happy pride to iceman and his batshit crazy twink that produces undeniable results with extremely questionable methods and flirts with anything that moves while driving/flying something that goes vroom vroom
Screaming, moaning, throwing up
For @christiangeistdorfer some photos/video and information on Falco and Niki Lauda's friendship!
This video is of when Falco and Niki Lauda had a shared birthday party. Near the end Falco drags Niki on stage to dance with him and then accept a birthday cake which Niki then chucks at another friend!
Here is a video of Falco performing at one of the Lauda Air parties. You can see Niki dancing in the crowd at parts.
Information: Being both famous Austrians Niki Lauda and Falco got to know each other and became quite close friends. Niki always had good music taste so this is unsurprising. Niki would host big parties/Christmas parties for his employees at Lauda Air and Falco would go and perform at them. Him and Niki would also go to some events together and go to some night clubs together. When Falco was killed in an accident Niki Lauda personally flew Falco's body back to Austria on his plane. He attended the funeral without his cap and would go on to name one of his planes after Falco. They were really good friends.
max verstappen (community service) š¤ kevin magnussen (race ban)
charles leclerc (saying fia has other things to prioritize and swearing on radio first chance he got) š¤ nico hulkenberg (saying kevin's race ban wasn't justified)
lestappen š¤ haasbands: having a common enemy (the fia)
People I got 13535 words and Iām not done yetā¦. Maybe this will be an ao3 exclusive šš
Iāll probably upload a chapter every two to three days or smt over there once Iām ready and have polished the first few chapters
Struggled to come up with a full story line to build up on and suddenly I get a burst of energy in the middle of the night.
Now Iām writing with the ideas flooding in and tears lowkey welling up in my eyes. Had to take my glasses off in between š
My writing isnāt nearly as good as the scenes playing on repeat in my head so donāt expect too much but I can promise that Iāll do my best.
Tragic Launt story will be longer than the ones Iāve written before so it takes a bit longer. Sorry!
Lots of work to do this week but Iāll post the Simi ficlet later today, I promise!!
Valewis fic i talked about earlier!
Won't be able to finish it today but decided to post the first part of it anyway! Please read the warning!!!!
TW/CW: eating disorder, Vomiting
And as always: Any mistakes please ignore or let me know. Thank you!
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Valtteri sat at the long table, the buzz of voices around him fading into a blur. The air in the meeting room was heavy with the usual technical jargon, the upcoming race strategy, tire choices, and performance analysis, but none of it sank in. Valtteri was staring blankly at the figures flashing across the screen. The lights where too bright, and the words spoken by the engineers and team principal felt distant.
He hadnāt eaten properly in days, and his body felt it. The tight knot in his stomach was a familiar companion now, gnawing at him relentlessly. The hunger was always there, but the idea of eating, of trying to force food down when everything inside him felt twisted and wrong, seemed impossible.
At least he was weighting less than Lewis now.
His chest tightened as the pressure built inside, a familiar gnawing feeling creeping in. No matter how hard he pushed, how much he trained, it never felt like enough. The weight of never being enoughānever quite living up to the expectations, to the dominance of his teammate, Lewisāsat on his shoulders like an unbearable burden. He had been struggling with this for monthsālong, agonizing months of trying to control something that seemed so utterly out of control.
He was drowning in it, struggling to stay afloat.
But it's his own fault, no? It's what he signed up for all those years ago. Valtteri should be used to it by now. It was part of the deal.
He glanced at Lewis across the table, the man who made everything seem effortless. Lewis, always calm, always composed, with a confidence Valtteri could never seem to find in himself. His thoughts raced, louder than the voices around him.
It's not his fault. I just need to be better. Why canāt I be better?
The room felt smaller.
His palms grew damp with sweat, and his pulse quickened.
His stomach churned, a twisting pain that had become all too familiar. The pressure of racing, of constantly being compared to Lewis, of always feeling second-best, had chipped away at him. The pressure had seeped into every part of his life, his mind a relentless critic.
He could feel the room spinning. His throat tightened, and he knew if he didnāt leave now, he wouldnāt be able to hold it together much longer. He needed to get back into control. Quietly, almost cautiously, he rose from his seat, quickly moving toward the door. His legs felt shaky beneath him, but he forced himself to walk, head down, hoping no one would notice. No one usually did, after all.
Of course they donāt care.
He headed down the hallway, heart pounding in his chest, his footsteps growing faster as he neared the stairs leading up to his Room, a place where he could break down in peace. But his body betrayed him. He couldnāt hold it back any longer.
The nausea surged, and he darted into the nearest restroom. Slamming the door behind him, he fell to his knees, hunching over the toilet. His whole body trembled as he gagged, trying to keep what little food he had managed to eat earlier from coming up.
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Lewis had noticed.
He always noticed when Valtteri disappeared. He had been watching him for weeksāhow his mood shifted, how his energy seemed depleted, how his once hearty laughter had dwindled into almost nothing. At first, he thought it was just the stress of the season, but there was something more, something darker lurking beneath the surface.
It wasnāt until he saw Valtteriās hunched shoulders hastily leaving the room that a sinking feeling settled in his gut.
Lewis followed.
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Valtteri knelt on the cold floor of the small bathroom, his hands gripping the porcelain edge of the toilet. His body trembled, the shame of what he was doing hitting him in waves, but it was the only way he felt in control. He hated it. He hated himself for it. But he couldn't stop.
He felt utterly alone in that moment, as he always had in the shadows of the team. But then, through the haze of sickness and shame, he heard the door creak open.
"Valtteri?" Not now. Not him. It was Lewis. Of course, it was Lewis.
His chest ached, too late to hide, too late to pretend everything was okay. He heaved, gagging as his body rejected the little food he had forced himself to eat earlier, his body convulsing as he struggled to breathe between violent retches.
"Go away," Valtteri choked out, his voice hoarse. His knuckles turning white from the force he held onto the porcelain with. He heaved again, his body shuddering as another wave of nausea hit.
Lewis stood frozen in the doorway. His breath hitched at the sight before him. Valtteri, the strong, composed teammate he had always admired, was hunched over in a position that spoke of agony and desperation. His heart clenched painfully in his chest.
"Valtteriā¦" Lewis's voice was a whisper, filled with concern but to Valtteri, it felt like a stab to the gut.
Valtteri lifted his head but didn't turn around. He couldn't. He couldnāt face thisācouldnāt face Lewis. Not now, not like this. His eyes were wide, chest tight, as if even breathing hurt. He wanted to tell him to leave, to walk away and pretend he hadnāt seen any of this. But the words caught in his throat, choked by the raw shame and exhaustion.
He swallowed hard, trying to compose himself, to act like it wasnāt what it looked like. But it was. He knew it, and Lewis knew it too. He couldnāĀĀt help it. His body trembled as he hunched over the bowl once more, dry heaving, retching with nothing left to give. His stomach was painfully empty, but still, he gagged, his throat burning from the bile coming up in harsh waves.
Lewis stepped forward, the weight of the moment hanging between them like a thick fog. "Val, whatā" Valtteri could feel the concern radiating off him, but he couldnāt bear it.
His body was still shaking, and he could feel Lewisās presence close behind him. Why did he follow me? He had always tried so hard and managed to hide it before, always kept this side of himself locked away. He couldnāt bear for anyone, especially Lewis, to see him like this.
"Don't," Valtteri cut him off, his voice hoarse, raw from the strain. He didnāt want Lewis to see him like this, vulnerable, broken. "Please, Lewis, just-" His body convulsed, another dry heave shaking him as more bile rose in his throat. He gagged, coughing, the sound echoing in the small restroom. His whole body ached, exhausted from fighting this battle for so long.
"Just⦠go," Valtteri croaked, his voice ragged, barely audible "please."
Launt ficlet
I love them so much and I wish I had a james in my life but oh well
Nightmares and comfort. Adjoining rooms. I miss the connecting doors
James had just managed to drift into a restless sleep when a series of blood-curdling screams pierced the silence. Startled awake, he sat up, disoriented and alarmed, strained to hear through the wall. The screams continued, raw and desperate, unmistakably coming from Nikiās room. Heart pounding, James rushed to the adjoining door and knocked urgently, his mind racing.
āNiki!ā he shouted, knocking firmly āAre you okay?ā but the only response was more anguished cries. Without hesitation, James grabbed the spare key the hotel (thankfully) had provided and unlocked the door, bursting into Nikiās room.
What he saw stopped him in his tracks. Niki was thrashing wildly on the bed, drenched in sweat, his face twisted in fear, his cries were guttural, raw, as if he were reliving some horrendous event. He was trapped in the throes of a nightmare, reliving the terror of his crash. Unsure of what to do, James hesitated before stepping forward and grabbing Nikiās shoulders, shaking him gently but firmly.
āHey hey, Nikiā James tried āwake upā he said, his voice soft but urgent. Nikiās eyes snapped open, wild and disorientated, before they landed on James, filling with recognition and relief.
āJamesā¦ā Nikiās voice was barely more than a whisper, choked with emotion.
āitās okay. Itās just a nightmare.ā James murmured, pulling Niki into a tight embrace. Niki clung to him, his body trembling, desperate for comfort. James held him close, feeling the rapid thud of Nikiās heart gradually slow against his own chest. āIāve got you nowāyour dreams canāt hurt you hereā James whispered.
For what felt like an eternity, they stayed like that, wrapped in each otherās arms, as the terror of Nikiās nightmare began to fade. James could feel the tension easing from Nikiās body, though he still held on tightly. āShh, itās alright. Youāre safe,ā James whispered, running a soothing hand through Nikiās damp hair.
Nikiās breathing began to even out, his grip loosening but not letting go entirely. Exhaustion overtook him, and he nestled closer to James, finding solace in his friendās warmth and steady presence. James could feel Nikiās body go limp as sleep reclaimed him, a soft, contented sigh escaping his lips.
James chuckled softly, the sound almost lost in the quiet of the room. āWell, this is a turn of events,ā he muttered to himself, but there was no malice in his tone, only a gentle amusement and a deep, growing affection.
Slowly adjusting his position, careful not to disturb Niki, he leaned back against the headboard.
In the quiet darkness, Jamesās thoughts began to swirl. The reality of their situation, the upcoming race, and his burgeoning feelings for Niki all fought for prominence in his mind. He couldnāt deny that his feelings for the German hat exceeded what friends felt for each other. What they should feel for each other.
The Brit cursed at himself, wanting to pull away and leave but his body wouldnāt listen. Instead he pulled Niki closer. This would be a problem future James would have to face, for now he just reveled in the warmth of Nikiās body pressed against his.
The weight of the day and the emotional encounter began to press down on him as well, and he closed his eyes, feeling the steady rise and fall of Nikiās breathing.
As dawn began to break, casting a soft light into the room, James finally succumbed to sleep.
The morning sun filtered through the curtains, casting a warm glow over the room. James stirred, feeling the weight of Niki still against him. He opened his eyes to find Niki looking up at him, a mix of surprise, embarrassment, and gratitude on his face.
āYou stayed.ā Niki whispered, clearly not planning on saying it out loud as the tips of his ears turned red with realization.
James nodded, feeling a warmth spread through him. āYeah. I wasnāt going to leave you like that.ā The Brit chuckled slightly āHope I didnāt take up too much spaceā
āJames, Iāā Niki began, but words seemed to fail him. He stammered, trying to find the right way to express his feelings but just ending up babbling incoherent sentences. āIām sorry, and thank you. Iā I didnāt mean to wake you- Iām so sorry. On a race day as well. I thought theyād stopped- I-I donāt know why I have those dreams again. Thank you for-ā
James silenced him with a gentle hand on his face, his thumb brushing lightly against Nikiās cheek. āItās okay, Niki. You donāt need to explain.ā Their eyes locked, and in that moment, all the unspoken words between them seemed to find their voice.
Without another thought, James leaned in and kissed Niki, softly and tenderly. It was a kiss filled with all the unspoken emotions, the fears, the hopes, and the unyielding bond that had formed between them. Niki, surprised at first, soon melted into the kiss, feeling the warmth and comfort that James offered.
When they finally pulled back, James smiled at Niki, his eyes sparkling with a mix of mischief and sincerity. āSee? I told you it was okay.ā
Niki nodded, still a little embarrassed but no longer feeling the need to pull away. āThank you, James,ā he whispered, his voice filled with genuine gratitude.
James just pulled him closer, ready to face whatever the dayāand their futuresāmight bring. Together.
Niki as Karl Lagerfeld and James as Jacques de Bascher.
I said what I said
āKimi doesnāt care about any-ā shut your disgusting ass mouth. And just LOOK
Friends call me Nik - 20 - German - He/Him Multi fandom but mostly F1 and Ghost bchttps://hopp.bio/phosphorus
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