My Physical Form Can No Longer Contain My Love For The Outsiders. I Must Explode.

first officially published fic, that's actually finished! please check it out or reblog it if you feel so inclined! :)

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Grian finds it easier than he'd expect to not out of bed in the morning. Instead of getting up, he spends that time thinking about relationships, the future, and the sunlight, all while curled beside his ally.

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“Hi.”

“Hi, you,” Scar replied swiftly, the smile turning to an affectionate, playful grin, “Awfully funny seeing you here.”

“What a coincidence, hm?” He responded, playing along sarcastically.

The more references I look up of the Curtis house the more confused I am. I think Pony and sodas room has two doors, one to the kitchen and another the hall/ living room. Don’t even get me started on the complex mix of space that is the living room and dining room.

Been looking at movie photos and museum photos for help but at this point I need them to drop like the original floorplan.

favorite lighting/projection cues in the outsiders part 9/?

🎥: bikinibottomday

im fr crying

this is just too special not to share with u guys. hope u enjoy. 🤍

it kills me how silly jpc is irl and then he just breaks ur heart as soda and has the voice of an angel like oh ok

snoopy and jpc???

besties !!!

people i wanna know better! thank you for tagging me mala (@mala--draws), i know we've been like dancing around each other in notifs LOL !!! :))

last song: i'm currently listening to the outsiders musical soundtrack so...

last movie: the karate kid. idk how i made it this far in life without watching it. it was incredible.

last tv show: the last of us and young royals!! my friends and i did a favorite tv show swap-watch-party thing so both LOL

sweet/spicy/savory?: savory but i most definitely have a sweet tooth

relationship status: single!

last thing i googled: ...if sweet tooth was one or two words...

current obsession: the outsiders. it runs so deep. but also getting back into hadestown after seeing it at a high school a few days ago! and formula 1 season is back :)

looking forward to: i have a college interview this week and an audition for my final high school play! (Alice in Wonderland), so some pressure but more excitement than anything!

i honestly don't have many active moots on tumblr so i have like nobody to tag 😭

how do people get through their lives without thinking about fiction during their every waking hour

Sodapop Curtis who loves too hard and doesn't get loved hard enough in return.

He has to love too hard because he doesn't, who will?

Sodapop who offers to move into his baby brother's room to help with his nightmares. Not just for Pony's sake, but for Darry's too. so that Darry can get more sleep and go do his job better rested. Sodapop who drops out of the school that made him feel so stupid for years, but not for himself. No, he drops out so that he can help Darry afford the house. He drops out so that Darry doesn't kill himself trying to pay for everything on his own. Sodapop who will come home from working his own long shift and sit down to give his brother a massage so that he doesn't injure himself. Sodapop who needs to be the constant mediator between his brothers. Sodapop who separates them and then listens to them each individually. He'll listen to Darry's vents about work and money and will offer his support. He'll listen to Pony's fears and reassure him that Darry doesn't hate him, but loves him more than anything. Sodapop who doesn't really have that for himself. He's the family's heart and soul.

So, even when Sandy leaves, Soda knows they have bigger things to worry about than his "silly breakup". He refuses to make it a big deal. Because he knows that Darry is worried sick about the hospital bills and how they're going to afford those while also having food and heat for the fall and winter. He knows that Ponyboy is mourning his best friend and is never going to be the same. So, Soda reassures them and comforts them. But he can't do it forever. Some nights he cries. And not his usual, loud sobs. These are silent, heavy tears that fights their way out of his eyes and glide down his face slowly. It's when he's in bed, late at night, usually after he calms Pony down from a nightmare. Then, he lets himself break. And he cries. He cries for Sandy and what she did to him, for Dally and Johnny and all their suffering, for Pony and the pain he's experiencing, for Darry who almost had the life he wanted, for the whole gang who are never gonna be whole again. And he does it alone. Because he doesn't want other people to worry about him. He can handle it himself, they have bigger problems.

Soda, who knows he's loved, but wishes that someone would tell him or show him a little more often.

I love multishipping like yes Sodapop Curtis is in love with Steve but he’s also in love with Chet, and Sandy, and also Cherry, what about it