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patpran x A History of My Brief Body (2020)

— a quote from Billy-Ray Belcourt's collection of personal essays.

[twt.]

We Best Love: No. 1 & 2 for Color

Zhou Shu Yi and Gao Shi De are colored-coded boys in love.

Zhou Shu Yi is a Black Brooder (protective, sophisticated, mysterious, and arrogant) and Gao Shi De is a Blue Boy (loyal, sincere, stable, and passive). *look at the big barrier between them!* Gao Shi De actually describes Zhou Shu Yi's color and personality when they are stuck in the medical office together, and he is revealing the personality of the guy he likes.

They are very good at sticking to their color

It's because they have been doing this since they were children

However, at some point, their friendship turned sour due to its competitive nature. It's one-sided, and Zhou Shu Yi begins to hate Gao Shi De since he always loses to him. However, because of this, Blue Boy Gao Shi De is always present in Zhou Shu Yi's life.

When Gao Shi De rescues Zhou Shu Yi from the pool and gives him the kiss of life, Zhou Shu Yi panics, and is, once again, surrounded by blue.

Gao Shi De notifies Zhou Shu Yi that he is indebted to Gao Shi De or else Gao Shi De will reveal to Zhou Shu Yi's friends the reason he jumped into the pool in the first place. Zhou Shu Yi is less than thrilled, but...

The blue quickly begins to appear on Zhou Shi Yi as a dark blue

And starts to lighten as they continue to hang out.

The day he falls asleep on Gao Shi De, the blue is the brightest. Zhou Shu Yo is falling slowly in love with Gao Shi De without even noticing.

When they go to the arcade, Gao Shi De is wearing green because he is confused about his relationship with Zhou Shu Yo and thinks it's a date. He will wear green again when he finally confesses to Zhou Shu Yo after Zhou Shu Yo avoids him. Also notable, everything Zhou Shu Yo has at the arcade is blue - the balloons he must pop, the color of the wheel he must throw objects in, the color of the backdrop for his water glasses, and the basket he has to get objects at of are all blue. He loses every single game.

When they are asked to go to the haunted house, they are wearing the same outfits they had on when this arrangement began, and Zhou Shu Yo believes their arrangement will end there since he thinks he will finally beat Gao Shi De. They are full circle outfits.

However, once they are in the haunted house/escape room, Zhou Shu Yo becomes scared and realizes he needs Gao Shi De. Gao Shi De intentionally locks them in the medical room without Zhou Shu Yo knowing.

And they share a beautiful night together surrounded by reds and pinks (aka love). This is also when Gao Shi De confesses to liking Zhou Shu Yo (during their discussion and when he believes he is sleeping).

Because Zhou Shu Yo actually did hear Gao Shi De's confession, he begins to avoid him. He tries to find a girlfriend and runs away from Zhou Shu Yo, until he can't. While hallucinating about Gao Shi De, a date injures Zhou Shu Yo foot, but he tries to run away from Gao Shi De, which results in him spraining his ankle. Gao Shi De takes him to the medical office, aka to the scene of the love confession.

Once again, surrounded by love, and in his "I'm overwhelmed with emotion" green, Gao Shi De lowers himself for Zhou Shu Yo before standing up and directly tells Zhou Shu Yo "Yes I like you, but that’s none of your business" after Zhou Shu Yo tells him he can't see himself with a man. Gao Shi De leaves, but Zhou Shu Yo realizes his mistake and is engulfed in Gao Shi De's blue while he looks for him around every corner.

They finally figure it out and confess on the bridge. After they start wearing couple's bracelets that carry into the second season.

They are overwhelmed with emotions in their greens (Zhou Shu Yo wore this green shirt when he jumped into the pool).

The boys also find out that their best friends are in love with each other. Shi Zhe Yu and Liu Bing Wei are so in love, that they will continue to coordinate their outfits for the rest of their relationship. AbsoluteBL did a quick write-up of how Liu Bing Wei's ties always match Shi Zhe Yu's suits.

Time for a small break between season one and two to enjoy the queerness of this show with its inclusion of rainbows and hearts:

When we catch up with the boys guys in the second season, it's been five years, and Gao Shi De is still a Blue Boy who has been living in a blue house with a blue car.

While Zhou Shu Yo is even more of a Black Brooder in his black house and black car because he HASN'T SEEN HIS BLUE BOY FOR FIVE YEARS!

But the day after he struts himself back into his Blue Boy's life and smacks the shit out of him in front of the entire office, Zhou Shu Yo sports a blue tie while Gao Shi De opts for a black suit. *They're in love!*

Much like before, Zhou Shu Yo's incorporates Gao Shi De's blue subtly. So subtle, in fact, that it's difficult to see that his shirt has a dark blue design on it.

He doesn't want Gao Shi De to know that he has missed him for the past five years, but everything in Zhou Shu Yo's life delicately admits that Zhou Shu Yo has always thought about his Blue Boy and still loves him because the only pop of color in Zhou Shu Yo's house and life is blue.

Their tension explodes the day a blue stripe appears across Zhou Shu Yo's chest. His love is figuratively on his chest but hidden under his black color.

And the next morning, all of Gao Shi De's secrets are laid bare while he lays in the bare wrapped only in the blue Zhou Shu Yo has given back to him.

With great hesitation, Zhou Shu Yo decides to give Gao Shi De one last chance after speaking to him in the blue bed while Gao Shi De wears a neutral brown. This is similar to the confession scene in the first season in the medical office, but this time, both boys are in the light meaning they're both aware and honest.

Zhou Shu Yo fully commits himself to his Blue Boy, and his friend get on board, even though they were hesitant because they had been present for Zhou Shu Yo's heartbreak over the past five years and helped him piece back together his life without Gao Shi De.

Zhou Shu Yo's dad, who is a Red Rascal and was the biggest obstacle before, plays hardball with the boys, but because of his previous major screw up, he is no place for negotiation, and aligns himself with our Blue Boy for the sake of his son's happiness.

All ends well for the men with Zhou Shu Yo and Gao Shi De in their colors already looking like future best men to Shi Zhe Yu and Liu Bing Wei in their coordinating outfits that resemble the ones they ended the first season with while Yu Zhen Xuan and Pei Shou Yi appear as stand-in officiates.

And they all lived happily ever after.

Well, except me because WE WERE TOLD THERE WOULD BE ANOTHER SEASON YET WE HAVEN'T GOTTEN IT!

This was brought to you by the same director, Ray Jiang, and screenwriter, Lin Pei Yu, of My Tooth Your Love. Now give us a third season of WBL and a second of MTYL!

@gillianthecat inspired this. I hope you enjoy it. I'm now going to go pout in a corner because we really were given hope of a third season.

quotes that i think are very trobed coded:

“You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you’ve done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you’re tired. You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you didn’t even have a name for.” - Richard Siken

“Eventually something you love is going to be taken away. And then you will fall to the floor crying. And then, however much later, it is finally happening to you: you’re falling to the floor crying thinking, “I am falling to the floor crying,” but there’s an element of the ridiculous to it — you knew it would happen and, even worse, while you’re on the floor crying you look at the place where the wall meets the floor and you realize you didn’t paint it very well.” - Richard Siken

“Someone has to leave first. This is a very old story. There is no other version of this story.” - Richard Siken

“If you love me, Henry, you don’t love me in a way I understand.” - Richard Siken

“I’ve been rereading your story. I think it’s about me in a way that might not be flattering, but that’s okay. We dream and dream of being seen as we really are and then finally someone looks at us and sees us truly and we fail to measure up. Anyway: story received, story included. You looked at me long enough to see something mysterioso under all the gruff and bluster. Thanks. Sometimes you get so close to someone you end up on the other side of them.” - Richard Siken

“You go to work the next day pretending nothing happened.

Your co-workers ask

if everything's okay and you tell them

you're just tired.

And you're trying to smile. And they're trying to smile.” - Richard Siken

“He was pointing at the moon, but I was looking at his hand.” - Richard Siken

“When does a war end? When can I say your name and have it mean only your name and not what you left behind?” - Ocean Vuong

“I miss you more than I remember you.” - Ocean Vuong

“Sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you’ve been ruined.” - Ocean Vuong

“What were you before you met me?”

“I think I was drowning.”

“And what are you now?”

“Water.” - Ocean Vuong

“You love him. The story still ends.

So please, I beg you,

he is all that I have,

and you have so many heroes,

and the world has so many more.

Let him be soft. And let him be mine.” - Pencap

“Yes, yes, yes, I do like you. I am afraid to write the stronger word.” - Virginia Woolf

“I’m always soft for you, that’s the problem. You could come knocking on my door five years from now and I would open my arms wider and say ‘come here, it’s been too long, it felt like home with you.’” - Azra T.

“Good news, I love you anyway. All the mess and fuss of you. All the stray hairs and uneven smiles. I love your laugh and your sigh and the way you sing along with the music. It’s all lovable. It feels so good to love you.” - Redinkskinned

“Tell me every terrible thing you ever did, and let me love you anyway.” - Sade Andria Zabala

“There is something wrong with you. There is something wrong with you that is also wrong with me.” - Hera Lindsay Bird

“I’m afraid of a lot of things, but mostly, most sincerely, I am afraid of being completely unraveled by you, and you finding nothing you want in there.” - L M Dorsey

“And I guess I realized at that moment that I really did love her. Because there was nothing to gain, and that didn’t matter.” - from “The Perks of Being a Wallflower” by Stephen Chbosky

“I just want you to know that you’re very special. And the only reason I’m telling you is that I don’t know if anyone else ever has.” - from “The Perks of Being a Wallflower” by Stephen Chbosky

“You are all the colors in one, at full brightness.” - from “All The Bright Places” by Jennifer Niven

“You make me lovely.” - from “All The Bright Places” by Jennifer Niven

“You know what I like about you? You’re interesting. You’re different. And I can talk to you. Don’t let that go to your head.”

“…You know what I like about you? Everything.” - from “All The Bright Places” by Jennifer Niven

“I love you.”

“It’ll pass.” - from “Fleabag” (2016-2019) by Phoebe Waller-Bridge

“I sit here on the couch, waiting.

Waiting for this to pass.

Days go by and I’m still here. Waiting.

You sit there, nothing changes.

I wait with bared teeth.

I wait.

I wait.

I wait.

I wait for you.”

“I’ll take care of you.”

“It’s rotten work.”

“Not to me. Not if it’s you.” - Anne Carson

“If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more.” - Jane Austen

Moran and chu wanning experienced hardships true but so did xue meng he was there when chu wanning died he was broken too . When moran and shi mei left he felt lonely too. In the end he was left alone all by himself and he had no control over it. In two lifetimes he saw his parents die and in the second he learned that his father was not his father and his brother was not his brother. But he still believed in them loved them .He too admired chu wanning .

When fate sentences you with solitude. When family is dead and friends have other priorities it’s something that could happen to anyone and it’s something so immensely tragic .

absence is heavier when love was greater.

kim dokja is everything. he's just some guy. he's the kindest person in the world. he's Jesus Christ. he's also Sun Wukong somehow. he's the personification of love as a force that powers reality. he died for our sins. he's a demon. he's an angel. he's suicidal. he's the more important being in the universe. he could be anyone. he's an inconceivable existence that expands along countless of world lines. he's a nerd. he's a concept. he's just some strings of text badly tied together. he's also the prince of the greek underworld. he was bullied in high school. he's an analogy for all the suffering in the world and also everything that is human and worth saving (but there's nothing in this reality that is not worth saving and everything deserves to be loved). he's a god. he's the sacrificial lamb. he's a yaoi man. he's an eldricth horror. he's ugly. he's your friend and also he's you. he's a very complicated anti-suicide metaphor. he's adorable. he's repressed and depressed. he has ptsd. he's the father of various human and non human entities and also the son of various human and non human entities. he's an office worker. he's simultaneously loved and hated by all the universe. he's a gary stu. he's bisexual. he's a murderer and also the most tragic victim of the irrepressible machine of universal suffering. he's a lover. he's a fox boy. he likes isekai novels.

“He hates me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk accepts him as a companion.

“He doesn’t care” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk waits 72 hours on the bridge.

“This is poisoned” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk offers him a meal.

“I’m stealing his story” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk decides kdj is his◼️◼️.

“He’ll get his revenge” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk keeps him safe.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk reaches out his hand.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk prevents his self-sacrificial plans.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk cradles him in an embrace.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk fights to save him.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk pierces his heart with a sword.

“I am alone” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk chases after him for 74000 years.

upstream, mary oliver; gravity and grace, simone weil; journal of a solitude, may sarton