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there's something so raw and soul crushing about spending your late childhood+teen years suicidal then growing up and actually wanting to live, after an ungodly effort, only to see your health deteriorate because of chronic illness.

The Barbie Cool Campus Collection concept by Jon Seisa,  Former Art Director Of Advanced Concepts for the Girls’ Toy Division at Mattel (1989)

Barbie

Campus Cool Barbie, is a younger “hipper” Barbie, who is at the cutting edge of college life excitement and colorful campus action! This versatile new segment boasts an array of campus activities from trendy sports to romantic tea dances. Because it is a fast-pace lifestyle of multidimension, and spirited youthful fun, one is apt to see the “new” Barbie energetically applying her wit and skill to the flood of trendy activities sweeping the campus.

There’s a hot new on-the-go look to “Campus Cool Barbie’s” hair. It’s hair with action, a crimped wave of action! Such a romantic touch that gives “movement” to Barbie’s “kicky” new look. And there’s “lotsa, losta golden locks” streaming down in beautiful waves around her fresh new sparkling face.

“Sorority House” is usually the scene whre Barbie may gush girlish gibberish with her trusty confidants, “The Sorority Sisters.” Together, they are known by the entire campus as “The Fab Four!”

Cherise

Firstly, there is Barbie’s stylish friend, Cherise, a knockout French exchange student, who is a fashion design major, and the most “together gal” in College Town, next to Barbie, of course. Cherise sports beautiful crimped soft brunette hair cropped into a stunning short, sweet-n-sassy asymmetrical cut that is just striking against her creamy white porcelain complexion, cherry lips, and gorgeous aqua eyes. Tossed over one eye is a big swooping bang she calls, “The Tidal Wave,” giving her a look of coquettish playfulness. And playing it up she does, for Cherise loves “fashion play,” especially many fun looks with her fabulous hair pieces to fool all the boys. You can be sure when this French filly enters, everyone stands and takes notice! Especially, those crazy boys!

Brit-N.Y.

Also, there is bubbly Brit-N.Y. A Britain-born New Yorker, who is totally cosmo to the max, cosmopolitan that is, and she knows more about this infinite world than any boy, so it seems. Brit-N.Y. is that “expressive” art major full of vigorous innovation. Willing to take a stand to almost anything, she is the political activist in the group, quite liberal as youth often is, and definitely, this spills over into her artistically creative fashion look that express her flexible readiness, for she’s a gal who likes to be on guard to tackle whatever unexpected surprise life may filling her way. Brit-N.Y. is dashing off to a political science class, her equestrian lesson, a hot new “save the world” march, or just marshing off to meet a new hot new date for the Fraternity Dance, you can rest assure this quickchange artist is look’n mighty fine in her “Campus Cool Fashions.” Expressive fashions that compliment Brit-N.Y.’s gorgeous chestnut shimmering doo of wavy, wavy locks and wild tousled bangs.

Rory

Last but not least, is graceful and charming Rory, an exotically sweet Portuguese honor student from colorful and exciting Brazil! She is more knowledgeable on Americana than most Americans, but only because Rory’s dream is to become a U.S. citizen, and launch an aspiring medical practice in breathtaking San Francisco, her “all time fav” place! Rory sports very long luxurious blue-black hair styled in a striking crimped pyramid fashion with a dramatic high sweeping pompadour. Blessed with a golden olive complexion and hypnotic innocent dark brown eyes that can melt anyone’s heart, Rory is a “Brazilian babe” the Campus Boys are falling head over heels for, including their grades!

I just know if he'd told Vi she would've been sick 😭

Apparently my director went to see a production of West Side Story a few years ago, and the guy playing Chino forgot his gun before coming out for his final scene. Once it got to the big scene where he is supposed to shoot Tony, he screeched “Poison Boots” and kicked the actor playing Tony until he went down. The girl playing Maria then had to jerk the shoe off of Chino’s foot, and had to do the gunshot scene asking “How many kicks Chino? How many kicks, and one kick left for me”. 

adults: oh silly children with no responsibilities no real trauma no life experience no worries and yet oh so dramatic about nothing

also adults: oh thank fucking GOD i am not in school anymore, i had another nightmare i was THERE again, i woke up in a cold sweat bc i didn't study for my TEST-there's nothing not anything like the sweet relief of realizing that you actually don't have one and you won't have one in a very very long time, i still remember what the hallways smell like, i graduated years ago but i don't feel safe yet

there’s nothing shameful about making things easier or more accessible for yourself btw.

if your disability means you can rarely/never cook so you have to order out a lot, or buy precut ingredients, or if you need other people to help you cook even “simple” meals.

if your disability means you struggle with personal hygiene so you don’t shower standing up, or don’t brush & floss “correctly” or long enough, or put up your hair when you can’t handle brushing it.

if your disability means you’re not able to engage in your hobbies in a “normal” or “correct” way. if you have to watch movies multiple times because your brain fog is making it hard to follow the plot. if you need accessibility tools to be able to draw or paint. if you have to do everything from bed.

you’re not doing anything bad or wrong. you’re being kind to yourself and caring for yourself in the ways that you’re able to. it’s nothing to be ashamed of.

I want to release a line of concerning disability pride merch, starting with my patented “you say bedridden, I say pillow-princess” sticker and ending with a “lost a limb, gained a club” mug

this is going to have me on my hands and knees dry heaving