No But You Don't Understand All The Season 1 Episode Names End With An Exclamation Mark Because She Is

no but you don't understand all the season 1 episode names end with an exclamation mark because she is excited and super in denial! she wants her life to be better, she literally tries to force it to be better! she is making the most impulsive irresponsible choices and she does not let anything stop her! she is going to be happy and she is going to be happy now!!!

she is in denial about josh -- but she is even more in denial about her mental state! that's why all the episode's have josh's name in them!!! she can, under certain conditions, admit that this is in fact about josh, but she will literally almost die before she admits that it's actually about her own mental health! and then in season 2, she is starting to doubt everything! every episode name ends with a question mark!!!! but they all! still! have! josh's! name! in! them!!! she is spiraling! the story she's been telling herself isn't convincing anymore!

and then she can't keep pretending. she can't keep pretending that she isn't obsessed with josh, she can't keep pretending that that's not why she's here, she can't keep pretending she's not crazy. the episode titles now end with a period. but she can still pretend that it's about josh.

until she can't.

but recovery isn't linear. so for one episode, it's not about josh. but then it becomes about nathaniel, and we go back to exclamation points. and it's still better, but rebecca can't go from where she was to perfectly healthy in just a few episodes. she still has a long way to go.

and then we get "trent?!", which forces her to confront with everything she's done. it's a name, and it's a question mark, and it's an exclamation mark, and it's an episode that in a way turns the narrative on its head. it's not an episode about trent, it's an episode about rebecca. from josh's perspective. from the perspective of the people she's hurt. and in the end she understands it. and nathaniel becomes irrelevant.

and in season 4, nothing is certain. the names have open endings. everything is in progress. and it's about her