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Look at this thing I found in a game you like (I love you) How was your day? (I love you) Hope the car ride went well (I love you) What are you doing atm? (I love you) Do you wanna call tonight? (I love you) (I love you) (I love you) (I love you
people big ableist widespread ignore people talk hard. autism schizo others. taking lots effort word way people reblog. not asking need understand read know learn us. try
nobody tries get into head learn saying what saying. discouraging!!!!! tiring. lonely. big dark room fumbling tap walls nobody there keep tapping!!!!! tap tap tap nobody listens wants to TRIES understand
just asking stop ignore. pretend not exist please. not pay attention lots always schizo autism violence hurt trauma. this perpetuates
listen when talk even if not understand. try please
please reblog
Fuck pity from non-disabled people, unless it's my teachers and they end up giving me much better marks because I am the bravest student they've ever met
To say my experiences with Physical Therapy so far are mixed… Would be an understatement.
I ended up talking about and being reminded of some pretty fucked up things that happened to me as a kid a lot over the weekend while camping w my partner and their family, which is not helping me stay ✨in the moment✨ lol
I am Tired and Sick and Sore, and I know I don't deserve this, but I know I have to get through it anyway. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, but it is a pinprick in my vision, and the tunnel is long and dark and full of anxiety and pain. On the other side are vast expanses of concrete, highrise buildings, and crowds where no one knows my name or recognises me but those I love dearly. And I am free.
It's okay to not be able to hold a conversation outside of a very select few people
It's okay to not be able to hold a conversation at all
Ever or just for now
You are not hard to love or difficult because of you mental, physical illness or disability. It is not your fault and others should provide kindness and support in any way they are able.
You deserve love and you will be loved. Your illness does not define you, or make you any less of a person. Never allow anyone to make you feel otherwise 💖
Hate the Fury at myself and my body every time I have to rehabilitate a joint or muscle that went into spasm and refused to work the way I need it to
My body doesn't even recognise that moving a joint is an option, which is so fucking annoying when it's your wrist or something locked in 💅 position, and then it unlocks and it's literally just gravity or spasm based movement for the next god knows how long
Wishing the people who remove benches in public spaces a very die
something that might be hard to grasp is that. physically disabled people can do everything "right", follow all the recommended programs from doctors and medical practitioners and lose weight and do this exercise and that diet and this and that and they still can stay disabled. they still can get worse.
and it's imperative to understand that. doing things this way can be soul crushing. it's difficult, if not impossible for some people. and many people will not be able to do things "right" and will stay disabled or get worse. some people might, accidentally or on purpose, make their disability worse themselves. and those people don't deserve to be disabled any more than people who you think doesn't.
we cannot, cannot assign a moral value to disability. disability isn't a punishment for doing right or wrong. it is not a judgement. there is no moral value associated with being disabled.
people you find wonderful will be disabled. people who you think suck will be physically disabled. people who had no pre-existing condition, who did everything "right" and were healthy before will be disabled. people who had absolutely no means to change their lifestyle, because of poverty or location or some systematic issue, will be disabled. and people will be disabled as a direct result of their choices.
none of that, absolutely none of it, is an indication of whether that person "deserves" to be disabled or not. none of it is a reflection of their moral character. disability is simply a neutral fact of life.
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A Collection of Haikus on Dysautonomia
There is not enough Water in the entire world to hydrate my veins
The light leaves my eyes Ears roar, legs quiver, head spins Help me! I’m falling
I’m so god damn cold Pass me that woolen blanket Just kidding I’m hot
Thoughts every morning? “Give me gatorade and salt” “Heart can you just not”
Ow ow ow ow ow Fuck the people who said there would be no pain
BP and HR You are pissy little shits Just work together
Digestive system? Circulation? Brain function? What even is that? Everything my Body does on its own is Basically fucked.
"I miss you"
Is it okay if I send those randomly btw? If you need me to stop I can, it's just easier to say than "I wish you were here because I feel so so lonely and I just want someone to hold me while I fall apart, or to help me walk through to the kitchen to grab my salt, or to play video games so I can watch and pretend like I know what's happening on the screen, or to tell me that it's okay to cry over nothing" without sounding like that's all you mean to me
“You asked me how I was doing and I wanted to spill out all of my pain to you. I wanted to say, I’m really not doing well at all, I hardly sleep, and The smallest things make me cry because I’m balanced right on the edge But all I said was I’m okay and the sad thing was that you believed me.”
— (via wteverrr)
ur allowed to be sad/angry/scared/frustrated/bitter/etc about your physical disability btw. About not being able to do stuff u once could. About pain, fatigue, brain fog, other symptoms getting worse. About the loss.
U dont have to be an inspiration or be Tough about it all the time or even ever. Ur allowed to feel what u feel. Don't have to buy into "blessing in disguise" narrative. Don't have to go "well I'm not me without it" if thats not ur reality/experience. It's allowed to just suck and ur allowed to not want it and wish you didn't have it and wish there was a cure. Ur allowed to hate it and ur allowed to feel trapped in ur body.
You don't have to shut those feelings away and deny they exist just bc it's not how you "should be feeling".
[This is about physical disabilities specifically. If it resonates w/ u about a non physical disability that's great but please don't derail. Thank you 💛]
"Are you on drugs?" Clawing fingers pulling at my eyelids, just checking. "I'm serious, are you on drugs?"
I wish.
happy new year finally sherlock holmes and dracula can legally fuck and no one can do anything about it
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tw// suicidal(?) thoughts mention
God okay I just need to say this somewhere
My love (r <3) continues to save my life every time with no hesitation
The number of times I have had to call them and say "hey, I'm very likely to do something idiotic rn" and their response is "do you need to call?"
I was on the other side of the fence yesterday, looking down, and thinking "it's not that high, I'll survive it" and they literally brought me back from the edge by talking about their game and encouraging me to do something I enjoy instead (by giving examples and ideas because all I wanted to do was step off that ledge and see what would happen)
I love this person with my entire body, mind, and soul, and I am so grateful to have them in my life.
TW// dream suicide attempt
I think it definitely says something about my mental state that my first impulse(s) when I realised I was dreaming last night was to a) have sex with almost every person in my dream and then b) jump off the balcony of my hotel to "see what it felt like" 🙃
the stomach-churning, gut-twisting feeling when someone is upset with you and you don't know why but everything feels all wrong and you can't breathe
I’m going to make a life for myself, a home full of pets and plants, everything I love. I deserve to have the future I want.
Okay fuck it if this post reaches 666k notes by the end of 2023 I'll practise basic self care
Why 666k? Because it's funny and impossible so good fucking luck
Good fucking luck op
Okay fuck it if this post reaches 666k notes by the end of 2023 I'll practise basic self care
Why 666k? Because it's funny and impossible so good fucking luck
Okay fuck it if this post reaches 666k notes by the end of 2023 I'll practise basic self care
Why 666k? Because it's funny and impossible so good fucking luck
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