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Thinking about either writing or drawing Griffian... if no one else will, I will, fuck it.

That one interview with a vampire picture but make it dominoe

Day 4: Debauchery/Soiree

Alucard in the sunlight ☀️

Alucard in the sunlight ☀️

I feel this way with both my writing and art lol only when I compare it to any previous writing or artwork I did do I appreciate where I'm currently at

it has been years and this still remains the most meaningful advice i have ever read. every time i'm editing my own writing and getting really fed up with it, i stop bashing my face in and just think about this. "You hate the most valuable thing about your art." my writing is supposed to read like i wrote it! because i did! i should be happy to have my own voice and style! ugh thank you forever to this tweet fr

Chase - 12/13/24

I will never stop loving this manga

Ehe-

wip some smut and ahh again

#Bronze no Tenshi #Natalia Pushkina #Alexander Pushkin #Georges D'Anthès # Natalia my sweet bby girl #Chiho Saito

Natalia did nothing wrong.

I recently reread Bronze no Tenshi and oh my God I love Georges D’Anthès with all my heart - as if I already didn’t love him enough when I first read this manga. He’s so respectful, he’s ready to sacrifice everything for Natalia and he understands a woman’s struggles. 

I don’t despise Pushkin in Bronze no Tenshi as it often happens to me with the other “love rival” of Saito’s stories, sometimes I pity him, but I also think a lot of people overlook his flaws and mistakes in his relationship and attitude towards Natalia out of their admiration for the figure of the real Pushkin, the poet. On the other hand, I see a lot of blame put on Natalia, when, if you really think about it, Natalia did nothing wrong. Natalia cannot be the usual strong, single-minded, fierce woman that Saito portrays in her stories: it wouldn’t be realistic and true to the time when the events take place. In my opinion, Natalia was a good person that always sacrificed herself for the people around her, who had for once the chance to do something exclusively for herself when she met the love of her life, D’Anthès. 

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Protective (boy)friend.

Most liked psychiatrist in berlint general

ObaMitsu Family Portrait!!

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Giyuu is a man who has reserved himself from relationships for YEARS you cannot tell me he isn’t touch starved in some shape or form or blushes like a school girl at the mere thought of holding hands. So anyway, Shinobu thinks it’s adorable and you know where this goes from here-

Really wanna write about this Heian AU....

Okay, I was studying. But I accidentally came across the premise of a simplistic early Noh drama version of the "Tsuchigumo" story. You might or might not recall that this is the story of the giant spider demon slain in a few Kabuki retellings, including "Kumo no Hyoshimai," which was the basis for the official KnY/Kabuki crossover last year. In that Kabuki crossover, Giyuu played the role of Minamoto no Yorimitsu, aka Minamoto no Raiko, a noble and a warrior (and goodness, that Kabuki makeup was becoming on him, wasn't it?). In this Noh version I stumbled on today, he's not joined by his four legendary Kamaboko warrior cohorts, but instead he is treated by a handmaiden who comes to bring him medicine and comfort him when he is suffering an illness of both body and mind.

The handmaiden's name is "Kochou." Yes, written exactly the same.

So, so get this. Picture it. Heian era times. Giyuu is a warrior. Shinobu is his handmaid. Yes? Yes.

We gonna get their ass shot date!!!

Anya: uh, I think I got your lunch, mama. *Holds up a note that reads: ‘I am very proud of you. Love, Loid <3’*

Yor: Ohh, yeah. I didn’t think this was for me. *Holds up a note that reads: ‘Be good. For the love of God, Please be good.’*

good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

Near end

Her outfit is based on that one official art by Yuho Ashibe

The Broken Ring : This Marriage Will Fail Anyway - By Chokam (8/10)

There is an extremely high potential for madness here. Both potential fiances have complex and strange feelings for the bride they want, but do they even want her? Or do they just want the bride with the best blood? Sometimes it is hard to tell. There is alot of cheating in this. Alot. In this setting cheating when you're married is extremely common. Who will get that ideal bride in the end? It's a mystery because love, in this setting, is selfish. Neither of the potential grooms are saints.

Ines chose a boy named Carcel when she was six. She rejected the chance to become imperial princess to have him. Everyone thinks she is a plain, overly mature girl. She always dresses entirely in black.

The sudden proposal horrified Carcel. He thought lady Ines would marry the Crown Prince, like everyone else. The prince even tried to change her mind, because their marriage would benefit him. She rejects him over and over again, and then seventeen years pass. Ines destroyed Carcel's life. The prince is his cousin, and now they don't get along, because his handsome face stole the best imperial bride. Carcel is very bitter towards Ines, but he never ignores her letters. He lives knowing that he has unconditional love, and he realizes how precious that is.

He fools around with flirtatious women for fun, but he plans to be respectful when he marries. Ines started to become colder, and busier, when he became a teenager. They both come from high ranking families with a lot of responsibilities. Ines has a very strict personality, so she barely visits him. Letters are not enough. He will never admit it, but he is lonely. He cheats on her because she has been witholding the affection she promised him when they got engaged. He joined the Navy, and stalled their marriage for a few years, because he was so frustrated with her coldness. He relies on her letters for comfort, but less and less of those come. The women he's sleeping with have started insulting his fiance, but they cannot change his mind. When Ines becomes his wife he plans to be loyal to her.

He has insane fantasies about his reserved bride. He thinks she will adore him just as much as he adores her when they start living together. This is lunacy. Ines does not smile much, and she wears nothing but black all year. The Duke indulges her, because she is his only daughter. He lets her pursue her hobbies and he doesn't expect her to fool around at tea parties. Carcel feels the same way. Ines does not need to put on a show for him. When they marry, and finally become more affectionate, he will be satisfied. He only expects her to give him more of her time.

He's twenty three, and his career in the Navy has brought his family honor. He has never once threatened to divorce Ines. Even after her letters stopped. Now that he's back on land he's ready to set a wedding date, and recapture that first love feeling with his cold bride. Ines has an extremely high pedigree. He blames her indifference on that. The Duke has spoiled her since her birth, so now Ines believes she doesn't have to please her husband. Ines is sort of right. Carcel is a hopeless fool. When they meet after a long time his lewd fantasies get more extreme. Ines is the only woman he has ever imagined having children with. He's excited to sign the papers, even though he won't admit it out loud.

Ines crushes him with freezing cold rejection. She says she knows about his affairs, and she doesn't care. She just needed a good husband that would not get in her way. She wants to them to lead separate lives after they tie the knot. Carcels odd fantasies get even sicker. He has always been wildly attracted to Ines. He thinks she has a secret harem of lovers that she intends to enjoy without facing any consequences. When Carcel cheated on Ines they were still not married. He was sneaking around out of loneliness, and he secretly wanted her attention. His most deranged fantasy involves a crying Ines, who is heartbroken about his affairs, and passionate make up sex.

None of his fantasies come true. Ines leaves him in shambles, and they only go out on dates for appearances. Carcel cannot divorce her. He doesn't want to, and he's in denial. Ines chose him all those years ago. Why is she tormenting him like this? He doesn't understand. He tries to sleep with another woman, but he can't get erect. When those women lavish compliments on him they remind him of his true self. In his fantasies he pampers Ines and showers her with compliments. So when other women flirt with him he's too embarrassed about his real desires to get hard.

He tells her everything. He gets way too intense about it. Ines is very unpopular, and she's twenty three now. She's stuck with him. She will not be able to run from him and find another husband. He tells her he won't get a mistress, and he won't allow her to have any lovers. He starts talking about their children that don't exist yet, and he tells her not to underestimate him.

Why is Ines so weird and cold? Well, this isn't her first life. She's trying to survive. She keeps dying, because the prince is crazy and abusive. She married Prince Oscar in her very first life. Everyone envied her. She wore fine clothes and she starved herself to make her body look more glamourous. She had anorexia, and the imperial family separated her from her family. She steadily grew more depressed, and she had four miscarriages.

Then, she saw the truth. After two years the prince was already bored with her. Her miscarriages happened because he contacted every kind of venereal disease. He also raped her often when he was pregnant, and the handsome prince loves very rough sex. She killed herself in front of him, because that was the only way she could get revenge.

She didn't expect to wake up again, and now she doesn't believe in love. The first version of Ines adored the prince, and Carcel is a scoundrel too. His obsession with her is very sexual, but it is rooted in his first love. Will he be able to convince her, even though he had a bunch of affairs out of spite? Will he be able to protect her from the prince, who doesn't respect women, or Ines's decision to marry someone else? I honestly don't know.

The biggest problem with this is the sexism, but there's no magic and I like that. It's a regular reincarnation story, and Ines could actually die if she makes the wrong choice again.

Twiyor Parallelism #3.1 ~· Father figures

This contains spoilers for the manga. In my previous post do a couple of analysis of Twilight and Yor individually, detailing individual aspects of their personality and the conflict that raises each character in their background. Now, I want to develop an analysis that will be divided into several parts, about these characters at the point where they are similar and opposite to each other, and how their dynamics develop. I clarify, that this is based on the manga and my own point of view, being my own theories of what it means - but this can change, depending on the course that follows the manga that is in issue. That being said, let's get started!

Continuing another aspect of Twiyor's childhood.

The relationship we have with our parents is a fundamental aspect of our development. Even if this happens unconsciously, and we do not realize how our parents affect us

Twilight:

At the beginning of the manga, Twilight's family is a topic which is not touched on directly. They only give us to understand that Twilight lost everything at a young age. Twilight clearly suffers from irritation when he sees a crying child (Anya), as it is an irritable and pointless act. We know that part of Twilight's sternness about Anya's studies occurs because of the Strix mission. He needs her to be a good student to be able to enter and that this allows him to access the meetings of parents, of imperial academics.

Then, it is revealed to us that the real reason for the infant crying is an annoyance. It's because Twilight is projected onto Anya. It reminds him that he was once a child, and that he too was vulnerable and no one was there for him.

But, when we know Twilight's childhood. We can learn more about this complex:

Twilight's father

When Twilight mentions his father to his friends. His first adjective about him is that he is very "strict", with a face that reflects nerves. This is most noticeable when the first action of (Deleted) is to hide the toy gun so that his father does not see it. Interestingly, his father is perceptive and immediately deduces that he was "playing soldier"

Here, it is revealed to us that this man not only rejects the idea that "his son" admires and has fantasies about war and soldiers. But also, it requires he to focus more on studies and think about the future.

Here, something very curious happens. Twilight's father refers to him as a "coward". Which immediately produces a reaction in (Deleted). The little boy not only reaffirms wanting to be a soldier, he wants to show that he can fight, therefore, he wants to prove to his father that he is not the coward he claims.

[Precisely, in the same arc. Twilight's friends refer to him as "crybaby]

It is here, when we see that the father, wanting to reaffirm his rejection and displeasure, ends up slapping his son. He reaffirms that "he is just ignorant", that he knows nothing about Ostania. Since he has never seen the supposed monsters.

Now: I think we can say that Twilight's relationship with her father is difficult and contentious.

For starters... Why does Twilight like the idea of ​​being a soldier?

Beyond being a child. The atmosphere surrounding Twilight was one filled with "war paranoia." Although we are children, from an early age we are able to absorb what is happening around us, even if we do not understand the implications. Fashions, trends, and everything that is in the lives of young people and adults, affects children. The media and the topics of conversation of adults are generating patterns in children. Due to the paranoia of war, Twilight and his friends most likely heard about war and soldiers many times. Whether they were defined as heroes or not.

This is very similar to how Anya likes spies. At a time when spies are wanted in Ostania. Appearing both on children's television shows (Bondman), or on the news by the SSS who capture anyone suspected of being spies.

Twilight and his friends like the idea of ​​being soldiers and going to war because they absorb the events around them but from the perspective of an innocent child. I think it's obvious to say that none of them wanted war or tragedies. Because they didn't "understand" what it meant

The real problem lay in the poor communication he had with his father and the violent and unnecessary methods that Twilight's father had with him.

It's sad how Twilight, when going to lock himself in his room. Sad, angry and frustrated. Twilight mentions how "hypocritical" his father becomes, since he speaks of peace but argues with his mother— Longing for peace in the world but not peace at home

But... really Twilight's father was bad?

Really, I don't think he was someone really evil. But his parenting methods were perhaps... the worst. When Twilight lies about going to buy a book. His father seems genuinely happy. Triggering a huge guilt. At that point, he showed genuine signs of joy and wanting to spend more time with him.

I get the impression that this man's lessons are good, and his intentions are genuine. But he did not know how to understand, or understand his son, much less make his lessons understand.

It is wrong to yearn for war. Especially if this is a whim, ideology, or ambition. This is a lesson that Twilight, being a soldier and a spy, understands. But, the father could not understand that Twilight only did this because it was the game of the time. In addition, he was only infatuated with being a soldier to see the way his father made him feel inferior

Twilight suffered from an emotional ambivalence. Obviously, Twilight doesn't know how to explain himself, because he was just a kid and didn't know how to express his needs. His goal was not to be a soldier, but to have his father's love and support. To feel that he could be the same with him, and be accepted.

His friends were an escape. A place where he can be himself and unfold his own repressed potential— Notice how good he is at acting with his games?

I think Twilight's father thought that if he made his child feel inferior, calling him a coward. He would give up being a soldier. -For some parents, this is a supposed strategy so that their children do not do something that could be dangerous. But they don't realize the psychological and emotional damage it causes to their children's self-esteem

The cause is good, but the method is very bad.

Here, there are two things that seem ironic and curious to me:

Twilight ended up becoming a soldier. Obviously, this was because of events that we already know. But it's ironic, how we end up, sometimes, in what they ask us never to be. Twilight ended up experiencing the tragedy caused by the Ostanians if he ended up becoming that hate-filled, pain-blind soldier who vows to destroy all of Ostania. Obviously, this happened because of the attack on the place where he lived. But it wasn't until many years later, when Twilight had to understand how terrible war was and that peace should be longed for. He ended up learning the same lesson as his father, but in the worst way

The second. It strikes me how emphatic his father was in the Twilight studios. The current Twilight, the spy, is a complete genius. Not only is he a born actor, but he also has an impressive deductive capacity, and an eidetic memory. It makes me believe that the difficult relationship between Twilight and his father was something that clouded the intelligence of this child. That man had no idea of ​​the genius he had, and the potential. But being so harsh with him only held Twilight back. And it was WISE that ended up taking advantage of this value.

Now in the present

You know what is ironic? As Twilight he is inadvertently learning from his father's mistakes. And try not to repeat it. He corrects many of these errors, on his own initiative, and another part is the influence that Yor has on him.

Twilight is much more severe compared to Yor. But himself, he begins to discern the limits of how much he can or cannot demand of Anya. Yes, yes, it's for the mission. But if you think about it... Twilight could be a much more cruel and strict father with Anya. After all, he needs it for the mission, for world peace. And the fact that Anya has won more tonitrus that stellas

Twilight, from the beginning, could only abandon Anya seeing that she really is not that applied to studies. Or he could resort to crueler methods - They remember Fiona and her fantasies of turning Anya into a star-making machine?

It's true, he doesn't want Anya to give up her studies because of the mission, but he also cares about her happiness. Many biological parents show no interest in their children's achievements, even if they are really merits of their own. They can only say "That is your duty", or "it is the least you could do" - Damian and Desmond relationship... remember?

Knowing that we can see Twilight's thoughts. We see that he is genuinely proud of Anya, when she passed the entrance exam, or when she won her first stella. When she affirms how wonderful he is as a father, and that he wants to be by his side forever... When was he about to explode when they made her cry?

The way Twilight talks with Desmond... That, although sometimes it's not easy... parents should find a way to understand each other with their children no matter how different they are. Anya wants to be a spy. Perhaps this is more fantasy than reality, considering how dangerous it is. But Twilight usually lets her be, and doesn't try to harass her for her fantasies.

Very surely, this is something unconscious in him. But his desire to be a good father is something that is born from him and it is not only because of the mission.

[This post has already become very long, so I will talk about the mother figure in another post. And about Yoru in others]

may i offer: bisexual loid forger.

you cannot tell me that this man hasn't had to mingle with men on missions and realize that oh no... they're hot.

“he’s quite a looker, him.” franky says over a glass of wine. he and twilight are watching nightfall attempt to seduce a westalis veteran in a gala.

franky isn’t wrong. the man is incredibly fit, years of military training not lost on his physique. he’s wearing a form-fitting suit that was clearly tailored to highlight his, um. assets, so to speak. twilight gulps.

from where they’re standing, he can hear the smooth baritone voice of the man above all the chatter of the hall, laughing lightly at nightfall’s quips.

from time to time, his eyes flit to twilight for a quick second, and twilight’s heart races.

he convinces himself that it’s from worry that the man will pick up on the intelligence eyes on him. yeah. definitely not from the way he seems more keen to talk to twilight than the attractive woman in front of him.

“bet he pulls all the ladies.” twilight hears franky say, oblivious to the growing tension beside him. he grunts in response.

marcus belante. thirty five. 203 lbs. 6’3. served in the westalis military for ten years.

when he reviewed his info sheet, twilight remembered something about marcus that wasn’t on it, something he learned when he was serving in the military himself.

he allegedly had a love affair with his commander, who eventually died in the war.

“i bet he does.” twilight takes a swig of his own wine.

nightfall eventually comes back, obscuring franky and twilight’s view of marcus, looking dejected.

“so? anything?” franky asks.

nightfall grunts, and twilight sneaks a glance behind her. he tries not to react when he sees marcus’ eyes on him, almost predatory.

“why do you look like you just got rejected?” franky teases. “i was,” nightfall rolls her eyes, “apparently i’m not exactly marcus’ type.”

she turns to twilight, who’s still trapped in a silent, heated exchange with the man.

a sharp elbow to his ribs breaks the trance twilight is in. “what?” he grits through clenched teeth, rubbing the tender spot on his side. “i said, i’m not his type.”

franky hums. “what now, then? is there another way we can—“ “i’ll go."

franky and nightfall look at twilight in surpise. he shouldn’t have offered himself so quickly, but what’s done is done.

it’s for the mission, after all.

he slicks his hair back and flags down another waiter. nightfall and franky say nothing as they watch twilight’s wine glass get filled to the brim.

“i’ll see you later.” twilight nods to his colleagues and walks toward marcus, who straightens up with a smirk.

do you think loid loves yor? i think yor likes him but i don’t know if love is the right word everyone uses it to describe them but i don’t see it

long post!! i take a while to get to yor specifically but hear me out i have a lot to say here!!!

early on in the manga chapter 8.5 loid overhears the neighbour’s speculating he’s having an affair because he returns from work so late. in response to it he thinks “when i get home i have this fake family”. pretty standard, it’s true they aren’t his real wife or child but later on in chapter 55 he no longer refers to yor and anya in that way.

chapter 8.5

chapter 55

nothing makes him think “i still ended up abandoning my family” he does that by his own will. by this point in particular it’s clear that yor’s and anya’s role in his life have crossed the threshold of fake or artificial. he truly does see them as his own. regardless of him saying he cares because of operation strix it’s undeniable that he cares for them too.

moving forward, another very telling piece of evidence that shows loid really sees them as his family is this panel with bond from chapter 58.2

“i want you to think of yourself as a member of the forger family” loid has no reason to say that to… a dog. to be talking like they are really his family to bond who he thinks can’t understand what he’s saying just proves it. he’s got his guard down and admits it because well, let’s be honest who cares if the family dog knows how he really feels? as per usual loid then backtracks and links his thoughts back to operation strix because again. this man is in denial.

loid practically has to throw himself into the role of the loving husband and he plays it incredibly well, why you ask? because he’s never been acting in the first place. it’s honestly quite obvious as a manga reader especially because of a lot of his mannerisms towards anya and yor or the way he thinks about them

the fact that fiona, someone who prides herself in knowing everything about loid notices loid breaking character in chapter 30 says a lot. she says it’s the first time his fake smile has really seemed genuine.

loid and yor know their marriage is fake, they literally know yet when yor gets the wrong idea or feels inadequate as a wife loid always comforts her and tells her she’s great. when she thinks he’ll leave her for someone else instead of saying something like “we’re not even a real couple” he reassures her that he would never leave her and anya. when she feels bad about her cooking he tells her not to worry either and encourages her.

then there’s the infamous “rest up yor” panel

when fiona visits and loid only gets angry when she criticises yor - this is very similar to his reaction towards prof swan in the eden interview arc. he grows defensive easily when people question yor’s capability as his wife

i could go on about yor and loid forever but it’s very obvious he has feelings for her. during the cruise ship arc he says it’s lonely eating dinner without yor and when anya calls him sappy he backtracks, he buys cake for their (fake) one year anniversary but again there’s NO POINT in doing that if they really see each other as fake husband and wife.

when loid is suspicious of yor because of yuri and he spies on her he feels guilty for ever doubting her especially after she later says she’s glad she married him.

frankie tells loid to trust no one and to not feel guilty for doubting her. after all in their line of work trusting people is the last thing you want to do. at this statement loid looks pretty annoyed and tired. then he rips off frankie’s face disguise before telling him to stop lecturing him… 😭😭

but most of all i think this panel is the most convincing.

he tells yor to be who she really wants because he believes she out of the two of them has the freedom to not pretend - she can love him and their family but he can’t love her or this family back. he thinks he can’t but has no idea that he already does.

No but I'm obsessed with this exchange actually

Because Twilight thinks he'd this big tough guy all for the mission and only caring about the mission and that's he's cold and has no attachments but every once in a while we see that he's not really he's a HUGE DORK

And he gets overzealous about things all the time and gets so into something when he's fired up but he doesn't even realize it and when he does his first instinct is to tamper it down because it makes him stand put or it goes against the mission or what have you but also that's the part that Yor loves about him

It makes sense cause she was like that with Yuri, always excited and interested in learning about him and his interests even when she didn't understand them at all. Because Yor loves it, and that's why she's perfect for Twilight because the parts he finds the most ridiculous or uncool are the parts she's drawn to and they are just absolutely perfect for each other

I love that Anya has learned to weaponize Yor.

bad guy: *exists*

anya: deploy agent mama

saw a post earlier today saying that twilight’s real name might be james, since anya was subject 007 and bond (and bondman) is bond and that would complete the set of references, and i’m pretty sure endo said yor’s name is short for “yolanda,” which i googled just now and one of the first examples of notable people on the wikipedia page was

i think there might be something to this theory

Haven't read Vampire Knight in a hot minute, but I do agree....AiTaro is a cute ship 😍

How am I supposed to not ship AiTaro when they spit Shakespeare to each other like "You are my night dew" and "you smell like the sun"?