Why Does When Something Happens I Have To Limit Myself, Why Can't I Just Fucking Not Ruin Everything

man i hate myself

I wish I could have told you I missed you too but I didn't wanna lose my dignity more than I did with you

okay okay okay

everything will be alright

everything will be alright

everything will be alright

signed my fate to the devil today

are we only supposed to talk sadly on here

i was my mother's daughter. it was me.

it was me. it was always me.

i don't see a happy life ahead of me. I wish for a peaceful one but I don't see that either. it probably should be concerning how suicidal I'm being everyday. why should I try when ik my path is only going to be full of despair? why can't I end it earlier, I wanna put a stop to this. too late to apologise, too late to ask for help, don't think too late to be saved but no one will. maybe that's my tragedy that everyone could use to feel bad after I'm long gone

Aslan Jade Callenreese you are safe now, I'll be happy with that

i am only now realising how i am actually NOT a neurotypical, and it's so fucking hard being here. this is the worst place to be at if you are not a perfect human being lol. there's not an ounce of empathy, no understanding. it's so hard being a human here. i want to go home. never thought i could miss that place, but here im literally in tears while i write this. even when i get invalidated it wasnt THIS bad lol

that's the first ever time I felt bad for thinking how much I want to die. I still want to die, I don't wanna live. I don't think anyone would miss me or be that wounded nor do I care. but this woman...