K, I'm Getting Bored With Tumblr, & I Kind Of Want To Move Over To Discord? All Of The Chaos & Negativity

your instagram reached 126k lol k bye lol

P.s: i miss your rock band and your singing, bring back dead@6am and I miss your pretty face and would like a photo k bye

Thank you for telling me! I haven't been on Instagram in like four days, lol. ☺️

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I've been super busy so I haven't had time to do anything, but I will commit to that again. Sometime soon. Meanwhile, here's my face:

Thanks for calling me pretty, pretty. 🖤

~* Such a cutie pie 🐈 *~

Thank for taking one for the team sis! Lol!!

You literally look just like willy wonka like wtf can you give me your Instagram @ please??? Duke Depp ain't got shi on you I feel stupid for asking for your personal things but ilysfm BYEEE😭😭😭😭

What?! I am Willy Wonka. Don't be silly.☝️

My Instagram allegedly isn't very appropriate, unfortunately. Too much chocolate footage with "sensual" music put over it gives people the wrong idea. Aheh...

But I'm sure if you're a good insta-browser you could easily find it.

I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER ANON! <3

Hello. My name is Nica. I want to stay anon until I get comfortable and I‘m not good with new people. But my question is, how do you advise someone to deal with their depression? Do you know any remedies that help with chronic sadness? Or panic attacks? My life isn‘t where I want it to be atm, dealing with a lot of stuff and I don‘t have any friends to talk to or get help from. Sorry if I‘m bothering you in the morning I just saw that you‘re leaving tumblr and it triggered an attack and I feel like crying. You were the one blog I liked and how you helped people and now I don‘t have anybody :/

Omg. No, no, no, you're not bothering me at all, & you're not just going to wake up one day & my account is going to be deactivated. I'll tell you all when I'm leaving & chances are I still won't deactivate, just cause. I'm so, so sorry, I didn't mean to trigger you. It was just an idea I had. I used to have really bad panic attacks to a point were my muscles would hurt for days, I had to be taken in an ambulance & put on meds cause I had them daily for like a month. I wouldn't eat, I was constantly snapping on people & irritated. I turned into someone who isn't me. My family noticed the change & pointed it out & I snapped on them for that. It was that bad. And this was recent, this wasn't like 5 years ago, all this happened LAST year. So I know from experience how difficult & painful what you're going through right now can be.

Even though I still have anxiety sometimes, I learned how to stop the attacks from happening, I don't have them anymore. But before then my doctor wanted to put me in a psych ward, (yeah, he literally recommended that) & I took Xanax (& Zoloft for two days) for a while, then it stopped helping, so he wanted to increase my dose. And I didn't want to become an addict or dependent on meds (I personally don't believe in taking meds for mental illnesses), so one day I just decided "fuck it, I'm not taking anything anymore" & I realized in that moment that the decision I made scared me a fucking lot cause I wasn't going to have anything to run to, but ultimately it was going to help me. I had to hurt & pray A LOT before I got better. While I was going through it I felt so hopeless & lost & I started questioning my faith in God cause I didn't feel like anything was changing, I felt worse tbh. I remember one night I just completely gave up & I drove to my mom's house in the middle of the night cause I didn't know what else to do. We went for a walk & talked until the sun came up. I never call my parents when I'm going through something terrible, I always try to resolve my problems on my own, so if I call them it's serious. But with time I got better. And I'm happier. So I'm living proof that you CAN overcome your biggest demons. My advice to you would be to start slow, you won't get better overnight. It's going to take time & it's going to hurt - I won't lie to you, but you WILL prevail in the end. But for now, distract yourself, get on your phone & find a funny video. Give yourself time to breathe & realize you're safe. That feeling will pass & you'll be okay again. & if you ever need someone to talk to to help you calm down, come hop in my dm's & we can hang out until you feel better. You don't have to be alone. & you definitely don't have to suffer alone. I often get people who ask me for advice in handling depression, that's partially the reason I haven't left Tumblr. I wouldn't want to abandon anybody. I'm so sorry you're going through this, honey. I hope things get better for you. Literally if you need me to just stay here for you just to help you, I will. & if you need any more resources in dealing with anxiety/depression, dm me. I'm so sorry for triggering you. I'll choose my words more carefully next time. Bless your heart, I'll pray for you.

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Organizations:

National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH); 866-615-6464

National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI); 800-950-NAMI (800-950-6264)

Anxiety and Depression Association of America (ADAA); 240-485-1001

American Psychiatric Association; 800-357-7924

Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, Division of Mental Health (CDC); 800-CDC-INFO (800-232-4636)

American Psychological Association; 800-374-2721

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Coping, Advocacy, and Support:

Anxiety and Depression Association of America: Support Groups

The Anxiety Network: Help and Support

Anxiety Central: Forums

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Medications for Anxiety Disorders (talk to your doctor first):

Cymbalta (duloxetine)

Celexa (citalopram)

Zoloft (sertraline)

Anafranil (clomipramine)

Prozac (fluoxetine)

Paxil (paroxetine)

Xanax (alprazolam)

Klonopin (clonazepam)

BuSpar (buspirone)

Valium (diazepam)

Ativan (lorazepam)

Lexapro (escitalopram)

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Links:

https://www.counseling.org/knowledge-center/mental-health-resources/anxiety

https://adaa.org/understanding-anxiety/generalized-anxiety-disorder-gad/resources

https://blog.thetransitionhouse.org/anxiety-help-and-resources-1

https://www.rtor.org/anxiety/

https://www.nami.org/About-Mental-Illness/Mental-Health-Conditions/Anxiety-Disorders

I H o p e Y o u ' r e O k a y

Hi. I have a question. On YouTube and insta your family seems to have a lot of native american traditions and cook native foods and stuff like that so I was wondering could you maybe post traditional native american dishes that you cook either on insta or yt? I have always wanted to try authentic native american food but nobody I know is native american or knows any authentic recipes haha

I can't believe I haven't done this yet, holy crap. I'll actually do that this coming week because I'm going over my parents' house to talk about wedding stuff & my mom's going to be cooking, so I'll definitely have the recipes etc posted on IG. Just go into it with an open mind, be prepared to try meat you've never eaten & purchase quite a bit of wild nuts & indigenous veggies. 🥔🌽

How old were you here and where/why/when was this taken? 😍😍😍

You know what? Here you really remind me of those 80s hippie guys from major bands, I love the hair lol

I think I was anywhere from 30 to 32 when that picture was taken, just a few years after the grand opening of my factory. It was taken at Huckleberry, an old photo framing store where you pay to have your picture taken in front of a backdrop and framed, just before I went on holiday to Nigeria (one of the wealthiest and most beautiful African countries, by the way) to celebrate a monetary sales increase in the new release of chocolate bars. And, of course, I was invited by hospitable locals to see the Calabar Carnival festival. To be completely honest, I hadn't planned on growing my hair to that length, I was just more dedicated to my work to care to cut it at the time. That is called "Wolfing", my dear. I cut it soon after. Semi annual haircut and all that jazz.

I love how you rejected Mrs beareguarde before the boat ride and didn't sit by her but then after that you was just all up in her personal space and sneaking up on her and shit 😂😂😂😂😂

Was I invading her personal space any more than she had already mine? I didn't notice. Her advance prior was intentional, though. My being in her space was just coincidental and situational. Because her daughter was a gigantic blueberry and that probably needed to be talked about.

You calling people hun and sweetheart is a religion itself

Lol, thank you but nah, I'm not that important. 🌺

C U T E A S K

😂😂 I never want to argue with you I would lose @thewillywonka

Just unfollow them lmao 🤷🏻‍♀️

Like who's gonna see that as offensive they probably won't even notice like who tf looks in their "follower"-list on the regular

Aww, is somebody having a bad day? You must be the obviously offended cat that recently followed me that I was talking about. Hi, I'm Willy. Nice to meet you, anonymous scaredy cat.

Now. For your information, I never said anyone looks at their followers on a regular basis, I said I receive notifications about random blank accounts following me on a regular, einstein. Which everyone on tumblr also complain about because a lot of people are having problems with spam bots. Learn to read and comprehend. It'll help you look less dumb in the future. Have a nice day. 😊

As a JD fan my heart is tearing. I hope this is not true omfg

if you had to choose a side in the feud would you choose johnny Depp or amber heard??

Neither. I don't like either of them, they're both lunatics tbh (esp Johnny, he's openly friends with & idolizes satanists, pedos, beastialists & Marilyn Manson - an outed woman abuser & satanist. Plus people have OD'd & died in his weird nightclub & shit. But nobody talks about any of this. Dude's sketchy asf & needs to be arrested & thoroughly investigated. Cause birds of a feather, ya know?). Amber on the other hand just seems like your typical privileged & protected manipulative, opportunistic white girl. Chances are they both have abusive personalities in private. Cancel both.