Midnighthieves - Vesper

I am actually panicking inside because my supervisor require me to publish a paper. And my impostor syndrome side decided to tell me I am a professional full-time fraud.

Three days after graduating from my Master in management. It has been truly transformative. Every success and achievement is a reflection of the endless support and prayers from my dearest ones.

“Take a shower, wash off the day. Drink a glass of water. Make the room dark. Lie down and close your eyes. Notice the silence. Notice your heart. Still beating. Still fighting. You made it, after all. You made it, another day. And you can make it one more. You’re doing just fine.”

— Charlotte Eriksson, You’re Doing Just Fine

I have been busy that I wasn't online anywhere, but yes to literature (books) on keeping me sane.

Fernando Pessoa, from The Book of Disquiet

Morning coffee to afternoon individual study session because I'll be having two tests this week, and one essay, one case solution submission. Next week would be one test, one essay deadline. I mean, what a life.

The morning class is interesting, heavily into the discussion with the lecturer over AI, Knowledge management, Industrial revolution 4.0 and Root-cause analysis.

For your own peace of mind and sanity, don’t try to make sense of everything.

Beltane tarot reading (look at how well my tarot deck knows its owner) and my new bullet journal monthly cover page (I didn't feel like doing anything special so ai just had fun with the font).

01|05|2023

I am staring the month feeling a bit overwhelmed by everything I have to do for uni. I have yet to find a new routine for this next month of classes, and this is troubling me more than I expected. I did take today off from studying since it's an holiday here and starting from tomorrow I will be on my regular schedule. I plan on catching up some more with the history of religions lectures I have missed/ that have been uploaded online only. I don't know yet whehter I'll be done with them by the end of the morning when I'll have to commute to uni, but I plan on being caught up by the end of the week. I did a some planning to see everything I'll have to study in the next two months and I am not going to lie it's a lot, especially considering how little I can do during the week due to my long commute to uni. I am considering skipping classes on Wednesdays (that professor records lectures and uploades them online very quickly) in order to get more time to do everything. Since I will have lots to juggle these new few months I might even bring back a good old productivity challenge. I am also considering a few posts in which I explain how I am planning to tackle all this stuff I have to do.

Productivity:

finished the audiobook of Daisy Darker by Alice Feeney

wrote the first draft of its review

practiced Irish on duolingo

updadted my reading journal

created the first weekly spread for the new month in my bujo and did a bit of planning for what I have to study in the next couple of months (this definitely made me feel better about this overwhelming sensation, sitting down and planning calms my brain and I am trying to have faith in my organizational skills)

did some crosswords with my parents (it's something we often do during the holidays, but it'f fun doing them together)

did a tarot reading for a friend

Self care:

selpt in

took the day off since it's a holiday and I had no classes

read first thing in the morning

finally had the time to sit doen with a cup of tea and read the latest letter my beloved penpal sent me (and I plan on doing a couple of big letter writing session in the afternoons of this week when I get home from uni to answer both to them and to my digital penpal)

did a tarot reading for myself

📖:Daisy Darker by Alice Feeney

🎵:Good Enemy by PVRIS

virginia woolf's 1931 new years resolutions : "to have none. not to be tied. to be free & kindly with myself. sometimes to read, sometimes not to read. to go out, yes—but stay at home in spite of being asked. as for clothes, i think to buy good ones."

Totally lost with how life is. Haven't updated my tumblr for some time. So, what I have done lately:

Ethical research application for groupwork, prepping for semi-qualitative interview, doing my term paper (aka my supervisor asked me to do it and mayhaps, publish it), and attending seminars.