I Just Had The Most Extreme Urge To Relapse Into Sh Again But Then I Had A Poo And Now I Don't Have The

Kissing in the back of police car while hes in cuffs kinda romantic but idk how he feels

People who hate others for something they did while in active addiction are actually so fucking full of themselves

Don't expect an addict to be acting right

Especially when you know they are using while they are being this "horrible vile person" (the most said addict done is usually just say smth mildly rude)

Like I understand when it comes to the addict being abusive or whatever

But more times then not people only be judging specifically FEMALE addicts who literally only CALL PEOPLE OUT ON THEIR WACK BEHAVIOR or just fall in love with the wrong people, which mind you is influenced by their addiction

And yes a fucking addict will beg for money for their addiction

If you have never had an addiction I don't want to hear any of it

You do NOT understand how it fucking feels to have an addiction and never remember anything you do YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S LIKE TO NOT BE ABLE TO FEEL HAPPY WITHOUT YOUR ADDICTION

so yeah

Just my thoughts

I really do not think people should judge addicts the way they do like have some fucking grip on reality

Addicts are addicts because they've been hurt, because they are hurt, because they are struggling

More then not, particularly for female addicts but also just implies to addicts in general, addicts are using their substance as a method of escapeism and/or coping mechanism as what is essentially a wheelchair, something that helps them survive

I don't think you as a non addict can actually judge an addicts actions when you don't understand any of their life or thought process

This also applies to judgement of people with BPD, Bipolar, Depression ect

If you don't understand then don't judge

NOOOOOO YOU WERENT SUPPOSE TO FALL IN LOVE W ME NOOOOOOOO

Please please please dpnt fall in love with me I dont want to hurt yoh

Do men purposely say "you can say no if u wanna" cuz they know it makes a woman more inclined to say yes cuz it manipulates her into thinking he respects her

this ego train I've been on for the past 3 months it's starting to crash

maybe I was never that bitch

maybe I am just ill

maybe it was never meant to be

it being happiness and me

slowly starting to not reply and not text

if I'm not needed then I wont try stay

if life is meaningless then so be it I dont care

I hope we all die from isolation

into disintegration

Right so I'm 174cm which is abt 5'8 ½ which is pretty tall for a girl

I used to be very insecure about my height thinking it made me uglier and less desirable cuz I had a terrible terrible need for male validation that i simply never got when I was younger.

I have gotten over that now and honestly tall girls are so gorgeous and pretty.

But like shorter girls keep fucking complaining about "I can't wear these shoes I'll be too tall" right in front of me like WHAT

Ok ur shorter then me ur literally average height why are you complaining abt shoes, like I'm not even THAT tall and I've gotten over this whole shoe problem

But gosh fucking pissed me off

yesterday

This girl is talking to me abt wanting to get new shoes but she says "I'll be too tall with them"

uhhh no???? No you wont

She said "I'll be like the same height as you"

Uhhh

Girl

WHAT ARE YOU SAYING

Why is being my height bad

Literally I dont get it

174cm is a perfectly perfect height

Why is she saying this backhanded shit

I have no future uh..... I'm actually very scared

He broke up w me cuz he's not ready for a relationship (that he started) and apparently I'm too emotional but he saying he does have feelings for me... He gave me a hickey earlier that day then he breaks up w me... I want him back... Is it bad to ask him for fwb...