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I also made a night version :D
This:
But it's Lan Wangji
AU where Shen Yuan got into a wife plot, was saved and wooed by Bingge, married him and was then promptly forgotten and replaced with a new wife.
Now he spends his days as a beautiful but neglected and unloved concubine, quietly pining for his cold husband.
('Pining, sad concubine' is only one step away from 'beautiful, grieving widow' so Sy is really getting into the role.)
He really, genuinely loves Binghe, but his husband doesn't even spare him a single glance.
Also, the other wives keep trying to pull him into their schemes and intrigues, ugh. Don't they know that a neglected, scheming concubine is the biggest death flag there is? No, no, a tragic concubine might survive, but a tragic, scheming one? Never.
So he spends his days wearing beautiful robes, sitting on dainty little benches, looking out of windows and sighing. Or strolling through the garden, looking at the pond and sighing. Or playing the qin and stopping to sigh now and then.
Just, a lot of sighing. And gazing yearningly at Binghe whenever he sees him walking through the hallways.
Binghe hasn't reacted to it yet, but Shen Yuan is sure that, eventually, the tragic concubine beam will be too strong to overlook.
Then, of course, everything goes to shit. A lot of the wives collude to kill Binghe, and Shen Yuan arrives just in time to see one of them come at Binghe with a poisoned dagger.
Now, what use is it to look beautiful and tragic if Binghe isn't there to see and appreciate it?
So Shen Yuan goes between them and dies an ugly, painful death in Binghe's arms.
Then, he opens his eyes again, two years in the past and back to being a beautiful but neglected concubine.
Shen Yuan sighs.
But alas, he has become very, very good at being a tragic concubine. The food isn't bad either and he can spend a big part of his days reading trashy literature when he isn't busy sighing.
So he's determined to go right back to it.
And he would, if it wasn't for the fact that Binghe suddenly pops up everywhere he goes.
It's very hard being a beautiful, neglected concubine when his husband wants to have conversations with him all the time!
How is Shen Yuan supposed to look tragic if Binghe dotes on him all the time? At least he acknowledges how beautiful Shen Yuan looks, even if they still have to work on the 'neglected' part.
(Unbeknownst to him, when Shen Yuan had lain dying in Binghe's arms, Binghe had looked at him and realised that he'd had someone who truly loved him right under his nose all this time. So of course, he searched for an artefact that turns back time.)
(And, being the protagonist, he managed this outlandish feat. When Shen Yuan had opened his eyes, back two years in the past, Binghe had as well, determined to win his beautiful, tragic concubine's heart.)
Obviously and shamelessly inspired by 'The Wife is First'.
CQL/MDZS ULTIMATE CHARACTER RE-DESIGN Added sect leaders + some additional designs for the different time periods/stages for some of the characters!
ALSO! if anyone wants to use these designs for art or edits or fics, please feel free to, i'd be so honored! all i'm asking for is to tag me/send it to me so i SEE AND DIE OF HAPPINESS
Dazai and Chuuya do not have a normal relationship, however you want to define that (platonic or romantic). Without the context of their backgrounds, it reads as like... really fucked up. And that's true, to an extent, but to eliminate their circumstances is to do them a great disservice, in my opinion
First of all, I'd like to acknowledge that I'm fully cognisant of the fact that skk were not written to be a romantic pairing— Asagiri simply does not intend for them to be perceived as such. That being said, this does not mean that audience interpretations of a media are invalid. I ship skk, and as such this analysis may include my romantic interpretations of them as a pair and i acknowledge this bias at the same time that I acknowledge the validity of my interpretation.
Let's look at Chuuya's background first. He has little to no memory of his life prior to 7 years old, when he was separated from his family and treated as a government experiment. After his escape, he was an orphan on the streets taken in by a group of fellow orphans. He quickly rose to be the leader and protector of this group, who would eventually literally stab him in the back when he was manipulated into working with and eventually joining the Port Mafia. He spent his teen years with a suicidal maniac as a partner, watched countless friends and a clone of himself die, and found out a literal god was living in him, forcing him to question his humanity.
Dazai's past is much less clear. We don't know what his family was like, but we know that Mori recruited him after discovering him after a suicide attempt and began grooming him as the Demon Prodigy. He was forced to be an accomplice to a murder, and was constantly manipulated by and possibly physically abused by Mori. He was known for his coldness and was feared by many as a monster for the majority of his teenage years, and was expected to eventually become the boss of the Port Mafia through assassinating Mori, which the latter was paranoid about. Finally, one of his best friends betrayed him and the other died in his arms when he was eighteen years old, something plotted out by Mori, which resulted in his defection from the organization.
As teens, skk had a weird relationship (and that's putting it lightly). There was a certain level of contempt they held for one another. Chuuya resented Dazai's pessimism and lack of regard for others, and Dazai resented Chuuya's emotional and aggressive nature. Yet, they both had a deep understanding of one another that no one else really seemed to have at the time. They recognized one another as human when the individual himself did not. They had full faith and trust in each other, not allowing each other to die despite their disdain. It was complicated, and it wasn't quite healthy... but it was pretty damn good considering they were traumatized children in the Port Mafia.
There's a certain level of abusive behavior between them as teens, and I won't ignore that. Dazai played a large part in manipulating Chuuya into entering the mafia, and Chuuya insulted Dazai's suicidal and depressive nature a lot. Dazai found pleasure in causing Chuuya pain, both physically and emotionally. Chuuya literally has a list of torture techniques to use against Dazai. This is why I often stray from portraying an established romantic relationship at this point in their lives. I don't think they understood who they were fully yet, and sometimes projected their issues onto each other. Even if they were in love at that time, neither of them would have been ready for that type of commitment. I also just think they were too emotionally constipated to get to that point, anyway.
Something that I do love about their relationship as teens, though, is how they let each other be kids. Their bickering and arguments were childish and dumb, but that's the closest thing they had at the time to being normal teenagers. Amongst all the doom and gloom that surrounded them in the mafia, they knew that they could always go to each other and have a mindless argument or competition. In a way, this is how they reclaimed their stolen childhoods.
We see this when they're adults, too. In their first encounter in four years they tease each other about the same things as before, slipping right back into their childish banter. It's silly and immature, but that's how they operate. They allow each other to have that, and I really love this aspect of their relationship.
I think there's something to be said for how their time apart was good for them. Dazai is most clearly in a better place than before. Sure, he's masking a lot of the time, and he's still clearly suicidal, but I think the work he does with the agency is more fulfilling than at the mafia. He has more of a purpose, even if it's just to stay true to his promise to Oda (though I do believe it's more than that now). At his core, he's still a suicidal pessimist who finds humanity utterly disgusting and doesn't quite consider himself to be human, but I think there's a level of contentment of what he's doing with his life.
It's less obvious how Chuuya has changed, but I think that he has. He exhibits more self-confidence and maturity than in his teen years. He's more capable and well-rounded as an executive, and it's a personal headcanon of mine that in Dazai's absence, he was forced to pick up some of his skills of perceptibility and deduction. I think he is in a better place than before, as well, especially because he was able to establish himself independent of Double Black. He has also settled within Port Mafia, recognizing them as his family, which means he, too, is likely more content.
So as adults, they display less of the abusive behaviors than they did previously. Of course, there's still a certain level to which they're abnormal. Their jokes and quips about one another are sometimes quite dark, and there's a certain level to which Dazai still exhibits power over him when it comes to deciding to use Corruption. But that trust is still there, despite their time apart, and so too is that understanding of each other. They're not perfect by any means, but given their traumatic upbringings... they're kind of perfect for each other.
There is the fact that they want to kill each other. I'll admit that I struggle to explain this aspect, but I'll try my best, because I think it's not as bad as it sounds. I just think it makes sense for them. They're both sorta unkillable, so this aspect of their rivalry denotes a certain respect for each other. It's also a matter of likely knowing that they actually won't ever kill each other (and no, this isn't me being in denial about ch. 101, I fully believe that Chuuya is not dead, there is no way he's going out like that). This is one of the more complex aspects of their relationship, but when you add it to everything else we know about them, it just sorta works. I mean... thinking of ways to kill your partner for 7 years? That's kinda gay.
At the end of the day, skk keep each other in check and allow each other to have fun. They trust, know and respect each other, and though they claim to hate each other, I really don't think this is true. It's much more than that. They're rivals, they're partners, they're soulmates! And honestly, that's what makes them so goddamn interesting.
Did some text post memes because the Scum Villain brainrot is real
Y'all, you ever just get assaulted by the idea of how devasting it would be for the rest of the world if SQH actually took care of himself, three meals a day and 8 hours of sleep sorta deal? How minds would be blown?
Because like, I have this headcanon that every peak lord has a different kind of beauty, yeah? Like SQQ has this very cold, ethereal beauty. And LQG has this very sharp, intimidating beauty. YQY has this very warm, confident beauty, beautiful big bro beauty. WQW has this rugged and debonair sort of beauty and so on and so forth.
And SQH, underneath all of the stress and sleepless nights, is the most adorable, endearing, cute person in the world. He's that cute that makes people go feral, like honest to God cute aggression.
So can you guys imagine like, let's say that SQH has a minor but very acute qi deviation because of how hard he works, yeah? It's not SJ level but enough for MQF to put his foot down and whisk his shixiong away to his peak and very politely forcing him to be taken care of So SQH can't do anything but rest, eat well, take some sun for that good vitamin d for his depression and chill.
(MQF has some close calls with SQH, of course. Some disciples that need their Shizun back. Some demons that don't understand they can't just teleport in and Try to steal his shixiong away. But because MQF has had plenty of training with SQQ and LBH, he perseveres)
Queue a couple of weeks later and SQH is getting some weird ass looks and doesn't understand why! Is there something on his face? He looks at his reflection more often His cheeks are rounder and pinkish but they look clean enough. Was it because he put on weight? His clothes aren't hanging off of him anymore... But MQF said it was a good thing.
Was it his hair? He thought it looked good. With nothing to do for all those weeks, he had thought That he had managed the bird's nest he had been saddled with. MQF and his head disciple had said it looked nice... Were they lying?
Look as he might, he can't find stuff that's too wrong with his face. So why are people staring at him like that?
....
And not just staring. They're acting weird too!
Like! Like! He went to talk to LQG about his peak going over the budget and the man looked like he would kill him. And then! When he finally managed to get his shidi to agree in keeping the costs down, he smiled, thankfully And LQG punched the table between them, breaking it in half! Like WTF, bro!
He thought they were cool now, after SQQ married Bīnghé!
Guess he was wrong...
Speaking of his son! He was weird too!
SQH'S body had decided to betray him after so many years. Just because he had shown weakness.
He couldn't go three hours without food anymore. Real food too! His adored melon seeds did nothing for the growling beast in his stomach.
Such a traitor! Didn't his body know he had a job to do? Aiya!
So imagine his embarrassment! His shame! When waiting for a weird acting Cucumber bro, his stomach growled noisely near LBH! WTF!
SQH looked down, apologetic, cheeks red with shame, and askes to be forgiven by Junshang.
The look LBH gave him was so deadly that he thought his days were numbered. But when Airplane thought LBH was going to give him the final strike, he merely got up and left his Shishu to wait alone.
Normal right?!
But then! When he was talking to SQQ, who was a lot More bitchy than usual, LBH brought snacks for his beloved. Usual, right?! NO!
For the first time in his life, LBH placed some of the plates in front of SQH! And two cups for the same pot of tea! Bīnghé usually made two pots of tea for them, one with the really good stuff for SQQ and one so and so for SQH!
And people might think he was insane! I mean, maybe the table was small, right? He had to place the snacks for Shizun near the other peak lord because there was no room but NO! There was so much room!
And to top it all off, after. While of just drinking tea, LBH asked why wasn't he eating??? WTF!!
He looked helplessly to SQQ but the traitor just arched a brow at him. Was this some sort of game? Was the food poison??
"Eat, shidi"
SQH had lived a... Life, right?
It wasn't the best life but it had been a life. Who knew it would end like this?
SQH ate the food. It was delicious. The soft exterior of the bun melted in his mouth giving way to the savory meat inside. It was the best food he ever had. It was heaven.
Ok.
He could die for this.
But as he happily ate, he must've done something! Because SQQ struck his head with the guard of his fan, waking him up from his bliss.
"What was that for?" He asked, heartbroken.
But Cucumber didn't answer. He merely grumbled about his stupid face and to just eat and shut up.
Weird, right??
And then he had been getting these-- things! They looked like gifts from his martial siblings but-- but that did not make any sense! They never, ever given him anything but work.
And at first he thought they were normal, yeah? He thought, for example, when WQW had given him a Very beautiful and blessed dagger that he wanted more of the ore that made it and told him he would see what he could do. When he managed to find the budget for it and purchase the ore,his shixiong had the nerve to ask him why he bought it!
SQH showed him the dagger and WQW had the gall to laugh at him and told him to keep it. Like it was a gift or something??
WTF??
But worst of all! Worst than all this weird crazy nonsense, was his king!
If MBJ had been needy, demanding, and spoiled before, it was nothing compared to now.
Now, MBJ demanded his full attention when they talked, looking him dead in the eye like he was trying to pick out a lie. Or when they sat, he pulled SQH to his lap like he was going to run away. Or get made when those weird not-gifts started to pile up in his house.
He had the sneaking suspicion that his king broke some of them too.
Aiya!
And because SQH'S body was a traitor now, not only did it need food like all of the time, it needed sleep too! He was now falling asleep on his king's lap all the time. So rude!
He tried to get MQF to deal with this weirdness but his shidi only said that it was normal.
And then patted his head! Like... Like--like he was a kitten or something!
WTF?!
First wangxian art~
I really like this design so I decided to turn them into a full illust! ✨
WWX training the juniors
The juniors: *using teamwork as strategy to defeat him*
WWX, eyes red: it's really cute you're gonna defeat me with the power of friendship and all but then again i am the YILING LAOZU from the BURIAL MOUNDS so...
been trying to figure out what to move over here from Twitter from my *checks notes* over two years of mxtx insanity but I think this belongs here
I give you: xie lian presented with a problem
My hualian art bonus to 3rd TGCF book
I choked on my spit when I saw this ad months ago haha
He reminds me of the super OP aunt you have as a child who brings out her resistance shredding slippers to scare you from misbehaving
i changed my blog up a bit- and this is what my pfp is gonna be in the meantime :D
also expect many more fandoms other than just genshin from this point on lol
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(the reason i was gone for so long was cuz my laptop broke and i had to send it away but its back now so the shitposts shall resume)
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