion he’ll have some juice
- He orders his liquor online because he can’t find anything good local, and Julian always signs for it. This started when he was 18 & just kept going on, even after he could sign for things himself
- Has never voted. Does not look at the news in any capacity. Would not know who the president is if it wasn’t for Bunny
- Once expressed that he found the Eras Tour rather grand & everyone pretended not to hear him because how does he even know what that is
Camilla Macaulay
- Always looking for an excuse to mention one of 3 things: how she does not have much of an internet presence, how she’s the only girl she knows who doesn’t like Taylor Swift, & how she only reads weird girl literature and classics.
- Does not carry cigarettes bc she likes to just take them from Charles or Henry
- Giggles (at least internally) every time she thinks of or speaks to Bunny after she has read Bunny by Mona Awad
- Learned how to do laundry on YouTube when she first moved to Hampden (their family always sent laundry out)
- She knits
- She tints her lashes at home to keep up the illusion of not wearing makeup
- Borrows Francis’s vape often (when Henry isn’t looking)
- Has a Samsung frame TV in her bedroom & she uses it to play study ambience that’s just paintings and classical music
- At one point she has the same haircut as Charles. They’re surprisingly difficult to tell apart when this is the case.
Charles Macaulay
- He’s got an instagram DM roster he can’t even scroll to the bottom of
- Has a tiny tattoo on his ribs of Camilla’s initials (which are also his initials- he was blacked out when he got it) and as a result refuses to swim in the summer
- He likes wax sealing envelopes. It’s relaxing
- Smokes Camel Blues (Lights) & carries a Cool Mint Puffbar disposable vape for when he inevitably loses those
- Has been known to purchase a blueberry RedBull on occasion, though he usually chugs it before anyone else in the Greek Class can see
- Also uses a burner account to stalk Francis on tiktok. Francis knows it’s him, though, because he wasn’t very inventive with the username (when will he learn to leave it as user random numbers??)
- His entire fyp on that account is Francis, people who look strikingly similar to Francis, & slime tutorials with Lifetime movies playing
- Wired headphones truther
THE SNOW in the mountains was melting and Bunny had been dead for several weeks before we came to understand the gravity of our situation.
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