Nonlinear-student - The Infinite Chaos

4 April (thoughts)

I never really took the time to explain what the big picture is, so I’m going to attempt to explain it here

I want to be a great dad. As cheesy as it might sound, I love the idea of being a positive father, and father-figure to those who need that person in their life. To this day my dad doesn’t claim me, and much as I love my mom, there are still some things that I would have looked for from him. I will be the change

I want to be a millionaire, and establish various forms of income that can be utilized after my journey on earth is complete. I have already began investing, and look to retire (read: not work as hard) around age 40.

I want to make the world a better place. The earth is OUR mother, and its OUR job to protect her. I have created an animal rights groups, organized adopt-a-highway’s, gone to and organized many protests (the March For Science being to this day the biggest protest I’ve ever helped create).

I want to own a RHD (right hand drive) Snow White FC-RX-7. I adored Initial-D growing up and Ryosuke’s was the first car I actually fell in love with. I was able to own one for a short while, but due to a lack of money, and time I was never actually able to complete the build. I try to play it off like it was no big deal, but that car really meant a lot to me, and it’s my goal to do it right.

I want to be an example of a great physicist, and a symbol of black excellence. I want to show that if I, a vegan, pan, non-binary person can get their Ph.D doing what they love DESPITE being homeless and abused, then you can too.

In case you need to hear this

1. You are loved

2. You are accepted no matter who you are

3. My inbox is always open

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🎧 my thoughts

morning study sesh and a cute cafe :)

My desk/dorm area

the aftermath of studying for 11hrs

30 March (the first day of classes)

I have mixed feelings about this quarter. On one hand I’ll be receiving a degree and moving on to an actual university. On the other I am faced with the fact that I won’t see many of my friends for quite some time after I graduate (not to mention the new course load and ops tempo)

In all I’m happy to be back, and look forward to future productivity

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🎧 Trappin in Paradise 78 - Smooth sounds

The beauty of mathematics

An assortment of computer models rendered employing variations of the Lorenz equation.

I want straight A’s at least once in my life, but I find that I don’t actually put in the work to get it done. Often times I find myself doing just enough to get by, and despite being a STEM student, I really haven’t done much in the way of studying.

As much as I enjoy math and science, I find it painful to get into studying the material, and do just enough to get a decent grade.

All of this revolves around time management and coping with my adhd, but THE BOREDOM IS REAL and there’s only so much I can do to combat that.

I know grades aren’t a true measurement of success, but just once I’d like to know the joy of being that student.

-28 years and counting 😔

Bruh the thanos’ed that helmet. Respect to Tony Hawk though.

Tony Hawk lands a 900 at age 48!

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Shout out to @messy-does-cosmology for putting in work, and being a good friend.

29.3.2021

This date is kinda fraudulent because it's past midnight now, but I'm giving myself a pass on being accurate because I am exahsted and I did about 10 hours of work today. I don't know if I've ever done that much work before in a day. Anyway I've been working on my research project report, and it's at 5500 words now out of about 6400 I need as the minimum for a first, so I only need to do roughly another thousand words to be in the clear (bibliographys don't count). I had a bit of a breakthrough because I worked out how to use the proper SDSS explore tool and it has been... life changing. I'm definitely going to be able to write another 1000+ words about my topic before I hand it in on Wednesday.

Day 29: Name your own aesthetic! What's an aesthetic you'd like to try out? I don't want to pretend to be a complex human being here but I really struggle to "try out" new aesthetics, because I feel very dismorphic about my own appearance often enough as is. Dressing like myself involves lots of primary colours, big jeans and a little shirt, or big jeans and a big shirt. I don't recognise myself otherwise. And if I were to name an aesthetic, it would be called astronomercore. It would involve a lot of fleece jumpers and thick jeans and gloves. And like maybe a big duvet stuffed in your backpack. Any fellow astronomy bitches will know.

16.3.2021

Today and yesterday were a total whirlwind, but today was better than yesterday. I got lots done, even if I didn't do everything on my list (because I had to catch up from yesterday, haha!). I had stopped doing yoga as regularly, so I'm so glad I did some today. It brings my body a lot of peace.

@progressaesthetics challenge prompts:

Day 15: tag someone you would get along just fine with

"fine" seems like a low bar, but I love @nonlinear-student's posts and I think he's a really committed student. I love meeting other physics students here!

Day 16: what is your go-to beverage?

Masala chai with some kind of non-dairy milk, preferably almond. I also loooove hot chocolates, or some kind of flavoured "not real coffee" coffee, like cinnamon bun lattes.

Today was pretty good, I got most of my calc 3 homework done, and still found time to catch up on most of my linear algebra notes.

Sending positive and productive vibrations