Jude's Character Also Made Me Realize Just How Lazy Of A Main Character F/eyre Is. While F/eyre Might

I respect poetry so much because it does what I cannot do - say so much with so little.

When I have something Much to say, it takes me just as many words to say it. I say it with words that are each of them bland and common, unimaginative by their lonesome, with the hopes that if I stack so many together and squeeze a single drop of Much from each that it might flow into something meaningful.

When I have something to say, I say it twice. I say it three times. Because the first or second may not have captured the point. Because I do not trust myself to express the full essence saying it just once. Like just now, those last two sentences. I’ll repeat myself a third time for good measure - because I do not say it right just once or twice.

Poems say things in only a half, only a quarter. They choose single words worth more than ten of mine. I want to know how their minds shop for words. I want to distill myself like poets do. I want to trade in all my too many common words for the way they use an extraordinary few.

If I keep writing this, I’ll write it forever. I’ll explain myself again, as I have already, as I’m doing now. With more and different other words, with the hope of saying myself fully, like how all the hatched and messy wanton scribbles from a pen might finally color in a page. I want to change that. I want to not rip the page I’ve oversaturated by the tip of my pen.

I’ll start tomorrow, maybe, to explain myself less.

*I drew this picture for a fan convention to celebrate the 3rd anniversary of FGO Nemo's implementation.

Work process & Idea sketch

This is the hill I have decided to die on

A lot of them probably wouldn't last at your job

Last year I had an internship at a fancy office during the day, and a food service job at night. One of the ladies at the office told me she needed a part-time job for some extra cash, and I let her know about an opening in my food service job, described what would be expected, all of that. 

Guys. She quit after one (1) shift, called me the next day, and ranted, “You never told me it was going to be that hard, is that what you do every night?! I’m not 20 anymore, I’m 50, I can’t believe they only pay you $9.50/hr to do all that work!” [For the record, I had coworkers who were 65+]

She was shocked when I explained that yeah, most food service jobs require you to stock heavy boxes, work the register, and learn to cook/prep food, then clean up before you go home. It never occurred to her that people who “just flip burgers” actually have demanding jobs. 

“I’m going to have to be extra nice to those people from now on!” Like yeah, no shit?

some of you haven’t stayed up late to read a 100k+ word fic even though you had to be up early the next day and it shows

“Percy Jackson is a POWERFUL demigod. FORBIDDEN even. he is a DanGEr and a menace”

Percy, the moment he sees the Oracle: *worst voice crack imaginable* h i

i think the aesthetic echo chamber created by tumblr is more dangerous than the political one bcs im self aware enough to kno my politics r radical but then me and the girlies are on here reblogging body horror and very weird erotic poetry and i get offline and interact w a real person and jokingly say something like fungus is tangibly divine in the way it facilitates the eternal dance of creation and destruction which is really creation as or by destruction and theyre like what the hell are you talking about freak. the aesthetic barrier between me and a girl in a vineyard vines tee is literally insurmountable. i find the trout to be a very nietzschean fish

The homoeroticism when you tell a man that you'll follow him wherever he goes after only knowing him for 4 months (the weirdly indepth and lengthy conversations about the technical ins and outs of the Nautilus is foreplay)

annabeth and grover frantically submerging percy in water the way you’d put an iphone in a bowl of rice

I was watching ep. 3 of pjo with my best friend who’s never read the books and she said “percy’s so smart and sneaky.” and yessss!! he IS. and he gets played off as this lucky and clueless guy at worst and naturally talented and powerful fighter at best. but ultimately, he’s won most of his battles by outsmarting his opponent. he’s an incredible strategist and he doesn’t get enough credit for it.

percy is very cunning at heart and that’s a compliment. he could’ve been an antagonist if he chose to be but he didn’t bc he cares about people. if his loved ones and the state of world weren’t at risk of being collateral damage in the war, I think percy might’ve joined kronos’ side. it’s not his loyalty for the gods that makes him a hero, it’s his loyalty to humanity